Peace, Be Still

"I will allure her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her soul" - Hosea 2:14

[jspark3000]

Trauma does crazy things to your brain: cognitive gaps, inexplicable phobias, silence and shut down. But the soul is so resilient and capable. It has a way of healing around good people, safe communities, and the chance to be heard. Given the opportunity, we get up again.

[wild-cabins]

Kyle Finn Dempsey

[manicbones]

you know what’s more freeing than killing yourself? running away to a small town and getting a job as a waitress. buying a cheap car and sticking a bed in the back and driving southwest. adopting a cat. learning a new instrument. moving apartments. visiting a friend in another city. chopping all your hair off.

you can kill your current life without dying. you can kill this version of you and make a new one.

maybe I’m just a bipolar sucker for rebirth but sometimes that thought is all that keeps me alive

[pikafem]

pulling a wholesome gone girl > actually killing yourself

[biblesandbutterflies]

[cwote]

You’re not a burden, not to anyone.

[worshipgifs]

[sirenec]

OH HEDWIG

[revelation19]

“I think that if God forgives us we must forgive ourselves. Otherwise it is almost like setting up ourselves as a higher tribunal than Him.”

— C.S. Lewis

[gospel-art-project]

[a-joyfuljourney]

Julia Smith

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“If you trade your authenticity for safety, you may experience the following: anxiety, depression, eating disorders, addiction, rage, blame, resentment, and inexplicable grief.”

—

[christianwallpaper]

[breanna-lynn]

I so often feel scared I am not loved, am not cared about, am not wanted.

I hurt, I fear, I feel anxious and I have thoughts within my head that feel valid but are just lies the enemy speaks to me to make me a shell of who God has made me to be.

I fold inward, I close up. I avoid and I keep to myself. 

All the while yearning for intimacy, the freedom and comfort to let my walls down and finally trust, to open up, to be honest, to be raw, to not have to filter or second-guess what I can share or say, to have the time to unfold without feeling like a burden or bore; to truly let go and pour out and not be too much.

I have my husband/best friend/love of my life and Jesus. I have my family I can call. I have writing to get the thoughts and feelings out. But in daily everyday life, I walk through it mostly within myself.

I’m introverted so I usually like it. But even for someone who enjoys alone time, I still desire connection and being known and that feeling that other people respect me, care about me, appreciate me, want me.

I don’t feel wanted. I don’t feel respected or cared about. I don’t feel that…value.

Feelings can really twist your head up and make you insecure, anxious, and suspicious (untrusting) of others when mixed with negative experiences and lack of new, loving experiences. They’re like a baseboard spring to launch off of with nothing to contradict it or say otherwise. You always have them to refer back to. That’s what you know. That’s what’s been ‘true’. That’s what you can trust. There’s nothing more recent that says or shows you otherwise.

It’s so easy to forget you are loved.

It’s so easy to lose sight of the fact you have worth, that you have value.

So when you’re feeling that way, like me, the fears and anxiety swirling around, stop for a moment and tell them to shut up. Just straight up SHUT UP.

Because the truth is, you are amazing.

You are worth it.

You have value.

You matter.

You are someone who brings something everywhere you go and has something to offer the world. 

Regardless of how you have been treated, regardless of what anyone fucking thinks…

Let the truth stand in its place and shout for you.

I am worth it.

I do have value.

I matter.

I bring _____ everywhere I go and I have all I am to offer the world.

Reject the idea you have to be perfect. Reject the idea you have to be what people like. Reject that you have to be afraid of being rejected. Other people’s opinions should not have so much weight that they can sink you. Give the weight over to the truth. Let that anchor you.

[cleverbouquetwhispers-blog]

[delta-breezes]

[ishidgns]

God is more than whatever you are facing right now. 

[mybeautifulchristianjourney]