have a look inside my head

*TRIGGER WARNING* BPD, DRUGS i just reblog everything i can relate to and sometimes my own stuff

[givemeantypsychotics]

i don't want to heal i want them pay for what they did

[welcometomylittleworld]

Here we go again♥️🏥

[cyberiapinksosa333]

“wtf is wrong with you”

you mean like today or like in general?

[loserstar18-deactivated20251109]

My brain be like:

it's getting bad so make it worse

[welcometomylittleworld]

[pleaseseemeibeg]

why can't everything be okay why does everything have to go so so wrong out of nowhere

[sarahlynnsyndrome-deactivated20]

A psychological horror film but it’s just someone having to live in my head for a day

[runningupthathill222]

Feelings I don’t like

- Meeting a new person and trying to know what to say but not knowing what to say.

- Not being able to understand what relationships are supposed to be and how it works.

- Having to do math on the spot and everyone knows I’m stupid.

- Being so angry that I just want to say the cruelest things I can think of just because I know it’ll hurt.

- Being 100% sober

- The feeling I get after listening to a sad song and I feel empty and hopeless.

- Feeling like I’m missing out but also can’t mentally be near people my age.

- When I’m trying to actually open up and tell someone how I feel or I post about it then I get embarrassed for feeling those things.

- I hate how I feel after I show my dad my art now because he seems so uninterested recently.

- Finding out how someone sees me and it being very different from how I see myself.

- Feeling like the only real person in the world one minute but the next feeling like a ghost.

Feelings I do like

- The feeling I get in my stomach after eating a yummy slice of cake.

- Laying on the trampoline and having the sun hit my face.

- Riding my bike on a slightly hotter day and feeling the wind in my hair and in the back of my neck.

- Sitting in the river after walking miles with my dog.

- Waking up on a cold morning and having the first sip of hot coffee.

- Seeing someone I love for the first time in a long time.

- The way I feel after I just worked really hard and I finally sit down for the day.

- Laying in bed then having all the animals willingly come lay next to me, falling asleep with their tummy on display.

[alsale7-deactivated20211018]

kiss me, I wanna lose my mind again

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

i am so embarrassed that i am me.

[lisarowewashere]

I wonder how beautiful life must be when you don't have trust issues, depression, mood swings, overthinking, paranoia, anxiety, detachment, isolation or fear.

[welcometomylittleworld]

[lost-ang3l]

i hate myself more than anyone could ever hate me.

[maybeshehasbpd]

Life is always bad and won’t ever get better

[welcometomylittleworld]

Mein Herz spür ich nur nach Ner Überdosis Amphetamin

[hellish-daddi]

[traeumendestille]

Taten werden immer beweisen, warum Worte nichts bedeuten.