sionnach 🦊

he/she

[warmfigure]

i am massively overdue for a very very good week where not a single bad thing happens and everything is easy

[unlettered-heathen]

reblog to give prev a very good week where not a single bad thing happens and everything is easy

[baffledandbewildered]

[DISMP] Has god abandoned the server?

what god?

What It Looks Like To Us and the Words We Use, Ada Limón // Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out, Richard Siken // “The War of Vaslav Nijinsky”, Frank Bidart // Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out // AND WHAT GOOD WILL YOUR VANITY BE WHEN THE RAPTURE COMES, Hanif Willis-Abdurraqib

[kamariaki]

i miss you

📝◼️📞 | In death, surrounded by remnants of the past, there is nothing left to do other than reflect.

Season 1 was better. Not for you, but others.

You had been weak, and docile, and helpless. Reliant, yet useful.

Those around you liked that. Wanted that for you. Liked you as that.

The only moment you had total agency was at the very beginning of the season.

You should miss it.

Season 2 was better. For you.

You had everything you ever wanted and more. Power, agency, independence.

You know it must be difficult to stomach, such a dramatic change.

It's so inconvenient when you step out of line.

You disappointed a lot of people, you know.

Voting ended onJun 14

[boccher]

‭

fix the past

build the future

Voting ended onApr 17

[unyieldingsilence]

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[arceoptryx]

[dismp] what does repentance mean to you?

fun cycles to get trapped in with your friends top 10 list

[lifestealzine]

HEART OF THE OUROBOROS - COMPLETE!

We are thrilled to announce that we have raised a total of $4548 USD, which we are splitting between PCRF and SAPA!

Thank you to our fellow mods, contributors, and everyone who has been with us along the way to make this happen!

[arceoptryx]

[dismp] what does the server need? what do you need?

its a precarious balance between kindness and cruelty. neither can take the place of the other; but if done right may exist in the same place.

[tojad-lisi]

[dismp] what would you do with only one week to live?

just have fun with friends ^w^ well, i'd wish a specific person was there with me, but uhmmmm they're kinda gone now haha >_>"

[vacillantvoid]

dismp: are you having fun?

less people to have fun with now. there's ghosts in my damn base.

but if there's nothing for them here, who am i to judge? i haven't been around enough to have a voice in that conversation. i will stick around. there's still people to bother, stuff to help out with. there's definitely murder on the to-do.

...

wait blue and mari never built rooms. nevermind @bluethesquirrel @kamariaki come back hereee

[paddysol]

what the people dont tell you is that writing is scary and evil anyways i wrote smth for dismp...

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[oneformercy]

I hate to be the killjoy feminist but the gender ratios on the Lifesteal World announcements are really something huh.

[oneformercy]

squiddo saying on stream that she was trying to get more women into the event and that they were turned down primarily because they weren't considered active enough which is like. Self fulfilling prophecy here, if these girls aren't getting invited to projects, what are they expected to be posting? Which Squiddo also directly acknowledged while talking about it, so I don't say this as criticism of her, but it's an unfortunate example of how misogyny compounds and is reinforced when people don't interrogate the circumstances that female streamers and youtubers are dealing with and make judgements of them without considering why their output might be the way it is. Really frustrating to hear :/

[oneformercy]

And it's not even a good thing for the server, like inviting a bunch of people that have other shit going on isn't going to lend itself to an active and committed member because those people have other priorities. That's been a problem with existing members for the past few seasons, I think you'll get way more out of taking a chance on someone who's had a slow few months because of a lack of projects because they have more to commit to the server. I know this is an event and not actual full season adds, but I think the point still stands. If you want to look at activity in this event as a test-run for potential new adds, you're shooting yourself in the foot. But that's just my opinion!

[lowkeywaffling]

not gonna make a pride month tweet.. you guys know how i feel about it

[treecitysessions]

Text I got from my guy friend who’s currently dating a man for the first time when I asked him how it’s going

[treecitysessions]

I heavily fw bro

[arceoptryx]

i miss you

i miss you too, ill be waiting here if you need me

[arceoptryx]

[dismp] i think ur very endearing please change

“DO YOU EVEN LOOK AT ME”

You tried what everyone told you to. You inserted yourself, played along. Didn’t leave out of fear when you know you should have. You’re rewarded for it with an axe to the skull and the shattering of a mask you hadn’t even worn for an hour. What else could you have expected? You deserved it. It takes you an hour to pull yourself out of the ground, another 30 to feel confident enough to return to your base, and another 20 to realize the hole that had been blown in the front. Fortunately, you were already crying so you wouldn’t give them the satisfaction of being the one to break you. The words remind you of yourself. Of someone who can never have enough. You reach out, you apologize where appropriate, you invite yourself along, and you try to make it work. But you can’t give more than you have. You don’t even know what they want from you. They would never tell you in words you could understand. And you think for a second that this will be like any other time. You two would fight, say horrible things about each other, clear things up, and the next week forget it ever happened. You could try and justify yourself. Say there's more to it. That everything is not how it looks. The void in your soul is shallower then theirs, so be the bigger person and make it up.

And then you realize just how often it happens. And you realize that before Blue even read the signs in the thorn that it had started the conversation with the intent to an asshole to you over the destruction. Not because it was destructive. But because it wasn’t destructive in the right way for their taste. So why should you try to appeal to someone who always seemed like they went in with the intention to take your words in the worst way possible. You had written those signs for them. They were the one who demanded more drama about it. And they never intended to read you in good faith.  So why did you care?

You never wanted to be a good person. You wanted people to see you as you actually are. Not their ideal of you. Not the you that you could have been to them. The you to some that was only valuable to them as their lover. The you to some that was only cherished by some when you were on their side. The you to them that could execute any plan. The you to them who gave everything you had for the world. You, who had always weighed yourself as greater than the needs of an entire world. You, who was the world to only one. So it never mattered what your objective was, it never mattered what you had to say, it never mattered your reasoning. What mattered was that it was uncontrollably, un-changeably You.

The better version of you that lives in their heads, that causes such disappointment when compared to you must be a beautiful woman. You understand why so many people think you would be prettier shattered into pieces on the ground.

“I LOVED YOU. I STILL DO. BUT GOD DO I NOT WANT YOU ANYWHERE NEAR ME”

So you cried about it the night it happened. And when the sun rose the next morning you resolved yourself to only care about the opinions of people who can stand to love you as you are.

[subwaybug]

More people should get into poly shipping. Both because polyamory is awesome and because it's really fun to make complicated ass diagrams

[radio-zephyr]

favorite princezam trait is how she has never managed to leave season 3