(rant)
hi. so it’s been two..three..years, i think? holy shit. the person who’s reading this probably has no idea who i am, and thats fine, i just need to let this out.
tbh i’ve just suddenly remembered this account after procrastinating on my assignment by rewatching every sanders sides video after not engaging with the media for since i left.
ok jk i think about this account every day, i also think about my deleted instagram account that i deactivated after reaching an art block everyday. (it seemed like a good idea at a time, but now i’m devastated, i was literally at my peak at the time, and thomas himself had been following me, but oh well) lesson learned: i’m never giving into art block ever again.
but as for the reason for my art block… it was this. i don’t even remember anything anymore from that era but i did remember having an inconsistent schedule and using all the energy i had when i had it, which is INSANE —because i was only fourteen. the upside had been my skills increasing a drastic amount, but i literally couldn’t bring myself to post anything anymore and my motivation for drawing was practically non existent. (FOR TWO YEARS)
obviously there were many factors that added to my art block, but i guess this had been the main one. what’s ironic is that the thing that morivated me to start posting again was finding my old fanart from this account (i popped off ngl, almost got emotional) i may not have gotten a shit ton of following or interactions, but just seeing the amount of creativity and passion i had made my month. (and I needed this, so much)
this post is kind of a mess… i’m honestly just typing what’s on my mind right now. i just really missed this account. and i’ve started a new one on ig: @kozuwinx for anyone who wants to support me there, i would really appreciate it.
i dont know if i’ll start becoming active on this account, i’m getting pretty busy with school now too, and i don’t want another replay of burnout…still, i’m so grateful for everyone who supported me here, even if those who did probably don’t remember me now. (and i won’t blame them tbh.)
i just wanted to say thank you i guess, and share this story to anyone who might be struggling with the same thing. i don’t know how to end this but this is it. love ya all ✌🏼
here’s a quick doodle of virgil i did by memory (even drew it with my fingers for ++ nostalgia factor) i may not follow this series anymore, but i will always be grateful to it and i’ll still support thomas in what he does <3


























