I've been gone forever, I'm back now, and don't know if that's going to be consistent or not. I don't entirely know what I wanna say: I put Shahs on hiatus about a year before the pandemic started and now I don't know if I ever want to play live music again. That's not really related to being afraid of anything, I got COVID at least a couple times in the last three years. I was already retreating from the world about a year before that even happenedā¦
I'm sure some folks that know me close already know this but friendsā¦I am not a well person. Never really have been. I'd been wrapping myself up in that warm motherly blanket of alcohol for hours, days, and sometimes years at a time. I still frequently relapse. I often oscillate between thinking I can find a way to enjoy the nice things (wine at dinner, a well-made craft beer) and still keep it in check but I dunno, I wonder if all that worry and attention just means it needs to be something that joins Logjam Presents into the dustbin of history.
Oh cliches! I love you all, please know I do. Life has been hard in the last (checks notes) foly huck six years (!?!?!) since I last posted anything on here. I went back to school, got my first Associates of Science degree and now work IT for a reputable firm. The ball is rolling up. I've embraced the nerd I'd been hiding for decades during the pandemic, embracing my role as a Game Master for a sprawling group of weirdos playing Dungeons & Dragons, Cyberpunk Red, and some other tabletop-roleplaying-games during this time. I'm a budding DnD miniatures painter now too, go figure. I won't lie, I am not on the pulse of anything, Missoula's music scene or otherwise, and haven't been for quite some time. I'm fucking 40 now, dude. I'm the dude I used to think was weird explaining psychedelics at the house show to a bunch of children. I don't actually think you're children, btw. I let hyperbole get the better of me more often than not. That said, I've been listening to loads of Alice Coltrane, wishing well upon my fellow humans, but still the world seems to be getting constantly worse!
I'll play with y'all though. At the very least I need to keep going with the records A-Z project because that's fun for me. We. Shall. See. Lemme know A) if you even read this and B) how that makes you feel.
Kisses.
-WM













