'April'

Last Month's Crush

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Part of a comic strip I was making, absolutely love black and white as colors.

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Wandering alone.

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Artist Fear #0005

Forgetting which color makes what while painting and making brown or grey accidentally.

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Artist Fear #0004

The lead in a pencil breaking mid sharpening.

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Artist Fear #0003

Forgetting where you last put favorite drawing utensil

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Artist Fear #0002

Ink bleeds through paper and makes a hole.

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Artist Fear #0001

Dropping a drawing pencil and the pencil lead breaks.

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Dreaming is time traveling

Perhaps you will find yourself back in

your childhood home,

with a loved one no longer,

a younger self, innocent and unburdened

Or perhaps you will visit the city of Macaw

A city that does not exist

at least in your times

But you see it still through the vagueness

A splendor you've never seen

An image evoking beauty and grandeur

Instilling feelings of amazement capable

of bringing tears to your eyes

Oh how desperate we may cling to these dreams while knowing

Like fact separating from fiction

Like all dreams day or night, and like all time traveling machines

We open our eyes and find ourselves,

Home, home in our present timeline

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Beauty

Beauty is Immaculate

Worship it

The concept

The belief

Without having the thought

That defines your beauty

you will find

that Beauty is immaculate

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I have white wall aesthetic.

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Boxes of Brown

Boxes upon boxes of brown

I stacked them up and frowned

Inside, hid old memories and new memories

Built behind invisible walls of allegories

I witnessed tragedy in the way experiences speak

To all in kind, at our peaks

I visited an empire centered around a conviction

And I heard their words, and believed in the freedom of diction

But the message they wrought

Twisted and changed and everyone forgot

What really was the lesson

And the motivating reason

That the King of Ideas ardently taught

About a kind of civilization that bought

Only the kind of freedom that came

From a long, long repeated history of pain

Boxes and boxes of brown

I dug and dug deeper down

Holes to bury the unpopular legends

Then filled them with dirt, hoping to mend

All the missing words, the unfinished sentences

Sadly, my eyes can’t read through broken lenses

For even truth comes with lies

And behind these boxes, it loves to hide

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How Long

Started crawling at the age of 12

Didn’t really know why I existed  But like other kids, wanted to find out

Talking at the age of 19

Never did know what I wanted to say before

I understood what my words really meant

Standing at the age of 21

That’s when I started learning how to be independent

Not just relying on my momma or dadda

Walking at the age of 25

Chasing my dream, feel’in old but

I know I’m young

cuz’ no matter how long time keeps passing

I always keep asking myself

“How long until I become an adult?”

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Here in your Life

My dear there comes a time

When in your life, you will think

About all your crimes

Done in a blink

Of hasty judgement and emotion

But fret not my dear

For learning is the solution

To earning the late forgiveness of your peers

And my dear,

Even if you’ve wronged me

Never fear

Because I’ll always be  .

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Here

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The Gates

Striding in, I looked for an exit

This place was not where

I wanted to stop

I had escaped, but what had I opened?

The gates to my last thoughts

An abandoned castle, the unseen tribute

To the ill, the damned, the unspoken

All lay here, to the gates I opened

And what remained past was

What I had escaped

But what I had escaped was much

More pleasant in comparison than what I faced

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Black Window

I sat down by a black window

Your figure passing by 

Wistful thinking, as I sat idly

Loneliness accompanied me

The door opened, a breath of mint

Came in, and I looked over

At your figure stopped by

Strangers we were

Separated by a black window

Met by circumstance

Our loneliness agreed

That for us it would be the best

If we acknowledged it with

A wordless smile, an

Empty face but hey if I had to be

honest, then I could have sworn

That for a split moment, 

Happiness accompanied me

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Haiku-(01);[God Complex]

They believe in God I thanked them for becoming My life’s greatest fans

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Title

So I made something To my own surprise (-) Built out of tears and years of strife (-) I showed my momma who said, “son ..” (-) “You really gotta ..” “get a life.” (-) But gods don’t stop When the story ends (-) ‘Cause the legend keeps continuing if they’re in (-) The rolling world they created The life that I’ve been (-) Creating and controlling How it spins (-) ...