Sustain Me With Suffering

Fueled by coffee and whump. Millennial. they/them

[whump-me]

Hello! Call me Zee (they/them). I like whump and I write stuff. I'm a long-time connoisseur of whump, and use this blog to share and collect the things that strike my fancy. Writing-wise, I’m a jaded veteran of the indie publishing trenches, and I’m here to use my powers for evil by writing stories as dark as my whumpy heart desires. In my other life, I've published a whole mess of stuff under a different name (it's not a secret--you can find links on this blog if you dig, or just ask), but I'm in the process of moving my overtly whumpy writing over to the pen name Lux Thorn. (Call me Lux if you don't want to remember multiple names--I'll answer to it.)

I write some prompts and shorter stuff, but my heart belongs to long-form fiction. Expect defiance, torture, twisted and adversarial psychological intimacy, damage both physical and mental, and a lot of death. My longer stories will always end happily, if you define a happy ending as an emotionally satisfying victory for a sympathetic character, but don’t expect it to look like a fluffy caretaking arc.

I’m bad at tagging. I do my best to tag a few things that I know are big nopes for a lot of people (gore, noncon, character death), but if you need comprehensive tags for your mental health, it’s probably best not to follow. You can always ask to be added to the tag list for specific stories.

I have a Patreon! Read my fiction before it gets posted here, plus bonus Patreon-exclusive stories.

I boost whump writers who are selling their work, because writers should get paid and we need more whump in this world. Got a Patreon, a Ko-fi, an ebook for sale? Do you take commissions? Send me an ask, tag me in your promo post, or use the submit button.

Stuff I like:

Defiant whumpees

Cold whumpers

Whumpees of all genders, including lady whump

Interrogations!

Character death

Spy whump

Lab whump

Dehumanization

Fantasy and sci-fi whump

Mercy killing

Emotional whump

Team whump

Mind games

Degradation (nonsexual)

Stuff you’ll rarely, if ever, find here:

Comfort and caretaking

Fanfic

Pet whump/BBU

Masochism and voluntary submission

Extreme gore

Writing

Martyr (complete): sci-fi interrogation whump with a defiant whumpee, a cold female whumper, torture, emotional whump, and devastating personal realizations on both sides. Masterpost

Unburied (complete): written for the Whump Girl Summer event. Fantasy whump with spies, magic, human sacrifice, and loyalty that transcends death. Masterpost

Conquest (complete): no-magic fantasy whump with a royal whumper, a fearful but quietly defiant nonbinary whumpee, degradation, cultural differences, fantasy politics, and an intense and complicated relationship between whumper and whumpee (no romance). Masterpost

Whumptober 2023 (complete): a collection of standalone stories set in my Mind Games universe, a modern-day sci-fi/fantasy thriller setting with the feel of shows like The 4400, Flashforward, and Travelers. Spy whump, lab whump, so much emotional whump. Masterpost

Obscure (complete): novel-length interrogation whump about a rebel leader who can erase memories with a thought, an interrogator who can see inside his subjects’ minds… and the connection they share that neither of them suspects. Part of the Mind Games universe. Masterpost

Unseen (complete): a whump novel about a ruthless mob heiress and the superpowered assassin she kidnaps and forces to work for her—and the unexpected friendship that develops between them. Part of the Mind Games universe. Masterpost

Protector (complete): a novella-length whump story about a ruthless superpowered assassin trained from childhood to kill, and the brother determined to save him from himself. Part of the Mind Games universe. Masterpost

Ashes (complete): a dark and extremely whumpy Cinderella retelling where the handsome prince is a sadistic villain and his former bride is out to get her revenge… before he can choose a new victim at the ball. Masterpost

Beastly (complete): a whumpy Beauty and the Beast retelling where the captive is as dangerous as the captor… and their cat-and-mouse game is as entertaining for them both as it is deadly. Masterpost

Standalone Stories Things That Need to Be Said Worth the Cost

[whump-me]

Whumpee has been in captivity for so long they don't have anyone looking for them anymore. When their body is finally found, it takes weeks to even find anyone who used to know them. And they've aged so much that their loved ones don't recognize them.

[whump-me]

When the interrogation subject finally gives in, it's not like they thought it would be. There's no big decision to cooperate. No collapse, no breaking of their will. No sense of defeat. It's just about making the next few moments a little less unbearable. That's all.

[cepheusgalaxy]

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[ewaneneollav]

what if after job interview you catch a glimpse of the person’s notepad & see they wrote “things have learnt to walk that ought to crawl”

[whump-me]

Whumpee's body is so mutilated that even the people who know them best can't identify their corpse with any certainty.

[whump-me]

Whumper stomps on whumpee's neck, casually crushing their trachea, then stands back and watches as whumpee struggles to breathe.

[whumpmehardandsoft]

Whumpee who survives, escapes, begins to heal, finds a cause and a new found family, and just tries to forget any of it happened.

Only to come to work one day and learn that their cause’s newfound benefactor is Whumper. They’ve become vital to the cause, through money/connections/supplies/intel. They’re starting to befriend Whumpee’s team’s members.

Nowhere feels safe anymore. Whumpee lives in constant fear of ending up in a room alone with Whumper, of being followed home. They’re too paranoid to be of much use to the group. The whole team notices, but Whumpee refuses to tell them what’s wrong, forces themself to treat Whumper like a casual acquaintance. Because if the team knew, they’d oust Whumper in a second, and too many lives are depending on the benefits Whumper brings to the cause.

(Or maybe, the Team would decide Whumpee wasn’t worth the loss and get rid of them instead. And even if it means falling back into Whumper’s clutches, they refuse to lose another family)

[b0amagination]

Failed Mission

This is my piece from the @whump-art-exchange for @timefliesinadream! I had such a blast drawing your blorbo and I hope you like the angle I went for! Their outfit gave me suuuch sci-fi dystopia vibes <3

And a huge thank you to Mottinthepot and the mods of the event for putting this all together!

[whump-me]

Whumper disposes of their basement captive by drugging them and releasing them by the side of the highway. The confused whumpee stumbles out into the path of an eighteen-wheeler. The truck never even slows down as it crushes them. Their body lies by the side of the road, flattened in parts and crumpled in others, like any other roadkill.

[literarystarfish]

I love a dazed, out-of-it, purely broken whumpee. One who is so gone and dead to the real world, they don’t notice a single thing going on. Perhaps it’s a learned coping mechanism to get through the torture. Whumpee, who is pliant to whumper’s will and clocked out to the pain not because they want to, but because it’s the only way they get through it all. Perhaps it’s what whumper was waiting for—finally breaking them into an impossible, unrecognizable shred of a being doing barely more than living despite it all.

Whumpee, so mentally broken and having physically given up so completely that they are numb to anything happening to or around them. They see and hear and feel nothing.

Not whumper.

Not whumper’s continued torture.

Not even caretaker who’d only just rushed in, ready to fight for whumpee, hoping and praying that whumpee hadn’t yet perished, only to see them doing little more than staring up at nothing, eyes dull and unseeing, with their head rolled back, barely reacting more than the involuntary flinches of their body’s nervous system and not because the feel anything happening to them. Looking more dead than caretaker ever thought a still living being could be.

Dazed. Unresponsive. Gone.

And make sure a friend or loved one sees how broken they’ve become.

Yeah. Do that to your whumpees.

[whump-me]

Photos of whumpee's brutal injuries are used in a textbook as examples of horrific torture. Whumpee happens across this book by accident, decades later.

[tracingthetapestry]

the idea of whumper leaving facial scars is just so. cruel. whumpee's entire body is littered with scars and blemishes which they can cover up and hide their shame.

but the ones on their face, they are inescapable. whumpee starts hunching their shoulders, their neck is always bent, their face in the uneven flickering shadows. avoiding eye contact, avoiding their own reflection like it's a plague, skipping baths because the idea of the full-bodied mirror right by the shower stall is agonizing. catching a flicker of themself in windows and glasses, fading but still recognisable.

whumpee does everything in their power to stay coiled up in their bed, to avoid the questioning, if not judgmental, stares from those who don't know. and the pitying ones from those who do.

they are just so tired of this reminder etched in the lines of their face, of having to look at it every single day.

[castell-da-near]

Using gun but not to kill

Using gun but without shooting it. It's a intimidating factor and a possibility. In extreme case it can be shot to a non vital part,

But what's more fun is:

Punch to the jaw while holding the gun: classic trail of blood down the forehead.

Shoving the gun in whumpee's mouth: what's a better way to silence a talkative whumpee.

Guiding whumpee's face up with it: To see what's deep rooted in thier eyes, Fear or defiance?

Pressing it into their back: Or their side, while whumpee is unaware of what they are going to get into. The bruising pressure against their bone, guiding them.

Choking them with it

Hitting the wrist with it: perhaps to make whumpee drop thier own weapon

And one different trope that those above,

Keeping it trained on someone Whumpee cares about: can whumpee call the bluff? Will whumper actually go to the lengths and shoot? Kill? Or hurt "loves one" ? Should they lunge for whumper's gun?

So many possibilities

Feel free to add on <3

[whump-me]

Whumper taking a sip of water and holding it in his mouth before giving it to dehydrated whumpee directly from his own mouth

[whump-me]

Whumpee stares into their rescuer's eyes. They try to speak, but a wet gurgle leaves their mouth instead as blood dribbles from their lips. They shudder once, and go still, their staring eyes no longer blinking. The rescue came just a little too late.

[whump-me]

The interrogation subject blinked slowly, arms limp against their restraints, eyes focused on the middle distance. The interrogator snapped his fingers in front of their face. They didn't react.

The interrogator slapped them. They flinched in pain as their head snapped to the side, and let out a small mewl of pain, but offered no other reaction.

The interrogator sighed. That last round of electricity must have been too much. He wouldn't be getting any information out of them now.

Oh well. Some of the guards had been getting restless lately--he could give them permission to have some fun with the subject before disposing of them. The subject was in no position to offer any resistance. At least this way they wouldn't be a totally wasted resource.