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hi. so it’s been two..three..years, i think? holy shit. the person who’s reading this probably has no idea who i am, and thats fine, i just need to let this out.

tbh i’ve just suddenly remembered this account after procrastinating on my assignment by rewatching every sanders sides video after not engaging with the media for since i left.

ok jk i think about this account every day, i also think about my deleted instagram account that i deactivated after reaching an art block everyday. (it seemed like a good idea at a time, but now i’m devastated, i was literally at my peak at the time, and thomas himself had been following me, but oh well) lesson learned: i’m never giving into art block ever again.

but as for the reason for my art block… it was this. i don’t even remember anything anymore from that era but i did remember having an inconsistent schedule and using all the energy i had when i had it, which is INSANE —because i was only fourteen. the upside had been my skills increasing a drastic amount, but i literally couldn’t bring myself to post anything anymore and my motivation for drawing was practically non existent. (FOR TWO YEARS)

obviously there were many factors that added to my art block, but i guess this had been the main one. what’s ironic is that the thing that morivated me to start posting again was finding my old fanart from this account (i popped off ngl, almost got emotional) i may not have gotten a shit ton of following or interactions, but just seeing the amount of creativity and passion i had made my month. (and I needed this, so much)

this post is kind of a mess… i’m honestly just typing what’s on my mind right now. i just really missed this account. and i’ve started a new one on ig: @kozuwinx for anyone who wants to support me there, i would really appreciate it.

i dont know if i’ll start becoming active on this account, i’m getting pretty busy with school now too, and i don’t want another replay of burnout…still, i’m so grateful for everyone who supported me here, even if those who did probably don’t remember me now. (and i won’t blame them tbh.)

i just wanted to say thank you i guess, and share this story to anyone who might be struggling with the same thing. i don’t know how to end this but this is it. love ya all ✌🏼

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here’s a quick doodle of virgil i did by memory (even drew it with my fingers for ++ nostalgia factor) i may not follow this series anymore, but i will always be grateful to it and i’ll still support thomas in what he does <3

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hi. so it’s been two..three..years, i think? holy shit. the person who’s reading this probably has no idea who i am, and thats fine, i just need to let this out.

tbh i’ve just suddenly remembered this account after procrastinating on my assignment by rewatching every sanders sides video after not engaging with the media for since i left.

ok jk i think about this account every day, i also think about my deleted instagram account that i deactivated after reaching an art block everyday. (it seemed like a good idea at a time, but now i’m devastated, i was literally at my peak at the time, and thomas himself had been following me, but oh well) lesson learned: i’m never giving into art block ever again.

but as for the reason for my art block… it was this. i don’t even remember anything anymore from that era but i did remember having an inconsistent schedule and using all the energy i had when i had it, which is INSANE —because i was only fourteen. the upside had been my skills increasing a drastic amount, but i literally couldn’t bring myself to post anything anymore and my motivation for drawing was practically non existent. (FOR TWO YEARS)

obviously there were many factors that added to my art block, but i guess this had been the main one. what’s ironic is that the thing that morivated me to start posting again was finding my old fanart from this account (i popped off ngl, almost got emotional) i may not have gotten a shit ton of following or interactions, but just seeing the amount of creativity and passion i had made my month. (and I needed this, so much)

this post is kind of a mess… i’m honestly just typing what’s on my mind right now. i just really missed this account. and i’ve started a new one on ig: @kozuwinx for anyone who wants to support me there, i would really appreciate it.

i dont know if i’ll start becoming active on this account, i’m getting pretty busy with school now too, and i don’t want another replay of burnout…still, i’m so grateful for everyone who supported me here, even if those who did probably don’t remember me now. (and i won’t blame them tbh.)

i just wanted to say thank you i guess, and share this story to anyone who might be struggling with the same thing. i don’t know how to end this but this is it. love ya all ✌🏼

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hiya im back :D deleted my social media for a while since it was affecting my mental health but i'm kinda better now. i feel like an ass for disappearing almost a month with no explanation .. i'm really sorry about that. i'll try posting more soon :)

[ruinsmami]

2020 is almost over and all I gotta say is what the fuck was that

[landsword]

are you one of those fuckin time travelers

[despite-2020-its-still-you-deac]

date of origin of op’s post: october 4th, 2018

[daughter-of-hades1218-deactivat]

[neon-ryan-moved-deactivated2018]

@ people who don't celebrate christmas and are currently having christmas shoved down their throats

i hope whatever holiday you celebrate is fun and well!! and if you don’t celebrate any holidays this time of year, i hope your day is nice anyways!

[mysieee]

Happy Holidays y'all!✨

[sandersfanders-abandoned]

Logan when Remus says anything

[leyova]

haha memes go brrrrr

[bat--country-deactivated2026032]

guys where are you

[babysizedfics]

content warning: discussing fandom discourse about virgils characterisation

listen i rlly do get why ppl dont like uwu baby fanon virgil but im begging people to stop talking abt it as if it's immoral and wrong to interpret the character that way, because it kills me a little every time and i know for a fact it hurts others too

we are all just broken little things in this honest to gosh wasteland of a world trying to find a morsel of happiness to keep us going, and if that's interpreting a fictional character in a way that brings us comfort then so be it

it is not wrong, it is not somehow offensive - this is a fictional character we're talking about remember

guys, having personal preferences as wel as stating them is okay of COURSE it is - you can hate uwu baby virgil to your hearts content idc you can be open about it if u so wish too - but my problem is when people believe they somehow have the moral highground for hating it and act as if the people who DO find comfort in it are commiting a cardinal sin

this interpretation literally hurts nobody

"virgil canonically doesn't like being babied" -> okay, this is headcanon though, we know where to draw the line.

"you're disrespecting his boundaries" -> HE'S NOT REAL you cannot upset a fictional character because they are not in this plane of existence

"anxiety isn't like that" -> lemme tel you something. my anxiety IS like that. my anxiety makes me cry and tremble when i meet new people and it makes me sensitive and it makes me stutter and it makes me blush and it makes me typically uwu baby. you don't have a monopoly over ALL anxiety, you understand your own and no one elses. don't make generalised assumptions please

and that's why it bothers me. i project onto virgil i basically make him ME and its all because i need comfort in the form of fictional worlds and that's okay. but then people talk about how that specific interpretation is UNREALISTIC and OFFENSIVE and DUMB and it hurts because that is someone's comfort and someone's projection that you're calling those mean words. it is not just me who does this i know that basically everyone in fandom projects onto their fav characters so before you tear down someones interpretation, consider you might be unknowingly attacking THEIR personality

basically: not everything is a sociopolitical statement. if someone wants to draw virgil blushing it doesnt mean they think anxiety makes you weak. if someone writes about virgil sobbing and being comforted by his friends that doesnt mean they think he is purely innocent in canon.

let people project onto characters and if you don't like it then DON'T INTERACT it's that simple!

[enigmaticpink]

People on this site be like "uwu don't hate on autistic people, just hate on people who are weird or have intense interests or who can't tell a joke or who can't understand social norms or who talk to much or to little or-"

[lost-amidst-the-stars]

Reblog if this sight on your blog makes you smile and you would like your followers to talk to you more. 

[oheyfox]

(❁´◡`❁)

[obeymestudentcouncil]

I’m always willing to talk to others, just really bad at initiating conversation.

[emieee]

loveeee it

[cramenjoyer]

nothing more humiliating and dehumanizing than checking tags on mobile. clicking thru every single reblog like a dog begging for scraps.

[asexyfaeriefate]

[lycan23uwu]

Prinxiety cuddles

[aubeezz]

Mer chrim

[shapa-likes-art]

I am craving some tooth-rotting prinxiety fluff atm-

[levbug]

. // tw police brutality, death, guns, and shooting //

for those who aren’t aware, yesterday there was a shooting in paniqui, tarlac. a mother, sonya gregorio (52), and her son, frank anthony gregorio (25) were both shot in the head TWICE because they lit up fireworks in their area, and a police officer, jonel nuezca, got mad. jonel nuezca was off-duty and police officers aren’t allowed to bring their guns around when not on duty. it’s also been said that there were some previous altercations regarding right of way and the issue resurfaced during the confrontation. this man killed two people due to a personal vendetta. 

there were many witnesses around, one of them being nuezca’s daughter, who was about 12 (i can’t find any news articles disclosing her age). his daughter just stood and watched as they argued, even going as far to say “my father is a police man!” to which sonya replied, “i don’t care!” sonya’s last statement angered nuezca brought the gun to her head and said “putangina, gusto mo tapusin kita ha?” (trans: “son of a bitch, do you want me to finish you?”) he then shot her and her son point blank, shooting the son twice and then shooting sonya once more after she had already hit the ground.

this all happened yesterday afternoon, sunday, december 20th, 2020, at 5:00 pm. jonel nuezca has since then turned himself and his pistol in to the police.

authorities have been claiming this shooting as an isolated case, when in fact, there have been many headlines regarding police officers shooting civilians. 

videos of the shooting have been going viral on social media. i’ve seen the video for myself, and it’s messed up how you can see that nuezca barely even FLINCHES when he brings his gun up to sonya’s head. and the fact that he did that when his daughter was right beside him and there were so many witnesses is even more messed up. it’s reported that he said “mission accomplished,” to his daughter after he shot them.

now, if nuezca could shoot these people in broad daylight with witnesses and in front of his own daughter, imagine what he could’ve done at night, with no one around. imagine all the deaths that have been unrecorded because there was no one around.

i know other people will be able to say more and say it better, because i really still can’t wrap my head around this. most people say he shot them because they were lighting fireworks, but clearly he shot them because he knew he could abuse his power. he knew he could do it because police and military officers often get praised by the president for doing things like this. 

i honestly can’t say much of my own opinions at the moment because i’m still in a state of shock, but i just wanted to post this on here because i want people to be aware of this. so many countries have been suffering because of police brutality, and it’s so unfortunate that these kind of instances often get shooed under the rug because people want to continue living in their picture perfect world where people don’t get killed and people don’t abuse their power. it’s heartbreaking to see this people die at the hands of these so-called authoritative figures.

i’m not saying what the gregorios did was right. if i’m not wrong, it’s illegal to light fireworks in your barangay/district without authority (but i could be wrong so please don’t quote me on that). still, nuezca shouldn’t have shot them. 

what happened is absolutely sickening, and it could still be happening right now as i’m typing this. somewhere out there another person is being punished by an authoritative figure for doing essentially nothing. i just hope that more light would be shed onto these kind of cases, and not shooed under the rug two days after it happened. 

may the souls of sonya gregorio and frank anthony gregorio rest in peace, and condolences to their family.

#StopTheKillings #StopPoliceBrutality

(sources: gma network, attract tour)