dei,

misfit, never fit in.

[vvsminhyung]

©VVSMINHYUNG.2021

i.  𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬.

ii.  𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬.

iii.  𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬. (soon)

iv.  𝐦𝐭𝐥𝐬. (soon)

v. 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐫. (apocalyptic au)

vi. more upcoming series. (soon)

[vvsminhyung]

iii. 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐘, 𝟖:𝟒𝟗𝐏𝐌

Kwon Y/N.

That's your name. Bleached blonde, doe eyes, pointed nose, and a tall figurine. Your name is Y/N, and your surname Kwon was papered by the Zhong's. A new identity after you were kept up in their household at the age of barely six years old.

You are the woman who swore something to your life.

Something related to risking everything for this one person who took care of you, and something about keeping him alive for as long as you live. Anything, at all cost. In order to repay his kindness and everything he has done for, you willingly dedicated yourself for his safety priorities.

This guy you were talking about is Zhong Chenle.

The only successor of the Zhong Prime Enterprises, and the boy who befriends you despite your unfamiliarity and one year gap. You saw something in him in your darkest times; light, happiness and hope. Eventually even shining brighter as he grow older before your eyes. He was more than joyful than ever as he aged, and you were glad to witness how he was totally living out his best life out there. It was the nice sight you would like to see for how long as it takes; keep it and treasure it. But it's not like it can exactly happen the way you want it, right? Everything has an end, and yours’ just started this afternoon.

"We are in your debt."

It certainly is. If it weren't for Chenle’s orders, these guys would have been seriously dead right now. There was no way in hell you would help them. Not the eight times scope that detected the living dead out there, nor the rifle that you held that time. People may call you selfish, but Chenle's being is the only thing that matters to you.

I can't just help strangers. Particularly, those who came from the infected city.

"Not really," 

Your eyes drifted to Chenle.

"Whether the situation outside has gone crazy or not, you're still a trespasser in my eyes. Is that right, Y/N?”

"Indeed."

They looked at you.

"Donghyuck has broken down the basic lock after the attempt attack."

The boy's eyes widen as he looked at the people in front of him, "S-Sorry."

Chenle frowned. "It’s not alright, but whatever. Not like you can do anything about it.” he gestured his younger friend to the second floor. "Jisung, show them the maids chamber. They can sleep there."

Few minutes after that, Jaemin finally got his chance to rest in his designated room with his friends. His body dip in the closest bed next to him as he sighed in exhilaration. All of this is wearing him out. For a teenager who isn’t a fan of doing lots of things, he sure did the whole opposite today. It was tiring. He just wanted to lay in this bed forever, and wished all of this is nothing but a dream. 

“She’s fixing the gate.”

Renjun stated, referring to your presence at the humungous metal gate. Your body was located outside the property, bravely fixing the mess they caused. You were changing the lock. Instead of a simple padlock, you added a proximity sensor to detect presence before the gate. This was used before, but you are changing it now in case it had broken down. The sensor did not detect those guys presence, so you assumed it was already too old. That way, you are alert anytime a presence has managed to stumble upon the Zhong’s Property. 

“This house is too modern to be built in a middle of a forest.”

“We have our reasons.”

Jeno blinked when the door pushed open to reveal the same boy from earlier. The one who helped them by the gate with his younger friend. His face looks nonchalant, as he motioned them outside. “Dinner’s ready. Go down after you settled here.”

Their eyes watch his figure walk away. Somehow, at some point, they felt a mysterious aura out from him.

It was chilling.

to be continued. ( 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝟐, 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝟒. )

[vvsminhyung]

ii. 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐘, 𝟓:𝟒𝟖𝐏𝐌

"Found you!"

Later that afternoon, Jisung shrieks when his friend, Chenle points out the water gun at him beneath his figure just near the trees in Chenle's backyard. Soaking his face all over at his dumbfounded expression. Chenle laughs hysterically and acts like a total champ for defeating his friend. "You're so bad at this."

Jisung rolls his eyes, and wipes the bits of water away with the collar of his white shirt, soaking it. Currently, the two were at the back of Chenle's property and was killing some time before dinner. Playing tags, water guns, or something to kid around before Chenle's one and only female bodyguard calls them out to head inside.

"Another round?"

"Pass."

Chenle giggles and wraps his arm around Jisung's shoulder, "Oh come on!"

Jisung merely scoffs at that, "Shut up."

"I'm telling you to Y/N."

"Not like I care."

Chenle mocks his words for a second, but suddenly drops the water gun he was barely holding on his right hand. Jisung notices that, and got a bit afraid that maybe he has caused his friend to be upset. At that, he questioned him what's wrong, but all he has gotten was no response. Jisung looks at him, confused as to why he suddenly grew silent.

"I'm hearing something," Jisung mutters a huh, and asks what is it. "By the front gate."

Jisung hastily follows Chenle who suddenly ran towards the direction of the front gate. His stance is in a hurry and seems to be panicky. Eventually for after so many steps, the both of them reaches the wide space of Chenle's property. The wide and expanded bermuda grass spread against the ground, and the stone cold footsteps leads them to the huge spiky gates protecting the whole Zhong's Manor.

"S-Someone's trying to break in." Jisung states in realization when he spots a teenager by the car window trying to pick Chenle's black gate over the basic lock.

Chenle loses no time by contacting you, his female bodyguard, with his earpiece. Something he had kept all the time in case a thing happens to him.

"Shit, they're coming." One of the voices yelp coming from inside the car.

And apparently, they weren't talking about Chenle and Jisung who had come to face them just a few inches away.

Instead, he was facing the other side of their direction.

The forest.

How did they even found out this place?

"Holy shit, I thought we lost track of them?" Another one says.

They were all anxious, and haven't even realize the two clueless youngsters watching them go crazy because of a freaking lock. Chenle could help them right here, right now, but these guys are practically strangers to him. He doesn't know them, unknown faces and identity, and who knows what's their hidden intention to coming in the Zhong's Manor.

"This is literally trespassing," Chenle scoffs, and tilts his head to the teenager who stopped moving for a second. "What the hell do you think you're doing?"

"Fuck. There's a human!"

What? Chenle watches the guy by the driver seat looks at him. He has a terrified expression that blew puzzlement out of Chenle's mind. What is it now? What are they after to?

"Please help us - there were these three guys chasing after us in the forest, please. We're begging you." The boy who was lock picking begged, tears almost brimming out of his eyes. Chenle glances at Jisung who also looks at them in concern, but also in state of doubt.

"How many you say?"

"Three - like those guys. Fuck, you can't see them but they were running after our car earlier."

"Alright, give me a second." Chenle holds his earpiece tightly and mutters some words, his eyes were still in the same state of doubt like Jisung for these guys they were inspecting. "There's some suspicious guys out here, Y/N. Please take care of them."

"What - no wait! We're not suspicious here!"

"I told you, we shouldn't trust them. And now they're going to kill us!"

Chenle furrows his brows, about to retaliate something how he wasn't talking about them when he heard faint growls and screeches. Particularly screeches against a window car that was coming from the other side, the direction of the forest.

"Fuck Jaemin, get away from there!"

"Shit!"

Donghyuck's eyes grew widen when he spots the living dead who has now caught up with them. He almost drops down the bobby pin he was holding, when it smothers the window Jaemin was in. There were exactly three. The same three citizens who ran after them for after so many miles of speeding up in the forest, and yet they were still here. Standing on the ground and still living the hell out of their life, trying to eat them. Donghyuck was so damn scared.

"Holy shit, they really had come here."

Jisung unconsciously gasps loudly.

Donghyuck looks at him. Surprise, and a bit suspicious in his mind that this young boy seems to know something they were in. But today isn't the time to bother his suspicions. He was in depth to save his life and his friends's life. He begged the young boy once again behind the tinted window he has now close. Mouthing words to save their life or something to get off the living dead away from them.

Chenle sighs, and says something under his breath. Then for a second, Donghyuck swore he almost saw something coming out at their way. At their direction. Something pointy comes out from the opened window of what he suspects probably the fourth floor of the Manor. It was color red, and it goes straight into something. Not in their car, nor any of their lives.

"Shit."

Jaemin, who was stilled on his seat, watches the zombie hogging over his window drop down lifelessly on the ground. Blood splattered all over the window from the sudden shot on the skull. His eyes lingers to the other one. To Renjun's side who has two of it. One by one, bullets comes straight into their skulls, until blood covers the whole tinted window they have.

He didn't even realize the air he was holding until he heard a knock by their window. Snapping them back to reality.

"I'm still fucking suspicious how you guys got here, but yeah come in."

to be continued. (  𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝟏, 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝟑. )

[vvsminhyung]

i. 𝐃-𝐃𝐀𝐘, 𝟒:𝟏𝟖𝐏𝐌

Today's weather is shitty.

Dry air, and tremendous heat to start his afternoon. Jaemin has come to a conclusion that maybe he shouldn't have agreed to this after all. That maybe he should have just stay in their dorm, and not let Donghyuck drag him outside his bedroom just to go out and get a fucking grocery shopping.

"Come on man, you're the cook here. I don't know shit about kitchen." Jaemin heavily drags out a huff, and skips forward. Not even bothering to respond to his friend who is dragging the cart.

"Whatever," Jaemin looks at the notes on his phone and checks the foods that was already in the cart. "Just dial Jeno already so we can get home as soon as possible."

"Fine."

Eyes looking out for fresh dairies, Jaemin continues to carry out his responsibility as the only normal cook out of his senior friends. They were four - actually five, but the other one has gone to the other side of the building because he was pretty much older than them. Just one year apart and all, but college priorities weren't exactly the time to kid around, especially if you are friends with a bunch of stupid seniors.

"Renjun's coming with him."

Jaemin nods, and proceeds to carefully placed the snacks he seems to befit on their tastes. Going on around and around for another stall, he stops at a certain cooler filled with buckets of ice creams. An imaginary drool coming out of Donghyuck's masked face.

Jaemin shakes his head and takes one out.

"Make it two."

He sighs, and well, gets two. They have loads of money after all, food was easy to obtain with rich parents.

"Actually, let's get it five. I don't want to share it with anyone."

Jaemin raises a brow. "It's just the four of us stupid."

"Shut up. I get the extra one, of course."

"Fine, but you pay me back."

"Whatever."

Rolling the wheels around, Donghyuck tails off behind Jaemin's back steps by steps like a child following their mother around. He was about to bother Jaemin with another plead of chocolate by the stall when his phone suddenly rings in his pocket. A call from Jeno. Telling him that he's at the parking lot now with Renjun. Donghyuck says it out loud unconsciously for Jaemin to hear, when he felt himself eerily get no response from the said boy.

"Where the hell - ?"

"What, why?" Jeno asks from the other side.

"Jaemin's off to somewhere without telling me, probably forgotten something but whatever. I'll just wait him here."

And it was true, Jaemin has sure forgotten something. Coffee in the morning. He smiles in satisfaction and grabs one, about to head back towards his friend Donghyuck by the counter until he heard a commotion by his side. A little far away from him, but enough for his ears and sight to ring the alarm that maybe something's happening out there by the side of the stall. He was curious, of course who wouldn't be? Especially when all of their expressions had written the word panic on it, and a seemingly skilled woman has been giving a CPR to this kid laying on the floor. Spasming his body out weirdly.

Jaemin felt guilty, but it's not like he can do something about that moment. He's a future lawyer, not a medical student. And besides, the woman already looks professional and skilled, something that could help the poor boy out. Surely, they had already called an ambulance out for him now, right? There's no need for him too, right?

"But yeah, fuck it. Let's call them again." Jaemin smashes off the digit on his dial app, and tries contacting the ambulance. Strangely enough, they weren't answering. Another call, then the third call, then the fourth. They were still not on line. Jaemin wondered if all hospitals was damn busy today for them not to take his calls.

About to make his fifth call, Jaemin almost drops his phone down when an ear-piercing scream perceives his earbuds. The woman. The one who was giving the CPR, screams - almost so painfully and in agony. Jaemin had almost lose his shit at the sight, but one thing he knows is that something's not playing right. Something's definitely off, and it was that kid laying on the ground.

He is now standing, visible black veins spread throughout his body and eyes that almost falls off its pockets. Blood rushing through them and undefined expression. Though, what terrifies Jaemin the most is that how his small baby teeth keeps sinking down the woman's flesh. Particularly, her nose. Ripping it off, then proceeding to the neck part. It didn't even help that she was stunned on her knees, and the kid has taken the advantage of towering his figure above her's.

Jaemin doesn't totally understand what the fuck just happened right now, but all he knows is that he should run off and get Donghyuck, and their groceries. Trudge to Jeno and get the fuck out of this mad place.

"The fuck took you so long - Hey, wait!" Jaemin doesn't hesitate to take over the cart in his own matter. Glaring at Donghyuck, then facing him.

"Just trust me on this, alright. You know I'm never the type to do this thing."

Donghyuck wasn't a slow-poked. He was a quick-witted learner who had a tiny hint of what Jaemin is on about. He heard a faint scream earlier, something that definitely tells him that maybe Jaemin had clearly heard it off well earlier while he was stalling around. Resulting to his behavior right now.

"Alright, whatever that is, I trust you. No need to fret Jaemin, let's go."

Dashing off without paying the matters on their hand, they had reach the parking lot with exhausted gasps and catching their breaths. Jaemin on the other hand, wastes no time and fill Jeno's trunk with their groceries. Throwing all the stocks flat on the space, and almost toppling the ice creams all over the place. But Jaemin doesn't care. It wasn't the time for that.

"Goodness, what the fuck happened to you two?"

Renjun says the moment the two entered in.

Jaemin ignores him, and eyes Jeno. "Drive now, Jeno. Whatever you do, please do not stop."

"What, why?"

"Just trust him man, I think there were bad guys at the market." Donghyuck sighs, and looks at Jaemin for assurance. His eyes are asking if his hunch is correct. It was the bad guys, right? What of it, if it's not? It was the only reason he could think of, especially of the woman's scream.

"I-I don't know.." Jaemin gulps, and this was their first time seeing his figure so afraid and hooded. Jaemin, normally on a daily basis, is a calm and laid back teenager, not really someone who's extrovert and outgoing. Sure, he goes on and on with his tantrums and complains, but it was because of his stupid friends. That was his common traits, not someone who was easily scared. Donghyuck wonder what's up. He should know, he was with him earlier. He was about to ask him once again, when something came out of his peripheral vision, some ruckus and outstanding screams from the main road.

All four gasps at the sight.

"Jeno, n-now." Jaemin whispers, enough words to snap them back to reality. His voice trembles, remembering what happened earlier with the kid and the woman now that he has seen another one by the street. This time, it was a three person ganging up one citizen down the floor. All biting the poor old man and taking his skin like it was some sort of food.

"T-That's fucking crazy! We should help him!"

"Fuck no, we shouldn't. Goddamnit!"

Jaemin's fast reflexes had halted the boy just in time before his foot could fully step out of the car, his side of door left hanging open due to his persistence of stopping him. Jaemin gawks slightly, and immediately hurries to close it, proceeding to lock all doors on Jeno's side by the driver seat so no one can't get out that easily.

Though by the process of that, may have cause a difficult situation for them.

The door got slammed a bit louder than Jaemin expected, out of panic and definitely not even bothering to think that maybe the three inhuman citizens had heard them. His eyes widen in realization, and he furiously turns around to face Jeno who seems to got everything without telling him to drive the fuck out and just go. Jeno grips the wheel tighter and full speed out of the lot. He may have his eyes set on the direction of the road, but he couldn't also help but notice the destruction that cause the city. It was a mess. People had gone screaming and running around places, streetlights that gone tilted due to cars who have bump them, and multiple car crash by the road. Smoke has erupted out of it, and Jeno, being a man who had driven the longest out of them, has managed to dodge it somehow without creating a collision with the other vehicles.

"Why the fuck are they chasing us?" Renjun pertains to the three other persons running after them.

Donghyuck scoffs, turning to look at Jaemin. "What the fuck is wrong with you? We could have save the man right there, you asshole."

"There's no way in hell we could have save him, Donghyuck."

"What?"

"They're eating the fuck out of him, how are we supposed to save one at that?" Jaemin's tone rises, and the atmosphere of the car grew colder than the air conditioner itself. Donghyuck remains blank and glares at Jaemin, he is finding something. Something that can tell him that maybe this younger is pulling a joke on him, and the eating part is a huge prank to keep him quiet. If that's it, then Jaemin is good. He managed to keep him quiet, but not too long. Because first and foremost, Jeno had almost bump a person crossing the road rather slowly.

"Fuck."

Jaemin hiss at the sudden halt and glances at the direction of his North, looking at the reason why they stop. Once again, it was a person spasming the fuck out of his body. But this one is standing. A man. Probably the age of thirties. Jaemin's eyes widen when its eyes turns to look at them. There goes again the weird expression he witness earlier, as if they were uncomfortable and malfunctioning at the same time.

"What the actual fuck is that." Renjun utters, breaking the silence between them.

Jeno, an intellectual at this moment, doesn't care about the man and ran him all over the places. Not feeling a sense of any guilt when he felt a thud underneath his car. Bumping tons of bodies from god knows what creatures are them right now.

"This is fucking stupid." Donghyuck curse out, just getting the hint of what's happening. It was no doubt that the living dead is something that had been a famous category for thriller and horror in movies all over the years, but still, in Donghyuck's perspective, it was a bit too much. He honestly can't believe it was seriously happening to them right now.

"That's it, we're driving away here. Jeno, get this car out of the main city." Jaemin orders, and no one could even retaliate at that. They agree, none of it matters at the moment other than their safety.

Just out of the Seoul, and drive away from here.

to be continued. ( 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝟐. )

[vvsminhyung]

-  𝐍𝐂𝐓 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌 𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄'𝐒 𝐓𝐀𝐊𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐆-𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐍 ;

-  𝐍𝐂𝐓 𝐀𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐊𝐀𝐊𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐄 ;

[vvsminhyung]

𝐍𝐂𝐓 𝐀𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐊𝐀𝐊𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐄 ;

; NCT U. transferee niyong famous agad sa first day.

shotaro. cutie pie. 1/2 soft boi, 1/2 hardcore tiktoker. sa kanyang mo natutunan mag renegade. laging tambay sa sulok ng classroom. yung cellphone nakasandal sa bintana tapos tiktok app open. minsan na siyang na-confiscate dahil kitang-kita sa cctv yung pagsayaw niya. “ba’t sina jeno at jisung hindi nac-confiscate?”

sungchan. junior star ng soccer team with his yuta senpai. ugaling hindi matalino, pero at least madiskarte. “it’s better to cheat than to repeat.” wise words from him. akala mo based from experience. supposed to be nice boy, pero hindi mo na alam ngayon. napabarkada bigla kay chenle e’. masamang impluwensiya ‘yon.

; NCT 127. seniors w/ bad bitch energy.

taeil. kaklase mong late pa rin kahit malapit lang bahay. suki sa guidance office. got his tardiness slip. chill lang sa klase kahit bungi-bungi na yung card. “peram ballpen.” tapos mamaya, wala na. hindi uso review dito. stock knowledge lang, sapat na.

johnny. 1/3 of the foreign swaggers squad. fashion icon. puro pa-pogi, wala naman binatbat sa recitation. “your style is so baduy.” he says while giving you his judgy eyes. madami nagpapa-picture dito. famous sa instagram, over 1k followers. medyo snob, pero keri naman.

taeyong. doesn’t have the bad bitch energy, but friends with a lot of them. class president. yung mga kaibigan niya, sipsip sa kanya. always with him to make sure hindi nakalista sa noisy. “guys, respeto naman.” ang lagi niyang sinasabi tuwing nagw-walk out yung teacher niyo.

yuta. laging wala dahil sa kanyang division meet. star player niyo sa soccer team. senior yuta, with his junior sungchan. minsan lang dumalo ng klase, pero mataas pa rin ang score. “baka yuta ‘to.” mayabang. tapos laging may dalang soccer ball sa room. minsan na rin siyang nakabasag ng bintana, pero hindi naman pwedeng makick-out at star player nga.

doyoung. literal na bad bitch. attitude. maldita. dinaig ka pa sa katarayan. always with his circle, kahit pagwatak-watakin mo pa yung upuan nila. “penge pulbo.” halos isaksak mo sa baga niya yung johnson’s baby powder mo. manghihingi na nga lang ng pulbo, iirapan ka pa. tama ba ‘yon? 

jaehyun. 2/3 of the foreign swaggers squad. competitive man sa physical education. tamang kalmado lang habang nagkakagulo ang mga kaklase niya. unbothered king. always flexes his new shoes. “it’s the latest air jordan.” hindi nasunod sa uniform regulations. may sariling pormahan.

jungwoo. funny guy. “feeling ko napapanot na sa atin si ser.” minsan sabog, kadalasan wala lang sa wisyo. ginagaya yung accent ng teacher mo. research sa isang window, y8 sa kabilang window. tropa sila ni alt+tab tuwing nasa library kayo. the type of person kapag may nahuling kababalaghan, “uy, ano yan. pornhub?”

; NCT DREAM. boys at the back type of classmate.

mark. 3/3 of foreign swaggers squad. local boy. “support local mga pare.” laging may dalang gitara, tapos jamming sila ng barkada nila sa likod tuwing free time. skusta clee ang kantahan nan. siya ang gitarista, samatalang taga-kanta naman si haechan. yung infamous intro ng mundo by IVOS ang lagi nilang pinapatugtog. 

renjun. isa sa mga matitino, pero kasama sa mga boys at the back. “renjun, pakopya.” ang kadalasan niyang naririnig, pero syempre hindi 'yan napayag. madamot ‘yan magbigay ng sagot e’. leader niyo na laging taga-buhat sa project. kapag may assignment, gawa na agad sa oras ng vacant. 

jeno. cod at ml boi. kaya nasa likod ng klase ‘yan, kasi laging nagc-cellphone. “hoy, yung mid natin putang ina.” mapapamura na lang minsan sa kabobohan ni jisung. matapang ‘yan, hindi tago ang cellphone sa bag. he’s actually an honor student, gamer lang talaga.

haechan. pabibo. dakilang buraot. laging nalapit sa’yo para humingi ng five pesos. “pengeng five.” pangbayad niya daw kasi sa class fund. tambay rin ‘yan sa likuran, taga-bato ng crumpled paper tuwing klase niyo. slight bully. tinataguan ka ng gamit minsan. ibabalik niya lang kapag nakita ka nang pa-iyak. “iyak ka na nan?”

jaemin. that one quiet kid at the back. gwapo ‘yan, escort ng klase. minsan mo ng nakalandian, pero hanggang doon lang. madaming girls ang naghahabol. minsan maharot, kadalasan bobo. airhead. lutang. nalipad ang utak tuwing klase. minsan na siyang nakantahan ni mark ng momay. “lumilipad na naman ang isip mo.”

chenle. rich kid. maingay, walang preno bunganga. “tangina niyo, nandito na si ma’am.” taga-announce ni taeyong ng walang pasok. medyo topakin, pero nanlilibre. future abm student, magaling sa negosyo. may sariling thrift shop account sa instagram, suki ay sina johnny at jaehyun. siya din ang galante na nanlilibre ng cake tuwing teacher’s day. “suhol po ‘to ma’am, baka naman.”

jisung. laging si papel. “penge one whole.” “penge 1/4.” “may 1/2 ka?” “y/n, index card daw.” oo na, source ka nan. katabi mo kasi, kaya lagi kang nakikita na kumuha ng papel sa bag. in exchange, hinahatian ka naman niya ng pagkain tuwing klase. “oh, piattos.” 

; WAYV. seniors na isip-bata.

kun. secretary niyong napaka-organize. cleaners almost everyday kasama si taeyong dahil hindi naman naglilinis yung iba. “di ka titigil?” badtrip kay chenle dahil ginagawang basketball-an yung basurahan. “for three!” chenle shoot a crumpled paper na tumama sa ulo ni kun. “tangina mong bata ka.”

ten. bffs with johnny. artistic. matalino. pala-sagot sa recit. siya yung tipong tambay sa kabilang classroom habang nakikipaglandian tuwing vacant. nagc-cellphone sa klase. patago syempre. laging naka-open instagram. “oh, sinong may gusto ng saging?” ibibigay sa’yo kapag may libre siya mula sa canteen.

winwin. kaklase mong either tulog or tambay sa chalkboard. “si winwin, nagddrawing ng dick oh!” “tanga ka, rabbit ‘yan.” aksaya sa chalk. minsan pang-drawing, kadalasan pamato sa ulo ng mga kaklase. pinapagpag lagi kung saan-saan yung eraser. siya ang dahilan kung bakit laging magabok ang classroom niyo. hindi naman naglilinis. “bakit ganan ka magdrawing ng rabbit, hyung?”

lucas. kaklase mong tambay sa pintuan. watchout niyo. laging may inaabangan sa corridor. “bukas ang canteen?” abangers kung may meeting ang mga teachers. “taeyong, cr lang ako.” pero ang totoo, nasa canteen na siya at doon na naghahasik ng kanyang pagka-patay gutom.

xiaojun. class treasurer niyo. “hoy mga puta, bayad-bayad ng class fund.” kahit siya mismo, hindi pa nagbabayad. laging naiiwan tuwing clearance dahil hindi pipirmahan yung kanya hangga’t hindi pa bayad ang buong klase. “tang ina mo lucas, utang mo mula june pa.” 

hendery. kaklase mong mala-supervisor ang asta. laging nakatayo, hindi makapirmi. akala mo proctor. tuwing seatwork siya madalas naggala-gala sa room, tamang observe lang sa mga sagot ng kanyang kaklase. “paano mo ginawa ‘to?” pero ang totoo, hindi naman talaga siya nakikinig sa explanation mo. pangdistract lang kumbaga.

yangyang. expert sa pagddoktor ng pirma tuwing clearance. “ser, anong hindi kumpleto? eto oh’ may pirma na kayo.” nakakatakot ‘yan pag lumalapit. akala mo laging may masabang balak dahil sa kanyang gilagid. “’ge lang, y/n. tulog ka lang, akong bahala sa’yo.” never trust his words. paggising mo, makikita mo na lang na nakatali yung bag mo sa bag ni jisung. “punyeta ka, yangyang.”

[vvsminhyung]

𝐍𝐂𝐓 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌 𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄'𝐒 𝐓𝐀𝐊𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐆-𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐍 ;

mark. taga-kopya tuwing umaga. hingi ng sagot kay jeno dahil siya lang naman ang nagpapakopya sa klase nila. the rest, either madamot o walang sagot. kopya ng essay, pero baguhin natin ng konti sa ibang part. “oh, eto notebook ni jeno. tapos na ako.”

renjun. hindi matalino, pero masipag. matic may gawa. would be the first one to volunteer kapag walang gustong sumagot. competitive over top one. hindi nagpapakopya. madamot sa sagot. “sharing is caring, my ass.” laging sinasabihan si haechan na ‘sipsip’ o ‘teachers’ pet’.

jeno. hindi matalino, pero may sagot. tamang tanong lang din sa messenger. “paano mo ginawa yung number five?” nagpapakopya ‘yan. sharing is caring. walang pake kung nasaang banda na nakakarating yung notebook niya. basta pagbalik niya, nasa desk na niya. 

haechan. top one. taga-remind kay teacher na may assignment. “ma’am, yung assignment po kahapon hindi pa nach-checkan.” laging si volunteer. tama si renjun. medyo sipsip, pero lowkey. “bente muna bago ko kayo pakopyahin.” ginagamit ang katalinuhan sa pera. negosyante ‘yan, matic sa abm ang patak.

jaemin. assignment, no need. “ha, may assignment?” matic walang sagot. hindi na ‘yan kumokopya, aksaya daw sa ballpen. “assignment san?” tamang tanong lang, pero hindi ‘yan magsasagot. proud to have a zero on his notebook. tambay din sa labas tuwing namimihasa na. jeno, the seatmate, to the rescue kapag natawag.

chenle. laging may sagot, pero hindi sariling gawa. “easy lang ‘to.” says that and gives the homework to his tutor. sarap-buhay. perfect score, minsan may mali pero ayos lang. basta may sagot. halos lahat ata ng homework niya thanks to his tutor. 

jisung. confident sa sagot, pero bagsak mamaya. always forgets to put squared on his answer. “wait, dapat may squared ‘yon?” math kalaban niya. the rest ng subject, ayos naman. mayabang kapag nakakatama ng sagot sa board. “basic shit.” 

[vvsminhyung]

𝟓:𝟓𝟔, 𝐉𝐄𝐍𝐎 ; “pero, ‘di ibig sabihin non ika’y nalimutan.”

You suspect it. Your boyfriend, LEE JENO, cheating behind your back, but you don’t have a proof on that. At least, not yet. Pinagsususpetyahan mo siya dahil sa kanyang kadalasang pag-alis ng bahay, at pag-unti ng oras para sa’yo. It wasn’t like this before, you guys started off great and got each other’s time. Kahit pa parehas kayong busy for college, you guys really paid each other attention that you both wanted, - needed. Maiintindihan mo sana kung may pasabi siya o pahabilin e’, kaso wala.

He’s really just out there wandering on his own, while you sat in front of the television in boredom.

This one was really one of those times na mapapa-isip ka na lang kung nangangaliwa ba talaga si Jeno o praning ka lang. Syempre, jowa mo ‘yon, pero hindi ibig sabihin non lagi kang bantay-sarado sa kanya. You give him the freedom to hang-out with his crew outside without interrogating him so much. Simpleng kamusta lang ng lakad, that’s all. Bahala na si Jeno kung magkkwento ba siya sa mga nangyari o tamang i-sarili na lamang niya. It’s not his obligation to report to you everything that is happening to his life.

JO. wru?

You frowned. That chat was eight hours ago, pero hindi man lang siya nags-seen kahit naka-online. Chinat mo na siya sa lahat ng kanyang social account. Messenger, Insta, Twitter, Discord, and even Twitch. Pero wala pa ring reply or even seen. You really started contemplating if you should risen your suspicions to him. Mahirap na. Baka mamaya namba-babae na pala ‘to, tapos ikaw, pa-chill chill lang sa apartment niyo. E’di nagmukha ka lang katawa-tawa? Sumimangot ka, at umalis sa lungaan mo. 

Out to find that man.

There are two places in your mind na gusto mong puntahan. First of all, sa computer shop na lagi niyang tinatambayan kasama ang kanyang barkada, at pangalawa sa lahat ng shop dito ng milktea-han, dahil ayun ang popular na dating spot ngayon ng mga teenagers sa DREAM Blvd. First place was by far the longest road, kaya habang naglalakad-lakad ka sa side road, pinagmamasdan mo na din yung mga open windows na nadadaanan mo sa mga milktea-han. So far, so good. No blonde spotted. You would like to think na nap-praning ka lang at overprotective pagdating sa jowa mo, but that suddenly change when your eyes landed on someone’s head. That person’s got the same exact shade of Jeno’s hair color. 

Confused, and afraid. You slowly approached that person. He’s sitting on a table for two, which made you almost halt in your place. 

“Bahala na,” You said, heading inside.

Matapang mong kinulbit yung taong pinas-suspetyahan mo, all thoughts really directed at Jeno, to the point na hindi sumagi sa isipan mo na baka ibang tao naman ito at nakaka-abala ka lang.

“Do I know you?”

And that was your cue. Pahiya ka doon. Sobra.

You mentally facepalm yourself, and uttered sorry.

Grabe, sana kainin ka na lang ng lupa ngayon.

You left the shop, when your phone suddenly beeped. You open it, only to see a notification from Discord.

WA. comp shop jo, y?

You whined in frustration. 

Freaking Jeno really out there making you look stupid.

After that, you went to the only computer shop in your boulevard.

You gatecrash their Summoner’s Rift game at kinaladkad pauwi yung jowa mo. You rant, and rant, and rant. Like a lot. Starting from the top of how you suspected him on having a side fling, up to the bottom when you mistaken him for someone else. Sa halip na mayamot at magalit sa ingay ng bunganga mo, Jeno just stared at you, listening and looking like a lost puppy. He’s digesting everything you’re saying to him. Today, your mouth has no filter, and it surprises him. In your five years of relationship, lagi ka lang kalmado at mahinahon. Pero ngayon, it was a different side of you.

You suddenly looked overprotective.

Selosa.

Handang manakit kung nangaliwa man siya.

And that melted him.

Medyo kinilig siya.

Slash that, bet niya ‘tong new side of yours.

“League of Legends lang pala katapat mo e’.”

[vvsminhyung]

𝟗:𝟒𝟕, 𝐉𝐀𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐍 ; “handa akong magsilbi na medisina.”

DREAM CAFE, that one coffee shop na lagi mong tinatambayan tuwing may problema. Problema sa bahay, problema sa pag-aaral, problema sa pera, at problema sa sarili. The shop itself is a witness of your downfall. Nakita ka na nito na tumulala, umiyak, at mawalan ng gana sa buhay. This is like a bar for you, but the minor version. People didn’t really care when you are weeping in your own table, some offered their tissues and asked if you’re okay, but that’s just the most of it. You were glad that they care, a stranger even, when most of the time, your family doesn’t. Mas tinutugunan nila ang pagmamalasakit sa’yo kaysa sa sarili mong pamilya.

You were cast down, mentally and emotionally. Iniisip mo na lang na sana magpasukan na para mawala na yung mga bagay na bumabagabag sa isipan mo. Sometimes, hindi mo na kaya, pero most of the times, tamang kinakaya na lang. In school, you are busy. Talking with your classmate and making fun of your teachers. That was a school life that you are hoping to experience soon, but who are you kidding? Today is a new episode. a new problem and a new breakdown. The reason you are here tonight is because your father lost his job, and your mother made a shocking revelation to you that totally broke your spirit down.

“You’re not going to school this year.”

It wasn’t anything heartbreaking to other teenagers, but to you, it felt like the whole world collapse. Your whole world collapse. Your mind went blank, and your feelings felt numb. Isipin mo ‘yon, yung tanging lugar na liblib sa iyong problema ay bigla-bigla na lang mawawala? Para ka na lang pinarusahan. Lalo na’t kung wala ka sa paaralan, siguradong sa bahay ka naman mananatili at mapapa-isip kung bakit kailangan pa mangyari sa iyo ‘to kung ang gusto mo lang naman ay makapagtapos kagaya ng iba. You cried. The tears didn’t stop. You just want to go to the stage with them. Experience the graduation of your batch. Experience the achievements of your hardships. Experience the happiness with your classmates, kahit wala ang mga magulang. You didn’t care, mas may pakialam ang mga kaklase mo sa’yo kaysa sa mga magulang mo, and that’s what hurt you the most. You are stuck with people who didn’t care one bit about your feelings.

You stood up, planning to head to the CR when you bump into someone’s chest. Hindi ka tumingin sa kanya. Sa halip, nagpaumahin ka lamang at dumireto na ng tuluyan sa women’s comfort room.

You breathed out and calm yourself. 

The second you stepped out was the moment you heard voices singing in the background. It wasn’t singing - it was more like rapping. Familiar sa’yo ‘to. It was a song from before. A local song. Laging kantahan ng mga kaklase mo sa likod ng classroom habang free time. You unknowingly smiled, your classmates always seems to have that kind of effect on you. Sa kanila ka na lang mapapangiti dahil sa kalokohan nila.

“Hindi mo malaman ang sagot kung bakit malungkot kaya ang iyong sarili ay sinisisi,” You went closer to the stage. To take a sit. To the boys who’s rapping and to this bandmates who are performing.

It was that moment you take a closer look when you saw someone known there. Up in that stage, you knew someone so familiar to you. 

“Walang umiintindi sayong nararamdaman,” Your eyes caught how he performs. He was a guitarist, the lead, and also the vocalist of the night. He was so much closer than you think, to the point he might have noticed you already. “Minsan ka lang ngumiti, ako’y tunaw kapag nasusulyapan.”

And you weren’t wrong. 

Indeed, he noticed you.

“Ang ‘yong mga luha ay punasan mo na.”  

Simula palang nang pagpasok niya sa loob ng coffee shop, he noticed you. Your distressed look, your eyebags, and your tears. Yet, from a classmate - a seatmate, wala siyang magawa dahil first of all, he never saw this side of you. You guys are seatmates, quite close, but he never saw you cry. Lagi kang nakangiti sa classroom na tipong akala mo iiyak ka na lang sa tuwa sa tuwing babanat si Donghyuck nang kanyang kayabangan.

“Susubukan ibalik ang ‘yong kislap sa mata,” Kung hindi ka lang siguro kakilala ni JAEMIN, malamang hindi niya mapipili ang kantang ito ngayon. He never knew this song. A local one. Laging sina Mark Lee at Donghyuck ang kumakanta nito sa likod ng classroom nila, but when Minhyung recommended this song to him, the thought of you suddenly entered his mind. Ngayon lang sumagi sa kanyang isipan ‘yon noong nakita ka niyang balisa. 

When he saw you like that, he felt a part of his heart broke. Naaawa siya, he pitied you. Wondering what made you look like that. Your spirit looks so disheartened, para nawalan ka ng gana bigla. Hindi kagaya nang mga ngiti mo sa classroom, mukha kang may dinarama ngayon. Wala sa sarili, at hindi mapalagay.

“Ang lahat ay gagawin para lang sumaya, kaya tumahan kana.”

“Hindi kita masisisi bakit ka ganyan,”

You saw him smiled.

Jaemin just smiled at you.

“Sa dami ng nangyari, araw-araw ka’y matapang at nandyan, nanatili kung saan ka man.”

Maliit na ngiti lang ‘yon pero grabe ang epekto sa’yo.

For a moment, your heart felt no burden from before. Like a weight was lifted up, before it can even crush you down. Gumaan ang pakiramdam mo.

You smiled.

Seriously, your classmates really had this effect on you.

“Kung ngayong gabi ay sisimangot, ay handa akong magsilbi na medisina.”

[vvsminhyung]

𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 ; local series.

𝐋.𝐌𝐇 ;

;  𝟏𝟐:𝟐𝟕, 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐇𝐘𝐔𝐍𝐆 - pahimakas.

𝐇.𝐑𝐉 ;

(soon)

𝐋.𝐉𝐍 ;

;  𝟓:𝟓𝟔, 𝐉𝐄𝐍𝐎 - medyo busy lang.

(soon)

𝐋.𝐃𝐇 ;

(soon)

𝐍.𝐉𝐌 ;

;  𝟗:𝟒𝟕, 𝐉𝐀𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐍 - medisina.

𝐙.𝐂𝐋 ;

(soon)

𝐏.𝐉𝐒 ;

(soon)

[vvsminhyung]

𝟏𝟐:𝟐𝟕, 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐇𝐘𝐔𝐍𝐆 ; “she’s listening to esseca again.”

Tanghalian na’t lahat, pero hindi ka pa rin umaalis sa pwesto mo. Your eyes momentarily glance at your classmate, Donghyuck, before shifting it to his friends who are also staring at you. You guys had a mini stare-off. Their eyes full of concern, meanwhile, yours’ was drowned in hatred. You ignored them for the past few weeks. No talks, no calls, nor even texts.

Just plain gazes from afar.

Wala kang intensyon na kausapin ulit sila. No, not when you heard those bullcraps came out from Minyhyung’s mouth. You decided not to open your heart to them again, not as a friend nor even as a stranger. Nawalan ka na ng tiwala. Nadala ka na. You trust them for nothing. For a friend who are supposed to tell you everything - the truth, and the truth only - they failed themselves to do that. They let you down with a single lie.

MINHYUNG, their friend - your ex-boyfriend, cheated on you. And for a thing that a friend wasn’t supposed to do, they tolerate it. They didn’t condemn him for having another significant other behind your back. Kahit alam na nila ang katotohanan, hinayaan pa rin nila. They didn’t tell you. Nagmukha ka lang katawa-tawa sa paningin nila at sa paningin ng iba. You were a fool who trusted their words too much.

Pero sa halip ng lahat ng iyon, you didn’t blame them. Hindi mo sila sinisi kung bakit nangaliwa si Minhyung. That guy’s in the fault, but it’s not like you aren’t too. May kasalanan ka din, mas malaki nga lang ‘yong kanya. You were younger than him, quite childish and immature, but that’s just your nature. That attitude of yours’ is just you being you, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t annoying. Sometimes, your attitude has gone too far, but never to the point Minhyung hates you for it. Pinagpapasensyahan niya lang. But then again, patience can always wear out anytime, lalo na’t kung namimihasa ka na pero hindi mo naman sinasadya.

He broke up with you - told you the truth, and even sent you a spotify playlist. Hindi mo sigurado kung dapat ka bang magpasalamat o mainis pa dahil sa asta niya. Pero sa bandang huli, pinakinggan mo na lang din. Hindi ka nanghinayang. You didn’t regret it tad bit. It was those songs that you guys used to listen, mostly siya yung nagrrekomenda while you find which song suits your taste.

Most of those songs were from esseca.

Pahimakas was one of them, and unknownst to your knowledge, it actually means the last farewell from Minhyung that was dedicated for you.