The bully I fell in love with - Choi Yeonjun
TW: mention of self harm? Bullying, physical harassment, yelling, curse words, Yeonjun degrades Y/n a lot... Yeonjun is an all around ass, fluffy ending, lots of angst!
Choi Yeonjun, you'd expect him to be the bad boy, or the fuck boy, or anything other than the schools smartest kid.
He's got the looks, the brains, and the charms. He can basically get anyone to do anything for him. And at one point, he had me in the palm of his hand. It only lasted a month until he did turn into a fuckboy... let's just say after things broke off with Yeonjun he also kind of bullied me for a year straight after that... with all of his friends.. it's been a year since that though, so, I guess it doesn't matter.
'Please I'm desperate, I really really want to graduate I know it didn't look like that last year but I'll do anything to bring my grades up! Seriously anything!' I begged my counselor. I was desperate to pass my final year of highschool, I wanted to because I realized the benefits of an education, plus college seems like fun.
'Alright Y/n, why don't we start off with finding you a tutor, the school can provide you with one or you can find one on your own, either way it'll cost some money, but with the school it should be significantly cheaper.'
'School! I'll look for one with the school, please give me your best tutor... please.'
My counselor smiled at me, I really don't know why but she did, I smiled back.
'Okay well the good thing is I already notified him and he's on his way right now!'
Fuck. Fuck! Fuck!!! Was all I could think while HE walked through the God damn door.
'You asked to see me?' He asked the counselor. He looked straight at her, then at me... I immediately looked away.
'Yes! Yeonjun sit down please.' She gestured to the seat next to me. God I hate this.
'What's going on?' He asked concerned.
'Well Y/n here needs a tutor. In fact she needs our BEST tutor in order to help her pass this year... she's desperate to do so.' She whispered that last part out. I made a face in reaction to her not so subtle diss towards me.
'And you are one of our best, if there's anyone who can help her out of this mess it's you.'
'Is that so?' Yeonjun asked with a smirk, looking straight at me while I tried my best to look away.
I sat down in the library waiting for Yeonjun to show up. Fuck this is the actual worst thing ever. Like EVER. Seriously?! Why did I have to be tutored by someone who humiliated me daily a year ago... someone set me up... Or the universe just hates me.
'Hey.' He said softly, sitting down next to me with a few textbooks. I didn't say anything back I just looked at the textbooks.
Okay look I was never a bad student, I'd actually do pretty decent if I wasn't so behind right now, and the only reason I was behind was cause of the torment and trauma I was put through by Yeonjun.
I was still getting over all of it, I was still trying to get back on my feet. It's kind of hard whenever your told how ugly, stupid, and useless you are daily for such a long time. You end up believing it for a while. Needless to say, Choi Yeonjun really fucked me up...
'Hello?! Earth to Y/n? Did you do the homework?' He asked me as I snapped out of my thoughts.
'You were assigned homework today in physics... don't tell me you didn't do it.'
'It's been an hour since school ended can you relax?' I shot back. Clearly irritated with him.
'Whatever just take it out so I can help your dumbass with it.'
I scoffed at his comment and took it out. I decided to bite my tongue and not say anything back, in fear things will just get worse if I do.
It was the third week of tutoring with Yeonjun. It was normal, my grades were better and he hadn't done anything out of the ordinary happened, but he definitely degraded me every single time I got a question wrong.
Today I had an exam and I needed Yeonjuns help right before, like I really needed it.. I ran to the commons, I knew he was there with all of his friends and I asked him for help.
'Who are you?' Yeonjun asked with a smirk. The boys behind him started laughing as well.
'Seriously Yeonjun... don't do this right now I actually need help..' I quietly said.
'I don't know who you are,,, why would I help you? Fucking weirdo.'
I rolled my eyes and sighed.
'Great so im just gonna fail todays exam cause you won't help me. So much for being the schools best tutor you're just an asshole.' I shot back, walking away and before I knew it he grabbed my wrist forcing me to look at him.
'Don't you dare speak to me like that again, understood?' He whispered angrily through gritted teeth, his grip on me becoming much stronger, and much worse.
'Yeonjun let go you're hurting me!' I whispered trying to get out of his grip.
'Apologize.' He said. I stared at him for a moment, the tension between us getting stronger.
He pulled me forward, making sure we were now chest to chest.
'You're going to fucking regret saying that.' He whispered, his grip got tighter, now I'm sure there was going to be a horrible red mark left on my hand.
I couldn't take the pain he was inflicting upon me.
'Fine! I'm sorry.' I whispered out as a tear fell.
He finally let go and I pushed him away from me, running as quick as I could. A few tears rolled down my face as I checked on my wrist.
Yup. Just as I assumed. Bruised.
Once I got my test results back I felt sick. Of course, I failed.
Yeonjun made me show him the result and all he did was sigh and say 'Y/n... you are such a disappointment, do you seriously need me every time you take a stupid fucking test? Are you so dumb that you can't do it on your own?'
'Can you stop?' I asked him.
'No! Get it through your head! I don't want to always be here!'
'And I don't want you to always be here either! You've made my life a living hell for God knows how long and I don't even know why! I get that I'm an easy target but can you please just cut me a break?! I'm in this mess because of you!'
'How are your bad grades my fault?' He asked crossing his arms in front of his chest furrowing his eyebrows.
'Hello did you just fucking forget the bullying you put me through a year ago? You didn't stop until senior year started Yeonjun! It affected my studies like crazy for fucks sake I became so depressed I almost-' I stopped my self from saying too much. He didn't need to know all of the details.
'What Y/n? You almost what?' He mocked, trying to get it out of me.
'Nothing just... leave it alone, and please just be my tutor, help me when I need help with my studies, please.' I begged him, trying to shift the conversation.
He sighed and nodded his head giving me a small 'whatever.'
It had been 2 months since Yeonjun started tutoring me and nothing bad happened since that last incident. He didn't bring up any of the stuff he did to me last year, and kind of kept his cool while tutoring me, he does kind of degrade me but there's not much I can do about it, besides I don't really give a shit since he's actually somewhat helpful.
As I sat in my chair and talked to my beloved boyfriend Theo, of six months I noticed something. He was being so dry..
Why are you being so dry? Did I do something?
That's not very convincing...
Okay... text me when you're feeling better I guess.
I sighed and put my phone down. What the hell is going on with him?
We have a studying session @ 7. Do not be late.
I rolled my eyes and went onto Instagram, and I noticed Theo posted something.
My eyes widened as I saw him laughing and smiling with another girl... he was holding her hand, kissing her cheek, making her laugh... all as if he wasn't my boyfriend two seconds ago? It was just posted on top of that. I felt my stomach fucking turn, my eyes became glossy, I noticed he posted another story and that's when my heart shattered.
He posted a video of her 'accidentally' kissing him and he just.. went for it. I wanted to throw up. My throat became dry, tears were dripping out of my eyes at this point... what the hell. Why is some sick cruel and twisted joke being played on me right now? This is exactly how I felt when I was being bullied by Yeonjun.
I couldn't help the little whimpers and cried that escaped my lips. My world of six months was cheated on me and my chest started to physically hurt.
'Y/n?' I heard someone say from behind me. I quickly wiped all of my tears away and turned around.
'When did you get here?' Yeonjun asked me.
'Ok good, take out your test review for algebra, i need to check it, your test is on Monday.'
I nodded my head and took it out. I handed it to Yeonjun and stared into space as he started to check it.
He made a bunch of faces here and there and that just added onto the shitty way I was feeling.
'Y/n what the hell? I taught you all of this shit a day ago! Why couldn't you get these simple fucking questions right? Are you that damn stupid? Seriously why is it not fucking clicking?' He started to degrade me once again. This was too humiliating. My eyes became glossy as I just sat there and took it, even though I couldn't.
'Are you gonna fucking answer me or just sit there and cry like a damn baby?'
I didn't say anything, I just let the tears fall.
'Y/n fucking answer me! Are you seriously so fucking stupid you cant even talk now?'
'STOP!' I screamed out loud, standing up slamming my fist on the table, making heads turn.
'Just fucking STOP Yeonjun! I cant fucking take this shit right now! Seriously what did I even DO TO YOU that's making you treat me this HORRIBLY?'
'You existed.' He said back with zero emotion. I looked at him with pure pain and suffering in my eyes.
This. This was my breaking point. I snatched the review out of his hand and picked my bag up, taking my things and exiting out of the library. As soon as I reached the steps I thanked God no one was out here. I just broke down, crying my eyes out, sobbing horribly loud.
Why is this my life? My bully is my fucking tutor, I was practically failing senior year, my boyfriend is cheating on me and flaunting about it on social media.. I mean can it get ANY WORSE?
I guess I spoke to soon because it just had to start fucking pouring, and my dad wouldn't be able to pick me up for another hour.
The universe really does hate me.
I continued to cry on the steps, eyes closed shut as my chest was still infused with pain and heartbreak.
Maybe I am too dumb. Maybe I deserve to be cheated on. Maybe I deserve to be bullied... maybe I just don't deserve happiness.
With in a moment I felt the rain stop, and I looked up, someone had put an umbrella over my head. I quickly turned around to see Yeonjun.
'What are you doing?' I asked him softly.
'I'm sorry.' I heard, or at least I think I heard it. The next thing I knew I was in his car, and he was taking me home.
Before I could exit he grabbed my arm.
'Y/n... really I'm sorry.'
'It's fine.' I whispered and left.
The next day I walked the halls of school with zero emotion upon my face. I was walking to my next lunch period until a bunch of screaming voices caught my ear.
'WHY THE HELL DID YOU DO THAT TO Y/N?! HUH YOU FUCKING PUSSY WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO HER!!' I heard coming from one of the hallways. Quickly I ran toward the noise. A group of people surrounded Yeonjun and my now- ex boyfriend.
'Why the hell do you suddenly care about Y/n huh? Weren't you the one who BULLIED her for a year straight!' Theo yelled as Yeonjun held him up by his collar against the locker. Yeonjun looked at him with growing anger and pain in his eyes. He genuinely looked like he was about to kill Theo. With in a moment they both noticed I was standing right there.
'Hey baby.' He said getting out of Yeonjuns grip and tried walking up to me.
I quickly pushed him back.
'Don't touch me.' I quietly said.
'Baby... come on..' he said and cupped my face but his touch felt disgusting to me.
'Don't touch me Theo!' I cried and pushed his touch off of me.
'Y/n..' he softly coo'd as I tried to walk off, he grabbed my hand.
'Theo let go!' His grip became tighter. I could feel all eyes on us.
'Y/n.' He said sternly. As if I was some little girl who needed to listen to him.
'Theo I'm serious let go!' Tears started to fall as his grip tightened and I let out a cry.
'S-stop you're hurting me!'
Before I knew it Theo was thrown onto the ground and Yeonjun was on top of him, throwing punches to Theo's face left and right.
'She. Said. Don't. Fucking. Touch. Her!!' He screamed in between punches. With another second Yeonjuns friends pulled him off Theo so that way he wouldn't end up killing him. I became a crying mess as it was all so overwhelming.
My vision was blurred from my tears but I could feel someone come up to me and wrap their arms around me, pulling me into their embrace. I wrapped my own arms around them as I cried into their chest.
'You're ok now I promise.' I heard Yeonjuns voice whisper and he left a small kiss on my forehead.
It had been a good hour since the incident and I was now home, with Yeonjun who had a cut up hand...
We were in my bathroom, trying to treat his wounds from all of the punches he attacked Theo with.
I gently used an alcohol wipe to clean his wounds. I could feel his hand tense but he didn't make a single noise. I gently blew on it to try and see if that would get rid of the burning sensation I'm sure he was experiencing in this moment.
'I'm sorry.' I whispered softly, trying to break the silent tension.
'What do you have to be sorry for?' Yeonjun quietly asked.
'That's not your fault, Beautiful .'
My eyes widened at the Nick name. Beautiful? That's what he's calling me now? He started smirking because of the way I was staring at him.
'If you like the view so much you should take a picture it'll last longer.' He teased with a smile.
I stopped staring as my cheeks started to heat up.
I went back to working on his hands and I applied the wound cream as well as the bandages, just for the gashes that looked like they needed them...
'Are you okay?' I asked him not looking away from his hands.
'I'm fine, even better since you patched me up.'
I was caught so off guard... where was this sudden kindness coming from?
'Yeonjun why are you being so nice?' I asked quietly.
'I.. I just realized I put you through a lot of stuff that you didn't deserve, I don't know why I did that stuff to you on top of that, I guess it was cause I have had a crush on you for so long and I didn't know how to show my affection towards you other than by... hurting you.'
Where did the sudden confession come from?
'What? You have a crush on me?' I asked him as he stared down at his hands.
I looked at Yeonjun face. He looked ashamed, humiliated. A look i thought I'd never see on him of all people.
'Yes.. Y/n I've always had a crush on you. Ever since freshman year when I would see you confidentially walk those halls, and then sophomore year I didn't know how to act after you tried to become my friend, that instead of doing that I just ended up becoming your bully and I- it was so evil of me. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I didn't know how to control my feelings. Please forgive me Y/n, please. I'll never hurt you again. Ever.'
'Please.' He choked out, he was starting to cry. I pulled him into a hug as he cried against my shoulder and wrapped his wounded hands around back. I let mine softly stroke his dark head of hair.
'I forgive you.' I whispered.
I could feel him pull me closer and tighter in response as he cried against my shoulder. His soft whimpers soon became the only sound in the room as I tried to comfort him.
'Thank you.' He whispered back.