Whitebird

~Saskia Minam Whitebird Lay~ I've always suffered from depression for years, but right before I turned sixteen the song "Mother's Little Helper" by the Rolling Stones had suddenly inspired me to quit taking my anti-depressants. Currently, my life goal is to at least try to solve all of my problems realistically. Dulling my emotions for so many years has made me feel like I've been held back from becoming the person that I have always wanted to be! Since I've been off of the medication, It feels like the beginning all over again, but I've promised myself this. No matter how many times a day suicide feels like a choice, I cannot face that risk until I have finished writing the book that I've been working on since the 8th grade! Now every thought, emotion, and question that I face each and everyday seems to be answered in my own story, through myself. It's actually solving the depression.

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"Enough colors to satisfy"

"If you had the chance to see your entire life so far in one photograph, how many colors would it contain?

..Enough?

It's factual that there are literally thousands of colors that the human eyes aren't allowed to see. Again, If you were to see the photo of your entire life so far, would you see colors that you would of now thought were un-imaginable? Now is the time to put a stop to surrounding yourself with the people that made you see right through your own life.

You think that there are limits for your tiny life to be full-filled by, but please just let the trust in your gut take a closer look."

-Saskia

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Roses are red,

violets are blue,

I heard you like Star Wars,

May the force be with you.<3

~NERD DAY 2013~

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So hot

I strait up have no idea why it’s so darn attractive when a guy can do the chubucca impression. Half of the guys I’ve ever dated could do it now that I think about it..

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Classy enough of a video to be stylized as an older horror film.. But It still fits in the genre of retarded. #blackandwhite#oldhorrorfilm#cats#saskia#ilovecats#zombie#ahh#oldzombiemovie#classy#imscared#retarded#retro

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"Be the giant sun. A lonely star that gives both enough light and strength to save worlds. The littler stars are the ones that will fall beneath you into complete darkness." -Saskia lay (me)

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my favorite movie ever is "children of men".. along with "angel-a" and "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind". wbu?

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"in every soul there sits two hungry wolves.

one evil, one good.

the one that you eventually choose to live by is the one that you feed most"

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WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER WHEN YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD?

listening to arcade fire.. duh.