Wild.Erratic.Love

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[wilderraticlove]

overcoming an obstacle that seemed out of reach at the time, and then, in hindsight, seems so small, is so much better than overcoming an obstacle that seems huge regardless of your outlook. the relief is almost more gratifying than an orgasm.

[wilderraticlove]

i guess that i should tell you thank you

for the inspiration

some motivation

deterioration

i bet that i should tell you thank you

for the suffocation

some resignation

reverberation

maybe i should tell you

. .but my heart's not in it

and i wouldn't mean it

-BDC 2014-

[wilderraticlove]

Reflections - BDC 2014 -

[wilderraticlove]

Second Chance - BDC 2014 -

[wilderraticlove]

The end of another day. - BDC 2014 -

[kushandwizdom]

[kushandwizdom]

Good Vibes HERE

[wilderraticlove]

the emotions that run through me, the storms that pass over me, and the love that flows in me. that's all i need.

Swimming thoughts #8 - by wilderraticlove

[wilderraticlove]

tomorrow is another day. let's move on.

[wilderraticlove]

setting out on a new path is scary. not knowing where that path will take you, is absolutely terrifying. let's go. fuck it, i'm ready to go.

[wilderraticlove]

date night. take 1,027

BDC 2014

[wilderraticlove]

i had somewhat of an epiphany this week; psyc homework will do that for you at times. i have all of these grand plans of things that i want to change, ways that i want to adjust my lifestyle, different things that i want to do; and yet, i have not accomplished near what i want to. i have noticed that this is what, or some, of what has been bothering me. i feel stuck. like a record that can't stop going round and round. i am stuck. and to myself, i complained, i got frustrated, and i became weary. and then the answer...the epiphany..hit me in the face. straight on with no warning. i am stuck because i am scared, scared out of my damn mind. i do not consider myself one that is scared of change; i consider myself one that welcomes change. apparently not. apparently the change i welcome is dependent on how far, or not far, it will push me. small changes i take on, and feel accomplished, but i always want more. i get frustrated because i cannot calm the want for more. i like pushing the limits; however, it seems that i have more conservative boundaries than i thought that i did. so now, the question that i am asking myself...is how? how do i stop sabotaging my chance to really live; to not be afraid, to go forward with open arms. i feel that if i don't figure this out soon, i will stay in this rut, and become complacent, and feel a defeated satisfaction that my small changes are enough. when in reality, to become who i want to be, after all of these years, these insignificant changes are nowhere near enough.

[absentions]

People will do a lot of things in the name of love. But the one thing you should not do is lose yourself. There’s such a thing as toxic love but we fail to teach our children about it. Don’t stay for someone who knows only how to tear you down. Who throws around words like knives with you as the target. Remember the child you used to be and protect them. Learn to how to hold your own hand and sleep alone. You’ve done it before, you can do it again. You are not weak for leaving. Repeat that. Tattoo it into your heart. Sometimes saying goodbye is the strongest thing you can do.

Tina Tran, Life Lessons #1 (via absentions)

[wilderraticlove]

i want to wander aimlessly through my house, drink and not feel bad about it, smoke a cigarette and not regret it, think all of the thoughts that i keep inside, and not die from it. BDC

[wilderraticlove]

someday..hopefully soon, i will break out and away from this cocoon. it my not be pretty for you to see, but it's going to be fucking beautiful to me.

Swimming thoughts #7 by - wilderraticlove

[wilderraticlove]

Eventually soul mates meet, for they have the same hiding place.

Robert Brault

[screamingsecrets]

Wanderlust can only be suppressed for so long before it begins to consume the soul. So wonder, seek, discover. But do remember, everything you unearth on your journey is merely an outward expression of what is already within you.

ScreamingSecrets  (via awakenedvibrations)

[howitzerliterarysociety-deactiv]

Want a live a calm way and sit at a corner table writing poetry and drawing black ink hair, feeling like things are groovy for a bit.

Stimie (via howitzerliterarysociety) my dream.