girling my blog

[vivonhigh]

Hi I'm Ivory

I'm 17

Into DnP, MCR, FOB, Paramore, Taylor Swift, twenty one pilots

My Instagram is the same user, where I post my art :)

I really just use this to say whatever and don't expect anyone to listen, follow if u wanna listen to my whining and occasional poetry

[vivonhigh]

I can’t help but ask questions. I’m always curious. I want answers. Need them. I will go on my whole life trying to find them all. I can say the same thing about love. I know I’ve written about it before, I know the songs I listen to are about it, and I know my friends are sick of me bringing it up.

But I can’t help it. It’s the human experience. It’s my desire as a social creature. To be loved is a blanket statement, to categorize it all into one word, when not everybody wants romance. I am not one of those people, and they are not me.

We all want to be seen though. To be heard. To be remembered. For others to recognize us, have our names in their heads, notice our behaviors, personalities. To be accepted, and wanted. It’s what has kept the human race alive all these years.

I don’t know what I’m saying anymore. I can’t create this innate craving for romance into something beautiful. I cannot write words that take this disease and turn it into a dozen roses. This longing for a lover, for teenage love, for somebody to see me and want me and dream of me. It is killing me inside. My life is getting better by the day slowly, and I am improving. But I can’t take it. A lover, a partner, a girlfriend, a boyfriend. I just want somebody. It’s all I ask for. And it isn’t much. Everyone else has one, why can’t I?

[siriuscybernetics]

"the way he's holding that slime. it's so beautiful!" dan howell 2008 🤝 phil mii 2026

[vivonhigh]

I got a pocket got a pocket full of sunshine 😝

First time drawing Dan and I’m in love with drawing his hair. I love to draw hair especially curly hair so this is soooo much fun

I hate that this guy manages to have such gorge curls after straightening it for YEARS and admitting to having no routine. Boy.

[diphowell]

loved dan's smile and nod when phil said "the long hair really ruined my rizz" about when he was in university.

[ari-adne-111]

The face of a man who bagged The Guy

[vivonhigh]

Dan and Phil, two men who are as old as my parents, are making me emotional because when they met they were too scared to be a couple in public and they were closeted all their lives and Phil took his boyfriend on a family vacation and I’m not okay right now guys

True love for gays exists and they’re proof of it

[phealinthealps]

Happy April phools 🥳🦭❤️🐷

[vivonhigh]

She doesn’t even go here

[n04hhh-222]

‘Don’t cry, craft’ as a statement is too real like I’m ignoring everything with 4 paintings, 2 drawings and a sewing project on the go

[vivonhigh]

My ex emailed me wanting to me friends I guess GIRL IDGAF ABOUT YOU

[rainyydoves]

i beat myself up for not knowing enough about my special interests a lot but then i remember the average person off the street has no idea what the carboniferous is and i feel better

[rainyydoves]

are you really bad at it or are you in "good at it" spaces

[bigbigtruck]

"are you really bad at it or are you in 'good at it' spaces" has derailed so much self-hate since I read it

this is a load bearing sentence in my psyche and I can't believe it's only 2 months old

[vivonhigh]

Finished junior year today and I rewarded myself by drawing Phyuri (I have never drawn phanart before this who proud)

[hearts4amazingphil]

Happy Birthday to this image

[reunitedinterlude]

yin and yang

[dyingsnail]

gay people can never say i love you normally, its always gonna be some bullshit about how they're mirrors shown by the first letter of their names and therefore should be next to each other on the alphabet

[vivonhigh]

He can never do anything normal with his hands huh

[vivonhigh]

“Don’t meme my fist” TOO LATE

[elis-corner]

so i was fucking around putting random things into the mcr website url and

this didn't happen to any other url i tried, plus the website icon was different (the tab to the left is the homepage)

i wonder what this is about...

EDIT: also [base url]/403