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a 22 girl just trying to figure all this out. INFJ 4w3 - Méx - Bi - Capri - Bipolar Type II

[wheream101]

Just some pics of myself 'cause my tumblr is so empty

[mayariv3rs-deactivated20240415]

jerking off to me is actually super good for ur health btw

[depressedlilcunt-deactivated202]

[sadeceruhsuz-deactivated2024031]

[dustsculptures]

i’m obviously right just look at my boobs

[disgustinggf]

[slitherysrpent]

watching my strap slide in, to see how it slowly disappears inside her, to see the expression on her face change as she feels me filling her up has got to be a holy experience

[wheream101]

I'm getting over you.

little by little,

I haven't added a song to the playlist I made for u in a while

I can see and read and watch couples being in love without quite wishing they were us

I haven't wrote you anything since that one last love letter

I can even talk to my friends about you without mentioning how special and sweet and important you are

yes, I can do all that now

but still, sometimes

in nights like this

I keep daydreaming about how it would be to kiss you at least once

how would your lips feel?

as soft and pure as in my fantasies?

and how the both of us would act after it?

I guess there are a lot of things I will never know about you and me

so many unanswered questions

so many unrealistic scenarios and expectations

but I'm trying

yes I am trying

to let the ghost of you be free

to make peace with the fact that we will never be a thing more than what we are now

I'm working so hard to be just fine with that

and I know it will stop hurting,

eventually.

[happycorelovecore]

Art by April Seelbach

[traumasurvivors]

Something my friend and I were talking about that I think is important is what can happen sometimes when abuse stops.

For my friend, she expressed that her mental health got worse when the abuse stopped. And we talk about that because for a lot of survivors, it’s what happens when we’re feel we’re safe now and our brains begin to process the trauma. But there can be other reasons, too. And for her, it was because she suddenly didn’t feel important anymore. Because while the cruelty sucked, it made her feel she mattered. After it was done, the person was indifferent to her and it felt worse to her.

And I asked her if it was okay if I talked about this because it isn’t something I’d thought of before and I imagine there’s a lot of people who could benefit from me sharing her experience so you know you aren’t alone.

If that’s how you feel, your feelings are valid. And it doesn’t mean you deserved the abuse. It’s okay if your feelings are complicated. You aren’t alone and you are still worthy. Always.

[lewerta]

When the moon peeped out briefly from behind the clouds.

Photo by Angelica Ramirez  

[ruhlare]

Come home to my soul and find rest in my heart

[borderlinereminders]

Honestly, if I can make just one person feel loved, or important or like they matter or that they can get through something hard, then I’ve accomplished something I’m proud of.

[stockholmgf]

i think everyone deserves to have sex with someone who treats you like you’re the most precious thing on the planet

[uroko]

Enbaru River, Yamagata City, Japan // 癒しの自然風景 ♡

[notbeingnoticed]

[agayconcept]