My Lonely Heart

A while back, if I remember correctly, my life was one long party, where all hearts were open wide, where all wines kept flowing

[whyyouandnotme]

Finally, life gets more difficult.

Nothing makes sense to me. My best friend is dead, and I wish he wasn’t.

Life is gonna suck for a while -at least I hope so.

My grief, let my grief last ten times more the amount I loved you. Let my grief last a thousand times more than the years I knew you and loved you. Let my tears pour everywhere I see you. Let your things lie around for as long as I exist.

Let my eternal suffering be a reminder of how much I love you.

I’ll miss you my friend. Life is gonna suck -forever.

30/5/2026

[whyyouandnotme]

[whyyouandnotme]

At what age

Do I become vintage ?

When

Will my damage feel justified?

[jojo-the-bird]

"I don't want to live in a hole anymore."

[whyyouandnotme]

Nadie puede venir aún cuando venga y hable . Si no viene quien yo quiero yo, no viene nadie . Si no me ama quien yo sé, todos me son hostiles .

No one can replace the spot that you took over for so many years . The hole you created to put all that love you had for me.

You dug so deeply into my heart , carved your name everywhere and now I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with this damaged heart.

I don’t know what to do with the love I had . I cannot keep it cause it’s not mine I cannot give it cause it’s not anybody’s else to own .

I go out, I search for you everywhere in different cities in different jobs and occupations. Every night, 1000 people at a bar and it feels empty. If the one I long for never arrives, maths do not make sense . 1000 people yet zero to my heart. When he enters ,1000 plus 1. The one that matters . Everyone else witness to the magic that takes place .

How easily can a heart diminish numbers and put soul into the concrete mirror of hope…

[jojo-the-bird]

[consecuences]

[whyyouandnotme]

[whyyouandnotme]

I’ve fallen out of love

But

I’m in the mood for love

[whyyouandnotme]

You were destined for me.

Perhaps as a punishment.

[whyyouandnotme]

The last time I was happy, I was sitting naked while gazing the sky. The whole universe seemed to collide while you lied next to me pretending that everything was fine. Since the day you left I can't get over this picture- this was the last time I believed.

[consecuences]

[whyyouandnotme]

I’d know you anywhere

I could recognise every facial expression every new wrinkle

The glimpse of a new idea

How your brows unite when you overthink

The desperation when you knew it’s over

When I was too much

And you became someone new

Someone you knew I could not stand

And you left me drift away

[whyyouandnotme]

I swear somewhere this works

We sit across from each other

You smile

You never hated me

You never stopped talking to me

Instead you tell me you’ll do the laundry this week

[whyyouandnotme]

[whyyouandnotme]

At what age

Do I become vintage ?

When

Will my damage feel justified?

[echoesoftheinfinite]

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I'm used to it.