My heart literally hurts. It sucks so bad when you feel yourself slipping into self neglect and destructive habits. You’re fully aware you haven’t eaten in 28 hours, your stomach hurts but it’s already bad enough it will hurt to eat and you have no desire to anyway. You’re exhausted but even laying in bed trying to sleep your so fucked up your mind is numb and can’t operate your body correctly. Everyone tells you to take care of yourself so you can take care of the people you love. But you start to waste away and push harder to take care of them, you burn out so fast you can’t make a meal for yourself or get up for a drink but you’ll jump up at the slightest noise of discomfort from your child. Sometimes it feels worse to have something to push for than it does to have nothing. Because now you have no choices.









