Dreams'blog

I am just gonna blog all of the dreams I remember when I woke up the next day. Most of them are weird af those :v it's just my dreams so... Yeah I am weird af :v

[weirdafdream]

Haunted district and a cat lover

In my dream I saw a district full of haunted mansions, in which a lot of them had been renovated by some brave teams. However, beyond a bridge, over a misty river where mystical creatures claimed as their home, the mansions were bigger and the haunting atmosphere was way thicker. I feel like the mansions were based on those scary movies and stories that I have watched or read in the past, like AHS Asylum for example. I ventured into some of the house, but I don't remember which, with a group of people. However, I can't seem to remember their faces, only two? One of them was playing with a cat and when he saw me trying to pet the cat he smiled gently and teased me about how aggressive I was toward the cat and he showed me better way of handling them. He was quite my type, but I don't remember the details. Just remember that after that we went to the top floor, there were two rooms that literally freaked me out. A rusty, and broken bathroom with a cracked green bath tub and almost collapsed ceiling and flicking light that makes the scene even more eerie. The bedroom next to it was even worse. When the door creak opened, a very creepy song was playing somewhere in the pit black room. I couldn't see anything from the entrance, nor I was dared enough to venture inside. The mansions all had some sorts of mysteries and stories behind it, and we had to solve all kind of quiz and puzzles lying around the building while trying to dodge their non alive residents. And there was someone, who I couldn't see his face let me lean and sleep on his shoulder, then embraced me in his arm. He gave me a very familiar feeling, that I have met him somewhere in real life. I couldn't tell if he was him? Or the other person? Because every time the light was on, he disappeared, and put someone else in his place. I can definitely tell they were different, especially their hair and body odour. Strange.

[weirdafdream]

Promise ring and forget tea

The other day I have a dream about him, in which most of the details I've already forgotten besides the fact that he gave me a promise ring. After putting it on, we made a pinky promise that we will always be together. Yet the day after he has no memory of me, and ask me to leave along with forbidding me from touching him. His eyes show disgust. I was so shocked that I started to cry. Later on I realised that it was a side effect of the tea that we bought together, the drinker will temporarily forgets the existence of their love one. Such a mean dream...

[weirdafdream]

I think I’m too clingy...

These past few days, I have been having dreams related to his family continuously and it’s been a month since the last time I’ve seen him. Even though his texts are still very... sweet and great, he now only texts me like once a week... I guess I am just too clingy and depending on him. I’ve tried really hard to learn and somehow understand more of how guys think and how their brain process. Or to be more precise, how his mind works. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t try to change him. I know that he’s working hard for his future, to be independent. I understand that being independent makes him feels happier about himself, and ever since he started working again, even when he doesn’t say anything, but I can see his eyes glow with confident and satisfactory. I know that he doesn’t use his phone a lot. So, even though I really want to talk to him, I can’t really do that. If I sent a message, I would have to wait few days or even a week for him to come back to me. If I called him, 99% of the times it would go straight into his voice mail box. And he doesn’t call back either. I guess it just doesn’t show up as miss call. Like he said. 

I tried really hard to distract myself, by studying, by doing part time job, by cooking, by doing my own hobbies. But no matter what I do, I can’t take him off my mind. Even when I sleep, 99% he will be in there. Even in that dream, some other guys confess me to me, I would still think of him, that I can’t betray him. I don’t wanna hurt him like how he was hurt in the past. I want to treasure him and be there for him. I am so occupied with him that it’s already a daily thing. 

I really don’t know what to do. If I have to consider between the good things and bad things about him. I would say that there are a lot more good things than the bad ones. Or at least, I somehow learned to embrace and understand with the some of the bad ones. But I don’t know how to deal with this. 

There are a whole lot of things that I want to do with him, but we never get the chance to do anything... I want to play bowling with him, watch movies with him, go shopping and cook dinner together, watch sunrise together, stargaze together... I want to do stuff that other couples do, but we never get the chance... Because, he’s too busy for any of that... He’s there when I am on the edge, losing hopes. But he never knows when I am sick, or when I have all other kind of transitions in my life. I would also want to be there to hear all about his life, but since we never really call each other, and sometimes receive messages from each other. We missed out on all of that. I am always the last person to know about anything from him. Even though I can feel his love from how he shows affection to me, I can’t help but feeling like I am not even important to him... Like as if we are casually dating. Not a serious relationship. 

At times like this, I can’t help but feeling vulnerable, stress over it, worry about nonsenses... I am just not that strong girl who can handle everything. I can smile to people saying that I am fine, because I don’t want people to worry about me... But I would cry every night thinking about how lonely I feel. Would anyone understand that feeling? Like my boyfriend lives 3 mins away from me and I haven’t seen him in a month. And we only meet once every one or two months. That’s why, he would never know, how much I treasure those moment when we’re together, I just never want it to end. He would never know how much I don’t want him to leave. Because when he leaves, I can’t help but wondering, when will we see each other again?

I don’t know what he does everyday. I don’t know where he works, when he works. I don’t know his family. I don’t know how’s he like at school. How’s he like around his friends. I know the big picture, not the details. I wish I know more about him, to understand him better. I wish I can be as calm and cool as you, Takeshi-san. So that I don’t have to think about all of this nonsenses. And worry about stupid stuffs.

[weirdafdream]

I met his family and I was cursed

I was looking for his room amongst many other rooms and he found me. I gave him the Christmas present that I prepare long ago and he gave me a big hug. It then turned out that I was staying at his house and I had to meet and have dinner with his family. I was really nervous caused I didn't wanna mess things up and give them a bad impression of me :< but somehow in my dream, I was very weak and fragile. If I moved too much I started to feel dizzy and tired. But since everyone was very kind towards me I couldn't excuse myself to take a rest but tried to help preparing for dinner and stuff. The headache and dizziness stopped once we sat down for dinner. And the problem started. I was talking to his family and I felt a drop of water fell down to the table. I looked down and realised it wasn't water, it's blood. He asked me whether I was okay since my face became really pale. And I tried to cover things up my using tissue papers and laughed it off. But things worsened, I started to bleed more and he realised what was really happening to me and everyone else was also freaked out and started to worry. He brought me inside and he was so worried and scared that he kept asking me if I was okay and held me really tight with his hand held mine. ;'> and then I passed out and the scenery changed. I was dragging him along for a mission since the world was now taken and controlled by a dark force. In cases, in other to run away from people we had to curse them by saying "For the sake of ............, A and B will accept the dark fates lie in front of them and sacrifice themselves." And they would be gone. For each person we had to curse two people to earn more power. What a twisted dream. The rest I don't really remember, caused I woke up half way.

[weirdafdream]

I have amnesia and freakin' forgot abt my bf

My bf and I were trapped in wonderland and that’s where time’s frozen. That’s where we get more time for each other without having to worry abt all other stuff (work,uni,family etc.). We learn more abt each other during that time and eventually he learned to show more affection towards me. Guess what? I freakin’ lost my memories abt him, and forgot abt his existence!!!! (which in real life is like 0.0000000000001% possible) and he keeps texting me everyday without realising that I forgot abt him :v (that’s just weird af) then one day when I suddenly remember abt him, I turn on my phone and saw hundreds of messages from him and from him solely. But the newest one was from his mom. And she told me that’s he’s in a serious state - he’s in a coma. And i was literally freaked out. When I read all of his messages, i felt like my heart was torn apart. It felt like I broke his heart and my heart at the same time. He never once blamed me or gotten angry with me but he just sent me cute messages that try to make me reply. (Idk how i would feel abt that becuz it feels painful, cute but also embarrassing AF!!! Can’t believe i have such a dream.) he even made a video and post it on youtube before putting himself into a sleeping curse (OUAT’s reference. I watched too much tv show ==“) And the people on youtube were like “Awwwww…. Forget abt her, she’s a damn b**ch” :v idk how shld I feel abt that. But in my dream I know one thing that when he’s in that sleeping curse he will return to wonderland. And that’s exactly where I have to go to get him back. (Still couldn’t believe that i would ever forget him and i did, in my dream) I finally woke up when I got him back. It makes me feel so embarrassed to have such a dream but at the same time make me scared if I ever lose him. It was such a vulnerable moment for me…