What's in Nelle's Head?

Random thoughts, random ideas, random opinions, random reflections..... a random person.

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The Beauty of a Small Circle

In the midst of life's hurry and bustle, I've grown to understand the heartwarming joy of establishing a small, close-knit circle of relationships. As time has passed, I've realized that when it comes to relationships, quality much outweighs quantity. A small group of safe people, as opposed to the temporary ties of a broad web of relationships, provides a sense of sincerity and depth that feeds the spirit. Each contact becomes a haven of true connection, where I may freely express my hopes, worries, and accomplishments. This intimacy helped me to fully know and understand one another, forming an unbreakable tie that can withstand life's storms.

Having a small safe group has given me a priceless feeling of security and trust. It is a haven of mutual support and steadfast loyalty. We become each other's pillars, providing a shoulder to cry on in times of difficulty and a cheerleader in times of triumph. These experiences that we share show the depth of our relationships, as we not only enjoy each other's achievements but also hold hands amidst life's struggles. There is an underlying comfort in knowing that, no matter what, this small safe safe space will always be there for me, offering consolation and support.

Furthermore, having a limited group enables me for significant growth and self-discovery. Each member of this treasured group acts as a mirror, reflecting back insights into who we have become and who we want to be. Their unrelenting sincerity and constructive feedback inspire me to strive for self-improvement and personal progress. I feel empowered in this safe area to explore new aspects of my identity, pursue my hobbies, and embrace my uniqueness without fear of criticism. It became an avenue for continual discovery of oneself and a source of infinite inspiration with our shared journeys, heart-to-heart talks, and mutual respect.

My small circle of friends or safe space is a masterwork in the fabric of life, stitched with threads of sincerity, trust, and personal progress. It is a safe sanctuary where I can be my true self, knowing that I am loved for who I am. This circle serves as a beacon of light as I travel the maze of existence, illuminating my route with its unfailing support and enhancing my trip with its tremendous beauty.

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Optimism through the Eyes of Children

One thing remains consistent in the middle of life's ups and downs: my unwavering love for being among children. The presence of 4 children in my life has brought me immense joy and a renewed sense of purpose. I hope to make a lasting impression on their life as "ate," "tita," and "ninang," and to be remembered as someone they can look up to - kind, patient, loving, and strong.

Child No. 1 - To be remembered as a "Ate" who embodies strength and resilience:

Child #1 is my guidance counselor’s daughter. Through the eyes of child #1, I understood that being around children brings me great joy because it reminds me of the significance of embracing our inner child. I find delight and comfort in Child #1’s laughter - I muster the courage to address my own difficulties. Her eyes remind me that life will be okay, and the world isn’t so bad at all. This youngster has left an indelible imprint on my heart. In the future, I want to be remembered as an ate who, despite life's challenges, is strong, perseverant, and resilient. I hope I get the chance to teach her that life's difficulties are only stepping stones to greatness. Her Nanay has played a huge role in my senior year in college, specifically in my life, and I wish to return the favor through her child.

Child No.2 & 3 - To be remembered as a "Tita" who wholeheartedly supports:

Child #2 is my 4th eldest cousin's daughter, and Child #3 is my 5th eldest cousin's daughter. As a "tita" to children #2 and #3, my love for them has no boundaries, even though circumstances keep us apart at times. In my absence, I try to be a continual source of encouragement and support. My heart overflows with pride as I watch them grow up, and I treasure every time we spend together creating treasured memories. Being around my nieces has taught me that pleasure can be found in the tiniest gestures - a smile, a hug, or a shared chuckle. As I look into their eyes, I am reminded that kindness is free and can be given to everyone. I want to be remembered as a "tita" who was always there for them, even if it was from a distance, applauding them every step of the way. My affection for them motivates me to keep going in life, knowing that I have a mission to be a role model of patience and empathy.

Child No. 4 - on be remembered as a "Ninang" on whom one can rely:

Child #4 is my cousin's daughter and is my only "inaanak". Child #4 has a particular place in my heart. As her "ninang," I want to be a constant in her life, someone she can count on. She brought an incredible sense of delight into our family’s life from the day she was born. As she matures, I intend to be a guiding force in her life, nourishing her hopes and aspirations. I see the possibility to make a difference in the eyes of Child #4, to be remembered as a "ninang" who provided steadfast love and support. Being around her has taught me the genuine meaning of love and the importance of making a good difference in the lives of children. My love for kid #4 motivates me to be patient, caring, and kind, traits she can model as she travels her own path.

Being with children has opened up a wellspring of joy and significance in my life. My interactions with these four youngsters have reaffirmed the value of portraying strength, support, and reliability. I want to be known as an "ate," a "tita," and a "ninang" who leaves a legacy of compassion, patience, and love. These young souls have given me a cause to live, leading me to enjoy the joys of youth and the amazing bonds we have. I find motivation in their eyes to be the greatest version of myself and to leave a legacy of love, strength, and optimism for them to carry with them throughout their lives.

I've seen a wonderful shift in my life through the eyes of children, and it fills my heart with hope and pleasure. Their steadfast faith in the goodness of the universe, as well as their endless curiosity, have reignited my own sense of wonder and hope. As I go through the complexity and hardships of life, the simplicity of their cheerful laughter and unbounded imagination serves as a reminder to enjoy the small things and find happiness in the ordinary. Their innocence has become an indication of direction for me, illuminating my way and demonstrating that life's difficulties can be confronted with perseverance and a renewed sense of purpose.

In their company, I have rediscovered the beauty of living in the present moment, since they show me that the future is not something to dread, but rather a chance to develop, learn, and make lovely memories together. The unconditional love and trust they show me motivate me to be a better person by instilling in me a feeling of mission and a desire to make a good difference in their lives and the world they will inherit.

I discovered optimism in the limitless possibilities for tomorrow and the immense power of love and fostering connections through the eyes of children.

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A Car Hesitant to Venture onto a Bustling Steer

It's one rainy morning here in España and I wait for my review school class to start. As I wait, I took time to stare out the window and look at how the traffic is - cars were stuck. Little did I know that I was already thinking and feeling anxious.

As I embark on a new adventure, with the looming challenge of impending boards, I am overcome with anxiety and doubt. I feel like a car, a car hesitant to venture onto a bustling steer, where the traffic of expectations and duties is moving at a lightning-fast pace. The uncertainty of tomorrow grabs me fiercely, like an out-of-control steering wheel. In this anxious moment, I understand that like cars that finally find their rhythm in the middle of the turmoil, I, too, can handle the obstacles and uncertainties that await me forward.

The fear of failure and the weight of expectations are like red lights that temporarily block my progress. Doubts fill my head like traffic, delaying my progress toward my goals in life. Observing the automobiles on the road, however, I notice that red lights gradually turn green, permitting the vehicles to go. Similarly, I recognize that conquering my fears and concerns would need patience and courage. I must believe in my ability and remain committed, believing that the difficulties will be overcome, and my career will progress.

As I watch the experienced drivers expertly handle their vehicles through the congested streets, I feel reminded that many of them were once inexperienced. Each turn on the road and even the narrow streets taught them something new. Similarly, I might view trials and failures as wonderful learning opportunities. Every successful profession and/or individual had challenges and successes, much like vehicles on the road, which occasionally hit difficult sections. Instead of submitting to fear, I plan to turn my worries into fuel for personal growth and development. I can handle the difficulties of my life’s journey and firmly direct myself toward success by learning from my failures and embracing each challenge with faith and courage.

My anxiety over my forthcoming boards is similar to a hesitant car on a busy roadway. But, just as cars find their way through traffic, I can overcome my worries and doubts by depending on my perseverance, patience, faith in myself, and a little encouragement from people I cherish.

Like the traffic lights that finally turn green, I know that the roadblocks will be removed, and my career will progress.

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It’s Raining in Quezon City

It’s raining in Quezon City and I am looking outside my window then I realized….

Life is a complicated path filled with ups and downs. Throughout my life, I've realized that the beauty of life may be compared to rain - soft and pleasant at times, stormy and powerful at others. Tears are a fundamental aspect of our human experience, just as rain is a natural component of the Earth's cycle. I used to assume that displaying vulnerability or crying was a sign of weakness, but I now realize that it is acceptable to weep sometimes. Tears may cleanse our hearts and provide solace during terrible times, just as rain does for the Earth.

Accepting the analogy between life and rain has helped me to accept the highs and lows of life. Rainfall may represent periods of restoration and expansion, much as pleasurable events in life offer us happiness and contentment. Stormy weather, on the contrary, could suggest difficulties and obstacles, like the difficulties we face on our own paths. Accepting the natural course of both rain and tears has taught me to value the complete range of emotions that makes us human beings, recognizing that it is through these various experiences that we genuinely grow as individuals.

In addition, experiencing life through the lens of rain has taught me the importance of emotional expression. Tears, like rain, assist in cleansing the Earth of pollutants and allow us to find consolation inside ourselves. Emotional load and pain can result from suppressing our sentiments. Permitting ourselves to weep when we need to allow us to experience emotional release, which leads to a restored sense of enlightenment and calmness. This revelation has changed my perception of tears from a sign of weakness to an important part of emotional self-care.

It has been a great discovery for me to compare the beauty of life to rain and to accept that it is okay to cry sometimes. Understanding that life, like rain, contains both happy and sad times. It has helped me understand the variety and complexities of human experiences. I've learned to acknowledge my feelings and emotional well-being by understanding the purpose of tears in our life. 

The beauty of life is not in the lack of problems, but in our capacity to accept and develop through them, just as rain maintains and generates the world around us.

It’s raining in Quezon City; I realized these things. :)

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Nelle’s Comeback

I cannot remember the last time I wrote a blog. Probably, it was way back in high school when I last posted something in here since life was not as “pressuring”, “busy”, and “challenging” as it seems like when I reached college then eventually graduated.  😬

Writing is my first love. ❤️️ Ever since I was a kid, I loved writing poems, stories, and the likes as long as it fits my taste! (Well, nobody wants to do something they don’t like.... just like, academic essays?  😝 Kiddin’!) And oh, I also love music which actually motivated me to write. I always wanted to create music but life has a way of telling me that I have another purpose. 😉

As I make my comeback in here, I’ll be writing about anything and everything that’s in my head! LITERALLY ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING as long as I feel like writing and sharing about it! 😁 Well, random thoughts, random ideas, random opinions, random reflections... and maybe some of my snaps, artworks, and music too! I’m such a random person! 😂

Just make sure that when you read what’s in here, you’re open-minded to it and you acknowledge that we are all unique. In short, respect our differences. I’d like to highlight that any views and opinions that I express do not state or reflect any of my family members, friends, organizations, and management I am in. Let’s make this cyberspace a safe space. Shoot me a DM should you have any concerns or whatso with what I write.

I am excited to see what’s ahead of this blog that I have. Glad to be with you in this space! 😊