“The environment always seems to take a backseat in politics, doesn’t it,” she lamented. “I’ll work towards changing that. Anyhow, I wouldn’t be any sort of ideal apprentice and I’ll still work to find you a suitable one, but I’d be happy to learn some basics if you were willing to teach me a little.” Esperanza felt a twinge of guilt thinking of how the brunt of the construction labor was currently falling on the other woman’s shoulders. Was she trying to do too much? Debatable, but Esperanza didn’t see the harm in picking up more useful skills either. What good was she really to the community if all she would be able to do is string together nice words to placate people’s concerns, but not be able to contribute anything that the people could do something with? Esperanza refused to let herself be the type to sit around and be all talk and no substance.
Her mouth curved into a warm smile at the thought of beverages. “Oh! I could get us some of that. I know just the homebrews you’re talking about.” They always warmed her up from the inside, and she had to limit herself when she drank them otherwise she’d drink too much without meaning to. That could only lead to an embarrassing end for her.
“I-…” There was no irrefutable answer that she could come up with to Willow’s challenge. “That’s why there’s more than one councilperson, but I would never rely on them to fix my mistakes.” Not that she didn’t think they could, but Esperanza refused to be the one to make blunders. She wanted that to be as rare an occurrence as possible. “But you’re right,” Esperanza relented with a sigh. “I should probably – definitely – sleep more. But-” She shook her head again. “Well, there is no ‘but’ that excuses it, I suppose.”
An airy laugh bubbled up and escaped between parted lips. “No, I’m not going to twist your arm for maple. Save it for something better than a broken bed frame.” She mirrored Willow’s smirk albeit more of the kind of someone who was caught red-handed. “Ooh, oak with a darker stain would be nice. Wait, no, save that too for something more important. Just oak is good, but I may just have to commission you for a desk. Maybe I should keep around fewer books and binders too…” She mused, thinking of what she could offer in return. “I could always watch your boys if you wanted, not just for this instance, but in general if you ever needed and I was available. And, of course, I can get you those homebrews you mentioned. I do tend to circle around the compound a lot looking for ways to get more involved, so I can spend more time here trying to help you out. But I should also ask, is there anything specific you want? So I’m not only assuming or restricting you to certain options.”
“It could be what caused all of this. From what the elders told me, politics were the cause of great conflict. Ii would not be totally surprised if there was inaction then, just like we see now. But you,” she poked the other’s arm gently. “Can change all that!” Willow laughed. “If you advocate for me at those council meetings, I can’t ask for anything else. Trying to keep August and Ro occupied during those is like trying to manage a herd of huskies. Not having to be there but knowing that my thoughts are being heard is such a gift.”
“Perfect! I’ll get Ava to watch the house and make sure nothing gets burnt down and we’ll have a nice night off from all of our responsibilities.” Especially since August found and was understanding an ancient chemistry textbook. Why did her kids have to learn things?
“Just repeat that one more time.” She laughed. “I am right, I never get to hear that often enough.” As her laughter faded, she nodded. “This world is terrible and scary but it’s also beautiful and full of love. You need to make sure you’re open to all sides of it and not carrying all responsibility on your shoulders. And sleep is essential. Your brain won’t work on no sleep. I leaned that when the boys were babies and at one point, I was so sleep deprived that I couldn’t read. I almost forgot how to walk.” She absentmindedly straightened up some of the things on her desk as she spoke, her hands not able to remain still. “But I’m done lecturing you. You’ve already admitted that I’m right and that’s enough for me.”
Willow contemplated the question for a moment. “I understand the barter system but as of right now, I’m set. Would it be bad to request that you just remember me helping you out when one of my sons inevitably blows something up? You do so much for me and for everyone, you really deserve a gift.” There were people who gave their whole selves and expected nothing in return and Esperanza was one. And what she was asking for wasn’t even selfish. It was just to keep helping the community. “Let’s go find something nice for you. Although I’m not saying no to more of the homebrew. We’ll pick out the bed wood and then a really nice one for the desk. You need an imposing and sturdy desk to support all of your important work.”