the wco show

broadcasting live since 2011

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Wait, people are still on Tumblr?

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still in mild shock when I come on here and see new content

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Wait, people are still on Tumblr?

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update:

No idea if anyone still actively follows this blog, but I’m in Texas now.

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There was a fucking earthquake that shook cities hundreds of miles apart in Montana tonight

what the heckin’ heck, man

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THE SIGNS AS WRITERS

Writes non-stop but doesn't share it with anyone: Leo, Aquarius, Cancer

Writes like 3 chapters then gives up: Scorpio, Virgo

Writes like 10 books in 3 days: Pisces, Sagittarius, Gemini

In a constant state of writer's block: Aries, Taurus

Always have a good plot in their head but too lazy to write it: Libra, Capricorn

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YOUR ROOMMATE WHO FINDS SOMETHING TO COMPLAIN ABOUT NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO

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Please unmute this masterpiece

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I’ve been feeling really good great over the last few days. It’s like my mindset shifted from being in a depressed, bored, and unmotivated state to the opposite end of the spectrum. I feel confident, excited, and eager to work on bettering myself.

I’ve been in this rut of doubt and disillusionment for the last few years, and it’s the result of not having any real goals. Lofty goals and aspirations are great, but I didn’t have a concrete plan for how to achieve them. They were basically just ideas and hopes that sounded nice.

I’m focusing on connecting the dots now. Before, I had vague notions of how I would get to my long term goals; now, I’m working on plans and targets everyday that put me one step closer to the finish line. It’s slow going, but seeing any kind of progress after wandering aimlessly for so long is fucking refreshing. 

I feel alive again.

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I work at a factory as a production worker (”production worker” here basically means “assembly line bastard”). It is an incredibly boring and repetitive job, so I often listen to podcasts to try to prevent my brain from atrophying completely over an eight-hour shift. I stumbled upon the Self Made Man podcast on Spotify while looking for new podcasts. It’s primarily a podcast for dudes who are entrepreneurs, so there’s a healthy mix of motivational pep speeches, discussion about money making strategies, and other good stuff for the red blooded American capitalist that lives inside all of us.

The discussion of money and business strategies was mildly interesting to me, as I’ve never had a particular interest in this area (beyond wanting to be my own boss, but I think everyone has that fantasy to a certain extent). What really hooked me on the podcast was the discussion of habit building and creating a daily routine for success. It wasn’t a new idea for me, but the way it’s discussed on the podcast really framed it in a new light for me. Rather than thinking of mastering a skill as simply constantly practicing and honing one’s craft over a long period of time, they posited mastering a desired set of skills as a build up of routines over time. Starting with small, simple tasks like reading for a half-hour everyday, then adding more complex work as you become accustomed to the routine. It still sounds like a simple concept, but I found the different approach to be a refreshing take on the trite “practice a lot until you git gud, scrub”-advice that’s obvious (but not particularly inspiring).

I was so inspired by the podcast that I actually got out of bed super early this morning and went for a run for the first time in about a year. I also took some time out to read. Now, I’m writing this post. These are just a few little things that I’ve wanted to do regularly, but constantly made internal excuses about why I couldn’t do them today (”I’m tired”, “it’s too late”, “I don’t want to”, and “I don’t feel like it” are just a few of my greatest hits).

Yeah, this was day one, and there is certainly a lot of reason to doubt that I’ll continue doing this everyday for a significant period of time (ex. all of the times in the past where I’ve committed to a healthy daily routine & gave up). But I’m going to do my best to keep going, and strive to firmly establish these habits. I’ve felt stuck in a deep rut of stagnation for the last few years, and I really believe that the only way I’m going to get out is to constantly work at improving myself. Establishing these good habits is one step toward that, and it’s the one that I have the most control over. Getting this first domino to fall is key to keep moving forward.

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Eli: Hey, so we're going to the movies tonight at 6:45

Me: Uh, no, I'm still in Billings. I won't be home by then.

Eli: I got a CD in the mail though, and you have the mail key.

Me: OK, well I'm not going to be home until later, so...

Eli: If you don't come home by 10, I'm moving your entire bedroom into your bathroom.

(^ THIS HAS LITERALLY HAPPENED BEFORE)

Me: *getting into car* You're a fucking asshole

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Life’s pretty weird.

The power went out at work today because some truck drove into a electric pole or something (I don’t know the exact details). So I got to go into work a whole ten-minutes later than normal (woo). I got the call to go into work right as I was backing out to drive to the brewery (I thought I would have enough time to get a beer). I drove to work, and arrived to a completely empty parking lot. It was barren. It was very strange, like a scene from one of those rapture movies. I walked in, clocked in, and then went on autopilot for several hours. This job is boring, but it goes by quickly because you can zone out and listen to good music or a podcast while doing the most mundane, repetitive shit.

If a job ever begged for automation, this would be it. Humans losing jobs to robots in this scenario would not only be a good thing-- it would be a humane thing. I can literally feel my brain atrophying sometimes...

Anyway, so I get off work later than usual (like 11:30′ish), and head to the gas station to pick up a six-pack of “good beer” because it was a long day and I earned it. The ridiculously awesome beer that has a picture of a fucking TIGER with lazers coming out of it’s eyes is naturally the one I choose. I pick up the beer, grab some nacho cheese Doritos and toss them on the counter. The gas station guy scans both of my items, and asks for my ID (while I’m digging it out of my wallet, already anticipating the question). He scans my ID for a long time, underscoring his skepticism that I am, in fact, twenty-three years old. My shaggy hair, acne, cargo shorts, and high-top skate shoes probably make me look too young to purchase beer legally-- I get it. If he looked up from the ID and saw the dark circles around my eyes, maybe he wouldn’t have doubted my age. Regardless, he realized the ID was valid, scanned it, and I was on my way. I got home, drank a few of the beers, watched some shitty Vine compilations on YouTube, and then started typing this drivel.

The lease on my apartment is up in a month and I have no idea where exactly I’ll be living for the next year or so. I don’t know if Bozeman is the right place for me. I don’t want to stay at my shitty job for another year, and I don’t feel like there is anything left in Bozeman to keep me anchored here. I feel adrift in an abyss, but also on the brink of some newfound freedom. Uncertainty is better than boring comfort.

I just want to get to the next step. I feel like I’ve been stuck in my current state for far too long, and if I stay in Bozeman for another year, then I’ll lose yet another year of my life to the same old shit...

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give yourself time

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(but not too much)

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// “Right Choice” by Can’t Swim // ------------------------------------------- “You call me up on the phone, And you tell me you're leaving, What can I do to show I need you...”