Just a random blog with whatever. Part of many fandoms; including books, tv shows, youtubers, and music. I make art as well. He/Him | 18+ | ā”ļøā š®š±
Come to think of it, it really is insane that my entire country is burning alive and literally no one in the rest of the world cares. Thousands of Indians are dying every day from the heat, it's 45+ degrees in multiple areas, the government couldn't give two fucks, we're getting severe warnings and red alerts, and not a soul outside of South Asia is speaking about it because why would you ever care about brown people
USA folks, that is a consistent temperature range hitting 113Ā°. Death Valley temperatures. In Banda, it hovered between 116Ā°-118Ā° (47Ā°-48Ā° C) for a week straight.
This has been happening all month with little to no international media attention. Here are a few organizations you can check out for resources or to support:
the gracerocky sex tape that earth receives in the beetles is not actually a sex tape as such itās a blurry whiteboard half in frame in the back of a video log created on day 26 of chain making after theyāve both gone completely insane. most of the whiteboard is covered in absolutely incomprehensible handwritten equations save for a single clean patch in the bottom right corner which has a straight up xenonite dildo suckered to it. just like left there absentmindedly. this of course triggers perhaps the first galactically significant rpf speculation in history
I think the thing that is the most disturbing to me about Obsession is just how quickly it becomes totally clear that Bear not only never loved Nikki, but that he never even liked her.
In the little time we spend with Nikki before she becomes possessed āfreakyā Nikki, Obsession goes to great lengths to establish Nikki as a person.
In just the first 15 minutes of the film, we learn that Nikki loves writing, sheās laid back, and that she cares very deeply for others. We see that sheās funny, she likes to gently tease her friends and joke around. She has ambition and wants to pursue her writing seriously. She has her own goals and thoughts and opinions.
Sheās also characterized very well by her wardrobe, how she talks, her body language and expressions (courtesy of Inde Navarretteās absolutely STUNNING and brilliant performance).
In a VERY short amount of time, the audience is given a VERY clear picture of Nikkiās personality and usual behavior.
Which makes her ātransitionā into āFreakyā Nikki all the more horrific when Bear makes his wish.
Because even if we give Bear some grace, and acknowledge that he couldnāt have known that the One Wish Willow would do what it did, and even if we treat his kissing her on the first night she comes over as morally grey (although in my opinion he absolutely did take advantage of the fragile mental state he believed her to be in), there is no way to excuse Bear blatantly ignoring that Nikki changes so drastically from the person Bear claims to be in love with.
After the wish, Nikki starts speaking differently and using a higher pitched voice, she starts dressing completely differently and wearing more traditionally āfeminineā clothing. She suddenly drops her plan to quit working at the music store and pursue writing, she stops showing any care towards her other friends and the people in her life. She defers to Bear in every situation, with the only exception being any time Bear shows any sign of moving away from her emotionally (or physically).
After the wish, Nikki becomes a completely different person.
And Bear does not care or show any concern regarding this at all.
Everything that makes Nikki who she is, everything that makes Nikki, Nikki, is just gone after Bear uses the One Wish Willow.
And Bear couldnāt be happier.
We get a whole montage of Bear and āNikkiā as a āhappy coupleā hanging out together and ignoring everyone around them.
Itās not until Bear starts seeing actual consequences to his wish, such as āNikkiā causing a scene on their date or feeding his dead cat to him, that he begins to worry about her behavior.
And even thenāEVEN THEN!!!!āBear STILL adamantly refuses to accept that Nikki is not behaving rationally or how she used to in any way. While he eventually acquiesces to canceling his wish, he first tries to just āalterā it to make it so Nikki still loves him, but is just less intense.
He would rather use āNikkiā to satisfy his own desires and ego.
If Bear loved Nikki, hell, if he even just LIKED her for who she is, he would be horrified by āfreakyā Nikki. He would have recognized and acknowledge extremely early on in their relationship, that something was deeply wrong. He would know that the woman he was with was not Nikki.
But Bear would rather have a bootleg version of Nikki that he can feel validated by, than have an actual relationship of any kind with the real Nikki.
He does not love Nikki. He does not even like her.
He likes the idea of Nikki. He likes the image of Nikki that heās constructed of her, the image of her that only exists in his head.
He likes the fantasy of what Nikki would provide to him emotionally and physically.
From the beginning of the film, Obsession shows us exactly who its villain is. Nothing that āFreakyā Nikki does horrifies me as much as Bearās treatment of Nikki and his refusal to see her as an actual person with autonomy.
For me thatās the most disturbing element of Obsession. That the people you trust the most and care about may be so obsessed with the version of you theyāve created in their mind that theyāll actively ignore your personhood and autonomy.
God. Obsession is so fucking good. I love film. I love cinema. Thank you Inde Navarrette. Thank you Curry Barker. Film of the year, if god hates horror fans why do we keep winning.
One thing that really stuck with me and proved that he does not even know Nikki is that Ian is the one who questions if she was using MD again. Bear did not know about it. Ian, and then Sarah, question it when Bear says Nikki is acting strangely because she's upset her father has cancer. Their immediate response was "the father she hates and doesn't talk to?" but Bear never questioned it. When Nikki tells him about her dad, he doesn't ask when they started talking again. Did he even know she had a bad relationship with her father?
oh and another thing that devastates me about Obsession is how much nikki is judged and blamed by those around her. sarah and ian repeatedly telling bear that he shouldnāt have to deal with her, that sheās not his responsibility, that theyāre worried sheās taking advantage of him. as if they arenāt also her friends, as if they shouldnāt know her well enough to notice something is off. thereās no concern for why nikki is behaving the way she is, thereās just distain towards it. she starts acting out of character and so it must all be intentional. but bear doesnāt get questioned. bear isnāt gossiped about. nikki loses all her agency and autonomy, and all she gets for it is judgment
Could you imagine making your own movie, making like 20 million dollars, and then going āawesome, now to install a DVD duplicating machine in my house and personally burn copies by hand like a medieval monk preserving sacred textsā
Like I need people to understand the mental image here of a multimillionaire internet creator personally overseeing DVD production in his own house like heās running an underground bootleg operation out of a basement in 2007.
Itās weirdly charming because thereās something very āold internetā about it, this energy of āI made a thing, and now I will physically hand it to people myself like an artisan at a craft fair.ā
The man really said: āThe future of cinema is me standing next to a humming disc burner at 2amā
And like... I can't help but believe he's onto something
Every day I handle more money than I will ever make. Every day.
At the start of my employment, my boss showed me videos of people stealing, and we both had a chuckle about it. How silly they were! There was a camera overhead, and itās not to watch the shoppers. See, we canāt actually stop shoplifters. They get away with it maybe nine out of ten times. But we, who are watched and tallied and witnessed? We are always caught.
At first it was hard to hold one hundred dollars bills. An amount I had never seen before. An amount that didnāt exist in my household. Itās normal now. Here is something that is not for me.
āWhat the hell, Iāll take another,ā says the man, pondering our 200 dollar watches. What the hell. Total comes to 580 and not even a flinch in his face. I have been working for 11 hours today and made only 110 dollars. It will go to my rent. Today I work for free, it feels. When I get my check, I will have 35 dollars left for food and saving.
The six hundreds he hands me go into the cash register. For a moment, I imagine having money. Then I put it away, counting out his change.
I know for a fact we sell our products for double what they are worth. That I could be making commission. That they could hand me those 580 dollars and change my life and not even mark the difference in their checkbooks. Heās not the only sale they make today, but I am the reason they made it. Heās not the only one spending 600 dollars, but if I hadnāt spent two hours with him telling me about his life, he wouldnāt have spent any. I go home. I donāt own a watch.
I have watched and rewatched a video on how to make salmon four ways. My shopping list is always the same. Pasta. Rice. Tuna. If I can afford butter it was a good week. I dream of the world I will never walk in, where I can throw the best fish fillet in the cart with a shrug. I hold hundreds in my hand and look up at the camera. I put them under the cash drawer.
I go to work. I scrap together my savings. I eat my bowl of rice slowly. My manager takes a paid week off from work just for his birthday. He owns a yacht.Ā
i wrote this while i was working at orlandoās walt disney world parks.
i was part of their college program. i moved to the state for it. they legally owned the building i was living in and still charged me rent. i ostensibly was being charged to work for them. it was a 2 bedroom apartment and they placed 6 adult women in it in forced triples.
as many as one in ten disney employees have experienced homelessness while working for the company. despite huge efforts to unionize, strike, or otherwise demand fair treatment; disney has refused to increase employee quality of life.
disney admits publicly that a good portion of their success is because the employees (ācast membersā) are dedicated, passionate, and selfless. this is never reflected in pay. even āfaceā characters (ie those that are princesses etc) make barely above a minimum wage.
at the time that i worked there, i made $8.50 an hour. at one point i was asked to create a human shield around a bag because a bomb dog had alerted to it. for eight fucking dollars an hour.
i now work a very cushy office job. i have bought the salmon and cooked it all four ways.
i go to the store. i am nice to the person behind the counter. she looks up at the camera while she counts out my change. there is nothing fundamentally different about her and i.
happy pride month š³ļøāš shout out to all the aromatic asexuals who stratt would LOVE to put on the Hail Mary (so there is less chance of romantic or sex related conflict of course)
Yes, Ryland Grace is the most aroace person you will ever meet. Yes, Rylan Grace was this secret third thing with Eva Stratt. Yes, Ryland Grace and Carl would've been wonderful husbands if fate hadn't ripped them apart. Yes, Ryland Grace is mates with two alien rocks who love him dearly. Yes Ryland Grace is down bad for Simon from Iron Lung.
All of these statements perfectly coexist in my head.
