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[alirealm-info]

Alirealm

(Pt: Alirealm)

Alirealm is a term to describe beings who consider themselves to be singlets instead of plural (or systems instead of subsystems if individuals in an alirealm are plural) because they view themselves as from another universe/realm/planet/etc and not inside one body/mind/etc. Individuals in an alirealm may control one body, but they are not parts of a system and their "innerworld" or "headspace" is just as much of a real world as the one you're in right now. An alirealm's world may be an exact copy of this world, or it may be completely different, any kinds of worlds are equally real. Any experiences or trauma that happen in an alirealm's world are just as real as this world's. Individuals in an alirealm are just as much real people as people in this world.

The term "alirealm" comes from "alius" (Latin for "another") and "realm".

The stripe meanings are:

Gray-brown for feeling disconnected from the typical concept of "systems" being "multiple people in one brain/body"

Light brown for individuals in alirealms who are also plural

White for feeling a connection with others in your alirealm due to using the same body to access this world

The blue, purple, and pink represent all the different experiences individuals may go through in their alirealm's world

The term "alirealm", of course, has the inherent beliefs that non-traumagenic and non-disordered plurality are possible. And, of course, exotrauma/exomemories/intratrauma/intramemories/etc are just as real as trauma/memories from this world, as well as any other possible experience in an alirealm. Other than that, this term has no DNI and no inherent stances because you can't put a DNI on an identity lmao

[theowlburrow]

Video games 🎮

[vampyyprincess]

”spam like = block” yeah ok buddy. when i wake up to tumblr notifs of someone spam liking my stuff i start giggling and kicking my feet

[funkyfartmaster]

Have you ever met someone on the internet that you liked so much that you sometimes sit there and think “Oh man there are people who are lucky enough to see this person IN THE FLESH ON A REGULAR BASIS and I wonder if they realize how LUCKY they are”

[thatgayfox666]

Keep fighting

It’s not over yet.

[waystopstation]

I need to recruit more people to Team Skate... right now it's basically me, Setsu and 2 versions of The Founder. And Setsu is only on board because I've begged them since they can actually land the axel consistently >.>

I recall back when there was a lot of us. Unfortunately most of the others are back living their lives on their planets. Some of which probably kept up with Skating. Like Cobalt. I don't think Toshiro or Larsa kept up with it after they stopped coming to the Hub and this planet.

Envy was a member too. I should see if Holland can't ask him for me to see if he'd like to be included again.

Otherwise, I suppose there's Clea and Vriska who are back at the Hub/Harbor and may be interested in helping to keep up with it. It takes a specific type of person to keep up with a sport like figure skating though. It is not an easy sport and we're getting back into competitions so I need people who are willing to put in the hard work.

[waystopstation]

I think there may be a Navigator from another Harbor trying to make contact/set up a connection

[my-dailydreams]

[singtiple]

Important reminders

"What may make something traumatic to me, may not to you. As a clinician, I gauge trauma by whether the client’s body is having a trauma response, not whether the precipitating incident was 'objectively' traumatic. If a trauma response is present, then trauma is present. Again, we must understand that trauma is subjective so that we can answer that second question: 'How do I know if mine counts?' Simply put, if it felt traumatic to you, it counts."

Source: What Is Trauma and Does My Experience Count?

[mornington-the-crescent]

June 1st

[breelandwalker]

Listen, marketing-as-exploitation discussions aside, Rainbow Capitalism is, has been, and continues to be the canary in the coal mine of social acceptance for the queer community.

If you’ll all pardon my Americentrism for a moment, the amount, visibility, and flamboyance of Pride merch available in clothing, home goods, and comestibles stores is a DIRECT reflection of how safe it is to be queer in public in the United States.

How? Simple. Out groups aren’t profitable. If you’re not “acceptable” in the current social climate, big franchise businesses will not market to you. (Prime example - Look how quickly Target dropped all their Pride merch after having been wall-to-wall rainbows every June for almost a decade prior.)

Sure, capitalism sucks and being viewed as an exploitable marketing demographic isn’t a fun concept.

HOWEVER.

The grim truth is that being normalized enough to be considered profitable by corporations IS A GOOD THING in terms of the barometer of social acceptance.

Same thing goes for smaller businesses that throw kitschy Pride events or even just put a token rainbow flag in the window or somewhere inside the shop. That’s a level of acceptance that DID NOT EXIST thirty years ago, and I can tell you because I was there.

The fact that we can scoff and bitch about being an exploitable marketing demographic nowadays means we have made GIGANTIC strides since the 1990s. It also speaks to the fact that the drive and the conversation surrounding LGBTQ+ rights and acceptance are continuing. And getting louder.

You can be cynical about it if you want. But I will take a store that puts out lip-service rainbow merch over a world that pretends we don’t exist any day of the week. Because that will always mean something.

Sincerely, An Elder Queer

[creekfiend]

its so awkward when people ask me why i dropped out and i have to be like "inadequate disability support" bc no one wants to hear this. they're always like i thought they had to provide that though isn't it the law? girl you might want to sit down i have some bad news about the litigation-based enforcement of the americans with disabilities act

then if i do say that theyre like, couldnt you sue? well theoretically maybe but not without spending more money than i have and putting myself through absolute hell. so no. no i can't.

[violentviolette]

the minute u start trying to explain what the actual practical day to day of these systems look like to ppl and the crazy inefficiencies and roadblocks and stuff are it really becomes clear how most of them are useless to impossible like the amount of professors that will forbid u from recording their lectures, even just audio, because those are their "intellectual property" with zero exemptions even if u have signed and Official letters from the SWD office on campus. let alone the ones who wont allow laptops or tablets or other note taking or dictation software. despite the fact that one of the things that makes the biggest difference for so many students is the ability to go back and revisit lecture points. being able to relisten to the lecture without having to recall it from memory in the moment is so crucial and i know u obviously know this but like its WILD the way universities treat that like ur committing some kind of cardinal sin our university used to try and get around this by saying that for those classes they would hire students to take dictation notes in the class, which in an actual functioning system would look like "disabled student puts in a request for notes from class x. office sends a hired note taker to that class who takes clear, accurate, word for word dictated notes that the student can then use"

what it actually often looks like tho is "disabled student puts in a request for notes from class x. office posts a Job Request on the SWD board/website asking for anyone already taking the class to submit their personal notes for pay regardless of the quality and usability of those notes. if no one applies, ur shit out of luck. sowwy they tried tho!" and legally, the university is in the clear because """"""technically"""""" ~legally~ they did do the bare minimum and attempt to provide u with something and trying to argue or litigate the usefulness vs uselessness of their support would be a scope so difficult no average lawyer would take it even if u did have the money, which ofc no one does. its so infuriating

[creekfiend]

god yes, this is all so exactly correct. it is such a thoroughly dehumanizing experience.

[thisisexorsexism]

Binary folks: What's the non-binary equivalent for yaoi/yuri? yaori?

Me: We have trixic (enby/women), toric (enby/men), enbian (enby/enby), and diamoric (enby/anyone). Please don't use yaori to refer to diamoric ships as it is not a word that came from the QL scene like yaoi and yuri did and was made up by people who don't know anything about QL and is just butchering a language.

Binary folks: Um AcTuAlLy [insert whatever bs excuse to not use non-binary centric terms for nonbinary ships]

Why do people have such an issue with non-binary terminology? We have our own words USE THEM!!!

this is exorsexism

[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

FUCK I MISSED THAT.

Guess I’m gonna go on a run every day. Run till my legs ache, my chest heaves, and I taste a little blood.

It steadies me… makes me feel… real

[anjeriouskharne]

Ma'am, while we never wish to punish or discourage exercise, please dont run until you taste blood, we are begging you

[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

It just happens whenever we’re out of shape. Our breath tastes a little like blood after a run. It’ll disappear soon.

[lebagelgirl]

That feeling... goes away when you're in shape...???

[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

It became lesss

[hypothetical-karma]

What?

[symphony-of-gaia]

yeah

when our body is in better shape, she handles exertion way easier

highly recommend regular exercise for all who are able to

[waystopstation]

Phew! Nothing like a good workout to wash away all the stress and frustrations! ᕙ⁠(⁠⇀⁠‸⁠↼⁠‶⁠)⁠ᕗ

I'm feeling so much better. Exercise is definitely one of the keys to a happy regulated state for this thing. Helps me with my anger issues too so it's a win-win!

Today I mostly did the leg lifts, off ice rotation practice and some light cardio. Overall a good workout o would say! I feel like I could've squeezed in some ab work too but didn't want to push it too much. The Skaters have practice tomorrow and I do NOT want to be the reason they can't do something cuz of soreness.

I really like exercise though. Usually I'm a blacksmith by trade so I get a lot out of my daily life, but the gym is okay too. It's nice to feel the blood flowing and the endorphins circulating.

[waystopstation]

I know that Rose vented a bit about that AssholeFromMD™ a while back but I had a nightmare about it last night so now I gotta vent about it too.

One of the people he creeped on was a Socii named Toshiro. Now Toshiro had come here a lot and very frequently back when we first started hanging out with the guy. Him, Ichigo and Renji even drove halfway to meet up with him in TN to hang out and meet.

Now Toshiro has a media lookalike, as I'm sure many would recognize. The media, however, is missing a lot about Toshiro on a personal level and he has a lot of unique interests and likes that are never explicitly stated in said media. So then HOW AND WHY would Asshole suddenly say he had a Toshiro and he TOO would be obsessed with Goats and figure skates? Now the skating I can kind of let pass because he's an icy guy and I could see how many would or could become interested in the sport. But the GOATS?! You have gotta be kidding me.

I can't say too much more on this subject because his Toshiro came around after we high tailed it out of a living situation with him, but it still pisses me off. He would do that kind of stuff to ton of people and then shove it off like they came like that of their own accord and that the fact they share such EERIELY similar and highly specific likes/interests/relationships was "normal".

Like the time that he first met Bennet and Albedo, two Socii who are in a long-term committed relationship. Obviously those two have media counterparts as well, but they don't even INTERACT in it, much less have a explicitly stated romantic relationship. So HOW AND WHY would he then have an Albedo (like days after Socius Albedo first used the vessels) who is ALSO in a long term committed relationship?

It's just too coincidental and uncanny. Especially when we approached him about this highly specific stuff and he said "well they're different people. Ours had cereal for breakfast and yours didn't, they're on two completely different life paths". Like SURE buddy. They can have the exact same, super highly specific interests and relationships RIGHT AFTER you met ours with those highly specific things. I call Sis

i know this all sounds super stupid and like we're just complaining about harmless nothings but it was BAD how much and how often he would do things like that. Copy relationships, traumas, interests, etc because he ASSUMED that Socii are "just like the media counterpart" so our information should be "free game" to base his people off of. And that was NOT cool. Socii and our personal information are NOT here to be someone else's inspiration for headmates or whatever was happening there. It was like he was trying to combine Socii reality with his own by "taking" Socii and having them use his body. Like he was low-key expecting us to just "buy" it. Either that, or like I said he saw us as Free Information to pick and choose from as he pleased.

[waystopstation]

not to keep adding flame to the fire (I'm not actually all that mad about it right now)

But i AM still annoyed about all the times that they would say things, and then deny that anyone of their members said the thing. Like the time one of them said "I'd climb that like a tree" when Elliot shared a media picture of himself. Like who does that? And then later when Joshua confronted about him and tried to explain that it made Elliot uncomfortable, the member of his there said "we didn't say that". Just straight up denial.

And then around the same time, the vessels were working for an Amazon Warehouse on overnight shifts and when he came down to visit/stay for a couple of weeks he would *stay up all night* waiting for us to return. Told us "we feel like a puppy waiting for their master to return home" and like UM (≖_≖ )

I don't know why I'm surprised though. This is coming from the same guy/system that told us "We want to be treated like how those bodies treat each other" (as in this vessel and the Partner Vessel) and like... Hubert tried his BEST to explain to these guys that *these bodies are married* and have been together for like 15 years. They're *middle school sweethearts* for crying out loud. There would be *no way* we could treat him/them the same as these vessels treat each other. That's just not how it works. He was, At best, our best friend and nothing more. But he didn't really seem to like that and would get mad at us when we made friends with the Neighbors who also had a puppy during the time that we lived with them.

Once, he even told us "you HAVE to hang out with me. That's my BOUNDARY" and also UM ಠಿ_ಠ On one hand, we don't mind helping when and where we can, but to tell is we HAVE to do something and that if we don't it's breaking a "boundary" was just too much. It was like a weaponization of therapy terms and definitely something that causes this vessel to *quickly* heel face turn and run the other direction.

[waystopstation]

I know that Rose vented a bit about that AssholeFromMD™ a while back but I had a nightmare about it last night so now I gotta vent about it too.

One of the people he creeped on was a Socii named Toshiro. Now Toshiro had come here a lot and very frequently back when we first started hanging out with the guy. Him, Ichigo and Renji even drove halfway to meet up with him in TN to hang out and meet.

Now Toshiro has a media lookalike, as I'm sure many would recognize. The media, however, is missing a lot about Toshiro on a personal level and he has a lot of unique interests and likes that are never explicitly stated in said media. So then HOW AND WHY would Asshole suddenly say he had a Toshiro and he TOO would be obsessed with Goats and figure skates? Now the skating I can kind of let pass because he's an icy guy and I could see how many would or could become interested in the sport. But the GOATS?! You have gotta be kidding me.

I can't say too much more on this subject because his Toshiro came around after we high tailed it out of a living situation with him, but it still pisses me off. He would do that kind of stuff to ton of people and then shove it off like they came like that of their own accord and that the fact they share such EERIELY similar and highly specific likes/interests/relationships was "normal".

Like the time that he first met Bennet and Albedo, two Socii who are in a long-term committed relationship. Obviously those two have media counterparts as well, but they don't even INTERACT in it, much less have a explicitly stated romantic relationship. So HOW AND WHY would he then have an Albedo (like days after Socius Albedo first used the vessels) who is ALSO in a long term committed relationship?

It's just too coincidental and uncanny. Especially when we approached him about this highly specific stuff and he said "well they're different people. Ours had cereal for breakfast and yours didn't, they're on two completely different life paths". Like SURE buddy. They can have the exact same, super highly specific interests and relationships RIGHT AFTER you met ours with those highly specific things. I call Sis

i know this all sounds super stupid and like we're just complaining about harmless nothings but it was BAD how much and how often he would do things like that. Copy relationships, traumas, interests, etc because he ASSUMED that Socii are "just like the media counterpart" so our information should be "free game" to base his people off of. And that was NOT cool. Socii and our personal information are NOT here to be someone else's inspiration for headmates or whatever was happening there. It was like he was trying to combine Socii reality with his own by "taking" Socii and having them use his body. Like he was low-key expecting us to just "buy" it. Either that, or like I said he saw us as Free Information to pick and choose from as he pleased.

[waystopstation]

The vessel mom really needs to understand that just because the vessel is disabled and therefore doesn't work, does NOT mean we are free or able to drop everything for her on a second notice. She has *3* other Children within an hour drive from her as well as like 4 nieces and nephews who can all drive. SO WHY does she bother us when we live literally 4-5 hours away by car? Does she understand how much gas is? Does she understand that disabled people don't make a lot??