In his office, the hollow-eyed Professor of Necromancy taps absently at his phone. He is re-making his calendar. His most loyal client has thoughtfully left him a message about the state of her future appointments. He has quite a few vacancies, now.
A student slips out to campus parking on silent feet. He carries very little: a wagon, filled with Snoballs, slightly singed; a beetle-black suitcase, twice as big as his torso; a pitching tent, Hannah Montana, stuck with coarse black fur on one side. Five shaggy black bodies follow dutifully behind. He has nothing to give them - nothing but goodbye, and a carefully stapled sheaf of papers addressed To Ram, take good care of them for us, we’re counting on you - and they know it already. They are simply here to see him off. His letter of confession is folded quaintly, innocuously, next to a body in the locker room. It leans against one yolk-yellow wall, face peaceful. The sixth of the hounds sits vigil at its feet.
Save for the brief grumble of an engine rolling awake, there is little to break the stillness, and as it pulls out of the lot the car avoids the light of the night classes’ windows.
The night is quiet. The girl-shaped shadow perched primly in Beau’s passenger seat stays quiet too.
Alternately: “BEAU GETS SMASHED AND DRUNKEN FISTS SOLANGE OUT OF EXISTENCE” - Lorrayne Lorraynestorm, 2017
Warnings: off-handed mentions of violence (against other persons), friends without benefits (friends with no benefits) (just really really awful friends), inadvisable references to the classics, suicidal ideation, and what probably passes for premeditated murder.
schrodingers-gal
beau.
we literally just talked about you dumping your trauma on people
did you mean to vent on your main or is this some new masochistic thing ur doing
weidesofmarch
What
weidesofmarch
FUCK
schrodingers-gal
thats what i thought
weidesofmarch
nonononono someone even replied to it im
This whole fucking month has been. I have been a little Fuzzy. Lately
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schrodingers-gal
yeah thats a lot to unpack at once
do you want me to bring you a brick of muffin
schrodingers-gal
does this have anything to do with why youre acting like more of a jackass than usual
weidesofmarch
im homeless, solange
schrodingers-gal
im DEAD, BEAU
schrodingers-gal
and living in a dorm isnt homeless even if your roommate dipped
weidesofmarch
This isn’t about my roommate. Im not thinking about that again. I mean i am but the walls move and every time i went inside they were a constant and now theres just me and a billion seizures waiting to happen.
I haven’t been in ra since the night i stayed at wynns
After i left in the morning I just didnt go home
schrodingers-gal
excuse me
where the hell are you
weidesofmarch
Spend most nights in the away locker room with the Dogs so the nighttime sports groups dont bust in on me
Ive been feeling stuff more and I cant remember things and i got really mad about that list thing moire posted forever ago because this has been the worst year of my life vis a vis my powers having no safe outlets what so ever
It was fine when i went home for break. I got to see Dante and the niblings &n that made me static and perfectable and controllable
weidesofmarch
This is not in character for me. Im usually very in tune with my impulses. I dont DO things just to do them i have INTENT i have a purpose
I came here so i could find out why i have to deal with this and whether or not i could stop it but somehwere along the way i ended up in every ones side quests. Ive made 0 fucking progress
Im fucked.
I need to be in control
schrodingers-gal
"need to be in control"
alright u fuckface, YOU were the one who said you couldnt fix me because you had no idea how your touch thing works. stop talking about your life likes its a drama serial
or was that another lie.
schrodingers-gal
you don't get to just ruin my entire life because you get off on being All Powerful
never speak to me again u bloated sack of entitlement u suck
weidesofmarch
Jesus christ thats not what this is
If youre really that sore about it you can come down to the rink while im kitted out n i can kick you in the neck how bout
schrodingers-gal
its a little pathetic is all im saying
and if that would WORK id be more than happy to but we both know it doesn’t
you promised me my dog and you lied. you promised me a way out and you lied
you can get out any time u want. they might hound you for the rest of your life but you belong here because u say u do
weidesofmarch
Its not like i make a habit of snapping people back into their corpes like the fuckiest game of lego there ever was
At this point a way out is all ive been fucking looking for
And youre wrong. Im even wrong. The only true thing i learned from being here is that i am even worse than a nothing. Instead of being a nothing i am an everything all at once. i am a part of all that i have met
i don't belong anywhere. fucking ulysses. fucking cain
weidesofmarch
If you still want it though.
schrodingers-gal
going by how long that pause was you better have come up with something good
weidesofmarch
Absolutely.
Do you remember what i told you about me and Dante
The christmas party thing i mean. When i was really out of it and we turned that dude into a smoothie. I think we could do that too
Maybe not the actual smoothie part that would be gross
schrodingers-gal
and it would be WRONG
weidesofmarch
Ok
schrodingers-gal
unbelievable
i dont see how pureeing my grey matter is supposed to help me or you
we already know my consciousness isnt locked in any one place and its not like the dean will let you go fro anything less than murder
weidesofmarch
Not what i was getting at
Well kind of what i was getting at. Youre halfway there
weidesofmarch
Like ghosts are only visible when theyre putting effort in right. Thats because of some fucky planes of reality liminal space bullshit that basically amounts to them vibrating at different frequencies than solid-based forms
And i know from cmas that I can change those vibrations. All kinds of vibrations. Like a drunk dissociative blender
I mean provided i load up on hallucinogens or dessert wine
schrodingers-gal
so then you
what are you saying
weidesofmarch
Get to the rink asap. If you have alcohol bring it
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i mean i appreciate your argument and all but im more concerned with the stance of things that like eating kids
Ok yes see this is MY question. Are we talking about things LIKING eating kids or eating kids out of convenience/necessity. Are children specific targets or collateral. Is this some fuckin hansel and gretel gingerbread witch nonsense or are these hypothetical kids just part of a long line of unfortunate suckers
& in that vein exactly what are we debating about. assuming its the ACT of eating the child then what about it in particular makes it so heinous? Veal & lamb are a thing and people don't seem to care about that. Is the relative humanity/level of sentience of the subject in question a factor to your outrage or are we yet again arguing arbitrarily because We are unable to separate the objective concept from human and human-aligned patterns of morality
