is it true you wrote some amnesty lyrics?
Yes many of the lyrics were directly from my diary written in a basement or sleeping on a floor while I was suicidal. Char is about how I felt in my life. Scared of having to protect him devoutly whilst knowing he thought of me as replaceable garbage and how I felt like a stray dog happy to have a home but taken in by an abusive owner. Claudio always took credit and made fun of my work and never acknowledged how important writing was to me. Even though he would use it. He’s the reason I stopped writing and making videos entirely. My spirit was broken. He shoved me to the ground and told me my work was futile and berated me when that was all I had. Everytime I want to make something I remember how humiliating and degraded i felt by even attempting to create. I have notebooks upon notebooks of my ~lyrics~ but feel embarrassed and disgusting anytime i tryto write now because of how my work was stolen from me and then called trash by him and how much I wanted to just die
reactivated my tumblr account to say i’m so happy that autumn is safe and in a better place now. i fell off the whole cc bandwagon so long ago and would often wonder what happened. love love love
