Strong Independent Woman...
Its hard to be so deep in a relationship and still feel independent.. at least it is for me. Here I am.. living in his house with his dog and yeah that’s part of combining your lives...but in the end.. none of it’s mine.. it’s his.
Realistically, I know if things were to end I would be able to support myself.. I’d be lost for a bit but I would land my feet. But then there’s the emotional aspect. I am even more feel dependent on him emotionally than I am financially. My happiness should not depend on another human being.. but it does.
He knows me and all the anxiety that no one else really sees. And with him I am the least self conscious I have ever been. I know he accepts me as I am and that has helped me to accept myself. But what if that were to end.. would I still accept myself as I am.. or revert back to how I was before..
The thing is.. he is so sure of himself and I doubt myself constantly. So does it matter that I could financially support myself when I am so dependent on him to reassure me that I am lovable.. that I am smart.. that I am doing the right things in life. That doesn’t make me dependent.. not really.. not at all.
