was mid writing a fic with a christmas setting (not very christmasy but kinda needs it for the set up) at eh start of the month, forgot about it and now i wanna continue it cause i’ve been craving physics hurt/comfort
Synopsis: The girls have big fat crushes on reader
Pairing: Rumi x reader, Mira x reader, Zoey x Reader
Genre: Headcannons, Fluff
Reader gender: gender netural!idol reader, no pronouns used
Warnings: none :)
Author's note: omg I've posted actual writing for once????????? I forgot how fun headcannons were cause I can just threw up my ideas on the doc and everyone's just like 'yes this is good' and I'm like 'yayyy yippeee people like my writing'
I'm experimenting with like a reaction guide thing at the bottom? idk how it'll go but I hope it goes well and doesn't lose my gold star of coolness hahaha
RUMI
poor baby angel sweetie knows nothing about relationships — or crushes for that matter
She probably does even notice she has a crush until she gets asked about it
She's not subtle about it so it doesn't really take long for it to be pointed out
There's a clip of both your groups in a interview for a collab, and the person just zooms in on Rumi face when your answering a question and it's just the face of someone who would swallow glass if you asked
When she's asked about it she just stares for a moment, gears turn before answering with the most unconvincing "…no?"
It's all she thinks about the rest of the day
Full denial at first. She just admires you! As friends! You are extremely talented. Any sane person would admire you.
And of course any sane person wonders if their also your favourite person. And what life would be like if you just lived together. And kissed—
Okay maybe this is more than admiration. But she'll get over it quickly.
Hahah right?
Right?
The pining lasts months, and gets increasingly obvious
She always brings coffee when you have practice together. Only your order (and the girls but that's kinda expected) memorised
She always carries snacks around for you, asking if you're hungry whenever there's a break. She knows how hard the industry pushes you to starve yourself, and the thought of you doing that makes her want to tear her hair out
Anytime you go to do something, no matter how small, Rumi offers to help. Grabbing bottles of water? Rumi can help. Need a pen? Rumi has your favourite pens. Cold? You can have Rumis jacket.
She has to stop herself from blushes at seeing you bundle in some of her clothes
She isn't the one to make the first move, no matter how much she wants too. The thought of fucking up makes her too sick to even talk, so even if she tried, she'd just end up saying nothing.
MIRA
Mira's very self aware of her feelings for you, even if she wishes she wasn't
She wishes she wasn't aware of the way her cheeks go rosy when you smile at her. She wishes she didn't feel giddy whenever your attention was solely on her. She wishes that she didn't notice how often she looked down at your lips when you weren't looking. She wishes that the thought of what they tasted like didn't keep her up at night.
She tried not to be jealous over you — she really does, but it's hard to fight of the the little voice of insecurity in her head that says you'd be better with whoever was flirting with you.
She shows her affection softly. Grabbing your coat in the winter whenever you're leaving the studio. Always getting you water or food whenever she does. Checking in on you if you haven't seen each other in a while. Bring you leftovers of your favourite meal she made.
She brought some of your merch and she wears it frequently. The media frames it as 'omg yes girls supporting girls #friendship #girlhood'. Mira has to try to not explode when you say you would've just given it to her offhandedly in a interview.
On the flip side, you buy some of her merch to return the favour (you're also whipped) and she straight up 404 errors for a minute
As you become better friends, you bet your getting walked home every time you guys hang out (It's totally jsut a hunter thing hahahahahhahahahahahhahahahHAHHAH)
she is your groups number one spotify listener
She'll make the first move, but she needs to be like 110% sure that the feelings mutual so it'll be easier to just kiss her first
When you do kiss for the first time (whether it was her or you who initiated it), her knees nearly buckle. No she did not stop kissing you after that
ZOEY
She's quiet about her crush, but not subtle.
You and I both know she's a fangirl, and this is no expection
She has a burner account on very platform just for edits/posts of you
Reading fanfics until 3am type shit
Mira once walked in on her having ao3 open on her laptop, an edit on her phone, and your entire discography playing on her tv. They just stared at each other before Mira silently sat next to her and pulled up edits of her reader. They never mention that this happened
She's like a cat sometimes and will just bring you random things she'll think you'll like. She has basically given you a rock collection
She invites you to go collection hunting, and thus, has made you start collecting something like plushies. You send her updates of your children any time you get a new one and she does the same.
You have a mysterious 'snack fairy' that leaves shrimp chips in your locker at the studio every Tuesday
Comes close to holding your hand some many times but always overthinks it so her hand just hovers near yours for a while
Will do the don't respond for an hour to not make you seem too eager trick when you first start messaging. It lasts three days.
She's the most likely to make the first move out of the girls.
She plans it the entire day, carefully making sure everything is perfect
She takes you out for more collection hunting. Making sure to buy you lunch, carry the shopping bags and walk you home. She comes in to your place and helps you unpack and when she goes to leave she lets out the quietest 'you're so pretty. can i- could we- I want to-" rosy cheeked before groaning and looking down at her feet and asking just saying 'kiss please?"
what follows is the best makeout session she's ever had
Finally working on something again but got the idea too late in the evening so now I’m like “I can finish it!” No babes it’s nearly 2:30 and your not half way done you’re not finishing this tonight
Oh Southern!Reader getting their girlfriends into older country from the 80s-90s from the sad songs to the party and love and tragedy and hero story songs
Aw thinking about Zoey having to "translate" for southern!reader when it comes to them speaking about mira and rumi more poetically/in romantic country-isms
Girls be blushing so hard whenever it happens
Reader probably says them in korean sometimes and it always takes them of guard because it sounds so weird in korean
Oh imagine a butch!Southern!reader who ONLY tolerates getting dressed up in the latest korean and international fashion for her girlfriends for private dates and Very important events where the girls enjoy showing off their gf to their haters
I had this half written and then my laptop died and it didn't save and I was so mad that I couldn't respond 🤪 mb
The girls have never cared what you were. You look goregous in everything and nothing so anything you wear is perfect for them
You don't really show much interest in more formal/feminine clothes for a while, there isn't a reason too. You're relationship isn't public, so you're not at events, and the girls perfer to have more casual dates with you; they can (and do) dress up fancy often, but it's more of a rarity for them to be able to sit down with a home cooked meal and some shitty reality show on the tv with you.
The first time you showed an interest in fashion wasn't some big surprise moment, it was passing. They were planning outfits for a formal event, going through their clothes to see if they something that would work, when you just quietly asked about their dresses. They were different from formal wear in the states, so it wasn't really what you were expecting. You noticed the way their faces lit up as they answered your questions.
The next time you guys have a date, you dress up a little. They were so excited at your questions about it, and you'd love to see those faces again.
Those faces delivered
Mira answered the door and stared at you for a solid thirty seconds; would've been more if you didn't start laughing, but that made her scoop you into her arms and run to the other girls to show you off.
Zoey knocked over a cup of water after trying to rush over to kiss you (she didn't even bother to clean it up. kisses were more important ✊✊✊) and Rumi nearly faceplanted when she entered the room.
What happens after that is up to interpretation, but the initial plans at the very least got postponed
Hey, I saw your huntr/x girls as yanderes and thought. How would Rumi react to finding out her lover is a demon hunter from the states after she kinda releases a pack of demons to them and just to see them pull mortal kombat moves on a demon with two swords?!(The two swords are bull fighter swords)
It would totally make Rumi more obsessed because you’re also a hunter. You get it.
It does allow you more freedoms. Rumi can’t use how normal tactics or physically trapping them, but she uses a worse option against you. Your obligations.
You’re obligated to protect the worlds from demons, and so is she. She goes on about how many more people you can save now that you can work together, how more powerful the honmoon will be with its hunters working together. She flat out ignores that you broke up with her, the face you’re making at her, and immediately takes you back to the penthouse to tell Mira and Zoey the good news.
You can’t really urge against her, because in part she is right. You promised to protect people from demons, and she’s actively holding her sword so she’s not lying about it god Celine you really need to do some mental stability checks before you give them magical weapons
It does put a roadblock in Rumis plan because you need to be able to contact your other hunters, and no matter how crazy she is, she can’t exactly put the entire world at risk about she’s jealous of them (almost cause Mira and Zoey could probably notice) but hey, you’re now forced to work with Rumi closely, and you love her, just like she loves you. You just don’t know it yet.
Do you have any yandere type hcs for polytrix separate or together ?
Long warning and probably typo warning this was written entire on my phone and mostly late at night🤪
I don’t think the girls have them in them to actually be yandere (literally their worse nightmare tbh) but I do like it as a AU
Obviously, reader's basically fucked once they get fixated on them cause they have everything to control them. Money, power and the knowledge of how to kill a man and get away with it.
I think if it’s separate, they're a lot more hidden about their obsession, mostly because the other girls would be looking at them sideways and probably trying to help reader get the hell away.
Zoey is probably the closest to actual love. She takes note of your interests, anytime she leaves she’ll come back with a present for you and she’ll always make sure that there’s food you like in the penthouse.
Her yandereism comes from a fear of abandonment. After her parents divorcing, her mum moving to Korea and that leading to them not really seeing or talking because of scheduling difficulties, she felt abandoned. Add on the bullying and two faced friends, now that she’s found reader, who is a perfect person with no flaws in her eyes, she doesn’t want to let go.
For the first few months, there isn’t any signs of obsession. There probably isn’t even any obsession, Zoey's too scared of being too much to be too obsessive.
Once you’ve gotten more into the relationship, and Zoey's gotten over the ‘too much’ fear, she now moves into the “you’re gonna leave me” fear.
First sign of her extreme obsession from reader's POV is the fact that one day she just shows you a fully decorated room for you to live in. like now. How'd did I get the photos of you from your high school graduation? don't worry about it babe, focus on this cool stuffie I got you
When it comes to how she manipulates reader, she is mostly using emotions, and she doesn't say it explicitly unless she's desperate ("Don't leave me like everyone else" type shit). She hides most of her manipulation in the disguise of looking for assurance ("You'll won't leave whilst I'm gone right? You won't disappear?").
I don't see her directly threatening you or your family, she's already experienced threats from her bullies, last thing she will wanna do is put you through that. Your family is probably mostly safe because if something does happen to them, you'd just be so sad and what if you're never happy again?
But say some flirts with you?...
the only way to identify them is via their teeth after she's done.
Mira leans more into violence than Zoey. She has no qualms with threatening (or deposing of) your love ones, and will always make sure she’s the one that comforts you if you’re upset about it. She’ll make sure you’re safe.
She doesn’t directly threat you, but if she gets an inkling of you thinking of leaving, her affection starts to get slightly more sinister. You need her. She makes you feel safe. You won’t be safe with her.
Her yandereism comes for a need to be loved. Her parents weren't very affectionate, barely acknowledged her most of the time, and the moment you gave her that smile of yours, she knew that she couldn’t let you go.
The first sign of her obsession is how fast the relationship goes. She tries to get you moved in and connected and dependent with her as soon as possible. It’s not to fast, she just wants to look after you! She can afford it, and it would be far easier if you just lived together cause then we’ll see each other more.
Besides the threatens to your loved ones, most of her manipulation is subtle, but it’s her slowly gaining control over every part of your life. She’s in charge of finances because she can afford to give you the world, then it’s little comments about certain friends and making negative faces about certain things, then it’s start to buy you new clothes, because it would look so nice on you, and getting rid of the clothes that she doesn’t approve of, and so on.
She doesn’t need to say anything to trap you really, the slow sinking of her claws and the silent threat of how she can trap you is enough.
Rumi is silent at first. She slowly isolates you by chasing and picking off your love ones, until all you have is the circle she has made for you.
She isn’t the one to do any of the threats to your loved ones. She has all the money and power one would need, why would she pull the trigger herself?
Her yandereism comes from plain old insecurity. She’s not enough, she’ll never be enough so she has to force you to stay. Selfish maybe, but it’s better for you this way. She has everything that you’d ever need.
She’s not above doing anything. Threats, intimidation, emotional manipulation, control, if it’ll get you to stay, she’ll do it, but she tries to stay out of it as much as possible.
Whenever you try to leave, it won’t succeed. She has demon powers, along with the ability to have your every move stalked.
To stop you leaving, she’ll send something after you. One of her assassins (or “garage crew”) or a pack of demons, and have them attack you, just to swoop in just in time and take you back to the penthouse.
She’ll patch you up, bandaging your wounds gently, and with so much love and care that it throws you for a loop. Maybe this isn’t so bad. You’re safe here after all, Rumi promises she’ll protect you from that again. You can’t really do anything but believe her, and let her look after you for a while.
How would polytrix react to a reader with an American South esthetic and some Southern personality traits (esp for Zoey i imagine itd be a warming sight and lowley remind her of home back in the USA)
At first, Mira and Rumi are definitely going to take like a full ten seconds to understand anything reader says, english or korean, if you have an thick accent . Quite often you'll get asked to slow down because they just aren't used to that accent. They already had to adjust to some of Zoey's americanised korean, and they are struggling even more.
if you use the southern terms of endearment, all three of them will instantly melt. If you call any of them sweetheart, they would eat glass if you asked (they would probably do it without the sweetheart but yk)
Any time you use a saying, there's three different reactions. Zoey will be giggling, Mira will be staring at you like your from a different planet and Rumi will be staring at you concerned. One time you said "A Rooster One Day And A Feather Duster The Next" and Rumi genuinely asked what you do to Roosters where your from (Autistic!Rumi my beloved)
When you first meet Zoey, you two will be having a gossip session about whatever is happening in the US at the moment.
All three girls are probably extremely confused when you mention how often you talk to your family, despite the timezones. They figured that they talk to their family less than the average person considering busy schedules and the family issues but what do you mean that you talk to them three times a week? How do you have stuff to talk about that often?
When you cook for them, they are both thankful cause it's so good and veyr concerned for your health because how are you still living with the amount of butter you used.
MORE MIRA X READER (SFW) PERSONAL HEADCANONS… This is such a long post, sorry not sorry? 😅
Mira x reader, in which Mira just has a very diverse taste in women. She doesn’t care where you’re from or what you look like. If she vibes with you on a deep level then that’s all that matters. (I love my pan and demisexual queen!)
Mira x reader, where Mira’s first girlfriend broke up with her, bc Mira’s parents made it absolutely known that they do not approve of any type of interracial, homosexual relationship.
Mira x reader, where reader kind of goes through the same experience… Except her family ends up learning to adjust and accept whomever reader loves. They almost lost reader to an abusive, controlling POS. So as long as reader’s partner treats her right and gives her all the love in the world, then they’re satisfied.
My personal AU has reader as non Korean, obviously. A black American with a Caribbean heritage to be more specific. Definitely on the soft masc/stud side (we need some love too, y’all 😭) You can ship her with whomever obviously, but I know Mira is all up on her melanin queen, okurr. 👑. (It’s not an essential part to the AU, just giving context, bc some headcanons I post will connect to her race/ethnicity.)
Reader in this AU is an upcoming choreographer who works closely with performers like Beyonce, Lady Gaga, Ariana Grande, K/DA, Ayra Starr, Tems, etc. She’s fluent in English, Korean, and French.
Mira is canonically what, 23/24? I’m making reader a bit older, like 27.
They meet when Huntr/x debuts, and during their US portion of their tour, one of the main back up dancers quits (they get a deal working for Blackpink or TWICE or something, idk roll with me here guys 😅) so reader is hired last minute by Bobby and Celine.
Reader kills it obviously, and Mira develops a crush, bc how tf is this gorgeous being just allowed to move and sway so flawlessly?
She highly admires your skills, and you two find yourself practicing well late into the night to make sure each step of choreography is perfect. You each give each other advice and bounce ideas off each other.
Mira doesn’t know that you end up crushing on her too, so she attempts to shut her feeling down and fails every time. Rumi and Zoey notice immediately and they constantly tease Mira about her crush on you.
Eventually, they do get tired of watching you two dance around each other.
Compliments here, lingering stares and touches there, JUST KISS ALREADY.
It’s to the point where Zoey literally shoves you two together and forces you to sit next to each other during movie/game nights, random outings, whatever.
Rumi is more bold and literally constantly verbally teases you both.
“You wanna kiss her so bad.”
“NO I DON’T, SHUT UP.”
Or…
“If you ask her on a date you’ll have more time to stare at her you know.”
“I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT, I WAS STARING AT THE FLOOR.”
Eventually, Rumi and Zoey just throw you two alone in the dressing room after the last show in the US, bc there is no way they’re allowing Mira to just miss out on a potential romantic opportunity and constantly have to worry about any “what ifs” in the future.
Who confesses first? Well… Let’s just say that Rumi and Zoey return to check up on y’all only to find you two in a mutual lip lock out that a date has been planned before Huntr/x has to head back to South Korea in a week or two, and that’s all that matters.
Spoiler alert the date goes well, teehee.
Reader is a gentlewoman, but so is Mira. At first, it’s a battle between who leads, who pays the bill, who initiated the first(?) kiss, who walks by the street to follow the sidewalk rule, etc. They eventually start to find their own roles/routine (aka they switch on and off).
They’re hesitant to become official bc of distance, but they do try to give it a chance.
It’s tough at first bc of how busy everyone’s schedule is, but they make it work somehow. Through the time differences, texts, and video chats, and demon hunting on Mira’s side, they slowly but surely become an item.
Literally, Rumi and Zoey have no idea how you guys manage it but they love how dedicated you guys are to making things work. If you both ever get any kind of anxious thoughts, thinking that either one of you are losing interest in each other, or if you’re entertaining other people, that’s immediately shut down by Rumi and Zoey.
Whenever you and Mira go on hiatus, you book flights to see each other. Whenever the trip ends it’s… Tough, to say the least. Mira won’t show it but her heart breaks every time she has to leave you. It doesn’t help that you become an outright emotional mess.
After a whole year of this, Mira eventually gets fed up with having to part from you
“Come live with me.”
“…What, what, WHAT!?”
She’s dead serious too, like “deadass, leave the US and come build your life with me on the opposite side of the world” type of serious.
Mira already planned it out two milliseconds after she asked you, honestly.
She’ll get you a guaranteed and permanent position as Huntr/x’s backup dancer. You’ll live in the penthouse with her and the other girls. Did she tell them, Bobby, or Celine yet? No, but they’ll have no choice but to accept lmao.
It doesn’t take you long to agree. Although you’re on better terms with your family, you honestly consider Huntr/x to be more of a family than your relatives ever were.
When they do find out, Rumi and Zoey are more than excited to have you around more. You bring so much light to Mira’s life, how could they not be happy for you two.
Bobby accepts you immediately, thankful for extra help when it comes to the girls in and out of work.
Celine is stoic as ever, but you can tell by the way her face slightly softens that she is okay with you moving into the penthouse. She has to remind Mira and the girls to keep the whole demon hunting thing on a low with you as much as possible.
Post movie obviously they sit you down and explain everything. Rumi appreciates the fact that you admire her patterns and are lowkey jealous you don’t have any… in which they are all confused bc you’re literally covered in a variety of tattoos?
Zoey is so glad to have another American in the group bc she can bust out English slang or American references without any judgement. You two specifically go on friend dates trying to find spots that replicate the Western food and atmosphere as best as possible.
Adjusting to a new country, let alone continent, is… a struggle at first. Especially bc of your background. Mira and the girls are there to help you feel more comfortable as time goes on though. If anyone says something offensive, they shut that shit down immediately.
You guys do have to continue keeping your relationship a secret however, so even though you’re already media trained, Celine sits you two down and reminds you of the “importance” of keeping your relationship on the low. Things were different in the US, where at the time, people were more open to same sex relationships. But Korea views it differently, especially in the idol industry. She just doesn’t want you two facing extreme negative publicity that can severely damage your mental and emotional state overtime.
Post movie, you guys do go public. There are mixed reactions from the fan base, some saying you’re not worth Mira’s attention, which she then shuts them tf up REAL QUICK
“Our real fans would be happy with whoever we settled down with. They wouldn’t bring my partner down, they wouldn’t speak ill of her, and they especially wouldn’t take whatever weird ass parasocial relationship they have with me to such an extreme. You guys know I was the problem child, I have no problem turning that side of me towards you if you ever try to disrespect my girlfriend ever again.”
The press has a field day with her statement, and Huntr/x has to go on another hiatus until the buzz settles. The girls literally don’t care though. More couch time for them and more cuddling time for you and Mira.
Rumi and Zoey are like “wtf” however, bc Mira has set the bar so damn high for whenever they find their own readers and their relationship goes public. How exactly are they supposed to top that?
Real, supportive fans just make stupid, yet harmless comments:
“Who’s the top in the relationship?”
“I bet they both switch.”
“Mira bagging one of Beyoncé’s backup dancers is just so ✨ICONIC✨”
“K/DA missed out when they went silent, Huntr/x just struck big time with that one.”
“I am looking at Reader… Respectfully.”
“If they were to ever accept a third I volunteer as tribute.”
“MOTHERS ARE MOTHERING.”
“Mira looks so happy. I’m so happy for her!”
“Omg! Rumi and Zoey’s turn when? 👀”
Eventually, Mira does end up meeting your family. During a visit back to the US, you decide to stop there to catch up. Things between your family are still rocky, but Mira can tell everyone is trying to make amends with you. They all adore her, and quickly accept her as her bonus daughter.
Obviously, Mira has no idea what to do with this information, bc she has never been considered a daughter to anyone. By the end of the visit she teeters between nonstop smiling and just straight up crying happy tears.
It helps that your family are so uneducated on anything K-pop related LMAO. Your girlfriend is part of a famous girl band? Oh, that’s sweet honey, well at least her career has her set we suppose, and it pairs with yours very well. Make sure y’all don’t overwork yourself and always be proud of whatever you do. And always support each other and lean on each other when needed.
Like fr Mira short circuits bc the actual fuck is going on? What do you mean they like her for who she is? Her overly blunt, short fused self? Oh, she wants to hold on to you and your family for as long as you guys will let her (forever).
When you mention your ex, and how controlling they were, Mira practically seethes.
What do you mean they had the audacity to isolate you from your friends and family? They cheated on you? Oh? They also constantly threatened to off themself whenever you said you were leaving them? Got it, so they’re 100% a demon, right?
“Hey so, I found where they live and looks like they’re still with that POS she cheated on you with too.” Mira just randomly announces one morning while she’s tending to her Gok-Do.
With a slow turn, you stare bewildered at her. “…Mira, what are you-“
“I’m just gonna go talk to them real quick, brb.”
“MIRA, NO!”
You know things between Mira and her family are… Complicated, to say the least. Do they even know how successful she’s become? Do they care that she’s in a happy and healthy relationship with you? Probably not, if we’re being honest, unfortunately.
Mira tells you the important details about them, on her own time. She doesn’t want to shut you off completely from her past, so she learns how to slowly open up, with some encouragement and reassurance from you of course.
You actually see red when she tells you about the first time she brought a girl home. How her parents tried whatever they could to “scare away the gay” out of Mira. They constantly wanted her to repress her true self, and pushed her away in the end, for what?
You make it known with everything you say and do that you’ll always have Mira’s back. You remind her constantly how much you love her for who she is. Even when you guys encounter conflict in your relationship, you always make sure that at the end of the night, nothing will tear you apart from her.
Mira and Celine have private chats about their relationships sometimes. They find comfort in knowing that the other was raised in an environment where they had to repress their love of the same sex and developed some form of internalized homophobia. They bounce date ideas off each other, call the other out if they’re in the wrong, and Mira specifically goes to Celine sometimes for advice whenever arguments between you and her occur.
Because of this, and how much effort she sees Mira trying to make things work with you, it warms Celine’s heart so much to see how happy she is with you. Celine will even go to her own reader and share her thoughts about you two to her.
“They remind me a lot like us, when we first got together.”
Celine herself is pretty intimidating, but the more she learns about you from Mira, and the other girls of course, the more she softens around you.
You are after all an essential part of her unofficial daughter’s life.
That’s all for now omfg. If you read this I genuinely appreciate you taking the time to do so!
Parts were inspired by this: https://www.tumblr.com/daydreaminginmonochrome/799147757322518528/oooo-i-cant-wait-for-the-mira-fic-i-was-just
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whatever you do, don't think about the girls reacting to reincarnated!reader walking away
don't think about how Zoey's smiles drops as she watches reader leave
don't think about Mira staring at the door for the rest of time they're in the cafe, hoping that you'll reappear
don't think about how Rumi pretends it didn't affect her, only to cry when she's alone, wondering why them walking away hurt so much
don't think about the girls trying to find reader again, relying purely on instincts
don't think about how crushed they are when they finally do find them again, reader runs
don't think about Mira throwing herself into work to avoid the guilt she feels. don't think about her only resting when the girls beg her to.
don't think about Zoey filling up three notebooks with the most heartwretching lyrics that will never see the light of day. don't think about her sitting in the studio when the words no longer flow, only wanting them in her arms.
don't think about Rumi going over to Celine's unannounced, and crying when she gets asks how is she. don't think about her wondering if reader would love her once she gets rid of her patterns.
