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âgod you feel so fucking goodâ he whines, squirming around above you. his arms shake as he thrusts into you, pussy squeezing him so tight. your nails dig into his back bruisingly hard, leaving his skin red and bothered. âjust for you stevie, gotta make you cumâ you coo, wrapping your legs around his waist, pulling him closer. his cock twitched and his cheeks pinked poor boy was flustered all over. âplease mommy iâm closeâ he almost whispers, voice too whiny to hear properly. you clench around him at the use of your favorite name, pulling a pathetic moan out of him. shivers ran up your spine as he fucked you harder, thrusts sloppy as he rutted into you. âohâgod fuck please let me cum inside please i canât pull out i canâtââ he babbles, nearly drooling over you. his eyes were blown with lust and his voice was hoarse from repeated use. god it was all so pathetic. your hands pull his pink sweaty face towards you almost nose to nose to stabilize him, as he was nearly falling apart above and inside you. âgotta make mommy cum first stevie donât be silly,â you frown, caressing his cheeks. he could whine and pout all day but deep down you both knew he wouldnât dare cum before you. âi-iâm trying please god i need it.â skin slapping rings in your ears as you throw your head back, his fat tip hitting your spot perfectly, he was making you feel his determination. he brings a shaky hand down to your clit to rub quick circles to get you there. his stomach clenched as he held back his orgasm, struggle evident on his pretty face. âfucking shit baby iâm cumming, fill me up stevie,â you moan, throwing your hands around his neck. he gasps as your walls fluttter around his cock, spilling your cum all over him. âfuck, thank you mommy,â he breathes, hips stuttering as he fills you up, hot cum painting your walls.
steve harrington x reader fanfiction | fratboy!steve | platonic!stobin (i promise) | mentions of cheating (but it's not real cheating) | mean!steve, playboy!steve | sort of friends to enemies to fwb to lovers | slowish burn | angst | hurt ... eventual comfort
warnings: yearning steve harrington. steves pov. mostly done in the form of letters. will they wont they......... happy ending. (I CAVED. THEY BEGGED ME OKAY THEY WERE NOT GONNA DO IT BUT...) SMUT. NOTHING CRAZY soft sex. a little spit i couldn't help it.
words: 12k
summary: When you find out your college roommate/friend robin buckley's boyfriend, steve harringtonâ who you thought beat all stereotypical frat boy oddsâ is cheating on her, you find it hard to understand why she still wants to be with him. But there is more than meets the eye. You aren't sure if you want to be roped into it.
a/n: oh.... so? this is the last chapter? this is the end of the arc besides the epi luigi.... hot shot and steve are...? wow. i have no words. this fic was probably the most taxing thing i've ever written. but so many of you guys encouraged me to keep going. it's you, the readers who kept me to continue even if you guys are insane.
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Chapter 18
3 June, 1988
Dear Hot Shot,Â
I just got back from dropping off Robin at the bus station for Boston. You know Iâm a tough guy. I can handle not being invited. HaâŠÂ
I was thinking about the first time Robin introduced us. Spring of 87â. I wasnât having a good night. But I remember her shouting, âShe came?â Before I knew it you were in front of us and I could only stupidly thinkâŠPretty. Â
That night I was supposed to meet up with a girl, and I canât even remember who. All I remember is you.
You were dancing with Buck. You were both so drunk, stumbling into each other and laughing. But Buck must have been worse off because he threw up all over your shoes. I was only a pledge at the time, but I remember all the guys around me tensing up, getting ready for you to lay into him. Apparently this was a common thing with Buckâhe'd get too drunk and puke on people, and they'd lose it on him.
So it was a surprise to all of us when you didn't even yell at him. You only took off your shoes and gave him some water. Told him to sit down and breathe. I got stuck cleaning up the mess because that's what pledges do, and I heard you jump up and pull Robin to the floor when "Hot Stuff" came on.
As you were dancing with Robin, both of you screaming the lyrics, I thought: who the hell is she rooming with? You were only wearing your socks and dancing, and now that I think about our conversation at the lake, you really don't know how to dance. You were all arms and no rhythm, and somehow that made it better.
So then I decided you were pretty and weird.
I like that you're weird, apparently, because I was pathetically asking Robin about you nonstop after that night. Where were you from? What were you studying? Did you have a boyfriend? (You didn't, thank god.) Were you always that nice to people who threw up on your shoes?
I like that you're kind too. And god, you're so selfless. I beat myself up every day about how I took advantage of that. How I let you think you weren't good enough when really I was the one who wasn't good enough for you.
If you haven't noticed by now... I miss you.
Iâm going to try my hardest not to call and check in every hour this weekend. I hope you enjoy the cookies I sent with Robin. My mom made them. I helped, so they might be extra sweet. Max says Iâm too corny⊠I guess maybe Iâm the weird one.Â
I told my mom about you, and she said, âThe pretty one, right?âÂ
Maybe one day I can be lucky enough to be weird with you. Where we can badly dance in our socks together.Â
Sincerely,
Your handsome weird friendÂ
.-.-.-.
6 June, 1988
Dear Hot Shot,Â
I donât have much to say. Again, not a whole lot going on besides Family Video. Today, however, I tried to teach Max how to drive. Maybe the next time I see you I can tell you how this punk once drove my car when she was thirteen. I should have known better.Â
At least I survived.Â
Mrs. Hendersonâs petunias not so much.Â
How was Boston? Robin wonât tell me a whole lot. I'm trying not to be jealous that you're hanging out with everyone except me, but I'm doing a terrible job of it.
Sincerely,Â
Steve
P.S. Max found this mixtape I had made for you months ago, made fun of me, and then convinced me to send it to you or she would. Never thought Iâd be blackmailed by a seventeen-year-old who doesnât know how to drive.Â
.-.-.-.
8 June, 1988
Dear Hot Shot,Â
Robin told me youâve been reading my letters.Â
I feel... I don't know what to feel. A part of me wishes they got lost in the mail and you never saw them, that I could take back everything I've said because it's too much, too honest, too pathetic. Then there's the other part of meâthe bigger partâimagining you reading them. I wonder if it's the same way you read your books.
I think it's cute how your eyes move across the pages when you're reading, completely engrossed in whatever story you're in. How your nose scrunches when you're focused on whatever's happening in the plot. Sometimes your lips move, reading whatever out loud to yourself without realizing you're doing it.
Not that I'm staring at your lips.
OK, I look at your lips an appropriate amount of time. Can you blame me? I mean, they killed me constantly. Every time you'd bite your bottom lip when you were thinking, or smile that smile that made your whole face light up, orâ
Yeah, I'm not going to finish that thought.
I always had a hard time studying when I was around you and you were like that, lost in whatever you were reading. Because then I wanted to know what was going on in your book too, wanted to understand what had you so captivated. And because I wanted to kiss you. Still do, if I'm being honest. Which I guess I am, since that's kind of the whole point of these letters.
Sincerely,Â
Steve
.-.-.-.
9 June, 1988
Dear Hot Shot,Â
You know when things changed for me? The moment I knew I really didnât want anyone else?Â
Valentines Day.Â
I couldn't stop thinking about you that day. From the moment I woke up to the moment I fell asleep and even after, in my dreams.
You were so sick, and I remember thinking... can she get any prettier? Which is insane because you had a runny nose and messy hair and you kept sniffling. But you were wrapped up in a blanket, curled against me on your bed, and I'd never seen anything more beautiful in my life.
I don't know what did it for me specifically. Your runny nose or your messy hair or the way you kept apologizing for being gross when you weren't gross at all. I do know that when you laid your head on my chest and fell asleep, I felt my stomach tie into knots. The good kind. The kind that made me think: oh no, this is it, I'm done for.
Nothing was the same for me after that moment. Every time I hooked up with someone after that, I felt guilty. Like I was cheating on you even though we weren't together. Like I was looking for you in other people and obviously never finding you because you're you and they weren't.
Maybe it had never been the same. Maybe from that first night when you danced in your socks, I was already gone. Maybe I was always meant to meet you.
God, I hope so.
Sincerely,Â
Steve
.-.-.-.
12 June, 1988
Dear Hot Shot,Â
Did Eddie tell you Polly dumped him? He's been OK, I think. Or he says he's OK, which probably means he's not OK but doesn't want to talk about it.
Last night we went to Hawkins' finest establishmentâThe Hideout. It's this dive bar that smells like stale beer and cigarettes, but Eddie and his band play there a lot. Except since his breakup, he's been kind of in a rut. He says he has "inspiration constipation." I call it sulking.
Then I thought⊠is this how Eddie and Jonathan thought about me all those months? When I was moping around about you? They both can smell my "bullshit" a mile away... ha. Guess I wasn't as subtle as I thought I was being.
Besides Eddie being a downer, I had a good night. It would have been better if you'd been there. Nancy came too, and even though her and Robin are still careful in public, I feel happy they can look at each other freely now. No more hiding. No more pretending.
The news of the "break-up" here in Hawkins was gossip for weeks. Apparently the whole town had an opinion about it. My mom's friends kept calling to check on me, asking if I was OK, if I needed anything. It's fizzled out by now, though. People found other things to talk about.
Kind of humiliating how much of a big deal we made it out to be. All that stress and lying, when we could have just been honest from the start.Â
The Hideout has billiard tables. If you ever decide to grace us⊠me⊠with a visit to Hawkins, maybe I can take you to play. Can you hear the desperation in my handwriting? That I kind of really want to see you?
 Iâm not sure how I can be more patient when the others⊠even Dustin? Have heard from you.Â
But Iâm trying. I really am.Â
I guess Iâm sulking too.Â
Sincerely,Â
A desperate manÂ
.-.-.-.
15 June, 1988
Dear Steve,Â
Thank you for the letters. As for billiards. Do you remember what happened the last time we played? I donât think youâre ready for round two.Â
And thank you for the cookies. That was sweet of you and they were delicious.Â
-Your friend
P.S. I am glad to hear about your glasses.Â
.-.-.-.
20 June, 1988
Dear Hot Shot,Â
Is it true you're coming to Hawkins for Independence Day? Robin mentioned it, but I wanted to make sure before I got my hopes up.
I can't deny that I cannot wait to see you, but I want to make sure you're OK with me being around. If you're not, I will literally chain myself to my bed until you leave town. Lock myself in my room. Avoid all public spaces. Whatever you need.
For my sake, not yours. I don't think I could handle seeing you and not being able to talk to you.
I'll be OK though. I promise.
I donât really like fireworks, if Iâm being honest. Theyâre too loud. When I was a kid I used to cry everytime they went off. Eventually my parents just started leaving me home with a babysitter on the Fourth of July so they didn't have to deal with it.
Remember that story Max told you about me accidentally popping a Hopper in the ass with a firework? Itâs because I jumped at the noise.Â
Anyway, I'm also trying to act cool about the fact that you wrote back and that I haven't totally read your letter over and over again... or memorized your handwriting... or folded it up and put it in my wallet so I can take it out whenever I'm missing you most.
To paint the picture⊠it's a lot. I take it out a lot.
Robin caught me reading it at work yesterday and made fun of me for another twenty minutes. I'm never going to hear the end of this.
Sincerely,Â
Steve
.-.-.-.
24 June, 1988
Dear Steve,Â
Yes, I'm coming to Hawkins for Independence Day. It didn't take much for Robin to convince me. She says there's a huge carnival with rides and games and apparently the best funnel cake in Indiana? It sounds like a lot of fun.
Iâd hate for you to miss something fun.Â
I canât wait to properly catch up!Â
-Your friend
.-.-.-.
Steve has never been this nervous since he kissed you in the tent back in March.
Back then, he kept thinking over and over about how long it had been since he had really kissed someoneânot counting that makeout session at the Mardi Gras party, which barely counts anyway. Sure, he'd kissed you then, but after confessing he only wanted you, after everything that's happened since, it had felt like his first kiss all over again. Like he was thirteen and terrified and has no idea what he's doing.
Now, his stomach is tied in knots, twisting and clenching every time he so much as glances in your direction.
You're sitting across the pool at his parents' house, and he can't stop staring.
Everyone is here to swimâthe kids are running around screaming, cannonballing into the deep end and playing chicken in the shallow end. Max and Lucas are floating on inner tubes, holding hands when they think no one's looking. Dustin keeps trying to dunk Mike, who's protesting loudly. Jane is sitting on the pool steps with Will, both of them talking quietly and watching the chaos. Jonathan and Nancy even came in for the weekend, lying on lounge chairs and looking more relaxed than Steve's seen them in months.
Everyone is here, but to Steve, he's forgotten they exist.
He feels like a schoolboy with a crush. Like Tommy H. in eighth grade when he got obsessed with Carol, following her around like a puppy and blushing every time she talked to him. Steve had made fun of him for it then. Karma's a bitch.
You're trying to be polite, making an effort to talk to him. But every time you do, he stumbles over his words like an idiot, then walks away to grab another beer from the cooler just to have an excuse to escape. He's on his third beer and it's only two in the afternoon.
It's the day before the Independence Day carnival, and all Steve can think about is how much he loves you.
He was terrified you'd come to Hawkins and tell him you'd gotten over it. That the distance helped you realize you don't actually want him, that you're better off without him, that being friends is all you can manage. But the moment you walked in the door with Robin yesterdayâhis heart already racing because Dustin had warned him over the walkie-talkie that you'd been spotted at Benny's Burgers with Robin and Nancyâhe met your eyes, and he could see it.
The flash of softness. The way your lips upturned at the sight of him. The slight hitch in your breath that he caught even from across the room.
He felt himself blush, felt his hands start to sweat like he was back in high school asking someone to prom.
But then there was another flashârecollection, memory, pain. Letting him know there's still hurt there, still wounds that haven't fully healed.
You look like nothing but sunshine right now. Feet dangling in the pool, sitting next to Max on the pool deck, talking about something that keeps making both of you laugh. Steve can't help but look at the tattoo on your hipâ"Hot Shot" in slightly crooked letters, visible when your swimsuit shifts. And god, why is it the sexiest thing in the world to know that his nickname is permanently marked on your skin? His girl. Even if you're not his girl yet. Even if you might never be his girl again.
He can't help but notice how your thighs press against the pool deck, how the flesh of your ass mushes slightly on the concrete, how your shoulders are changing color from the sun despite the sunscreen you applied. He hopes his sunglasses hide the way his eyes are glued to your every move, the way he's cataloging each smile and laugh and gesture like he's studying for a test.
He wants to make you laugh again, wants your hand to fall carelessly on his shoulder like it used to. Wants to see your eyes twinkle the way they do when you're really happyâlike the stars themselves, bright enough that there's no need for the sun or moon or artificial light. Like you contain all the illumination the world needs right there in your irises.
He's been a little lonely since he came home for summer, if he's being honest with himself.
His dad has begrudgingly talked to himâshort, clipped conversations about Steve's GPA and his major and whether teaching is "really what you want to do with your life, son." The disappointment hangs heavy in every word his father speaks, and Steve's stopped trying to defend his choices. There's no point. Not to mention the whole lying about his long-term relationship with Robin.Â
He doesn't go over to Robin's house as often anymore. Her parents are accepting and understanding, they really are, they've been great about everything, but it's still a fresh wound for everyone. The revelation, the lies, the year-plus of deception. Robin doesn't come over to Steve's as often either, only showing up when everyone else is there too, when it's a group thing and not just the two of them.
It's weird. In a sense, it does feel like a real breakup. Without all the awkwardness and tension that comes with romantic breakups, but with the same sense of loss, of figuring out who they are beyond the roles they played. Trying to remember how to be just friends when they've been "dating" for so long.
It's been ages since Steve's been actually single. Technically single and not sleeping with anyone. He can admit there have been a few girls from high school who stuck around Hawkinsâgirls who come into Family Video and flirt with him, twirling their hair and asking for movie recommendations in voices that suggest they're not really interested in movies at all.
But he doesn't know how to reciprocate anymore. Doesn't know how to flirt back when he's not interested, doesn't know how to let them down easy without being an asshole about it.
Least to say, Keith says Steve's the worst at customer service now and makes Robin handle most of the customers. Which is probably fair.
Back at college, it was easy to fall into the confidence that comes with flirting fueled by lust. By knowing you're going to hook up with someone and that's all it isâbodies and pleasure and nothing deeper. But when he discovered the part of him that loves someone, really loves them, it rewired every bit of his brain. There's something more dangerous about approaching a girlâapproaching youâwith the heavy feeling of aching and longing to be something more. It rattles him, makes him nervous and awkward in ways he hasn't been since middle school.
Steve tries not to be jealous when Eddie pulls you into the pool, both of you splashing and laughing, Eddie picking you up and threatening to dunk you under. Steve knows Eddie wouldn't do anythingâ Eddie knows how Steve feels. Eddie's a good friend even when Steve hadnât been for the past few years.Â
But Steve can't help the tightness in his chest. The same tightness he felt when you kissed Eddie as a dare in the basement of the Pike house, even though he had no right to feel jealous then either. It was just another moment to catalogâ Steve Harrington being a dingus and not seeing the truth of his feelings.Â
Steve gets up from his pool chair, his thighs slick with sweat, the hair there clinging to his skin. He walks inside to cool down from the summer heat, lifting his sunglasses up to rest on top of his overgrown, messy hair that badly needs a cut.
He knows he's sulking. He knows it would be unfair to pout in front of you, to make you think he wants to rush you into forgiving him before you're ready. But he can't stop thinking that maybe there's hope. That maybe the way you looked at him yesterday when you first walked in means something.
He goes to his mom's tea roomâa small sitting area off the kitchen with floral wallpaper and too many decorative platesâand sits on the piano bench, pulling the blind aside slightly to see the view of the backyard through the window.
He notices you're not out there anymore. And he's annoyed with himself that he's relieved to see Eddie is still in the pool, now terrorizing the kids by threatening to throw Dustin's hat into the deep end.
"Thought you told Nancy you were getting another drink?"
Your soft voice filters in from the doorway, and Steve's heart nearly stops.
He twists around awkwardly on the bench, already smiling before he can stop himself. He's not sure what to do with his handsâthey move around uselessly before he finally settles them between his legs, gripping the edge of the bench, looking up at you.
You're wearing denim shorts now, cut-offs that are frayed at the hem, and an oversized t-shirt over your swimsuit. Your hair is damp, curling slightly at the ends from the pool water. He can smell the sun on your skin, that particular scent of sunblock mixed with chlorine and something underneath that's purely you. The smell gets stronger as you walk into the room, looking around at all the different collections his mom has accumulatedâteacups on shelves, decorative plates on the walls, a shelf of crystal figurines that Steve's been terrified of breaking since childhood.
You smile at him again, and his stomach flips. You point at the spinet piano against the wall. "That's cool. Does your mom play?"
Steve looks over his shoulder at the ivory keys, yellowed slightly with age. He smirks, quirking an eyebrow. "Why do you assume my mom?"
You laughâthat beautiful laugh that makes his chest expand, that makes him feel like he could float right off this piano bench. You tilt your head, crossing your arms. "Your dad doesn't really strike me as someone who could tell what a musical note is if it hit him in the face." You pause, probably thinking about that disastrous dinner. "And I only met your mom once, but... I feel like even though she likes nice things, she wants to enjoy them. Not just own them."
Steve smiles, genuinely pleased that you saw that in his mom. "She used to play. Not much anymore. It's probably out of tune by now." He pauses, choosing his words more carefully. "Robin and her would do duets when we started..." He trails off. Being friends, he finally settles on. Not dating. Not in a relationship. Because it wasn't real, and he doesn't want to treat it as such now.
He thinks for a moment, then adds, "But I took lessons when I was seven. For about six months. Never practiced, though, so it was okay because then my dad said it was a useless talent for a boy to have anyway."
Your eyebrows furrow, and Steve wants nothing more than to reach out and smooth the crease with his thumb. He clasps his hands tighter between his legs to stop himself.
"Do you remember any songs?" you ask.
He cracks a smile, falling back into the safety of humor. "You kidding? In high school I'd bring chicks over and play them a few chords of 'Chopsticks' and they'd think I was Mozart."
You throw your head back laughing, corners of your eyes crinkling, and Steve thinks he's won at life just being able to hear it. Probably the prettiest sound in the world, better than any music the best piano player could make.
Then you say, walking closer, "Okay. Show me."
Steve's mouth falls open. He rubs the back of his neck, closing one eye nervously. "I was kidding. I don't actually remember anything."
You giggle, that softer laugh, more intimate, and walk over to the bench. He watches your eyes fall on his bare chest, then down to his stomach. The way he's sitting, the soft skin spills over the top of his swim trunks slightly, creating a small roll.
In most cases, he'd feel self-conscious. Most girls he's been with, he's always turned off the lights or kept his shirt on or made sure there was minimal interaction with his body. Billy used to call him soft, would poke at his stomach in the locker room, and even though Steve knows Billy was an asshole, the words stuck.
But with you, he wants to be seen. Wants you to look at all of himâthe parts he's proud of and the parts he's not. He watches how your pupils dilate slightly, how your breathing changes when you look at how his stomach flexes as he adjusts his position. You notice. And he always wants you to notice him, wants your eyes on him like this.
You look shy now, a flush creeping up your neck as you walk to the other side of the bench and slide in, facing the piano. Steve follows suit quickly, turning to face the keys.
He's patient, or trying to be, but he still scoots a little closer, making his thigh touch yours. If you move away, he won't try again. Won't push.
He feels you tense for a moment, but you don't make an effort to move. That has to mean something, right?
"Okay," you say softly, and he can hear the slight tremor in your voice. "Put your two fingers here."
Steve looks at you instead of the piano, taking in the slope of your nose, the curve of your cheek, the way your eyelashes cast shadows. Then he does as you said, placing his pointer and middle finger on the keys you indicated.
He hears you take a deep breath in, and then you grab his wrist.
His brain stops working at the touch. It's been so long since your soft hands have met his skinânot since that night on the swings, and even then it was brief, careful. He remembers when you slapped his cheek in Miami, then a few weeks later put your hand on the same cheek in comfort at the bonfire, telling him you love him. It still burns, both memories. The sting and the tenderness.
You start pressing his fingers down on the keys, creating a simple melody he vaguely recognizes. Maybe "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" or something equally basic. But he starts laughing because he keeps slipping his fingers on purpose so the note comes out wrong, and you have to start over.
"Steve," you say, trying to sound annoyed, but you're laughing too. "You're doing that on purpose."
"Am not," he lies, grinning.
"Are too."
"Prove it."
You laugh again and grab his wrist tighter, repositioning his fingers with exaggerated care. He's finding every excuse to be held by you, to have your skin on his, even if it'll be gone in a moment. Even if this is all he gets.
He really is a dingus.
When the song is overâplayed correctly this time because you wouldn't let him sabotage it againâyou let out a happy sigh. Slowly, carefully, you take your hands away from his wrist. You scoot over slightly, just an inch or two, so his bare thigh is no longer pressed against yours.
The loss of contact feels like a physical blow.
You're looking at the keys, not at him, and Steve makes no effort to hide that he's staring right at you. Drinking in your profile, memorizing the way the afternoon light comes through the window and illuminates your face.
He could do what he really wants to do. Could ask if you've forgiven him yet, if you're ready to give him another chance. Could reach out and tilt your chin up with his finger, lean in and kiss your lips the way he's been dreaming about for months. Heâs trying not to be selfish.Â
But instead, he forces himself to look straight ahead at the piano keys too. Swallows hard. "We should, uh... head back out, you know? Before they wonder where we went."
There's a flicker of disappointment in your eyesâhe sees it, brief but realâbut there's mutual agreement in the way you say, "Yeah. We should."
So you both stand up, and Steve steps to the side, offering an awkward half-hearted smile. He extends his arm in an exaggerated gentlemanly gesture, motioning for you to go through the door first.
As you walk past him, he gets a full breath of your shampooâsomething floral and sweetâand the smell of chlorine and sunscreen that clings to your skin. His other hand hovers over your lower back, not quite touching but miming the gesture he wants to make, the way he used to when he wanted an excuse to touch you. But he can't. Not yet. Maybe not ever.
So he waits for you to walk completely out of the room, nearly back toward the sliding glass door that leads to the backyard, before he follows several feet behind.
Dingus, he thinks to himself, shaking his head.
Max looks up when you both emerge outside, her eyebrows raised knowingly. Eddie glances over from the pool, treading water, and gives Steve a look that clearly says smooth move, lover boy.
Steve ignores them both and goes back to his lounge chair, grabbing his fourth beer of the day, and trying very hard not to watch you sit back down next to Max.
He fails miserably.
.-.-.-.
6 July, 1988
Dear Hot Shot,Â
You left today. I'm sorry I couldn't say goodbye to you properly.
Stupid Keith scheduled me for a double shift and wouldn't let me leave early even though I told him it was important. He said, and I quote, "Your personal life is not my problem, Harrington." So that was fun.
I hope you enjoyed your stay. It felt like it had gone by too fast.Â
I know I didn't come hang out with everyone yesterday at the lake. I wanted to. I really did. But I guess I'm still figuring things out too. Figuring out how to be around you without wanting to pull you aside and kiss you senseless. Figuring out how to be patient when all I want is to be with you.
Can you blame me after the carnival? I mean, if you saw what I saw, youâd be in the same pathetic boat that Iâm sailing right now.Â
Iâm sorry I got all grumpy towards the end of the night, but I didnât have the guts to ask to ride at least one ride with you, and then the closer we got to the time for fireworks, I was feeling anxious. I was even about to leave but then I looked up at the Ferris Wheel, and saw your smile.Â
I can always see your smile from a mile away, and it never fails to make my heart race and calm me down in equal measure. You looked like you were having so much fun up there with Max, both of you laughing, your hair whipping in the wind. Even though I wanted to be part of that fun, wanted to be the one sitting next to you in that cart, I felt my entire mood lift just watching you.
At that moment, my heart burst like the fireworks in the sky.Â
Hot Shot, I just want you to be happy. Even if it isn't with me. Even if you decide us being friends is all we can be after everything, I'd be okay watching you rise above me, smiling like that. I'd be okay knowing I at least got to see it, got to know you, got to love you even if you don't love me back the same way anymore.
Seeing you laugh with Max⊠I wish I hadnât been so nervous. I wish I had asked you to ride the Ferris Wheel with me.Â
I hope next time I see you, I can see that smile again, up close, like itâs meant only for me. Your smile where it reaches all the way into your eyes and I donât see the glimpse of how Iâve hurt you.Â
Can summer go by any faster?Â
Sincerely,
Steve
.-.-.-.
11 July, 1988
Dear Hot Shot,
I think my dad is really coming around about me being a teacher. He's still upset about the whole lying-to-him-for-two-years thingâbrings it up at least once a week, usually over dinner when my mom tells him to drop it. But he's been asking more questions about what my new life timeline will look like. What schools I might want to teach at. What age group I'm thinking.Â
He even helped me get some volunteer hours at the Boys and Girls Club for summer baseball. Which is huge for him. Heâs actually making phone calls on my behalf instead of just criticizing my choices.
You'd get a kick out of these kids, Hot Shot. They're hilarious. They call me "Coach Steve," and they take it very seriously. One girl, Via, brought me a dandelion from the outfield yesterday and made me wear it tucked behind my ear for the rest of the game. All the other kids thought it was hilarious. I looked like an idiot, but it made her so happy I couldn't take it off.Â
I canât believe you were right that Iâm good at this sort of thing. Iâm glad you were right.Â
It led me to think about what my mom said about girls. âMake sure you know if your girl likes flowers or chocolates. It makes a difference.âÂ
So, are you a flower or chocolate type of girl?Â
Iâd round up the moon for you, Hot Shot.Â
Anything you want. Iâll give it to you.Â
Sincerely,Â
Steve
.-.-.-.
18 July, 1988
Dear Hot Shot,Â
I received my class schedule for this upcoming semester today. Looks like I've got Intro to Kinesiology on Tuesdays and Thursdays, Educational Psychology on Mondays and Wednesdays, and some other classes I'm already dreading.
I know I haven't written in a week. Iâm sorry about that. Work's been crazy and I've been helping my mom with some stuff around the house. But I wanted to remind you to buy your textbooks if you haven't already.Â
Sincerely,
Steve
.-.-.-.
27 July, 1988
Dear Steve,Â
I finally got around to reading your last few letters. I've been working a lot. Extra shifts to save up money for textbooks, which I have now ordered. Thank you for the reminder.
I have been thinking a lot since my visit to Hawkins. Mostly thinking about you. About us.Â
I must admit something, the day I left Hawkins, I went to Family Video to come see you. I never liked goodbyes, but I really wanted to say bye to you. I never went inside, but like the weirdo I am, I sat in my car across the street and watched you through the window. You were helping some woman find a movie, and then you were at the counter ringing someone up, and then you were restocking shelves.
I thought you looked handsome in that green vest.Â
I also thought how badly I wished you had asked me to go on the Ferris Wheel with you. I had asked Max instead because I knew you hated the fireworks and I didnât want you to be miserable.Â
When my mom saw me reading the letters, she asked what I was smiling so big about. She said she had never seen me like that before. So, I told her sort of the truth.Â
I told her the boy I like has been writing to me all summer. I also told her you like me too. Â
She got very excited and started asking a million questions. What's his name? What's he studying? When can she meet him? I answered what I could, and then she insisted on making you a care package.
So there might be no going back now, Steve. My mom knows about you. She's sent you Boppers and Sour Patch Kids and probably some other stuff I don't know about because she sealed the box before I could see everything.
-Yours truly
P.S. I listened to the mixtape, finally. Careless Whisper? Really, Steve?Â
P.P.S. Chocolate. Definitely chocolate.Â
.-.-.-.
31 July, 1988
Dear Hot Shot,
I first and foremost need to clarify something, sweetheart. I do not like you.Â
I love you.Â
Yes, there is a difference. So the moment you read this, you tell your mom I love you. Better yet, call me, and let me talk to her, and tell her that I love her daughter. I know you asked Robin for my phone number a few days ago.Â
If you don't want me to call and talk to your mom, maybe I can drive to your house and stand outside your window and yell it loud enough for her to hear. Or for you to hear. Or for the whole neighborhood to hear. I don't care who knows anymore.
You invented love for me, Hot Shot. Before you, I thought I knew what it was. I thought I loved people. But it was nothing compared to this. If I could, I'd write this entire page with nothing but "I love you" over and over until the words lost meaning and then kept going until they gained new meaning.
Better yetâŠ.
I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.Â
Iâll learn it in all the languages of the world so you know I donât get tired of saying it.Â
Love,
Steve
.-.-.-.
It's the middle of a September evening, and campus is slowly buzzing back to life after summer break.
It's been two weeks since school started, but three weeks of Steve getting the Pike house back in order, organizing rush week, managing a new pack of pledges who don't know the difference between a keg and a trash can.
But finally, finally, the rest of his evening is free. And the moment he has the chance, he gets in his car and drives the short distance to Hall 11.
He slips through the open door, catching it just as some girls are leaving, laughing about something and not paying attention to him. Even though it's past curfew, past nine on a weeknight, technically against dorm rules, he sees Tessa at the RA desk.
During his fake relationship with Robin, Steve became acquainted with all the RAs. They all thought he was the perfect boyfriend, always bringing Robin food and flowers and showing up for study sessions. Tessa always looked the other way when he snuck in after hours, probably thinking it was romantic.
She waves at him now, phone pressed to her ear, mid-conversation with someone. She mouths go ahead and turns her attention back to her call.
Steve rushes up the stairs, taking them two at a time, and nearly skips down the hallway to the door he's been waiting to get to for what feels like forever. He's whistling, actually whistling like an idiot, because he's been waiting all day for this moment.
After his last letter, a few days later when he got home from work, his mom told him a girl had left a message for him. She'd had this knowing smile on her face, the one she gets when she thinks she's figured something out. "Sounds like the cookies worked," his mom had said, handing him a piece of paper with a phone number written in her neat handwriting.
Steve had rushed to his room, not even bothering to get out of his work clothes. He was still wearing the stupid green Family Video vest and his polo shirt and jeans that smelled like plastic and VHS tape dust. He picked up his phone with shaking hands and dialed the number.
When he heard your soft, familiar voice say "Hello?" his tongue went completely dry.
He panicked and hung up.
What the fuck was he going to say? He hadn't had a proper conversation with you in weeks beyond the letters. And the last thing you'd heard from him was his undying love written out thirty times on a piece of notebook paper. He'd exhaled heavily, stared at the phone like it had personally wronged him, then dialed again.
"Hello... again?" you'd said, and he could hear the smile in your voice, the amusement.
"H-hey." He'd cleared his throat, trying to sound normal and not like he'd just hung up on you like a creep. "Hey, Hot Shot."
And suddenly he'd heard your grin widen over the line, heard you adjusting, hopefully laying in bed, hopefully thinking about him the way he was thinking about you. "Are you home?" you'd asked. "I mean, wait... I guess you're home since you're calling me. I meant are you home from work?"
Steve had chuckled, looking down at his green vest, at the name tag pinned crooked to his chest. He'd kicked off his shoes somewhere in his room, not caring where they landed. He adjusted himself on his bed, sitting up against the headboard. "Yeah. What about you?"
"I worked earlier today." He could hear you wrapping the phone cord around your finger, that nervous habit you have. "Got off around three."
"Cool," Steve had said, then immediately cringed at himself. "Cool, yeah. Did you have a good day?"
He'd taken a deep breath, settling in, and said, "I want to hear all about it. Everything."
And you'd smiledâhe could hear it in your voice when you said, "Everything?"
"Everything."
So you did. You told him about your shift at work, about a rude customer who yelled at you over nothing, about your coworker who covered for you when you took an extra-long lunch break. You told him about the book you were reading, about calling Max earlier that day, about how you'd burned dinner and had to eat cereal instead.
You talked for two hours about everything under the sun, and Steve listened to every word like you were reciting scripture.
He heard you yawn around midnight, heard the shift of your body against sheets. He could imagine you curling up with the phone still pressed to your ear, eyes fighting to stay open. "Are you sleepy?" Steve looked at his clock and winced. "Shit, it's almost midnight. Didn't you say you have to wake up early?"
You hummed sleepily. "Yeah. I should probably sleep."
"Yeah, okay." Steve bit his bottom lip, cringing at his awkwardness. This used to be so easy, talking to girls, flirting, knowing what to say. "So... goodnight. Yeah."
"Steve?" you'd mumbled, voice thick with exhaustion.
"Mhm?"
"Call me tomorrow?"
And he did. He called you every single day after that.
Some nights it would be the two of you talking about your daysâthe mundane details that somehow felt important when you were sharing them. Sometimes you'd tell each other stories from childhood, from high school, from the year you'd spent navigating this complicated thing between you. Some nights you'd both tune in to watch ALF at the same time, phones pressed to your ears, listening to each other laugh at whatever you found funny. Sometimes Steve would bite back his own laughter because he liked the sound of yours better.
Some nights Steve would keep you talking until you finally gave out, your words getting slower and slower until soft snores came through the line. He could never bring himself to hang up. He'd lay the phone down on his pillow and close his eyes and imagine you were lying next to him, breathing in sync, sharing the same space.
There was one nightâ a week before Steve would leave to go campus early for rush weekâ when you were both sleepy and Steve had been the one to say he needed to go to bed or Keith would kill him if he was late again. By kill, he meant make him do something humiliating like clean the staff bathroom floors with a toothbrush.
"Steve, wait," you'd said, and something in your voice made him pause.
"Mhm?"
He'd heard you laugh softly to yourself, a gentle exhale. And then you'd said, so gently it made his heart stop: "I love you, Steve."
And he knew then that you'd forgiven him. He knew then that you were his, and he'd always been yours, even when you weren't ready to admit it.
He'd smiled so wide his face hurt. "Hot Shot, I love you. Always." He'd grinned, gripping the phone tighter. "How about I come see you this weekend? Let me take you on a date. A real one."
"Okay," you'd said, and he could hear your smile matching his.
And now he stands outside your dorm, knocking on the oak door with barely contained excitement.
Robin opens it, toothbrush in her mouth, toothpaste foaming at the corner of her lips. "What?" she mumbles around the toothbrush, looking annoyed at the interruption.
Steve leans against the doorframe, crossing his arms so his henley rides up slightly, exposing a strip of stomach. He smirks. "I'm here to see my girlfriend."
Robin rolls her eyes so hard he's surprised they don't fall out of her head, but she kicks the door open wider to reveal the room.
You're on your bed with a book in your hand, and when you see Steve standing there, you smile. Wide and genuine and so beautiful it knocks the breath from his lungs. You're still in your regular clothes, jeans and a t-shirt, almost like you've been waiting for him.
He knows you've been waiting for him.
Your eyes land on his glasses immediately, then fall to his midriff, to the exposed skin where his shirt has ridden up, and Steve catches it. So he lifts his arm higher, resting it against the doorframe, giving you a better view. Let you look your fill.
You jump off the bed immediately, going to grab your shoes from under your desk. But Steve's inside the room before you can put them on, making you sit down in your desk chair. He kneels in front of you and slips them on your feet himselfâfirst the left, then the rightâtying the laces carefully with steady hands.
"You never did that for me," Robin says, but she's smiling as she climbs into her own bed.
Steve gives Robin a look of pure attitude, eyebrows raised. "Yeah, because you don'tâ" He looks up at you, his girlfriend, and god, he's never going to get tired of that word. Girlfriend. You're his girlfriend, and he's your boyfriend. Steve Harrington is an actual boyfriend in an actual relationship that's real. So real he has the hickey on his bicep from last night's makeout to prove it.
You're looking down at him with amusement, but your eyes are narrowed and one eyebrow is raised in warning. Steve has never been studious or all that smart, but he knows not to finish that sentence.
It doesn't matter anyway because Robin throws a pillow at him. "Will you take your girlfriend and leave already?" She's smiling, though, settling into her bed. "Some of us have eight a.m. classes tomorrow."
You have your fingers tangled in Steve's hair already, and his hands find your waist naturally, like they belong there. He's still kneeling in front of you, looking up like you're something sacred. "Don't worry, I'll bring her back at a reasonable hour."
"Mhm, like last night and the night before? Right." Robin pulls her blanket up, getting comfortable. "I'll believe it when I see it."
Steve chuckles, pressing his glasses up his nose, leans up and makes a soft peck against your lips. Itâs brief, chaste, a promise of more later, before standing and walking over to Robin's bed.
Robin looks up at him, cautious, her expression turning warning. "Steve, don't you dareâ"
He grins from ear to ear, then leans down and grabs her, planting a wet kiss on top of her short hair. "C'mon, Rob. You know I still love you."
"Yeah, yeah, whatever, dingus." She waves him off, but her smile is fond, genuine. "Go be gross and in love somewhere that isn't my room."
Steve notices how the freckles on her face seem to glow, sun-kissed from summer. Her eyes are a little brighter blue lately, less weighed down. All things he knows because she's in love. And it's not with him.
At one point in his life, Steve thought Robin's love was enough. That he could handle being known only in a platonic sense, that it made no difference whether someone loved him romantically or as a friend. Robin could see him and know things about him, and he wouldn't be lonely. That was enough.
He never thought he'd be so happy to discover how wrong he was.
He feels your arm loop through his, casual and comfortable. You lean against him, your head falling naturally to rest on his shoulder. "Come on," you say, pulling at him gently. "Let's go."
"Night, Rob," Steve says.
As you pull him toward the door, he reaches over and flicks off the overhead light. The lamp on Robin's nightstand stays on. Itâs the one he'd gifted her one Christmas, green-shaded and casting soft shadows against the wall. The girl who was there for him when his life literally burned to the ground. The one who carries a different piece of his heart, a piece that will always belong to her no matter what.
She smiles at him knowingly, and he understands. She loves him too. Even though things are different now, even though they're not pretending anymore, even though she has Nancy and he has youâshe will always love him.
"Goodnight, dingus," she says softly.
You and Steve don't get in his car. There's no need for that anymore. No need to hide behind trees or meet in secret or make out in the backseat where no one can see. Not that you don't still do that sometimes, because you definitely do, but nights like tonight, Steve thinks, why waste a chance to show off his girl?
His girl.
Your arm drops slowly from around his, hand running down his forearmâsoft touch, deliberateâuntil finally your fingers lace with his. Palm to palm, fingers intertwined, exactly where they belong.
And like every time you hold hands, you giggle. You look up at him, smiling that goddamn smile that makes his knees weak and his heart race and his entire world feel right. You don't say anything, but you don't need to. He knows what the smile means.
They continue walking in comfortable silence, passing other students on the sidewalk. Some wave at both of youâpeople from classes, from parties, from Pike events. A few girls from your classes call out "cute couple!" and you wave back, not embarrassed or shy about it.
It was hard not to announce you as his girlfriend the second he got back on campus. He'd wanted to shout it from the Pike house roof, wanted to tell every single person he passed. But he'd needed to make sure people understood the real story firstâ or a version of itâthat he and Robin weren't happy together, that their families wanted the relationship more than they did, that sometimes people pretend because it's easier than being honest.
Most people shrugged and didn't care. Some were supportive, understanding. But sometimes you still get one or two judgmental looks, whispered comments about Steve moving on too fast or you being the reason for the breakup.
Steve tries not to let it bother him.
With his free hand, Steve runs his fingers through his hair and looks down at you. You're already looking up at him, and when your eyes meet, a grin breaks out across his face. He can't help it. He leans down and kisses your cheek, right there in the middle of the sidewalk with people around, then continues walking like it's the most natural thing in the world.
Because it is.
This is his life now. Holding your hand, kissing you whenever he wants, being allowed to love you out loud.
And he's never been happier.
There's no surprise that even though Steve's car is parked all the way back at your dorm, you've managed to walk to the Pike house instead.
Subconscious or not, neither of you made an effort to turn around and head back so he could get you to the dorm at a reasonable hour like he'd promised Robin. Your feet just carried you here, following the familiar path Steve's walked a thousand times, and he didn't stop you. Didn't suggest going somewhere else.
You've only been dating a little less than a month, but it feels longer. Maybe it's because you did everything backwardâhad sex before dating, said "I love you" before being together, knew each other's bodies before you really knew each other's hearts. He's not sure. But he's okay with not trying to figure it out, because all that matters is that when you walk into the Pike house now, you can walk hand in hand.
His brothers are scattered throughout the common roomâsome getting ready for bed in their pajama pants and t-shirts, some having late-night snacks like cereal eaten straight from the box, standing at the kitchen counter. They all wave when they see you both come in.
"Hey, Harrington!"
"What's up, man?"
"Hey, Hot Shot!"
Steve rubs his thumb across your knuckles, admiring the way you light up and ask his brothers about their day. Unlike Robinâwho was always polite but never truly invested in Pike lifeâyou genuinely want to know his brothers. You ask Buck about his Econ exam, congratulate AJ on making the intramural basketball team, laugh at Georgeâs terrible joke about their philosophy professor.
You're still not afraid to make a face at Steve whenever they say or do something stupid. Once you whacked Buck upside the head for a sexist comment about a girl from Delta Zeta. But his brothers love you for it. They respect that you don't take their shit, that you can give it back as good as you get it.
Eddie is out with god knows who, but Steve's pretty sure it might be Polly again. They've been on-and-off since the breakup.
There's no stopping Steve from leading you upstairs, gently breaking you away from your conversation mid-sentence. "Sorry, guys, stealing her now," he says, pulling you toward the stairs.
That's one thing he's learned about youâyou love to be chatty, even if it's about nothing important. You could talk for hours about the weather, about a weird dream you had, about the pattern on someone's shirt. He loves that about you.
You go inside his room and he closes the door behind you, the click of the lock loud in the quiet space.
Before you were togetherâback when this was still secret and forbidden and temporaryâit was always rushed. Clothes removed frantically, lips on skin desperately, because it was meant to only last a few hours. To get Steve's fix and your fix and then part ways, pretending nothing happened.
But now he can't get enough of you. Wants to take his time, memorize every detail, make it last.
To be fair, the first time he slept with you he couldn't get enough either. He'd replayed that night over and over in his head for weeksâthe sounds you made, the way you looked underneath him, the feeling of being inside you. In his dresser, tucked all the way behind his socks, he still has your panties from that first night. He's kept them like a talisman.
And he'd admittedly brought them out on occasion.
Like when he tried to sleep with Polly for the first time after you. He was lousyâbarely present, only half harde, had to pretend he even finished. He'd faked enthusiasm while getting her off with his fingers, and afterward Polly had patted his head sympathetically and said, "Not everyone is perfect all the time, Steve. It's okay."
But his mind had immediately settled on you. The dip of your lower back, the swell of your ass and breasts, the curve of your hip. The way your plush lips say his name when he's inside you, the way your nails dig into his skin hard enough that he imagines part of his DNA living under your fingernails permanently.
When Polly left, he'd taken your panties out of their hiding place, holding them with one hand while pumping his cock with the other. So fast, eyes squeezed shut, imagining it was your soft hands instead of his own rough ones. He'd come so hardâthick white ropes shooting against his stomach, sticking to his happy trailâand he'd imagined you licking it off him, cleaning him up with your tongue.
He'd panted your name into the empty room, still gripping your panties.
Fuck, he'd really been such an idiot back then, huh?
Steve watches as you let go of his hand and immediately go to his record player. He'd finally gotten around to showing you his full collection last week, spreading albums across his floor and letting you flip through them all. Now you know exactly where everything is.
He takes off his shoes, neatly placing them by the door. Yours go right next to them. Theyâre side by side, like they belong there.
You're already putting a record on Itâs his Queen "A Day at the Races" album. It's not even his favorite Queen album, but you love it. You always place the needle exactly where "Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy" starts, have the position memorized by now.
When he'd driven to see you for your first official date a few weeks ago, when he'd had to leave that night and drive back to Hawkins, you'd kissed him on the cheek and handed him a mixtape you'd made. "For the drive," you'd said shyly. This song was the first one on it. He'd listened to the entire tape three times on repeat during the drive home, grinning like an idiot the whole way.
You're humming along now, turning around to face him, but he's already close. His hands finding your hips like they're magnetized. "I have something for you."
Your eyes brighten immediately, and you reach up, adjusting his glasses that have slipped slightly down his nose. Your fingers are gentle, careful, and you smile at him before saying,"Oh yeah?"
He nods, melting when you run your fingers through his hair, nails scratching lightly against his scalp. He clears his throat, reaching behind you to grab something from his desk. He picks up a small black box. Itâs nothing fancy, just a simple jewelry box he got from the store in town.
He knew if he'd wrapped it, he would've been bouncing on his feet watching you peel the paper off. He's already doing that now anyway, shifting his weight nervously as you carefully take the lid off.
Your eyes look at the contents, squinting slightly, then look up at him. He crosses his arms, thumb pressed against his bottom lip, downturned eyes staring at you hopefully.
Inside is a sterling silver chain with a charm. Î ÎÎâPike's Greek letters in delicate sterling silver, dainty and shimmering in the lamplight.
He clears his throat. "Yeah, so... it's kind of a thing. That a member's girlfriend wears the letters." The words tumble out faster. "It's like a whole tradition, and it means I'm serious about us. I guess it'd make you like an unofficial sweetheart even though you're not in a sorority, and you can totally not wear it if you don't want to, orâ"
You giggle, smiling wide, reaching up to kiss him gently on the lips. "Steve. Shut up." You pull back just enough to look at him. "Will you put it on for me?"
Steve blushes, smiling dopily, nodding too enthusiastically. He takes the necklace out of the box with careful fingers, and you turn around, lifting your hair up and exposing the nape of your neck.
Steve's breath hitches at the sightâthe delicate skin there, the small birthmark he's never noticed before, the soft baby hairs that curl slightly. He carefully drapes the chain around the front of your neck and clasps it at the back, his thumb brushing over the clasp to make sure it's secure. His fingers trail downâover your shoulder blades, down to you ribs, dangerous close to the sides of your breasts.
He steps closer, pressing his body against yours, and kisses the clasp. His lips find skin, warm and soft, and he can't stop himself from kissing lower.
You tilt your head to give him better access, and he takes over holding your hair to the side, kissing down your neck with increasing intent.
His breath catches when he sees your fingers come up to brush the letters resting against your collarbone. You're his. Really, truly his.
You've made out plenty since you've been back together. Done a lot of heavy petting, put your lips in all kinds of places, brought each other to the edge with hands and mouths. But Steve had suggested waiting to have sex again. He wanted to show you that this part meant something different to him now. Wanted to prove that it wasn't the sex that made him fall in love with you. It was simply you.
And he never thought you'd be struggling more than him with this agreement.
Like now when he feels you arch backward, pressing your ass against him deliberately, but then you quickly realize what that does to him and start to put distance between you again.
This time, Steve grabs your hips firmly, fingers digging into flesh, and pulls you back against him. He sighs at how you feelâperfect, right, his.
"Steve?" you whisper, voice breathy. "Are you sure?"
Steve hums against your neck, kissing the skin softly, reverently. "I love you," is all he says.
He can hear your smile. He can feel it in the way your body relaxes against him. It makes him smile too, teeth grazing your skin.
You turn to face him, fingers hooking into the waistband of his jeans, pulling him toward the bed. You're the one to kiss him this time, and he closes his eyes as your mouths slot together in a slow, agonizing kiss.
You always kiss pretty. Soft and thorough, like kissing him is something you want to savor.
And there you go again. Your hands immediately on his stomach under his henley, palms warm against his skin, wasting no time. You squeeze the plush skin, massaging, it sends chills up his spine and his blood moves southward.
He wastes no time either, slipping his own hand under your shirt, the other squeezing your ass, then trailing up your back to feel bare skin. Up to your breasts, squeezing and massaging through your bra. Down to your belly, caressing.
You walk him backward until his legs hit the edge of the bed, and he sits down heavily. You're standing between his spread legs, and you drop to your knees without hesitation.
"Hot Shot," he breathes, watching as you work open his belt, the clink of metal loud in the quiet room.
You unbutton his jeans, unzip them, and he lifts his hips so you can pull them down along with his boxers. His cock springs free, already hard, and you lean forward immediately.
But instead of taking him in your mouth, you press your face into the soft flesh of his lower stomach. You kiss his happy trailâthat line of dark hair leading down from his navelâthen lick it. Suck at it. Your tongue traces patterns against his skin, and Steve's head falls back, eyes closing.
"Fuck," he whispers.
You look up at him through your lashes, still pressing kisses to his stomach, and the sight nearly kills him. Your eyes are dark with want, lips wet and swollen, and you're worshipping the part of him he's always been most self-conscious about.
He leans down, kissing you.Â
"You're so beautiful," he murmurs against your lips. "Every part of you."
You bat your eyes, âShow me?âÂ
When he calls you meek, he doesnât mean for it to sound like youâre below him, or weak even. Thereâs just no other word to describe the gentleness of your voice, how shy you get. And your shyness only belongs to him. No one else sees you like this, but him. It nearly makes him come undone right there, thinking about it.Â
Steve's heart clenches. He reaches down and cups your face, thumb brushing your cheekbone. "Come here."
You stand, and he pulls you into another kiss, deeper this time, more urgent. His hands find the hem of your shirt and pull it over your head. Your bra follows. Then your jeans and underwear until you're standing naked in front of him.
He takes a moment to look at you. All of you. The curve of your hips, the softness of your thighs, your breasts, the tattoo on your hip that belongs to him, the necklace resting against your collarbone that marks you as his.
"Come here," he murmurs, pulling you closer until you're standing between his spread legs again.
His hands slide up your thighs, rough palms against soft skin, until his fingers reach your center. You're already wetâhave been since he first touched youâand when his fingers brush against you, you gasp and grip his shoulders for balance.
"Steve," you breathe.
He circles your clit slowly, watching your face as pleasure flickers across your features. Then he slides one finger inside you, groaning at how warm and tight you are. "Christ, baby."
You whimper, hips rolling into his hand, seeking more. He adds a second finger, stretching you carefully, remembering how it's been months since you've done this.Â
He crooks his fingers, finding that spot inside you that makes your knees buckle, and you cry out softly. Your hands tighten on his shoulders, nails digging in.
"God, you're so wet," he says, voice rough. He can feel you clenching around his fingers, can feel how ready you are for him. "So beautiful."
He pumps his fingers slowly, trying to be patient, trying to take his time preparing you properly. But it's been so longâtoo longâand the feel of you, the sounds you're making, the way you're looking at him with half-lidded eyes...
"I can't wait," Steve says suddenly, withdrawing his fingers. He looks up at you, desperate and needy. "I'm sorry, I know I shouldâbut I can't. I need you now."
You nod immediately, breathlessly. "Yes. Please, Steve. I need you too."
Relief floods through him. "Yeah?"
"Yes," you say firmly, pushing him back on the bed. "Now."
And he's never loved you more than in this momentâunderstanding what he needs, wanting it as much as he does.
"Lie down," he says softly, his voice rough with want.
You do, crawling onto his bed and sprawling out underneath him, hair fanning across his pillow. Steve kicks off his jeans the rest of the way and pulls his henley over his head, then climbs over you. His glasses slip down his nose slightly, and you reach up with a smile, pushing them back into place with gentle fingers.
He kisses down your bodyâyour neck, your collarbone where the necklace rests, between your breasts. When he gets to your stomach, he presses soft, quick kisses all over. Little pecks that make you giggle and squirm beneath him.
"Steve," you laugh, trying to push his head away. "That tickles."
"Good," he says, grinning against your skin. He kisses your hip bone, then lower, but you pull him back up to you.
"I need you," you whisper. "Now. Please."
Steve nods, sitting back on his heels between your spread legs. You prop yourself up on your elbows to watch him, and the sight of you like thatâsprawled out on his bed, chest heaving, necklace glinting in the lamplight, eyes dark with wantâmakes his cock throb.
He wraps his hand around himself, pumping slowly, and your eyes track the movement. Your tongue darts out to wet your lips, and he groans at the sight.
"You're so beautiful," you whisper, eyes still fixed on his hand moving over his length.
Steve throws his head back, eyes rolling behind his glasses, whimpering. He pumps himself a few more times, thumb swiping over the head where precum is already beading. Then he leans forward, positioning himself over you, he spreads your legs wider and spits directly onto your pussy, a string of saliva dripping wet from his tongue, glistening as it falls.
You gasp at the sensation. Itâs warm and wet and filthy in the best way. He uses his fingers to spread it around, mixing with your own wetness, making sure you're slick and ready for him.
"Fuck. Baby," you breathe, head falling back.
He lines himself up, the head of his cock pressing against your entrance, and pauses for just a moment. Your eyes meet his, and there's understanding thereâthis is different, more intimate, nothing between you.
"I love you," he says, looking into your eyes.
"I love you too," you breathe.
He pushes in slowlyâso slowly, watching your face as he fills you inch by inch. Your mouth falls open, back arching slightly, neck elongating as your head presses back into the pillow. You let out a high-pitched moan that goes straight to his cock.
"God," Steve groans when he's fully seated inside you. He stays still for a moment, letting you adjust, savoring the feeling of being this close to you. "Baby you feel perfect."
He starts to move. Itâs slow, deep rolls of his hips that make you gasp beneath him. This isn't fucking. This isn't even having sex, not really.
This is lovemaking, and he knows you or Robin would probably make fun of him for calling it that, for being so sappy and romantic. But that's what it is to him. He's not trying to get off or make himself feel good. He's worshipping you, showing you with his body what his words can't fully express.
He buries his face in your neck, pressing kisses there, breathing you in. "I love you," he whispers against your skin. "I love you so much."
"Steve," you moan, hands clutching at his back. "I love you."
He keeps whispering it. Over and over like a prayer, like if he says it enough times you'll feel exactly how much he means it. "I love you. I love you. I love you."
The room fills with soundsâskin against skin, the creak of his bed frame, your breathy moans, his low groans, the wet slide of him moving inside you. How his hips slap against your ass.The music still plays from his record player, Freddie Mercury's voice a soundtrack to this moment.
After a while, Steve sits up, pulling you with him. You end up in his lap, straddling him, and he guides you up and down on his cock with his hands on your hips. One hand braces on the bed next to him for leverage so he can thrust up into you, meeting your movements.
Your arms are around his neck, holding him close, and you're clutched together so tightly there's no space between your bodies. Sweat makes your skin stick together, and Steve can feel your heart beating against his chestâfast and hard, matching his own rhythm. Your pants and moans mixing together in harmony.Â
You're looking at him, mouth parted, breathing heavily. Your hand comes up to cup his cheek, tender and gentle even as pleasure builds between you.
"I love you, Steve," you say clearly, deliberately, holding his gaze.
Steve falters, his rhythm stuttering.He kisses you fiercely, possessively, his glasses bumping against your face. He starts moving more intenselyâfaster, harder, deeper.
"Say it again," he demands against your lips.
"I love you," you gasp.
He uses his large hand to cup your chin, tilting your face so you have to look at him. You can see yourself reflected in his lenses. "I love you," he says back, and it comes out rough, wrecked. "I love you so fucking much."
The intensity makes you lean back slightly, back arching, and Steve groans at the sight. Your breasts bounce with each thrust, nipples hard and begging for his mouth. Your eyes are half-lidded, pupils blown wide, lips swollen from kissing. You look completely gone, lost in pleasure, and he knows he looks the same. Itâs desperate and needy and so in love it hurts.
He leans forward and kisses the charm of your necklace where it rests against your skin, then your collarbone, sucking a mark there that will bloom purple by morning.
You wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him close again, burying his face between your breasts. He can feel the way you pant and whine into his hair, can feel your body starting to tighten around him. He can hear himself whimpering your name against your sweaty skin.Â
"Baby, I'mâI'm close," you gasp.Â
"Me too, baby. Me too."
He reaches between you, fingers finding your clit and rubbing in tight circles. That's all it takesâyou cry out his name, clenching around him, and the feeling of you coming sends him over the edge too.
He comes with a groan muffled against your chest, hips stuttering as he empties himself inside you. You ride it out together, holding each other through the aftershocks, foreheads pressed together and noses nudging.
When you can both breathe again, you press soft pecks to his lips. Once, twice, three times. Sweet and unhurried.
Steve smiles, tucking your hair back behind your ear with gentle fingers. "I'm happy," he says genuinely, searching your face. "Are you happy, Hot Shot?"
"Yes, Steve. I'm more than happy."
And he believes you. He sees it in your eyes, in the way you're looking at him like he hung the moon and stars. He grabs your hand and places it over his heart, wanting you to feel what heâs thinking without saying it.Â
He loves you.Â
You kiss his lips again, soft and lingering. When you pull back, your irises are glimmering, searching into his own. He sees stars twinkling in themâactual constellations reflected in the depths of your eyes. He kisses your nose, then your forehead.
And like the sun itself rising, splitting across your face, you smile. Wide and genuine and so full of love it makes his chest ache.
It doesn't matter anymore how it all led up to hereâall the lies and hurt and confusion and heartbreak. None of it matters because you're here now, in his arms, wearing his letters, saying you love him.
Finally.
Finally, Steve Harrington gets to keep something good.
summary: Your parents booked the perfect college graduation present: a luxury cruise. But because they're lying schemers, they secretly invited the Harringtons to join.
More importantly, Steve fucking Harrington.
You knowâyour former best friend, almost-something, and the guy you havenât spoken to in four years.
Now you're stuck on a ship for three days together with nothing but meddling parents, a single room, and a whole lot of unresolved history.
And unfortunately, Steve still knows exactly how to unravel you.
tags: [second chance] [childhood best friends to lovers] [modern day cruise ship au] [rich families] [luxury] [only one bed] [eventual smut] [angst with a happy ending] [meddling parents] [high society] [college age steve]
CHAPTER ONE: Day 1
CHAPTER TWO: Day 2
CHAPTER THREE: Day 3
EPILOGUE
CHAPTER ONE - Day 1
{On a luxury cruise, you find yourself tangled up in a scheme to marry Steve Harrington. Only problem is: you hate him.}
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This is the shit.Â
The sun beats down from high above your lounger on the ship, and your skin soaks it up like a dry sponge. Youâve spent the last three weeks indoors studying for your college finals, and now your reward for crossing that stage in your white coat and being handed a piece of paper is a three-day cruise to the Caribbean.Â
The only downside isâŠyour parents.Â
A public pool is not exactly their scene. So, naturally, thatâs exactly where you gravitate towards.Â
Upbeat music bounces across the deck, drumming a happy buzz into your skull. When was the last time you were truly relaxed? Marine Biology is one bitch of a major. A boisterous kidâs laugh cuts through the music, pulling your eyes up. You raise your second margarita to your lips, the cool drink warming your belly in that way only alcohol does.Â
Youâre definitely blaming the booze for the way your eyes linger on a muscled forearm as a man heaves himself over the edge of the pool.
Itâs a slippery slope from thereâ strong hands lead to toned arms, to a smattering of chest hair, and finally to a pair of red swim trunks slung low on his hips. Water pours from him in rivulets, running down the long length of his legs.Â
You watch his abs flex as he laughs at something the kid calls to him, before his feet start moving your way.Â
Shit.Â
You may have had one too many of these Mango Meltdowns, because you were totally just staring at hisâ
âHey, stranger.â
You freeze.Â
Oh God. You know that voice. Itâs etched in your dreams. An echo you sometimes hear from across the room. And you always look up, even though you know itâs fruitless.Â
That thing about your parents being the only downside? Well, scratch that. Because the second one just walked up to you.
You lower your sunglasses slowly, and your vision fills with dripping hair and a teasing smirk. Â
Steve Harrington.Â
God, his brown eyes are just as captivating as they were back in in high-school. And middle school. And elementaryâpoint is: Steve has great eyes. And youâve thought that for as long as youâve known him.Â
Which is a long fucking time.Â
âS-steve?â you stammer, finally finding your voice. âWhat the hell are you doing here?â
âMe?â Steve snorts. âPretty sure youâre the one crashing my vacation, Princess.â
Princess. Of course. How could you have forgotten? Itâs only been four years since youâve heard that nickname.Â
For some reason, Steve seems to take your stunned silence as a personal invitation to join you. He plops down on your lounger and rakes a hand through his hair, spraying cool droplets over your sun-warmed skin.Â
You hiss and push at his back with your foot. âWhaâSteve! Get off, youâre getting me all wet.â
He twists, sending you a wicked grin over his shoulder. âOh, really?â
You roll your eyes. âNot like that, you perv. Get your own lounger!â
âThere arenât any left,â Steve says, nodding out toward the deck. âLook.â
Heâs right. But that doesnât matter.Â
âOkay, this is obvious whatâs happening here. You know that, right? Where are Danny and Heather?â You sit up, scanning the pool deck for his parents. But you know they wouldnât be caught dead anywhere that smells like sunscreen and cheap beer.Â
âI know,â Steve mutters. âI figured it out the second I saw you.â
You turn back to him. âOh you did, huh? And when was that? Five seconds ago?â
Steve looks at you, then takes a long swig fromâyourâwater bottle. His eyes hold yours as he swallows, daring you to stop him.Â
You look away. Coward.Â
âNo,â he says, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand and placing your water bottle back on the ground. He somehow manages to make it look hot. âSaw you the second you stepped on the ship.âÂ
You scoff. âYou did not.â
He shrugs, like he couldnât give a shit whether you believe him. And for some reason, that makes you think itâs probably true. Now you just feel like an idiot.Â
AndâŠthere it is. That shift in the energy between you. You become acutely aware of every sway the ship makes underneath you as your gaze falls to your lap.Â
This is exactly why youâve done everything in your power to avoid seeing Steve Harrington once over the last four years. Doesnât matter that you used to be best friends growing up, or that youâat one pointâthought there could be more.Â
Itâs no secret that both your parents and his have been playing matchmaker your entire lives. Unfortunately for the both of you, itâs far less cupidâs arrow, and much more corporate scheme. With both of you being the the only children of wealthy families, the expectation that you would marry each other has been drilled into your heads since kindergarten.Â
Honestly, one would think all this elitist marry-your-children-off-for-status bullshit would be gone by now. Modern era and all. But, for your familyâand the Harringtonsâthose were the glory days.Â
They are so unfathomably out of touch with reality.Â
âWhat did they tell you?â you ask, softer now. âCollege graduation trip?â
Steve nods. âMandatory.â
You groan, tipping your head back against the lounger. Itâs a fancy one. One of those fabric ones that dry instantly, but somehow never sag. The kind of luxury the biggest, best cruise ship in the world prides itself on. Only the best for your parents.Â
Unfortunately for you, the best includes Steve Harrington.Â
At one point, you agreed with them when it came to him. But not anymore. That all changed the summer before college.Â
Suddenly the air is too thick. Too charged. You fiddle with the strap of your bathing suit and look around for some excuse to leave.
âWhatâs with the kid?â You ask, gesturing to the curly headed boy who is waving his hat around trying to get Steveâs attention.Â
Steve turns. âOh, thatâs Dustin. Met him at the batting cages earlier. His parents asked me to keep an eye on him for a few minutes. An hour and a half later, Iâm a goddamn babysitter.â
You wave at Dustin. He smiles a big, toothless grin and mimes for you to push Steve into the pool.Â
âWell,â you say, letting out a breath as you gather your things. âIâll let you get back to it, then.â
 Steve makes no effort to get out of your way when you stand, so you end up doing an awkward little shuffle thing to get around him. âIâm sure Iâll see you at dinner. How are we doing this? Same as always?âÂ
âOh, so now Iâm getting a say?â His mouth quirks, but the smile doesnât reach his eyes. He leans back in your lounger and slides his sunglass down over his eyes. âFunny. Didnât think that was part of the deal with us.â
You avert your eyes to the pool, and the sun glinting off the surface spears you in the eye. You replace your sunglasses as well before looking back down at him.Â
So, he is still angry. A small, selfish part of you always wondered if he was.Â
Well, itâs probably for the best. Considering how youâre still mad at him, too.
A lot can change in four years. But when it comes to you and Steveâsome things never will.Â
âYou look nervous,â your mom says.Â
Youâre standing on the top of the stairs leading down to the luxurious dining room, waiting for the Harringtons to arrive. Live piano music drifts through the space, an antithesis to the way your heels pinch your feet and sweat beads on the nape of your neck.
Giant chandeliers hang from the high ceiling, sending a soft glow over crisp white linen and shining silverware. Momâs auburn curls glint in the light as she leans in to try to fix your dress again.Â
âIâm not nervous,â you retort, brushing her hand away. Youâre wearing an elegant evening gown. Deep blue. Itâs pretty, but the thin straps keep falling off your shoulders. Instead of pulling them up, Mom keeps pulling them down. Insisting they look better that way.Â
You know the truth.Â
âItâs okay if you are, you know. It has been four years since youâve seen each other.â
âLeave her alone, Emily,â your dad speaks up from your other side. âIâm sure the Harrington boy is more nervous than she could ever be.â
You huff out a breath. That Harrington boy is all heâs ever been to your dad. A last name. A title.
âHe has a name, you know," you snap.Â
Dad turns to you, green eyes glinting beneath silver brows. His hair has grayed a lot in the last few years. His mouth tilts into a smirk beneath his trimmed mustache. Itâs as perfectly put together as the suit heâs wearing. âYou really are nervous, arenât you? Emily, you're sure she said they'd meet us here?"
"Yes dear," Mom replies. "I do know the difference between the top and bottom of the stairs."
Irritation spikes, and you face forward again to hide your grimace. Just get this trip over with. Itâs only three days. Then, you can forge ahead with the future youâve built for yourself. The mission youâve worked so hard for.Â
To make the world a better place to live.Â
âThere you are!â A voice calls from the bottom of the stairs. âWe were looking everywhere!â
Steveâs Mom, Heather, laughs loudly at the sight of the three of you waiting at the top. Sheâs a thin, slight woman with wavy brown hair that looks a lot like her sonâs. Tonight, sheâs in her usual two-piece set. Itâs velvet tonight, and the color of a good merlot.
Wine. Now, thereâs a thought. God, you need some wine. Â
Mr. Harrington â or, Danny, as Steve calls him, steps up beside his wife. His suit is a close match to your Fatherâs. To the untrained eye, theyâd look identical in cut and expense. But Dad has never gotten over the fact that Mr. Harringtonâs suit is threaded with silver, not silk like his.Â
Itâs a small difference. But to the people in this circleâŠitâs an entire class divide.Â
âGot the top and bottom of the stairs mixed up again, Alan?â Danny calls with a smile.
You barely suppress the urge to roll your eyes.Â
Your parents start down the stairs, plastering on delighted smiles and chuckling about the little mixup, and youâre about to follow when Steve steps into view.Â
Heâs standing at the landing, fiddling with the cufflinks on his navy suit. They seem to wink at you in the dim light of the chandeliers. Teasing you. Daring you.Â
His lashes brush his cheeks as he works. Faint freckles scatter his face. He always used to get them after playing baseball outside every summer. That thought makes a smile tug at your lips. He hasn't changed much at all. His hair is as tousled as ever, though it look like heâs run his hands through it a few times.Â
Is he nervous too? No. Heâs still angry at you, remember?
Youâve barely started down the steps when his eyes lift.
You really try not to notice how his jaw slackens at the sight of you descending the staircase like a deep blue waterfall. The way his gaze sweeps over you, drinking you in like he hasnât tasted water in months.Â
But you do.
Years of practice keep your footing steady, even with your heart jackhammering against your ribs. The sharp click of your heel against the mahogany echoes over the piano, a familiar soundtrack of the life your parents built for you.
When you reach the landing, you look up to find everyone watching you. The Harringtons. Your parents.Â
Steve extends a hand, and you donât know why, but you take it. Maybe just to get the attention off you.
Whatever the reason, it works.Â
our parents and his exchange a heavy, knowing look, but the hostess steps forward, pulling the focus away from you both.Â
Steveâs looking at your joined hands, and your chest tightens when you notice his shirt sleeve still hanging open, the edges of the crisp linen brushing your wrist.Â
âHere,â you mutter under your breath, reaching for it.Â
Your nimble fingers work quickly, securing the cufflinks with practiced ease. Youâve done this many times for him over the years. You used to think he never chose to learn how on purpose.Â
Because every summer, it gave him an excuse to ask you.Â
You feel him looking down at you, his gaze a weighty, warm, tangible thing. But you keep your eyes on your task. Because if you look up, even for a second, youâre not sure what you'd do.
The hostess leads the way towards your table, and when your group starts to move, you and Steve follow out of habit.Â
But for some reason, even after his cufflink is firmly in place, you canât bring yourself to let go of his hand.Â
âI canât believe itâs been this long!â Heather exclaims halfway through dinner.Â
You tear your eyes away from the window behind the table at the sound of her voice. Even over the clink of silverware and low murmurs of conversation, you can still hear the distant roar of the water as the ship forges through the night.Â
The depths call to you â a siren song thatâs pulled you under completely for the last four years. You drowned willingly, though, wanting to forget.Â
âI agree,â Dad says, stabbing a piece of steak with his fork and dragging it through the last of the caper sauce on his plate. âWe should set sail more often. You know, like we used to.â
Memories are a funny thing.Â
You would think, since you spent most of the year away from Steve, that youâd have more memories without them in it.Â
But no.Â
Your memories are filled with him. You and Steve didnât live by each other, but you spent a good chunk of the summer together every year. Cruises and resorts were popular with your parents, but your favorite summers were the ones when the Harringtons came to stay at your beach house in South Carolina.Â
In every stage of your life, he was there. From picking up shells on the shore, to picking each other up for beach parties, he was with you. Â
Back when everything was good between you.Â
Until that night, where things were too goodâŠ
You reach for your wine glass again.Â
âEasy there, Princess.â Steve mutters under his breath from his seat beside yours. âAt this rate, they might as well just bring you the bottle.â
âGood idea,â you mutter, clinking your glass lightly against his before downing it.Â
âThose were the days,â Danny chimes in. His hair is slicked back in itâs usual style. If Steve gelled his hair like that, heâd look a lot more like him.Â
You snort into your glass at the thought. Steve would probably rather cut off his pinky than do that.Â
God, are you drunk? Already?Â
Steve drapes an arm around the back of your chair and leans in. He smells good. Familiar. Like hairspray, and that ancient, cheap cologne he always insists on wearing. Itâs from a drugstore, youâre pretty sure, which is practically a crime in his family.Â
Strong, powdery and slightly sweet.
Youâve always liked it.Â
âWeâve still got two courses to go, you know,â he reminds. Â
His warm breath ghosts over your ear. You can hardly breathe with him so close to you like this. Maybe you're just drunk off his proximity. That must be it.Â
âShut up.â
You hate it when he tells you what to do. Even so, you set your glass down and pick up your fork. You really do need your wits about youâespecially if you donât want to start thinking about dangerous things. Thatâs what the wine was for.Â
But it might actually just be making it worse, because now, all youâre left with is a warm belly and a hazy brain that keep replaying the feeling of Steveâs lips on your neck. Your hands in his hair. The way his throat looked in the moonlight, tipped back like that, and the moan that escaped him when youâ
Steveâs elbow nudging your ribs jerks you back to reality.
You look up to find the table staring at you.Â
âSorry. W-what?â you stammer.Â
Heather smiles at you, but all you see is a row of pearly whites behind red lipstick. âWe were just discussing plans for port tomorrow.â
You nod hesitantly. âI already have plans.â
This isn't your first rodeo.Â
Avoiding Steve Harrington at all costs and dodging your parents at every opportunityâthat is your plan for tomorrow.Â
Mom and Heather exchange a look across the round table. You know that look.Â
âWe thought it would be nice for you and Steve to get out together,â Mom says. âSo, we booked you an exclusive excursion!â
You nearly choke on your wine. Steve shifts in his seat, but says nothing.Â
Heather nods enthusiastically. âYouâll take a private charter in the morning. I thought snorkeling would be suitable. Itâs a youthful activity, and it gives you a chance to share with Steve what youâve been learning lately. You know, since you study all those exotic fish!â
You go to set your glass down but misjudge the distance, and it scrapes along your plate. The sound echoes too loud through the silence at your table.Â
Of course. Leave it to this crowd to diminish your education in marine biology and planet conservation to the cute little hobby of memorizing colorful fish.Â
Sometimes, if you play your cards exactly right, you can finesse your way out of things. But one look at the set of Momâs jawâand Heatherâs satisfied smirkâand you know.Â
This is happening whether you want it to or not.Â
âThanks,â Steve chimes in easily. âBut I was actually just hoping to catch the game tomorrowââÂ
âNonsense!â Danny says, pointing his fork at him. âYouâre going. End of discussion.â
And thatâs how it is with Steveâs family. How itâs always been. There is no discussion.Â
Ever.Â
He is ordered around like a chess piece. Nothing but a pawn in his familiesâ games of status and expectations.Â
At least you got the freedom to choose your own career.Â
Steve was required to major in business. Just like his Father. So he could take over the family company. Carry the name.Â
The same last name that â if your parents have their way â will soon become yours.Â
Thereâs something wrong with your key card.Â
The door to your room wonât open. The lock just keeps flashing red every time you press it to the reader. You try it again. And again. And again.Â
Finally, with a frustrated sigh, you give up and head down to the front desk.Â
There you learn, as it turns out, your room has been upgraded. Mysteriously. Anonymously. Ohâand according to the concierge, it just happens to be their exclusive honeymoon suite. He congratulates you as he hands you the key. After profusely correcting him, you drag yourself into the elevator and ride it up to the penthouse floor.Â
When you tap your card to the reader on the door labeled The Haven, it opens immediately. And as you step into the grand entryway, you already know who youâll find inside.Â
âI canât believe them!â you call, slamming the door behind you.Â
âI know,â Steve replies instantly, voice carrying from deeper inside the penthouse. âTheyâre getting desperate.â
You groan in response, kicking your heels off angrily. They clatter onto the marble floor, lying there on their side as if disgraced. Your parents should be disgraced.Â
âI meanâŠa fake-out room?â You huff, stomping further into the dimly lit space. âSeriously? I mean, reallyâŠwhere are you? This place is bigger than the Pacific.â
âIn here,â Steve calls.Â
You pass a bedroom, a bathroom, and kitchenette decorated in creams and navy, complete with gold accents that catch the light as you pass. Heâs not in any of them.Â
âNot helpful.â
He sighs, annoyed. âIn the living room. I think.â
Finally, you find the space heâs talking about. Itâs simple. Plush couch. Glass coffee table. And a gigantic sliding glass door spanning the far wall. The glass has turned into a mirror against the night sky, catching the soft glow of the room and turning it into muted golds and shadows. Beyond it, the ocean is almost invisible. Just a deep black suggestion of movement under the starry sky. You can just make out a private deck, complete with a hot tub.Â
Steveâs sprawled across the couch. His suit jacket is gone, shirt creased, tie loose. His hair is mussed, and a cold beer dangles from his hand. A baseball game plays on the TV, an announcer talking excitedly about a recent play, but heâs not watching it.Â
Heâs looking at you.Â
His eyes darken as you step forward, catching on the way your hips sway as you approach. Youâre still in your evening gown. After the appropriate amount of time had passed, you excused yourself from dinner and wandered the deck for a long time. Your hair is probably a mess from the wind, and whatever buzz you had is long gone.
But he still looks at you like that. Like he used to.Â
Your stomach fills with butterflies.Â
To distract yourself, you lean down and grab the cold beer from him.Â
âYouâre not going to like it,â he warns, but he lets you take it anyway, his fingertips brushing yours in the exchange.Â
Under his watchful gaze, you lift the bottle to your lips. Right where his mouth was. You watch his throat bob as you take a sip. The sour tang hits your tongue, and you pull away, grimacing.Â
Yep. Still hate beer.Â
He raises a hand up to take it back, but you turn and stride away, drink in hand.Â
âWaitâwhat?â He pushes up fast, catching you around the waist just before you reach the bedroom door. The heat of his hand burns through the thin fabric of your dress. âHey! Give it back, Princess. Câmonâyou already drank your weight in wine at dinnerâŠâ
You fling open the door to the bedroom and he follows close behind.Â
âFine.â You shove it back into his chest. âI donât like it anyway.â
âI know.â He huffs, taking the bottle and placing it on the dresser.Â
You fold your arms across your chest. He shoves his hands in his pockets. You glance at each other, then away. There are a thousand things left unsaid, but you have no idea how to say them. Or, if you even should.Â
âSo thisâŠexcursion thing.â Steve says, watching you closely. âWe doinâ it or what?â
You shrug, suddenly tired. âI donât see how we donât. Theyâre going to ask about it.â
âWeâve lied about stuff like this before.â
âYeah, but my parentsâŠâ You trail off, unsure how to describe the recent shift in their behavior lately.
Steve just nods, like he heard you anyway. âYeah. Somethinâs off with mine too. Canât figure it out.â
You nod, relieved. âRight? I mean, theyâve always been pushy, but theyâre reallyâŠrushing. And so tenseâwhat is up with that?â
âCould be a timing thing.â He drags a hand through his hair, and your eyes follow the movement without really meaning to. Four years has changed him. Heâs grown out of his boyish features. Broader shoulders. Sharper jaw. A hint of stubble on his chin even when heâs clean-shaven. He looks good. âLike, maybe they think itâs time for an heir or something. You knowâŠbiological clock and all that.âÂ
Your jaw drops. All thoughts of how good he looks screech to a halt. âI just graduated college, Harrington! Iâm notââ
He smirks. Oh.
âIâm joking, Princess,â he says with a grin, dodging easily when you reach out to slap his arm. âRelax. I have no idea what the hell theyâre up to.â
âOkay, well there will be no heir making. Not if I have anything to say about it. Matter of factâ donât come in my room.â
Steve shakes his head, a grin curling at the corner of his mouth. You have the most ridiculous, intense urge to kiss it off. âYou know this is my room, too, right?â
You freeze. âWhat?â
âYeah,â he gestures behind you at the single bed. âOnly bed in the whole place.â
âOh, perfect,â you say brightly, sarcasm dripping from your tongue. âThatâs justâŠgreat.â You donât know why you didnât think about that sooner. But the honeymoon suite? Yeah, that tracks. âBut wait, thereâs a couch!â
Steve groans, dragging a hand down his face. âI donât fit on that thing. My feet hang off the edge. And no, it doesnât convert into a bed, I checked.â
âWell, then itâs going to be a long night for you. Or, you could always go buy a new room with your parentâs credit card. But you wonât be sleeping with me.â
The light, teasing energy seems to dim under your words. The soft glow of the lamps grows darker somehow as he looks down at you.Â
âDonât worry, Princess,â he breathes. âYou keep your hands to yourself this time, and you wonât have to worry about that ever again.â
You gasp, eyes wide. âWhat did you just say to me?â
He opens his mouth like he might say something, but turns away instead, broad shoulder catching yours as he moves past you. âForget it.â
But you donât let him get far. Reaching out, you snatch his shirt and pull him back to face you like a man.Â
âNo, Harrington, you listen to me,â you snap, fingers curling into the warm fabric, his heartbeat thudding against your knuckles. âYou donât get to turn that into this. We shared one night together. That was it. And you were the one who said it meant nothing the next day. So why donât we justââ
âMe?â His eyes darken. âYou told me I was just doing it because my parents told me to.â His jaw pulses. âLike I didnât have a choice!â
You release him, dropping your gaze so he canât see the tears springing to your eyes. âI donât want to talk about this.âÂ
You think about it too much as it is.Â
âFine.â Theres a flat edge to Steveâs voice now and it makes your chest ache. His shoulders fall as he turns to leave. âHave it your way, Princess."
You toss and turn all night, and when the soft pink glow of morning spills through the windows, the other side of the bed is still empty.
a/n: hi. so, I went on a cruise over spring break, and I really tried to write a one-shot, but ended up writing a novella instead. sorry not sorry. feel free to come yell at me to finish my other ongoing fics before starting new ones. love u.
Summary: Two months ago you started dating your best friend of five years. It's weird sometimes. But you kind of love it.
CW: 18+ MDNI, established relationship, friends to lovers, fluff, piv smut, oral (r receiving), first time, cursing, pet names, smut portion is NOT proofread because i hate reading my own smut :)
@saradika-graphics for the divider!
inspired, of course, by ftsg - emma andersen :)
For five years, you and Steve were just friends. Strictly platonic.
And not even in a 'wink wink' type of wayâ you really were just best friends. Mutual harbored feelings aside, you acted like friends. Just good pals.
A semi-drunken kiss, months ago, changed all of that. You're still not sure about Steve; but you weren't really as inebriated as you had claimed to be that night.
Six months of intensely and unnecessarily dramatic pining later and you're staying the night at Steve's place more often than not. He's kissing you and touching you in ways previously off-limits. He's bringing you flowers and cooking you dinner and it's all so weird.
Because you still do all the same things you did when you weren't dating. He still drives you to and from work because you're too scared to get your license. He still makes you drench his popcorn in parmesan cheese before he'll eat it and he still tackles you to the floor when you play spoons with the rest of your friends.
But now you go home together afterward. You get ready for bed in the same bathroom and share each other's bodywash so you can always smell like the other when they're not around. You eat meals together and and climb under the same covers at night.
It's perfect.
It's everything you've spent the last five years doing and more.
And you think you might love him.
Tonight is another one of those perfectly strange moments. You're standing in nothing but his shirt and your underwear, rummaging around the clothes that live in his spare dresser drawer.
Steve's been in the bathroom for ten minutes. He insists on shaving at night before bedâ instead of in the morning before leaving the house.
"It gives me the perfect amount of stubble when I wake up in the morning if I do it the night before!" He once explained to you when you'd questioned him about it.
"Baby, have you seen my aftershave?" He now yells from the sink of his ensuite.
Your heart kind of stops. He's never called you that before.
He's literally only ever called you your name. Or nickname adjacent variations of your name. Even after you started dating.
He says it now, in fact, after you don't answer him for a few moments.
"Hey, everything okay?" He asks when he sees your face.
"What did you just call me?" You ask, seemingly struggling to maintain eye contact. You're not totally sure why.
"...baby? Is that...not...?"
"Ew!" Admittedly not exactly the best exclamation to describe how Steve calling you that actually makes you feel, but you're coming up short for anything else.
"'Ew'? Seriously? What's 'ew' about me calling you 'baby'?" Steve questions, his voice rising in volume and pitch in that incredulous way.
"I didn't mean it like ew, I just meant it like. Ew."
"I don'tâ understandâ?"
"It's just. I'm standing here in your room, in your clothes. And its all so domestic and kind of weird and I feel like I can't even talk straight and I think I'm probably in love with youâ"
Except for the sound of you clapping your hand over mouth, the room falls completely silent. Steve stands, mouth slightly agape, and doesn't speak.
"You love me?" He asks simply.
"Wellâ I meanâ I've always loved you." You clarify. "I just feel like I love you now... in a different way."
Steve nods slowly.
"We've been friends for years, but now you call me 'baby', apparently, andâ and you hold my and kiss me and tell me that I'm pretty. It's all so new. And I love it, but it's odd sometimes. You know?"
"Yeah," he nods more confidently now, "Yeah, I get it."
"So, yes. Ew. But... a good ew," you grin stupidly, your eyes crinkling in the corner.
"Would you think it was 'ew' if I kissed you right now?" Steve asks, stepping closer with an equally dumb smirk on his lips.
"No..." you squirm.
"Good." He says, gently gripping your waist as he pulls you flush against him. Steve kisses you softly, his lips a ghost across your own.
He pulls back to look at you, then moves to your cheek. "Baby," he says against your plush skin before moving to the other cheek, "Baby,"
You laugh fondly, rolling your eyes as his smooching grows more frantic. A steady stream of 'baby's' leaving his mouth between every one he plants on your skin.
"Fuck," you tease, pushing him away, "that's so gross,"
"You love me," he reminds you, leaning into your space again to place open-mouthed kisses on your neck; beneath your ear.
Steve's hands begin to roam. From your shoulders to the small of your back, before brushing over your bottom. His palms find purchase in the apex where your thighs meet your ass.
His mouth finds yours once more, but this kiss is more urgent. With his hands supporting you, he lifts you up, urging your legs to wrap around his waist before carrying you to his modest full-size bed that's hardly big enough for both of you some nights.
You land with an oof and it makes Steve giggle where he planks above you, careful not to crush you with his weight.
The lightness of the moment is replaced by a hunger that overtakes Steve's honeyed eyes before he's ducking down to capture your mouth again. He makes soft noises against your lips that you swallow before they ever reach the air.
One of his knees nudges yours, separating your legs far enough for him to rest between them. "Is this okay?" He asks breathily.
'Yeah. Yeah, it's good,"
Steve settles his weight against your spread thighs, your pelvis' touching. It's a not necessarily a new sensation, but it's new in this context. He's half-hard on top of you. It sends your stomach churning with nervous desire.
He kisses you breathless for a while longer and it's familiar; what's not-so-familiar is the experimental thrust of his hips. You can feel that he's fully erect now, the pressure on your core is surprising and pleasurable all at once.
You gasp and Steve halts. His eyes are wide when he looks at you, "Sorryâ was that okay?"
"Okay," he breathesâ and does it again. Steve revels in your gasp; the way your back arches just slightly off of the bed and into him.
It all feels a little off-beat. You're still learning each other in this new way. You want to know what makes Steve tick. Steve wants to know what might make you do that pretty gasp again.
"Can I take these off?" He asks, hushed, as his fingers brush the skin under the waistband of your underwear.
You swallow thickly but nod.
"It's okay. If you don't want to." He brushes a lock of hair behind your ear and you know he means it.
"I do," you assure him, "I'm just... nervous,"
"You don't have to be," he smiles down at you, but it wavers. You can tell he's trying to put on a brave faceâ his 'macho Steve' persona, as you've affectionately branded it.
"Its okay, Steve," you giggle, "you can admit that you're nervous, too,"
"Me?" He scoffs, "Hawkins' Resident Womanizer Steve Harrington? Nervous to have sex with hisâ stupidly beautiful girlfriend? I doubt it."
You smack his chest and he laughs heartily, snatching your hand and bringing it to his lips.
"Maybe I'm a little nervous," he all but whispers into your knuckles.
"Awfully presumptuous of you to assume I'm having sex with you tonight," you tease.
"Oh, no?" His right hand snakes down your stomach, dipping below your underwear and cupping your heat.
"Ohâ"
His voice dips, his mouth hovering just over your ear, "Does your pussy know that, baby? 'Cause you're already soaked."
Hearing Steve talk like this feels visceral. Its like wires being crossed inside your brain. Steve's always been a hit with the girls, but you've never been on the receiving end of the romancing. This Steve feels different than the one you grew up with; than the one you've spent so much time withâ doing anything and everything together.
You thought when the time came that it might feel awkward, but now you're beginning to wonder why you haven't done this sooner.
Steve's fingers dip into the arousal pooling in the bottom of your underwear before traveling back to your clit with tantalizing circles.
"That feel good?" He asks. His voice sounds husky but you can tell that he's asking genuinely; still learning what you do and don't like.
"That'sâ yeah," you sigh, "that's perfect,"
His movements gain more confidence after that. He studies your face as he goes, cataloguing every miniscule reaction and adjusting where he needs to.
And it's so much, but still not enough. "Steve," you exhale, halting his rhythm with your hand on his wrist, "will you... would you goâ down on me?" Your voice comes out small, like you're not sure how to ask for it.
Steve seems to take great pleasure in the request, his eyes taking on a mischievous glint, "Yeah? You want my mouth, honey?"
The new pet name makes you shiver, "Please."
"So polite," Steve praises, words muffled from where his mouth is pressed against the skin of your stomach as he trails his mouth lower lower lowerâ until he's exactly where you need him.
His tongue is hot and hesitant against you. He starts with barely there kitten licks before flattening his tongue entirelyâ moving with broad strokes from your entrance to your clit and making sure you're comfortable before incorporating his fingers again.
Your hand flies to his hair when he slides the first one inside of you, all the way to his last knuckle, "Fuck, Steve!"
The encouragement and the pull of your fingers threading through his hair elicits a ragged moan from his throat. You've never even imagined Steve making a sound like that. Another wave of arousal washes over you.
He works you over for what feels like hours and you're admittedly shocked to feel your pleasure cresting to a peak. You've never finished from a having sex with a partner before; you feel yourself beginning to tense.
"Steveâ I'm closeâ" you whimper, head thrown back against his expensive down pillows that you know you're dampening with sweat.
"I know, baby, I can tell," he pauses, "it's okayâ I've got you,"
His eyes never leave you as you come. He watches ever twitch of your abdomenâ every squeeze of your hands twisted in the bedsheet. You can hear him murmuring praises the entire timeâ good girl, so good, baby, fuckâthat's so hotâ but it all sounds muffled. Like you're underwater.
You waste no time grabbing him by the jaw as we crawls his way back over your body and pulling him into a searing kiss. He tastes like a heady mix of your cunt and the spearmint toothpaste he was brushing his teeth with an hour ago.
Steve's tenting his boxers when you glance down between your bodies; just past him the sheets discolored with wet patches where he'd been rutting into the mattress.
Your legs hook behind his back and you pull him into you with a force that knocks the wind out of both of you. You're still sensitive from your orgasm.
"Do you want me to use a condom?" He groans as his clothed cock ruts against your bare folds. He can barely speak; feeling the warmth of you seep through the fabric.
"I'm on the pill," you tell him, "you could pull out just in case, but it's up to you,"
He ducks down to kiss you before responding. Steve kisses you like its as essential to him as air or waterâ a lifeforce that he needs or he'll simply cease to exist.
You take the opportunity to push his boxers off his hips and down his thighs as he licks into your mouth; his tongue tangling with yours.
Steve's cock is heavy and velvety soft in your hand as you pump him slowly. Your mouths part with a click as you bring your palm to his mouth. "Spit."
His previously heavy-lidded eyes grow wider, but he obliges. You bring your hand back down to stroke him again; this time with better lubrication.
"Holy shitâfuck, baby," he whines into your temple. His arms shake where he's still trying to hold himself up.
You feel yourself gaining confidence with every passing minute that the two of you are intimate, and it feels even better to take the reins back a little. You can't help but wonder what he would sound likeâ what he would look likeâ completely at your mercy. You decide to table the thought for another time.
"I need you," you whimper into his sweat-damp hair.
"I know, pretty girl," the thick head of his cock nudges your entrance, prompting you to take a deep breath in in preparation for his size.
"Heyâ you'll tell me if you're uncomfortable or you want to stop, okay?" He waits for your nod, "Even if you just want to slow down, that's okay, too. I want you to make you feel good."
"I know," you smile up at him through your daze, softly petting the side of his face, "you do make me feel good,"
He kisses the side of your mouthâ the gentlest his been with you all eveningâ as he pushes the rest of the way inside you. By the time he's at the hilt, you feel so full that it's hard to breathe. You can feel him everywhere.
Tears begin to prick the corners of you eyes once he starts to move; a slow rocking of your bodies into the mattress. You aren't sure the cause. Maybe it's how close you feel to himâ maybe it's how he's perpetually grinding into your g-spot with every thrust.
"Fuckâ I love you," he groans into the crook of your neck where it meets your shoulder. His teeth scrape the sensitive skin there like he might bite you, but he doesn't.
"I love you, babyâ"
The shape of the endearment in your mouth awakens something nearly primal in Steve as he begins to fuck you that much faster. The headboard creaks where it repeatedly hits the wall behind you.
Strong biceps wrap around you, lifting you beneath the armpits as Steve hugs you in this horizontal position. You squeeze him back just as fiercly.
You feel your second climax approaching significantly quicker than the first had, but you need more. Pressing your fingers to Steve's mouth, he doesn't question your motive. He opens and closes around them obediently, slicking them for you.
He watches as you snake your hand in between your glistening bodies, "Yeah, there you go," his voice breathy and punctuated by his relentless thrusts, "touch yourself f'me, babyâ good girl,"
It's almost too much. It's perfect. "Steveâ I'm closeâ"
"Ahâ me, too," he pants, forehead pressed firmly to yours, "come with meâ"
Your entire body contracts as you finish and you're certain you've never came so hard in your life. Steve holds off until he's sure you're satisfied before pulling out just in time to spill all across your stomach with a long, low moan.
The last of his strength leaves him shortly thereafter; his trembling body collapsing against you.
Your combined skin is tacky and cool with sweat, but neither of you can bring yourselves to move.
The air in the room is thick with the scent of sex and the only sound comes from the crickets chirping through the open window and your shaking breaths. It feels like hours before Steve breaks the silence.
"You okay? Was that good for you?"
"'Good' would be the understatement of the century,"
"I can't believe we didn't do that sooner,"
"I was just thinking that earlier,"
The hushed conversation somehow feels just as intimate as the sex did.
"We can't fall asleep like this," you remind Steve, who very well may already be sleeping. You're getting Deja Vu from a conversation you once had with Nancy Wheeler.
"Why not?" He slurs. Okay, not sleeping then.
"Because I need to pee or else I'll get a UTI," you pause, thinking, "and your... jizz is all over my stomach."
"Don't call it 'jizz'," Steve admonishes.
It takes longer than you'd ever admit to get you both cleaned up, despite your constant reminders to Steve thatâ the faster you take care of the mess, the faster you can crawl back into bed.
Steve tells you he loves you approximately seven more times before he finally falls asleep.
ur weird as fuck for writing a man fucking a canonical lesbian btw
Isnât it already weird asf that the whole community of tumblr writes smut for anyone? Letâs not even MENTION ao3⊠Btw the Pedro Pascal community is writing for a gay man. Count your blessings. ^_^
Request â Hi <3 I saw you're accepting requests. Could you write a Steve Harrington x reader story where the female reader is insecure about having small breasts? She thinks Steve finds them inadequate, because of his history with women, he doesn't acknowledge her insecurity until he notices she's acting strangely towards him. Then he confronts her, thinking she's angry with him and then it all ends in a delicious smut.
Synopsis Steve reminds the insecure reader why she has no reason to be insecure, leading to a steamy session in the backseat.
Content Warning Explicit sexual content including groping, oral stimulation, vaginal sex, and dirty talk; themes of body insecurity and self-doubt. Intended for mature audiences.
Tiffâs Note â so lmk if Iâm doing good with this prestory stuffâŠlike should I add an authors note?? I hope you like it T_T Should I make all my fics in small letters? I just want feedback fr
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I stood in front of the foggy mirror in my bathroom, the steam from the shower still clinging to the air like a humid blanket. Iâd just stepped out, towel-dried my hair, and slipped into the outfit Iâd picked out specifically for tonightâa low-cut top that hugged my frame, paired with my favorite jeans. It was supposed to be sexy, alluring, something to catch Steveâs eye when he came over after his shift at the radio station. Robin would probably tease him about it tomorrow, but I didnât care. I wanted him to look at me and see desire, not⊠whatever this was.
I tugged at the neckline, adjusting it for the umpteenth time. The fabric dipped just enough to hint at cleavage, but on me? It looked flat, almost comical. Like a kid playing dress-up in her momâs clothes. Why did I even buy this? I thought, staring at my reflection. If I had actual boobs, this would plunge perfectly, create that shadow, that curve that drives guys wild. But no, mine are barely there. A-cups at best, more like mosquito bites. I cupped my hands over my chest experimentally, pushing up what little I had. It helped a bit, but as soon as I let go, everything deflated back to nothing. Pathetic. Absolutely pathetic. How am I supposed to feel confident in this? Itâs like the top is mocking me, hanging there with all this potential thatâs wasted on my body.
Steve had dated girls with curves beforeâNancy Wheeler, with her perfect figure, or those cheerleaders from high school who filled out their uniforms like they were made for them. Iâd heard the stories, the way guys talked in Hawkins. Steve Harrington, King Steve, the guy who could have anyone. And now he was with me? He must be settling, my mind whispered insidiously. He probably misses the way bigger breasts feel, look, bounce. God, does he even notice mine during sex? Or is he just polite about it? Closing his eyes and imagining someone else? Someone fuller, more womanly? The thought twisted in my gut like a knife. I remembered the last time we were intimate; his hands had roamed, sure, but did they linger there? Or did they skip over, heading straight for other parts because there wasnât much to appreciate?
I shook my head, trying to banish the thoughts, but they clung like the steam on the mirror, fogging up my confidence. Iâd been feeling this way for weeks now, ever since I overheard some girls at the mall gossiping about their push-up bras and how it made their boyfriends go crazy. If I had that, Steve would be all over me the second he walked in the door. Heâd drop everythingâhis keys, his jacketâand just stare, mesmerized. But me? Iâll be lucky if he even notices the outfit. Heâll probably think I look cute, like a little sister or something. Not hot. Not desirable. Instead, I felt inadequate, like I was serving him an appetizer when he deserved a feast. A full-course meal with all the trimmings. I smoothed the top down again, turning sideways to check the profile. Flat as a board. No silhouette, no allure. Maybe I should change. Wear something baggy, hide it all. Sweatshirt and pajamas. That way, thereâs no disappointment. But no, I want him to want me. Desperately. I want to see that fire in his eyes, the way he looks at me like Iâm the only thing that matters. Is that too much to ask? Or am I just delusional?
The clock on the wall ticked louder than usual, each second amplifying my anxiety, reminding me Steve would be here soon. His shift at the radio station ended at 8, and heâd swing by with that easy grin, probably carrying a mixtape heâd put together during downtimeâsomething with The Police or Duran Duran, tracks heâd spun on air earlier. Robin would have ragged on him all day about being lovesick, mocking his song dedications that were clearly about me, even if he denied it. I smiled at the thought, but it faded quickly, replaced by a wave of doubt. What if heâs getting bored? What if, during those long shifts surrounded by album covers of glamorous womenâMadonna with her bold confidence, Pat Benatar with her curvesâheâs thinking about someone else, someone with more to offer? Someone who doesnât have to worry about filling out a top like this? I could picture him at the station, headphones on, flipping through records, his eyes catching those glossy images. Busty singers in tight outfits, exuding sex appeal. Does he compare? He must. How could he not? Iâm just⊠me. Plain, small, insufficient.
I applied a bit of makeup, mascara to make my eyes pop, hoping it would distract from my chest. Focus on your face, your smile. Thatâs what he says he loves. Your laugh, your eyes, the way you crinkle your nose when somethingâs funny. But deep down, I doubted it. Guys were visual; everyone knew that. Steve was no exception. Iâd seen the way his eyes lingered on album covers at the station when Iâd visited, those voluptuous artists staring back with confidence I could only dream of. Or when weâd flip through his collection at home, his fingers tracing the edges as he talked about the music, but I caught the glances. Heâs a guy. He notices. And with me, thereâs nothing to notice. No wonder he doesnât bring it up. Heâs sparing my feelings. I added some lipstick, a bold red to draw attention to my mouth instead. Maybe thatâll work. Kissable lips over forgettable chest. Yeah, right. Who am I kidding?
As I blended the blush on my cheeks, my mind wandered back to our first date. Heâd been so charming, picking me up in his BMW, radio blasting some hit heâd just played at work. Weâd talked for hours, laughed until my sides hurt. But even then, Iâd wondered: Why me? Out of all the girls in Hawkins, why the one with the boyish figure? It wasnât like I hadnât tried to improve thingsâexercises from magazines, creams that promised miracles but delivered nothing. Push-ups for my chest? Ha. All they did was make my arms sore. I stared at my reflection again, poking at my skin. Genetics screwed me over. Momâs side, all petite and flat. Thanks a lot, family tree. The insecurity had been simmering, but lately, it boiled over. Every time I saw a billboard or a TV ad with curvy models, it hit harder. Steve sees that stuff too. At the station, callers requesting songs by artists like Whitney Houston, with her stunning presence. Does he fantasize? Wish I looked more like that?
I paced the small bathroom, the tiles cool under my bare feet. Stop this. Youâre spiraling. He chose you. He stays with you. But the voice in my head wouldnât quit. For now. Until someone better comes along. Someone who can wear this top and make it sing. I adjusted the straps, pulling them tighter, but it only emphasized the lack. Maybe a padded bra. But that feels like lying. And what happens when it comes off? Disappointment city. Iâd tried one once, felt like a fraud the whole night. No, better to be honest, even if it meant facing the truth. But is he honest? He says Iâm beautiful, but does he mean it? Or is it just what boyfriends say? Memories flooded inâhis compliments on my legs, my hair, but never specifically on my breasts. Omission speaks volumes. He knows theyâre subpar.
The steam finally cleared, revealing my full reflection. I looked okay, I guess. Cute, even. But sexy? Not a chance. I fluffed my hair one more time, trying to add volume up top to compensate. Distraction tactic number 47. The clock showed 7:45. Fifteen minutes until he arrived. What if I cancel? Say Iâm sick. Avoid the whole thing. But no, that would worry him, and Robin would grill him about it tomorrow during their shift. I could hear her now: âTrouble in paradise, Dingus?â Steve would defend me, but inside, maybe heâd be relieved. No more pretending.
I sighed, leaning against the sink. Get it together. Youâre more than your body. He loves you for you. But the doubt lingered, a persistent shadow. Does he, though? Or is love blind until itâs not? I straightened up, forcing a smile in the mirror. Fake it till you make it. Tonight, Iâd try. For him. For us. But deep down, the insecurity gnawed, whispering that I wasnât enough.
By the time I heard the knock on the door, my stomach was in knots. I glanced one last time in the mirror, fluffing my hair to draw attention upward. Here goes nothing.
I opened the door, and there was Steve, leaning against the frame with that signature grin, his hair still a bit messy from the radio booth headphones. He was in his usual button-up, sleeves rolled up, smelling faintly of coffee and static electricity from the station.
âHey, you,â he said, eyes lighting up as they swept over me. âReady for our big night out?â
I nodded, forcing a smile despite the knot in my stomach. Act normal. Donât let him see the mess in your head. âYeah, letâs go.â
He took my hand, leading me to his BMW parked curbside. The engine purred to life as we buckled in, and he fiddled with the radio dial, landing on a soft rock stationâironic, given his job. âCanât escape the tunes even off the clock,â he joked, glancing at me.
I laughed weakly, my fingers already tugging at the hem of my low-cut top. Itâs riding up. Or down. Does it look okay? Pull it higherâno, that makes it bunch. Lower? God, no, that shows even less. The fabric felt wrong against my skin, too loose where it should cling, too revealing of my flatness. I adjusted the neckline again, pulling it to the side, then centering it. Better? Worse? Why canât I just leave it alone?
Steve pulled out onto the road, heading toward the diner on the edge of Hawkinsâthe one with the good milkshakes and booths where we could talk for hours. Streetlights flickered by, casting shadows on the dashboard. He chatted about his shift: âRobin was on fire today. Dedicate a song to some guy who called in about his crush, and she turns it into a whole comedy bit. Nearly knocked over the mic laughing.â
âSounds fun,â I murmured, my hand drifting back to my shirt. I smoothed it down over my chest, pressing flat what was already flat. If I had more there, this wouldnât be an issue. The top would sit right, curve just so. But no, itâs like draping silk over a plank. Tug. Adjust. Fidget.
He shot me a sideways glance, one hand on the wheel, the other reaching for mine. But I pulled away to fix the strap that had slippedâhad it? Or was I imagining? Stop. Heâs going to notice. But maybe thatâs good. Maybe heâll say something, confirm my fears. The internal voice mocked me: Or heâll pretend not to see, like always.
âYou okay over there?â Steve asked after a minute, his tone light but probing. âYouâve been⊠fidgety.â
âIâm fine,â I said quickly, crossing my arms to hide my chest, but that only made the top wrinkle awkwardly. Uncross. Tug again. Liar. Youâre not fine. Youâre a bundle of nerves because you feel like a fraud in this outfit. The car hit a bump, and I used it as an excuse to shift, pulling at the fabric once more.
Steveâs brow furrowed, visible in the glow of passing cars. âYou sure? Youâve adjusted that shirt like five times since we left. Is it itchy or something?â
Here it comes. The moment he points out how ridiculous I look. âNo, itâs⊠comfortable. Just, you know, new clothes.â My voice sounded thin, unconvincing even to me. I stared out the window at the blurring trees, my fingers betraying me by yanking the neckline up an inch. Why wonât my hands stop? Itâs like theyâre trying to cover up the evidence of my inadequacy.
He chuckled softly. âIf you say so. But if itâs bugging you, we can swing by your place and you can change. No big deal.â
Change? Into what? Something that hides me completely? Admit defeat? âNo, really. Iâm good.â But my traitorous fingers disagreed, fiddling with the hem again. The radio played some love ballad, the lyrics about perfect bodies and endless desire twisting the knife in my gut. Thatâs not me. Never will be.
A few miles down the road, Steve sighed, his patience wearing thin. âAlright, whatâs going on? Youâre messing with that top nonstop. If itâs not the shirt, then what? Did I say something wrong at work today? Robin mention anything?â
I shook my head, biting my lip. Donât spill. Keep it inside. But god, itâs eating me alive. âItâs nothing. Focus on the road.â
But he didnât. Instead, he slowed the car, pulling over to the shoulder under a canopy of trees, the engine idling softly. The headlights cut through the darkness, illuminating nothing but empty asphalt ahead. He turned off the radio, shifting in his seat to face me fully. âNope. Weâre talking. Youâve been off since I picked you up. Spill it.â
My heart raced, palms sweaty. Now or never. But what if he laughs? Or worse, agrees? I stared at my lap, fingers still twitching toward the shirt but frozen now. âItâs stupid.â
âNothingâs stupid if itâs bothering you this much.â His voice was gentle, that Steve Harrington charm turned to concern. He reached over, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. âCome on, babe. Talk to me.â
I took a deep breath, the words tumbling out before I could stop them. âItâs this shirt. This outfit. I put it on for you, to look⊠sexy, I guess. But it doesnât. On me, it just looks wrong.â
He blinked, confused. âWhat? You look great. Hot, even. Why would you thinkââ
âBecause of this!â I gestured wildly at my chest, the motion pulling the neckline askew again. I fixed it hastily. âIâm flat, Steve. No curves, no cleavage. This top is made for girls with boobsâreal ones that fill it out, make it dip and shadow just right. But on me? Itâs like hanging a curtain on a window with no view. Pathetic.â
There. Said it. Now watch him backpedal. My mind raced: Heâll say itâs fine, but his eyes will give it away. Remember those girls he dated? Busty, confident. Nancy with her fitted sweaters, always looking put-together. And me? Trying too hard and failing.
Steveâs expression softened, a mix of surprise and something like hurt. âIs that what this is about? Your⊠breasts?â
I nodded miserably, tears pricking my eyes. âIâve been thinking about it forever. You never say anything, so maybe you donât care, but I do. I see how guys look at girls with more up top. And youâyouâve had that. King Steve, right? Cheerleaders, popular girls who turned heads. Iâm just⊠me. Small. Inadequate. Every time I wear something like this, itâs a reminder. If I had bigger boobs, Iâd feel confident. Youâd look at me differently, want me more.â
He unbuckled his seatbelt, turning fully toward me. âHey, no. Stop that.â His hand found mine, squeezing gently. âFirst off, I love your body. All of it. Yeah, Iâve dated other girls, but that was high school crap. Superficial. With you? Itâs real.â
Is it? Or is he just being nice? âBut you must notice. During⊠you know, intimate times. Mine donât even move. No bounce, no handful. You probably wishââ
âI donât wish for anything else.â His voice was firm now, eyes locking onto mine. âYour breasts are perfect because theyâre part of you. Soft, sensitiveâgod, the way you react when I touch them? Thatâs what turns me on. Not size. You.â
I scoffed, wiping at my eyes. Easy to say. âThen why donât you ever comment on them? Compliment other parts, sure, but never that.â
He ran a hand through his hair, looking sheepish. âShit, I guess I didnât want to make you self-conscious. Thought it was obvious I liked them. But if you need to hear itâyour chest is sexy as hell. Small, yeah, but perky, fitting perfectly in my hands. No bra needed half the time, which is hot. And the nipples? So responsive. Drives me crazy.â
Really? Heat flushed my cheeks, a mix of embarrassment and something warmer. âYouâre not just saying that?â
âSwear on my hairspray collection.â He grinned, but his eyes were serious. âLook, I get insecurities. Iâve got my ownâmy hair, my job, feeling like Iâm not the hero type anymore. But you? Youâre everything. Curvy girls are fine, but youâre my type. Lean, athletic, real.â
I let out a shaky laugh. Maybe heâs right. Or at least, he believes it. âI just⊠overheard those girls at the mall. Push-up bras, boyfriends going wild. Made me feel like Iâm missing out on that for you.â
âYouâre not missing anything.â He leaned closer, his breath warm on my face. âIf anything, Iâm the lucky one. You chose me, flaws and all.â
His words hung in the air, wrapping around me like a promise, but the doubt still lingered in the corners of my mind. I searched his eyes, those deep brown pools that always seemed to see right through me, looking for any hint of insincerity. But there was noneâjust raw honesty and a spark of something hotter, more primal. My heart stuttered as his hand slid from mine to my thigh, fingers tracing lazy circles that sent tiny electric shocks up my spine.
âSteveâŠâ I whispered, my voice barely audible over the idling engine. The carâs interior felt smaller now, the air thick with unspoken tension.
He didnât pull away. Instead, he closed the distance, his lips brushing mine in a kiss that started soft but quickly ignited. His tongue teased the seam of my mouth, coaxing me open, and I melted into him, tasting the faint hint of coffee from his shift. But even as heat bloomed in my chest, my insecurities whispered: Heâs just comforting you. He doesnât really crave this body.
As if reading my thoughts, Steve broke the kiss, his forehead resting against mine. âI need to show you,â he murmured, voice husky. âRight here, right now. How fucking much I love every inch of you. No more doubts.â
My breath hitched. âIn the car? What if someoneââ
âNo oneâs around,â he cut in, glancing at the empty road flanked by dark trees. âAnd even if they were, I wouldnât care. I want you to feel it. All of it.â His hand squeezed my thigh, inching higher, and I felt a rush of wetness between my legs. God, heâs serious. The idea thrilled and terrified me, but the ache building in my core won out.
I nodded, wordless, and he grinnedâthat cocky, King Steve grin that made my knees weak. We unbuckled, climbing out into the cool night air before slipping into the back seat. The door clicked shut behind us, sealing us in our own little world. Steve pulled me onto his lap immediately, my legs straddling his thighs, the hardness of his erection pressing against me through our jeans. I gasped at the contact, grinding down instinctively.
âSee?â he said, hands sliding under my top to caress my bare skin. âAlready hard for you. Just from kissing you, from seeing you in this shirt.â He lifted the fabric slowly, inch by inch, exposing my stomach, then higher, until my small breasts were bared to him. No braâ Iâd felt daring earlier, but now I felt exposed, vulnerable. What if he changes his mind? Sees how little there is?
But his eyes darkened with lust, not disappointment. âFuck, babe,â he breathed, cupping them gently in his large hands. His palms were rough from work, the calluses scraping deliciously against my sensitive skin. Thumbs brushed over my nipples, and I arched, a sharp pleasure shooting straight to my clit. âThese are perfect. So fucking perfect.â
He squeezed lightly, kneading the soft flesh, and I moaned, the sound echoing in the confined space. Oh god, that feels⊠incredible. Tingles radiated from his touch, my nipples hardening into tight peaks under his attention. He rolled one between his fingers, pinching just enough to make me whimper, the mix of pain and pleasure making my pussy clench.
âLook at how they respond to me,â Steve murmured, his voice low and gravelly. âPerky little things, begging for my mouth.â He leaned in, hot breath fanning over one nipple before his tongue flicked out, tracing a slow, wet circle around the areola. I shivered, my hands tangling in his hair, pulling him closer. âThatâs it, feel how much I want this.â
His lips closed around the bud, sucking gently at first, then harder, his tongue lashing against it in rhythmic strokes. Pleasure exploded through meâwarm, pulsing waves that made my hips buck against him. So good⊠why did I ever doubt? The suction pulled deep into my core, each tug sending jolts of ecstasy down my body. His free hand groped the other breast, massaging firmly, fingers tweaking the nipple in time with his mouth.
He pulled back slightly, lips glistening, eyes locked on mine. âTaste so sweet, babe. Could suck on these all night.â Then he dove back in, alternating between licks and nips, his teeth grazing the sensitive tip just enough to make me cry out. âYou like that? Feel how hard you make me? Grinding against my cock like thatâfuck, youâre killing me.â
I rocked harder, the friction of his jeans against my damp panties building the pressure. âSteve, pleaseâŠâ
âPlease what?â he teased, switching to the other nipple, latching on with a hungry growl. His hand slid down my side, dipping into my waistband, but he kept his focus on my chest, worshipping it. âTell me you believe me now. These titsâgod, theyâre mine. Small, sensitive, fucking addictive.â
His words fueled the fire, melting away the last shreds of insecurity. He loves them. Loves me. Pleasure coiled tighter with every suck, every squeeze. My body trembled, arousal soaking through my underwear. He groped harder now, hands full despite my size, thumbs circling the wet peaks as he kissed between them.
âSee? Fit perfectly in my hands,â he said between reattachments, his mouth never straying far. Lick. âNo need for more.â Suck. âYouâre everything I crave.â Biteâgentle, teasing. I keened, my clit throbbing with need.
âSteve, I need you⊠inside me,â I panted, fumbling with his belt. He helped, shoving his jeans down just enough to free his cockâthick, veined, precum beading at the tip. I stroked him, feeling him twitch in my hand, and he groaned against my skin.
âFuck, yes.â He yanked my jeans and panties off in one swift motion, positioning me over him. âGonna show you how good we fit. How much your body drives me insane.â
He guided the head to my entrance, rubbing it through my slick folds. I sank down slowly, inch by inch, the stretch burning deliciously. So full⊠perfect. He filled me completely, hitting every sensitive spot. We both moaned as I bottomed out, my walls clenching around him.
âRide me, babe,â he urged, hands back on my breasts, groping as I started to move. Up and down, slow at first, savoring the drag of him inside me. Pleasure built in layersâthe fullness in my pussy, the sparks from his hands on my nipples. He pinched them, rolling as I bounced, each thrust sending me higher.
âThatâs it, feel me? Deep inside you because youâre fucking made for me.â His hips bucked up to meet mine, driving harder. The car rocked with us, windows fully fogged now. Sweat slicked our skin, his mouth latching back onto a nipple mid-thrust, sucking in time with our rhythm.
âOh god, Steve!â I cried, the dual sensations overwhelmingâhis cock stroking my g-spot, his tongue laving my breast. Waves of ecstasy crashed, my orgasm building fast. He talked through it, words muffled against my flesh: âCome for me. Squeeze my dick with that tight pussy. Your tits bouncing like thisâfuck, so hot.â
I shattered, climax ripping through me, walls pulsing around him. He followed seconds later, thrusting deep and spilling inside with a guttural moan, his hands never leaving my chest.
We collapsed, breathless, his arms wrapping around me. âBelieve me now?â he whispered, kissing my sweat-dampened skin.
âYeah,â I sighed, finally whole. More than enough.
But wait, that wasnât the end. As our breaths slowed, Steveâs hands wandered again, tracing my curvesâor lack thereofâwith reverence. âWeâre not done,â he said, voice still rough with desire. âI want you to feel this all night.â
He shifted us, laying me back on the seat, his body covering mine. The leather stuck to my skin, but I didnât care. His cock, still semi-hard, pressed against my thigh as he kissed down my neck, collarbone, back to my breasts. âRound two,â he murmured, lips brushing a nipple. âGonna make you come just from this.â
His mouth descended again, slower this time, savoring. Tongue swirling lazy patterns, teeth nipping playfully. I arched, already sensitive from before, pleasure reigniting like embers fanned to flame. How does he do this? Make me feel so wanted? His hands roamed, one groping my ass, the other teasing my other nipple.
âSteve⊠sensitive,â I whimpered, but my body betrayed me, pushing into his touch.
âGood sensitive?â he asked, pulling back to blow cool air on the wet peak. Goosebumps erupted, and I nodded frantically. âThought so. Watch me worship you.â
He sucked deeper, hollowing his cheeks, the pressure intense. Jolts shot to my core, my pussy clenching on nothing. He noticed, sliding a hand between my legs, fingers circling my clit. âWet again already? Fuck, babe.â
Two fingers dipped inside, curling to hit that spot, thrusting in time with his mouth on my breast. Pleasure doubled, tripledâoverwhelming, all-consuming. I thrashed, hands clutching the seat, moans filling the car.
âYouâre so responsive here,â he said between sucks, fingers pumping faster. âLove how your nipples get so hard for me. Pink and pretty.â Lick. âGonna make you squirt if I keep this up.â
The dirty talk pushed me closer, his thumb on my clit rubbing circles. âCome on, give it to me. Soak my fingers while I suck these perfect tits.â
I exploded again, vision whiting out, liquid heat gushing over his hand. He groaned approval, lapping at my nipple through the aftershocks.
When I came down, he was hard again, sliding back inside me with ease. This time, slower, more intimateâmaking love, as he called it. But still filthy, his mouth never leaving my chest, murmuring praises between thrusts.
âFeel that? How deep I am? Because your bodyâs fucking heaven.â Thrust. Suck. âThese titsâobsessed.â Grind. Nip.
We built together, sweat-slicked and desperate, until we shattered once more, clinging as waves crashed.
Finally spent, we dressed in the afterglow, his kisses gentle now. âNever doubt again,â he said.
Hi <3 I saw you're accepting requests. Could you write a Steve Harrington x reader story where the female reader is insecure about having small breasts? She thinks Steve finds them inadequate, because of his history with women, he doesn't acknowledge her insecurity until he notices she's acting strangely towards him. Then he confronts her, thinking she's angry with him and then it all ends in a delicious smut.
(If possible, I'd like it to happen while he's still working with Robin on the radio.)
Thank you for reading my request, thank you so much even if you can't fulfill it. Have a good week and a wonderful life. (â ââ âąâ áŽâ âąâ ââ )â â§â *â ă
Plot: You ask your best friend to help you through your heat, but there is one problem. You ARE scared of being knotted.
+18, omegaverse, p in v unprotected, knotting, steve being a gentleman, fluff, smut, heat, a little of angst, reader being a nervous wreck
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Reblog if you like, engagement is important.
DAY 1 - KNOTTING
You were scared.
You asked your best friend to spend your first heat with you, but you were still frightened by the thought of a knot inside of you. When you presented, you didn't think you would be an Omega, mostly because when you learnt about secondary genders, you were immediately uncomfortable when you saw just how big Alphas knots could enlarge.
It was impossible to take that. You were in shock when you heard stories about how good it felt, how amazingly pleasant it was to finally satiate that itch, that need. You scrunched your nose each time you heard them, because how could your inside stretch that much?
Hearing them say how the only thing they thought about was the knot, about being filled to the brim, and you really didn't know if you would feel any of that because of your fear. But Steve offered to help you through your heat, and he would make sure not to knot you at all. You didn't want a bad experience, and from what you knew, spending a heat alone wasn't the best thing to ever happen to an Omega.
And Steve cared for you. He cared deeply for you, and he wanted to protect you through everything, even from your designation and fear.
Now, this was the problem, you accepted without question because you held feelings for your best friend ever since you could remember. In some little space in your heart, you were grateful of being an Omega, because that meant you would have at least one chance with him. When he offered to help, you were pretty sure you heard angels sing all around you.
But in the present, your insides were burning, you were sweating, slick was coming out of you in gushes all over your sheets. You built a nest with clothes from your friends, and Steve was the one who brought them all in. Most of the clothes were from him, though. You felt more protected that way, more secure, and his scent made wonders for you to try to calm yourself.
"Sweetheart, I'm gonna start making you feel good, okay?" He was hovering over your naked body. In another moment of your life, you would have been ashamed, embarrassed, not good enough, but right now, all you needed was the Alpha above you to do something, anything.
"Please, pleaseâŠ" You whispered, choked up on your own sobs as you reached out for him. He was trembling, and when he pressed his lips against yours, you could feel yourself melting down into the mattress, wrapping your arms around his naked upper body. He was in his boxers only, having taken his clothes off as soon as he entered the room, your scent making his head spiral.
He kissed you senseless, merging his body against yours, and you could feel how hard he was, and fuckâ You wanted it so bad. You needed it so bad. You craved it so bad. Your hips bucked against him, making him hiss out against you, but not complaining.
His lips were all over you, kissing his way down, making you come undone with his tongue and fingers. Those fingers that drove you wild each time they intertwined with yours while holding his hand over the table at a diner. You moaned his name, you moaned his designation multiple times, trying to get him to do more, trying to get him to give you what you needed.
"Oh, fuckâŠ" He muttered when he finally slid inside of you, easily so thanks to your slick. You were so wet for him that it kept gushing and gushing out at each thrust he gave. You moaned, cried, and whimpered, feeling every ridge of him inside of you. He was breathing heavily as he moved his hips against yours, jerking you up and down into your bed, his lips kissing your left shoulder over and over again.
"Steveâ Alpha, Alpha, more, more!" You cried out, and he was giving his all and yet it was not enough. The fire was not extinguishing, not even a little bit. Your insides were flipped almost, cramps in your belly that ached for something, for more, for anything, and your mushed brain was losing rationality.
"Omega, baby, I'm getting closeâ Jesus christ!" You came around him for the third time, crying out, and he huffed almost in pain as he sweated all over. His hair was sticking to his forehead, and you could feel him start to rut his hips into you. When you came down from your high, tears streamed down your face, shaking your head.
"Not enough, not enough, more, pleaseâ"
"Iâ I need to pull out, I'm going to knot, and you don't wantâ" Your eyes widened, your legs wrapping around his waist to lock him in. He gasped, eyes going wide, shaking his head desperately, but his hips didn't stop moving at all. "Omega, you said you didn't want my knot, I can'tâ"
"No! Please! I take it back! I take it back! Want it, please!" Your mouth was open, drool coming out from the side of it, and he was looking down at you almost painfully, trying to hold himself back. He made you a promise, and you were not thinking rationally at all. You were being driven by your heat, just like he predicted.
"I won't, fuck, I won'tâ"
"Am I not enough? Not good Omega? No?" You were blabbering, more tears streaming down, desperation in your tongue, and his hands were tight around your pillow, on each side of your head. He shook his head erratically, pressing his lips against yours, breathing against them.
"If I knot you, Omega, I won't be able to move onâ" He whispered your name, and you nodded, hands going through his hair as his hips started stuttering, losing his tempo.
"Please, Alpha, pleaseâ" Your eyes widened as he moaned loudly, seething himself inside of you, and you could feel the stretch, your head falling back into the pillow with wide eyes. Your mouth hung open as you felt him grow against your walls, and fuck, you could feel the pressure, but also, the relief. The wave of relief just washed all over your body as he consumed you, locking himself inside of you.
And you came around him once more, milking him as he spurted his seed inside of you, a growl vibrating all around, and his teeth nipping tentatively against your neck, threateningly close to your mating gland. You clenched and clenched, to what it felt like an eternity, and then finally, you let go.
You were breathing heavily underneath him, a mess of drool, tears, sweat, and below, he was probably leaking all around you, mixing with your slick. He was trembling, holding himself up as best as he could so that he would not drop his body against yours.
And finally, clarity.
"Oh my godâŠ" You whispered, and his eyes snapped open, panting, looking up at your face, getting himself away from your neck. He was red, choked up, and he shook his head at you with worry, with guilt.
"Iâ I am so sorry, I couldn'tâ I couldn't stop it, I tried, but you didn't let me, and you were crying andâ"
"I am so stupidâŠ"
"What?"
"It feels so good⊠GodâŠ" You sighed out of relief, feeling like a feather, and the heat was gone. You knew it would be temporary, but it was still such a good feeling. Your eyes were closed as a pleased and tired smile spread on your lips. You could feel him inside of you, almost pulsing, but being like this with him was pure bliss, and it made your heart content. He gulped over you, nodding.
"It does⊠You're not mad?" He asked, and you opened your eyes, smiling at him.
"No⊠Should I?" He looked at you, his body untensing, his eyes looking for yours, and finallyâ
"Is it a bad time to tell you I'm in love with you?"
Synopsis A card game with Steve gets flirty, building to a steamy hookup
Content Warning Explicit sexual content, including making out, partial nudity, groping, and arousal descriptions. Themes of forbidden romance and sibling embarrassment. Intended for mature audiences 18+.
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The sunlight streamed through the half-closed blinds in my bedroom, painting stripes across the worn carpet where Steve and I sat cross-legged, a deck of cards splayed between us. It was a lazy summer afternoon, the kind where time stretched out endlessly.
Dustin was downstairs, probably buried in his latest D&D campaign or tinkering with some gadget heâd scavenged from the junkyard. Steve had shown up unannounced, as he often did these days, flashing that charming grin and claiming he needed a break from the chaos at Scoops Ahoy. But I knew better; there was always a spark in his eyes when he looked at me, something that made my heart race just a little faster.
Weâd been playing Go Fish for the past half hour, but my mind wasnât on the game. Every time Steve leaned forward to draw a card, his knee brushed against mine, sending a tiny jolt through me. He was wearing that faded blue polo, the one that hugged his shoulders just right, and his hair was perfectly tousled, like heâd run his hands through it a dozen times. Being Dustinâs older sister meant Steve was around a lotâdriving my brother to arcade meetups, hanging out in the living roomâbut lately, our interactions had shifted. Lingering glances, accidental touches that lasted too long. The tension was there, unspoken, building like humidity before a storm.
âDo you have any sevens?â I asked, trying to keep my voice casual as I fanned out my cards.
Steveâs lips quirked into a smirk, his brown eyes meeting mine with that playful glint. âGo fish.â He watched as I drew from the pile, his gaze dipping briefly to my lips before flicking back up. âYouâre not very good at this, you know.â
I scoffed, but heat crept up my neck. âSays the guy whoâs lost the last two rounds. Maybe youâre just distracted.â
He chuckled, low and warm, shifting closer under the pretense of rearranging his cards. His foot nudged mine, staying there this time. âMaybe I am. Hard to focus when youâre sitting there looking like that.â
My pulse quickened, the air in the room feeling thicker. I rolled my eyes, but my cheeks burned. âFlattery wonât get you anywhere, Harrington. Your turn.â
He discarded a card carelessly, his attention fully on me now. The fan overhead whirred softly, stirring the warm air, but it did nothing to ease the growing heat between us. I could feel his eyes tracing the neckline of my tank top, where a bead of sweat trickled down my collarbone. The house was quiet except for the distant clatter from downstairsâDustin must have been deep in whatever he was doing. It made this moment feel isolated, intimate, like we were in our own world.
âDo you have any queens?â he asked, but his tone was teasing, laced with something deeper.
I handed one over, our fingers brushing. The touch lingered, his thumb grazing my knuckle deliberately. Electricity sparked up my arm, and I pulled back too quickly, my breath hitching. âGot me.â
Steveâs smirk widened, but his eyes darkened, holding mine with an intensity that made my stomach flip. He set his cards down, leaning forward on his hands, closing the space between us inch by inch. âYou know, if we were playing something with higher stakes, like strip poker, Iâd be cleaning up right now.â
The joke hung in the air, flirty and bold, but the way he said itâhis voice dropping, his gaze locked on my mouthâmade it feel like a challenge. Tension coiled tight in my chest, my heart pounding so loud I was sure he could hear it. I laughed, but it sounded breathless, forced. âYeah, right. Youâd be the one stripping first. And besides, Dustinâs just downstairs. This is a bad idea.â
He didnât back off. Instead, he moved closer, his breath warm against my skin. âDustinâs occupied. And admit it, youâve thought about it.â His hand reached out, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear, his fingers lingering on my cheek. The touch was feather-light, but it ignited something deep inside me. The room felt smaller, the air charged with anticipation. Iâd felt this pull beforeâin the car after dropping Dustin off, in the kitchen when no one was lookingâbut never this intense, this close to breaking.
âSteve,â I whispered, my voice barely audible, caught between warning and invitation.
That was all it took. His hand cupped my face, and he closed the gap, his lips crashing into mine. The kiss was urgent, pent-up desire spilling over. I responded instantly, my cards scattering as I grabbed his shirt, pulling him toward me. We tumbled backward, my back hitting the carpet with a soft thud, Steve following, his body covering mine.
He pinned me there, his weight a delicious pressure, one knee slipping between my legs. His hands were everywhereâsliding up my sides, fingers digging into my hips as he deepened the kiss. His tongue teased mine, tasting of the soda weâd shared earlier, and I moaned softly, arching into him. The tension that had been simmering all afternoon exploded, every nerve ending alive with sensation.
Steveâs mouth left mine to trail kisses down my jaw, nipping at my neck, his breath hot and ragged. âYou feel incredible,â he murmured against my skin, his hand slipping under my tank top, palm flat against my bare stomach. Fingers traced upward, brushing the edge of my bra, sending shivers through me. I tangled my hands in his hair, tugging him back to my lips, the kiss growing fiercer, more desperate.
His body pressed harder against mine, hips grinding slowly, the friction making me gasp. One hand roamed down my thigh, hooking my leg around his waist, pulling me closer. The other cupped my breast, thumb circling over the fabric, teasing until I whimpered. Every touch built the heat, the tension wrapping around us like a vice, making it hard to think, hard to breathe.
I ran my hands over his back, feeling the muscles flex under my touch, then down to his ass, urging him on. He groaned into my mouth, his fingers exploring furtherâslipping along my ribs, tracing the curve of my waist, dipping lower to grip my hip. The carpet was rough beneath me, but I didnât care; all that mattered was him, us, this moment of pure, electric connection.
His lips found my collarbone, sucking lightly, leaving a mark that would remind me of this later. I tilted my head back, exposing more skin, my breath coming in short pants. Steveâs hand ventured under my shirt again, pushing the fabric up, his touch scorching as he ran his fingers over my bodyâstomach, sides, breastsâmemorizing every inch. The tension was unbearable, a sweet ache that had me writhing beneath him, needing more but savoring the build.
We kissed again, tongues tangling, bodies moving in sync. His weight shifted, pressing me deeper into the floor, his arousal evident against my thigh. My hands explored him tooâsliding under his shirt, tracing the lines of his abs, feeling the heat of his skin. The room was filled with our heavy breathing, soft moans, the rustle of clothes as we clung to each other.
Steveâs fingers danced along the hem of my shorts, teasing but not pushing, keeping us on that edge. He pulled back slightly, eyes dark with lust, lips swollen. âTell me if you want to stop,â he whispered, but his hand continued its path, caressing my inner thigh.
âDonât stop,â I breathed, pulling him down for another kiss, losing myself in the sensation, the tension coiling tighter with every touch.
The banter from earlier replayed in my mindâthe flirty joke that had ignited thisâbut now it was real, tangible. His body on mine, hands roaming freely, building wave after wave of desire. I arched up, pressing against him, eliciting a deep groan from his throat. Fingers tangled in hair, lips bruised from kissing, we were a tangle of limbs and heat.
Time blurred; it could have been minutes or hours. Steveâs mouth explored my neck again, his hand slipping higher under my shirt, cupping and squeezing, thumb flicking over sensitive spots that made me bite my lip to stifle a cry. My legs wrapped around him, pulling him impossibly closer, the friction driving us both mad.
His other hand traced my arm, pinning it gently above my head, intertwining our fingers as he kissed me deeply. The vulnerability of being pinned, combined with his tender touch, heightened everythingâthe tension a live wire humming between us.
I freed my hand to run it down his chest, feeling his heart race matching mine. He shifted, his lips finding the spot just below my ear, whispering my name like a prayer, his breath sending chills down my spine. Hands everywhereâmine on his shoulders, his on my hips, thighs, backâexploring, claiming.
The summer heat amplified it all, sweat slicking our skin, making every slide of fingers more intense. I tugged at his shirt, wanting more contact, but he captured my wrists, pinning them with one hand while the other continued its journey, tracing patterns that left me trembling.
Finally, he released my hands, both now free to roamâover my body, under clothes, building the fire until I was lost in it.
Steveâs lips were still locked on mine, his body pinning me to the floor in a haze of heat and desire. The cards were crushed beneath us, forgotten in the frenzy. His hands roamed, one tangled in my hair, the other slipping under my tank top, fingers splaying across my bare back. Every touch sent sparks racing through me, the tension from our card game escalating into something raw and urgent. I could feel his heart hammering against my chest, matching my own erratic beat.
He pulled back just enough to look at me, his eyes dark and hooded, breath coming in short gasps. âToo many clothes,â he murmured, his voice husky, laced with need. Without breaking eye contact, he reached down, grabbing the hem of his polo shirt and yanking it over his head in one swift motion. The fabric mussed his hair even more, and I couldnât help but stareâhis chest was toned from all those basketball practices, a light sheen of sweat glistening in the afternoon light. Broad shoulders, defined abs, a trail of hair disappearing into his jeans. My mouth went dry, heat pooling deeper in my core.
âGod, Steve,â I whispered, my hands immediately exploring the newly exposed skin. Warm, smooth, muscles flexing under my touch as I traced his pecs, down to his stomach. He shivered, leaning down to capture my lips again, the kiss deeper, more insistent. Tongues danced, teeth nipped, and I arched up, pressing my body against his bare chest. The contrast of his skin on mineâthrough the thin fabric of my topâwas electric, building the tension until I thought Iâd combust.
His hands mirrored mine, tugging at my tank top, fingers hooking under the straps. âYour turn,â he growled against my mouth, starting to lift it. I helped, sitting up slightly as he peeled it off, tossing it aside. Cool air hit my skin, but his gazeâhungry, appreciativeâwarmed me instantly. He drank me in, eyes tracing my bra, my curves, before his mouth descended again, kissing my shoulder, my collarbone, down to the swell of my breast. I moaned, fingers digging into his shoulders, urging him on.
We were a tangle of limbs, hands fumbling with belts and buttons. His jeans were nextâhe unbuckled his belt one-handed, the clink of metal echoing in the quiet room. I reached for my shorts, shimmying them down my hips as best I could while he kissed me senseless. The tension was palpable, a coiling spring ready to release. Every brush of fingers against sensitive skin, every gasp, heightened it. âNeed you,â I breathed, popping the button on his jeans, sliding the zipper down slowly, teasingly.
Steve groaned, his hips bucking against my hand. âFloorâs not cutting it anymore,â he said, voice rough. He shifted, pulling me up with him in a fluid motion. We stumbled to our feet, lips never fully parting, hands still exploringâmine on his chest, his on my ass, squeezing possessively. The room spun as we moved toward the bed, knocking into the nightstand in our haste. A lamp wobbled, a book thudded to the floor, but we didnât stop. Steve cursed softly, laughing into the kiss, but the sound turned into a moan as I pressed against him.
He backed me toward the bed, but in his eagerness, his elbow caught the edge of my desk. A stack of magazines and a glass of water tumbled over, the glass rolling across the floor with a clatter, water spilling in a small puddle. âShit,â he muttered, but his eyes were on me, not the mess. âSorry.â
I giggled breathlessly, pulling him closer. âDonât care.â We collapsed onto the bed, the mattress dipping under our weight. Steve hovered over me, his bare chest brushing my skin, reigniting the fire. His jeans hung low on his hips now, and I pushed at them, wanting them gone. He helped, kicking them off awkwardly, leaving him in just his boxers. The outline of his arousal was evident, pressing against me as he settled between my legs.
Our kisses grew frantic, hands shedding the last barriers. I unclasped my bra, letting it fall away, and Steveâs mouth was there instantlyâkissing, licking, sucking on my nipple until I cried out, back arching off the bed. Tension built like a storm, every sensation amplified. His hand slipped into my panties, fingers teasing, circling where I ached most. I gasped, hips bucking, my own hand dipping into his boxers, stroking him firmly. He hissed, thrusting into my touch, his forehead pressing against mine.
âFeels so good,â he whispered, his fingers moving with purpose now, building me higher. I matched his rhythm, the room filled with our ragged breaths, soft moans. We were lost in each other, the earlier clumsiness forgotten as we chased release. His mouth found mine again, swallowing my whimpers, bodies grinding in perfect sync.
Then, the door burst open.
Dustin stood there, eyes wide, holding a screwdriver like a weapon. âWhat the hell was that noise? I heard crashingââ
He froze, taking in the scene: me half-naked on the bed, Steve in his boxers hovering over me, clothes scattered everywhere. The tension shattered, replaced by sheer mortification.
âOut!â Steve yelled, grabbing a pillow to cover himself.
Dustinâs face turned beet red. âOh my God! Steve? With my sister? What theââ
I pulled the sheet over myself, heart pounding for a whole new reason. âDustin, get out!â
He backed away, stammering, but the damage was done. The door slammed shut, leaving us in stunned silence.
SUMMARY: when your ex bf shows up at a party, it brings back bad memories and starts an argument. after leaving on foot and walking to your apartment, you get surprised when someone you hadnât expected shows up to drive you home
WARNINGS: â| 18+ | smut, drinking, eddie is an asshole, drug mention, addiction mention, felon-fresh-out-of-prison!steve, billy hargrove is dating readers best friend
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The asphalt beneath your huarache sandals felt like molasses as you stomped further onto the lonely highway. Tomorrow youâd waltz back into StarCourt and find the bitch at Payless who claimed these were the shoes of the season, and give her a piece of your mind. Because no, Brenda, these were not the âitâ girl sandals for the summer. These were walking wicker baskets of braided leather hell.Â
Never mind that it wasnât her fault. None of this was. But damn did it feel good to have someone other than yourself to shoulder the blame for the reason that you were currently walking your ass all alone on Highway 7.Â
The air hung like a wet sheet the entire month of August, and September was following suit. No breeze. Only buzzing mosquitos and the sticky salt of burning tears on your cheeks to keep you company tonight.Â
What was supposed to be a night outâ not just any night out but thee night where you would reclaim your confidence with a new outfit, a nearly sold out shade of lipstick, and a pair of cute toe pinching sandals âway to go Brendaâ tonight was supposed to be the night you bounced back from your breakup.Â
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When Steve Harrington, fresh from prison and breaking every violation of his parole, decided to throw a rager at his ânewâ house (aka: a rental out in the middle of nowhere where the lease was signed by Dustin Henderson who was currently attending college six states, and a few time zones away) it ended up being the perfect opportunity to get a little tipsy and maybe hook up with someone you had never laid eyes on before.Â
You had it all planned out, every minute detail of the night down to the very last cent of how much youâd need for a bottle of Strawberry Hill Boonesfarm.Â
âAre you sure you donât wanna stay and have just one beer?â you pleaded outside of Lilyâs car window.
Steveâs parties were never known to be casual, and you had to admit it was awkward showing up by yourself instead of being under the arm of your ex, like old times.Â
She laughed and ran fingers through her Farrah Fawcett-esque curls, her blue eyes catching the last rays of the sun, âyou know I canât. Billy is taking me out for our anniversary.âÂ
A whopping four months with the King of Hawkins Community Pool, how could you forget?
You roll your eyes to the sky and stamp your foot like a dramatic toddler, âInvite him here then! You guys can have a drink or two and then go, please Iâm begging, I canât show up alone.âÂ
âNancy and Robin are already here!â Lily banters back with a giggle and points at Nancyâs Griswold station wagon parked next to another slew of vehicles, âyouâll be fine.â
Fucking Lily. Your right hand since diapers, more like sisters in sin. The two of you used to hold Hawkins by the short and curlies. Two best friends dating best friends. The four of you used to be inseparable⊠now it felt like those times were lived in another life.
âGoddd fine, tell Billy to at least use a condom.âÂ
With a wink and a wicked grin she puts her car in reverse before calling out the window, âtrojan doesnât make them that big⊠have fun!â
Gross.
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The living room was packed and hazy from clouds of smoke. People you haven't seen since graduation the year before were piled into the cramped, shack-like house.Â
Lower classmen who were now seniors, guys in grades above you who now wore wedding bands instead of silver rings adorned with a gaudy jewel and inscribed with some state champion bullshit class of 1980 something, Will Byersâwho you swore was dead once right? â was even there.Â
Steve always threw the best parties Hawkins had ever seen, and it should have been on your mind that he would show up. But it wasnât. You hear your name called and make eyes with the host. A thick mustache smirk greeted you and his arms wrapped you in a familiar hug. His signature sage and amber cologne accentuated the smoke from his Marlboros.Â
Where other girls flocked to Steve in all of his masculine glory, you never saw him in that light. To you, he was just another guy in Hawkins.Â
âDidnât think youâd make it tonight, trouble,â he drawls in your ear before letting you go, âIâm digging the new hair.â
You pull away and roll your eyes playfully. The day you sat in the salon chair at Josieâs with puffy eyes and hiccuping cries, she took matters into her own hands and colored your hair a shade completely opposite of what it naturally was, and you felt like a new woman ever since. Out with the old.Â
âHavenât missed a single party of yours yet. Do you think Iâd pass on the first one since you got out?âÂ
You werenât sure how prison could have made someone better looking but Steve was living proof of just that. His shoulders were broader, arms thick and muscly under a grey heather shirt.Â
Steve cracks a smile and plucks a cigarette from behind his ear. âHopinâ you wouldnât, but I wasnât sure since I heard a nasty rumor about you dumping Munson.âÂ
Your heart sank at the mention of his surname. What happened between you and Eddie was way more complex than just you-breaking-up-with-him. It hurt to think about let alone laying it all out to his best friend.
Steve acknowledges your disdain, âSo itâs true then? You and Munson are splitsville?â
Youâre never here, you go radio silent for days at a time, Eddie. PleaseâŠI canât keep doing this!
âItâs complicated... How does it feel to be back?âÂ
âAgh agh, donât change the subject. Thereâs always three versions of a story: yours, his, and the truth. And if you donât remember, I refereed a lot of your arguments, and you two were always able to work it out.âÂ
âThis time itâs different, but enough of all that, Iâm moving on.â
âThatta girl. I get it, I wonât meddle into your shit. Iâll be your wingman tonight, okay? Weâre in the same boat⊠Iâm ready to not be alone tonight, y'know? Which reminds me, whereâs Lily?â
âSteveâŠâ
âI know, I know, sheâs with Hargrove nowâŠâ Your silence is enough for him to understand. âI really fucked that up, why would she stay with a guy whoâs doinâ time⊠she deserves more than that⊠more than me.â
Broken hearts must have been the theme for the night, but you refused to wallow in it any longer.
âNope, no, we arenât gonna do this. Any girl here would be crazy over you Steve, youâve got that âgood guy gone badâ thing going, câmon.âÂ
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It didnât take long for Steve to get over his woes and remember exactly who he was. You and Nancy were huddled in a corner talking about how Vickie dumped Robin over summer break.Â
Apparently she decided she was now straight and no longer curious for the tall and clumsy Rockinâ Robin. You hear a high pitched squeal and turn your head in annoyance to see what the hell was going on.
A peek over your shoulder and you realize immediately who it is. She was twisting her brassy red hair around her finger, a flirty smile aimed at someone you couldnât see in the crowded living room.Â
âWhoâs that?â Nancy asked.
âMy neighbor, Rebecca.âÂ
âWait! I think sheâs seeing my brother. Does she work with Hopper?âÂ
âYeah, she just started working for Hawkins Police Department.âÂ
âIntroduce me.â Nancy demands and you give her a look, âWhat? Iâm just seeing whatâs so special about Rebecca that wasnât special about Jane. Plus sheâs talking to Andy. My mom and his mom are in the same book club and she told my mom that he just broke up with Alicia but she knows heâs always had a âthingâ for you.âÂ
Andy? Yeah he was good looking. But not exactly your type. A little shameless flirting wouldn't hurt right?Â
Rebecca was smiling with her head thrown back, dancing along to Fleetwood Mac as you and Nancy elbowed your way across the living room. Over your shoulder you tell her to be nice and take it easy on the girl. She smiles her wicked mischievous grin that you know only means trouble.Â
Andyâs hair is darker than you remember it being. No longer shoved under a baseball cap but likely combed and feathered to make it look effortless. Heâs talking to Rebecca and you realize heâs wearing a Hawkins PD issued shirt.Â
âAndy,â Nancy purrs, directing his attention towards the both of you. She officially introduces you to him and his eyes drink you in. Nance takes Rebecca by the crook of her elbow in a bony vice-like grip, her voice as sweet and fake as splenda.Â
Itâs not long before the small talk between you and Andy develops into hushed whispers leaning against the living room wall, a breath and the neck of a beer bottle keeping your lips from his. Heâs handsome. Eyes like sage and beach kissed skin.Â
Youâre staring up into him, listening to him talk about arrests and a case thatâs gone unsolved for more than ten years. Heâs leaning in now, so close you can smell the spice of his gum, but youâre knocked off kilter.Â
âMmph..âÂ
âShit sorryââ
You both speak at the same time, and when you realize the person who ran into you was someone you were actively trying to avoid. Your blood runs cold and your cheeks heat. Eddie.
If brown eyes could light fires you would be in flames. He looks to you then over to Andy. The shock value in your face is exactly what he wants. And he smirks when he catches your watering eyes, you wonât give him the luxury of seeing you cry. Not on his account. Not anymore.Â
Andy glares at Eddie, âHey pal, what the fuck?â
âEddie-bearâŠthere you are!â Rebeccaâs voice is like shrapnel in your ears, but nothing hurts worse than watching her peachy lips kiss his cheek like a routine greeting, her arms slithering under the same patch vest that you had made as a birthday present for him.Â
Of course he had moved on, it's exactly what you were trying to do tonight, right here, with Andy.
You hadnât seen him since your breakup. Avoiding his normal hangs and haunts. Bypassing the trailer park anytime you could. Because of this exact reason. Seeing Eddie was too hard.Â
It set your heart aflame and your nerves rattling until they were sure to shrivel and perish. Like a phantom pain, seeing him with someone else, and not with you, not being a part of your lifeâŠwas agonizing.Â
He hadnât changed.Â
His curls still held a permanent halo of unruly frizz. A scar on his eyebrow paling into pink instead of branding a fresh deep cut like it was the last night you had seen him. When you ended it.
Nancy says your name and it brings you back to the present. Leaving the ghost of Eddieâs kisses on your neck in the past where they belonged. Dead and gone.Â
âI heard someone brought Jell-O shots,â she says absentmindedly, pulling your wrist and angling you away from the car crash that would surely unravel, â...letâs find out if they have raspberry.â
âJell-O shots?!â Rebecca squeals, her eyes looking up into Eddieâs in wonder, âwould you get me one? I need to powder my nose.â Without waiting for his response, she pinches his butt and leaves, her hips in rhythm to the music.Â
The awkward tension between you and Eddie isn't given a chance to surface. Saved by Nancyâs unashamed interrogation questions, âthatâs cute, are you two fucking?â
Eddie chokes on his beer and you slap her arm, muttering her name in a tone that suggests youâd rather melt into the carpet than hear his answer.Â
âChivalry Nance,â he glares, wiping his chin and letting out an annoyed sigh, âglad to see you havenât changed.â
Nancy flashes her bright smile. âYou know me. Reporter and such. So⊠what have you been up to? Still selling weed or have you moved onto dope and stealing catalytic converters?â
âWhy donât you ask Jonathan?â
Turning to leave you grab Andyâs hand. Not wanting to hear what Nancy spits back at Eddie, but knowing her it was going to be just as mean and vile as he was being.Â
Rebecca? Really? She was niceâŠpretty⊠but she was everything he claimed to hate. Popular. Ditzy. Fake. High conversations with him going on and on about conformity and government conspiracies flood your mind. Once he got going it was hard for him to stop.
Eddie was passionate about being unapologetically himself. He never cared about the image he portrayed, about the tainted Munson name he wore proudly, carving his own path, reclaiming his namesake. And thatâs what made you fall for him so easily.Â
The Jell-O shots were melting and sticking to the counter, staining it in splotches of red and blue. Dustin Henderson didnât have a chance in hell of getting his deposit back. Handing Andy one you trace your finger in the plastic cup and loosen it before handing it to him, a wink in your eye as you try to settle your nerves.Â
He returns your smile and strokes your chin, âwho the hell was that?â
âSorry about him, itâs myââ
âIs this how itâs gonna be?â You know itâs Eddie without even having to turn around and see his flared nostrils and furious eyes. âSending your friends to scream at me because youâre too goddamn bitter and chicken shit to do it yourself?âÂ
Fire burning in your chest you turn to chew him out, but the sight of him alone almost drove you to tears. Your lip quivers and you can see it register within his eyes, the effect he had on you, but his eyes narrow as if he chose to ignore it and trailblaze through your pain.
âCan I help you?â Andy interrupts.Â
âRun along dickhead, Iâm not talking to you,â he fumes. His dark curls you loved swaying the more worked up he got. His voice deepened with anger and sounded broken but your ears filled with muffled dread as you felt your nose tickle. âGot something you wanna say? Or are you gonna stand there and cry?âÂ
âMunson! Andy!âÂ
Thank God for Steve and his impeccable timing. He pulls his friend into a hug and slaps him on the back, âwhatâs up you little fucker, thought you werenât gonna make it tonight!â He turns to Andy then and his voice turns serious, âHey man, I heard a walkie talkie noise going off by your Jeep, sounded kinda urgent.âÂ
âShit, âm on call,â Andy mutters before sprinting out the front door.
Eddieâs eyes seem to almost twinkle and he blinks away whatever turmoil he brewed, pushing it aside to seem nonchalant. âPlans changed Stevie boy. My date decided she wanted to meet more people in town, so what better place to do that, yeah?â
You snort and roll your eyes, plucking a Jell-O shot into your mouth. Dark eyes pierce your face. Eddie crosses his arms, eyebrows raised to his hairline.Â
âEverything okay, here?â Steve asks, lighting a cigarette.
âOh yeah, fuckinâ peachy,â he seethes, his neck red and pupils constricted like heâs a snake, âIâm waiting for her to fill me in on the joke, but apparently the princess doesnât speak.âÂ
âDo you ever shut up?â you mumble mostly to yourself, mindlessly rubbing a stain on the counter with your finger.
âWell well well⊠would ya look at that,â he mocks, hands raised out in a glorified praise, âthe stuck up bitch can speak.âÂ
Pushing yourself from the counter you stand toe-to-toe with him, glaring up at him with a years worth of venomous rage youâd been holding on to.Â
âItâs reassuring to know that youâve stayed the same. Still a mean, fucked up bastard. That apple didnât fall far from the tree⊠did it, Junior?âÂ
Steve whistles low and steps between you two before either of you can throw drinks or you start screaming at each other and someone calls the cops. He knew how much Eddie hated being called that name. How much he tried to break that cycle between father and son. âThatâs a low blow, honey⊠even for you.â
The hurt on Eddieâs face is painted on thick but you canât find a single blood cell in your body to give a shit. If he wanted to be an asshole, so be it. You knew how to hurt him just like he did you. Two can play that wicked game.Â
He merely smirks and cocks his head back.Â
âIf you were any good on your knees, Iâd tell you to choke on it, sweetheart. Too bad youâre nothinâ but a lame cunt in the sack. Isnât that right Steve?
Your body flings over Steveâs shoulder aiming for Eddieâs hair. But Steve is too quick and catches you at your waist and holds you away from your bullseye. Both you and Eddie are screaming at each other. Youâre practically clawing at Steveâs arms as he tries to get you away from the kitchen and Eddie. You wanted to tackle him to the ground and rip his hair out. Slap him in the chest until he said he was sorry.Â
Eddie only eggs you on, talking shit behind Steve and moving around so you could see himâ trying to get in your face just as much as you are to him with Steve being the only thing stopping both of you from ripping each other to pieces.Â
Steve yells for Nancy and she shows up ready to fight a bull if you asked. She ushers you out of the kitchen. Hiding your tears with her jacket.Â
âGo! Now!â Steve hollers, shoving Eddie down the cramped hallway and into his bedroom.Â
Heâs huffing, hands on his hips in disappointment and disgust. Eddie leans against the dresser nursing a bloody nose he somehow managed in between fighting you and being manhandled down the hallway. Â
âEddie,â Steve sighs, shaking his head, âof all the stupid things you could have said⊠why do you always go with that one?â
âWouldnât surprise me, she always had it bad for yâ!â
âI was locked up you fucking idiot! Remember that? How I took the rap and didn't rat you out? I did two years for your stupid ass and in thanks you show up at my house and accuse me of fucking your girl?âÂ
He hangs his head back and sighs, blood trickling onto his lip, âI know dude, she justâfuck! She always knows how to piss me off. And I lost it.âÂ
Steve runs a hand through his hair, âcalm down and stop being such a prick for once in your life.âÂ
âFuck you man! You think a few years in the clink and suddenly youâre some big tough mother fucker?âÂ
Eddieâs blindsided when Steve grabs him and tosses him into a wall, his shirt balled in his hands. He tries to throw him off but Steve is stronger.
âWhat the fuck! Get off!â
âNo! Youâre gonna listen to me. I donât know what happened between the two of you but I do know that you had a fuckinâ problem man. You donât think I know that Wayne had to pay off Rickâs goons so you wouldnât get your throat cut? She came to me crying, begging me to help you.â
âOh sure, way to bring that up! That was years ago! I havenât touched that shit since.âÂ
âReally? Cause right now I donât believe a fuckinâ word you say.âÂ
Eddie reaches into his pocket and pulls out what looks like a poker chip. âNarcotics Anonymous 360 daysâ printed on the blue painted surface.Â
Steve spins the chip around in his hand, his eyebrows piled into shock, and sits on the edge of his bed, âdoes she know?â
He scoffs and crosses his arms, his voice angry and breaking, âwhy would I tell her Steve? Ainât gonna make a difference.âÂ
âOh and showing up tonight with some random chick after I told you she was here will?â Steve quips in a know-it-all type of way.Â
Eddie sits on the ground, forehead balancing on his knees. âWe can barely be in the same room together without fighting. You saw her tonight, she didnât even want to talk to me.âÂ
It was true. He doesnât know the last time you two had a talk that didnât end in harsh words and tears on your cheeks.Â
Steve leans forward and ruffles Eddieâs hair like heâs ten. âShow her that you arenât who you used to be. Youâre not Junior. I didnât tell her about anything youâre doing or how you finished school. But sheâd wanna know that youâre doing everything you always said you would. Together or not, she cares about you.âÂ
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After Nancy thumbed away your tears you sniffed and caught your breath. âIâm gonna go, Nance. âm sorry⊠I canât be here⊠I donât wanna ruin Steveâs party, tell him Iâm sorry okay?â
âNo, come on donât be stupid. Youâre welcome here anytime, you know that. Same rules, just different place. Stay. Steveâs got an extra room or take the couch, you shouldnât be driving.â
Shaking your head you hide another wave of tears, âIâm gonna walk, clear my head.â
Nancyâs eyes are brimmed with pretty blue glass as she holds her own tears in, âyou canât walk home, let me call Mike to pick you up.âÂ
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And thatâs how you ended up here. Walking home in the dark sticky heat after a fight with Eddie. He brought out the worst in you and you did the same to him. What once felt like the love of a lifetime has now deteriorated into the worst relationship youâve ever had.Â
Tonight was supposed to be yours! He fucking ruined it like he always did. Birthdays, anniversaries, holidaysâ he would show up hours late and high as a kite, dead behind his eyes, his soul diminished.Â
Tears stream down your cheeks and you wipe at them hastily. God damn him. He was still doing it. Still getting under your skin and making you miserable. Would it ever stop? Would he? Ow.Â
Wobbling on one foot, you slip off each sandal and hold them by the backs, one more blister and youâd lay down and join the roadkill. Thank God for Mike Wheeler, hopefully you wouldnât be walking much longer.Â
Headlights shine on your back and you move off to the side of the road, gingerly stepping along the gravely shoulder. A black trans am comes to a halt, the music dull and quiet.Â
âThanks for coming to get me Mike,â you say, opening the passenger door and ignoring a familiar cloud of smoke lingering, âhope you werenât in the middle of someââ
âWhoâs Mike?â
No no no. Steve wouldnât do this to you. Nancy wouldnât have let him! Whereâs his van? Why is he here? You had too many questions and didnât even want the answers. You donât bother slamming Eddieâs car door, leaving it wide open, scowling and walking away.Â
âGet in,â he barks through the open door, driving alongside you, âitâs late.âÂ
You cross your arms and walk without looking his way, âGo away, Eddie. My ride is coming.âÂ
âNo, heâs not.âÂ
âWhat?â
âWheeler didnât call him, Iâm your ride home.âÂ
Great. âNo thanks.âÂ
Eddie sighs in careful restraint, pulling his hands down his face and taking a deep breath. White knuckling the steering wheel. âYeah princess, it wasnât my idea either. So stop being a whiney little toddler and letâs go.â
You canât take it anymore, youâre about to break. âPlease, please leave me alone, Eddie. Iâm begging you.âÂ
âIâm not going anywhere,â Eddie relents, almost bored and not even watching the road, âget in the car.â
Ugly, traitorous tears drop on your cheeks and you stop walking. âIâd rather meet an axe murderer than go anywhere with you.â
âOh Jesus Christ! Quit being dramatâ!â Eddie is hit square in the face by one of your sandals, the other misses and soars into the back seat.Â
Youâre screaming into the night, voice hoarse and chest rising in a panic. âYouâre always sâ such an asshole!â you cry hysterically, âI hate you! I. Hate. You. I donât wanna be around you! I donât want to see you ever again! Leave me alone!âÂ
In the time youâre yelling and screaming, Eddie throws the car in park and swings his long legs onto the pavement. He slams the passenger door shut and crowds you in until your spine is against the hot car.Â
His body heat sears into you, those dark eyes no longer holding anger but sadness. Eddie reaches up and wipes away a smear of mascara from your closed eyes. Itâs too much for you to see him this close.Â
Your stomach is in your throat and you try to push him away but he holds your wrists and stops you. Turning your face away you sob into the night.Â
Eddieâs voice is quiet and calm, âyou donât wanna see me? Fine, I get it. But, goddamnit⊠please, get in the car so I can bring you home. Then you wonât have to see me again, âkay?âÂ
Shaking your head you hiccup and try to pull away from him. âI donât want to.. I canât.â
âCâmon, you know Iâm not gonna let you do this.â Eddie pulls your chin to him and you reluctantly open your eyes. You wish you didnât. Seeing him like this in a pure vulnerable form makes you ache for how things used to be. Heâs pleading with you now. âYou can hate me and scream at me all you want on the way home.â
You donât argue, exhausted from the night your nerves are fried. Grabbing the handle you turn without looking at him and get in. Beige carpet lays beneath your bare feet. This car is a lot cleaner than the van ever dreamt of being. As if he spent time and a lot of money on it.Â
Eddie gets behind the wheel and mutters, âseatbeltâ before putting the car in drive. You canât help but look over at him. The two years you had been avoiding him seemed to be good for him, too. He looked healthy, no longer haggard and purpled under his eyes.Â
Blood is smeared on the back of his hand, âyour nose is bleeding.â
âI know,â Eddie grumbles, leaning over to the glove box, careful to not bump your knees. He takes a napkin and twists it before shoving the smallest bit in his nose. âItâs broke.â
âWas that frââ
âThat fuckin shoe you chucked at my head?â He said, eyebrows cocked in disdain, âyeah.â Â
You feel bad for hurting him, you had never thrown anything at anyone. Your emotions have always run high with him, it was a lose lose situation.
âIâm sorry.âÂ
Eddie smirks and nods his head in acceptance. The drive back to town is quiet, no loud music blaring, no beer cans being tossed out of the window. Itâs nice.Â
You never moved out of the apartment you shared together and when he pulls into the parking lot he shuts off the engine and turns towards you.Â
âListen. Itâs hard for me to see you too, sweetheart. I didnât want to for a long, long time. I fucked up everything between us and why we had. I was fucked up. I know how shitty I was to you, fuck I deserve this broken nose.â
Youâre crying again, whatever makeup you left on your face was rubbed away by your hands.
âItâs no secret. I hurt you, over and over and over again. And Iâm so fucking sorry for that. When you left me, IâŠwent off the deep end,â he hangs his head in shame and rolls the ring on his finger. âI put myself in rehab after that, got my GED. Iâm doing good, better than I ever could have thought for myself.âÂ
All you ever wanted for him was to be sober. The years you had together werenât always bad, but they ended ugly and Eddie lost himself during that. You couldnât keep picking up his broken pieces, they never fit.Â
ââm happy for you, Eddie.â
He grabs your hand and his voice is urgent, âI keâ, fuck baby, I kept those promises I made, because of you⊠and Iâm sorry that it took me losing you to do it.â
He never cried. Not once since you knew him did he ever show an emotion that showed he had a soft side. But now thereâs tears in his eyes and you canât help but want to comfort him. Despite everything, he was still Eddie. That long legged boy with the silly grin and rock and roll in his veins.Â
You hold his face, your fingers wrapped in his curls and your thumbs sweeping away the tears. He kisses your palm and you twirl your fingers deeper in his hair.Â
âIâm sorry baby, Iâm sorry I couldnât be what you deserved.âÂ
Pressing your forehead to his, you both silently hold one another. It heals your heart, holding him while you're both breaking. Itâs second nature to ask him to come up to your apartment. It's a habit the way his hands undress you. Fingers delicately sliding the straps of your dress down your shoulders.Â
His lips on yours feel like home. Sweet, comforting, and soothing as he purrs into your skin with each kiss. He takes it slow, methodical in he way he fucks you for the last time. This is goodbye. He knows it and so do you.
âTell me,â he begs as heâs taking you achingly slow, âbaby please tell me youâre better without me.âÂ
Youâre focused on his neck, leaving a mark for another girl to find, not in a property type of way but you do it because you know him, you know he wants it.Â
âIâmâŠâ you falter thinking of the past year and everything youâve accomplished. You have a great job, friends who adore you, the answer is simple. He is the only thing missing, but you know how horrible you both are together. You know that keeping him will ruin him.Â
âHoney, please, tell me. I need to hear it from you, wonât leave if you donât.â Heâs asking for the closure you are both in desperate need of, so you give him what he needs⊠what you both need.Â
You kiss his neck, your fingers trailing down his arms so youâd remember him in your dreams, âweâre better apart, EddieâŠwe only hurt each other, this is the only thing weâre good at, and itâs not enough.âÂ
Eddie nods and stops his ministrations to kiss your lips. Those dark eyes staring into your soul.Â
âGod I loved you. I loved you so much.âÂ
You canât help but cry, itâs overwhelming but freeing, as if the last chapter of this part of your life was finally closing. It was tragically poetic the way you had loved him.Â
 âI loved you too.âÂ
The next morning you wake holding his hand. Heads on separate pillows, bodies not formed together. Heâs angelic sleeping on your floral pattern sheets, broken nose and all, and you know this is the right decision.Â
The two of you donât share breakfast. He gets dressed and you wave him goodbye from your balcony.Â
âHey,â he asks after ducking into the car and holding up one of your sandals, âdo you want these?â
Those awful shoes, basket weaved hell on your feet signifying a night that started head strong but ended in the closure youâd been seeking.Â
âNah. I donât need them anymore.â
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A/N: omg hi! thanks for reading! iâve had this in my docs since may 2024, and it was supposed to be car sex with eddie. but i like where it went, let me know if you liked it or didnât!
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Synopsis A college returnee attends Steve Harringtonâs summer party, where liquid courage revives her high school crush, leading to intense tension and a passionate hookup in his parentsâ bed amid the raging festivities.
The tires of my beat-up Chevy crunched over the gravel driveway as I pulled up to my parentsâ house in Hawkins. The air hung heavy with the scent of blooming lilacs and freshly mowed lawns. Iâd just finished my freshman year at Indiana University, and the drive back had been a blur of radio static and half-eaten gas station snacks. I grabbed my duffel bag from the trunk, slung it over my shoulder, and pushed open the front door.
âMom? Dad?â I called out, my voice echoing in the familiar hallway lined with faded family photos. The house smelled like pot roast and lemon pledge, a comforting reminder that some things never changed.
âIn the kitchen!â Momâs voice floated back. I dropped my bag by the stairs and wandered in, finding her stirring something on the stove while Dad read the newspaper at the table.
âLook whoâs home,â Dad said, folding the paper with a grin. âOur college girl.â
I hugged them both, feeling the weight of the semester lift a little. Weâd talked on the phone every Sunday, but seeing their faces made it real. Mom fussed over how thin I looked, insisting I eat immediately, while Dad asked about my classes. I told them about dorm life, the late-night study sessions, and the friends Iâd made. But I left out the parts about the parties, the boys, and how college had started to reshape me in ways I hadnât expected.
High school felt like a lifetime ago, even though it had only been a year. Back then, Hawkins High was my whole world, a bubble of cliques and crushes that seemed insurmountable. And at the center of it all was Steve Harrington. King Steve, they called himâcaptain of the basketball team, with that perfect hair and a smile that could melt ice. I had it bad for him, the kind of crush that kept me up at night, scribbling his name in my diary and daydreaming during class. Iâd watch him in the hallways, laughing with his friends, dating girls like Nancy Wheeler who seemed worlds away from my quiet, bookish self. He never noticed me, not really. I was just another face in the crowd, invisible in my oversized sweaters and glasses.
College changed that. Bloomington was bigger, brighter, full of new faces and freedoms. I traded the glasses for contacts, let my hair grow out, and discovered that a little makeup and confidence could turn heads. There were frat parties, awkward hookups, and boys who promised the world but delivered disappointment. My feelings for Steve faded into the background, buried under layers of new experiences. But they never fully disappearedâthey lingered like a half-forgotten song on the radio, ready to play at the slightest trigger.
I spent the afternoon unpacking in my old room, the posters of Duran Duran and Madonna still taped to the walls. The phone rang around 4 PM, jarring me from my nostalgia. Mom yelled up the stairs that it was for me.
âHello?â I said, twisting the cord around my finger.
âHey, itâs Nancy!â Her voice was bright, familiar. Nancy Wheelerâweâd been friends since junior high, bonded over journalism club and shared secrets. Sheâd gone off to Emerson College in Boston, chasing her dreams of becoming a reporter.
âNancy! Oh my God, when did you get back?â
âYesterday. I was going to call sooner, but jet lag is a killer. How was the drive?â
âLong and boring. Tell me about Bostonâdid you love it?â
We chatted for a bit, catching up on the highlights. She gushed about her classes, the city life, and Jonathan and her have been seeing each other long-distance. I told her about my dorm roommateâs antics and the philosophy professor who changed how I saw the world. It felt good, easy, like slipping back into an old pair of jeans.
âListen,â she said after a while, her tone shifting to excitement. âYou have to come to this party tonight. Steveâs throwing a welcome home bash for everyone whoâs back for the summer. Itâs at his placeâhis parents are out of town, as usual.â
My heart did a little flip at the mention of his name. Steve. Of course heâd be the one orchestrating the reunion. âSteve Harrington? Is it, like, the whole graduating class?â
âPretty much. He sent out invites through the grapevineâno fancy RSVPs, just word of mouth. Itâs going to be huge. Pool, music, the works. Come on, itâll be fun to see everyone.â
I hesitated, staring at my reflection in the mirror. Part of me wanted to say no, to avoid dredging up old feelings. But another partâthe part fueled by curiosity and a year of independenceâwhispered yes. âSure, why not? What time?â
âEight-ish. Iâll swing by and pick you up around 7:30. We can pre-game a little at my place if you want.â
âSounds perfect.â
After hanging up, I rummaged through my closet, pulling out clothes Iâd brought back. High school me would have agonized over what to wear, but now? I chose a fitted red top that hugged my curves just right, low-cut enough to tease without trying too hard, paired with high-waisted jeans that accentuated my hips and my favorite sneakers. A touch of lip gloss, some mascara to make my eyes pop, and I felt ready. Not for him, I told myself. Just for a night out. But deep down, I knew I was dressing with that old crush in mind, hoping maybe, just maybe, heâd finally see me.
Nancy arrived right on time, her Volkswagen Beetle honking in the driveway. I waved goodbye to my parents, who reminded me not to stay out too late, and slid into the passenger seat.
âYou look hot!â she said, eyeing my outfit as she pulled out. âCollege definitely agrees with you. That top is killer.â
âThanks. You tooâBostonâs given you that sophisticated vibe.â
We drove to her house first, where her mom greeted us warmly. In Nancyâs room, posters of The Smiths and investigative journalism books cluttered the space. She poured us each a glass of cheap wine from a bottle sheâd smuggled back.
âTo homecomings,â she toasted, clinking her glass against mine.
We sipped and talked more deeply now, away from parental ears. She confessed that things with Jonathan were complicatedâlong-distance was hard, and she missed the simplicity of high school romance. I nodded, sharing my own stories of frat boys who charmed their way into my bed but ghosted the next day.
âTheyâre all the same,â I said, rolling my eyes. âPromise the moon, deliver a pebble.â
Nancy laughed. âTell me about it. But hey, at least weâre learning. Remember high school? I thought Steve was the end-all, be-all.â
My cheeks warmed at the mention. âYeah, well⊠we all had our crushes.â
She raised an eyebrow. âYou more than most. I remember you staring at him during lunch like he was a movie star.â
âShut up,â I groaned, but I couldnât help smiling. âThat was ages ago. Iâm over it.â
âAre you? Because heâs still Steveâcharming, popular, throwing parties like itâs his job. But college has changed him too, I think. Heâs at some state school, still Mr. Basketball, but⊠I donât know, more grounded? And hotter, if thatâs possible. Those arms from all the trainingâŠâ
I shrugged, not wanting to dwell, but her words stirred something. âDoesnât matter. Tonightâs about catching up, not rehashing old flames.â
We finished our wine, the buzz settling in warm and fuzzy. By 8:15, we were heading to Steveâs house on the outskirts of town, the one with the big pool and absent parents. Cars lined the street already, music thumping from insideâBon Joviâs âLivinâ on a Prayerâ blasting through open windows.
Nancy parked, and we walked up the driveway, the air alive with laughter and the clink of bottles. People milled about outside, smoking cigarettes and sharing stories. I recognized faces from high schoolâTommy Hagan clapping guys on the back, Carol Perkins giggling with her clique. It felt surreal, like stepping into a time capsule.
Inside, the house was packed. Bodies swayed to the music, red Solo cups in hand. The living room had been cleared for dancing, the kitchen a hub for beer pong and shots. The smell of beer, cologne, perfume, and pizza hung thick, mixing with the electric hum of hormones on overdrive.
Nancy spotted some friends and waved me over, but I hung back a moment, scanning the crowd. And there he wasâSteve Harrington, holding court in the kitchen like the king he always was. God, he looked even better than I remembered. His hair was tousled just right, that signature flip catching the light, and he wore a fitted polo shirt that clung to his broad chest and shoulders, sleeves rolled up to show off those toned arms from endless basketball drills. Jeans hugged his hips, and there was this effortless swagger in how he leaned against the counter, beer in one hand, the other gesturing animatedly as he told a story. His laughâdeep, genuineâcut through the noise, and his eyes crinkled at the corners in a way that made my stomach twist.
But it was more than looks; it was his aura. Confidence radiated off him like heat from a bonfire, drawing people in, making the room orbit around him. He had this magnetic pull, the kind that made your knees weaken, your breath catch, like he could look at you and unravel every secret desire with a single glance. I felt it hit me hard, that old crush roaring back, amplified by the alcohol already in my system. My thighs clenched involuntarily as I watched him, imagining those strong hands on me, that voice whispering low in my ear.
Our eyes met across the roomâor did they? He scanned the crowd, and for a heartbeat, his gaze locked on mine. A slow, knowing smile spread across his lips, the kind that promised trouble. He nodded subtly, like heâd just noticed something intriguing, and my pulse raced. Heat flushed my skin, and I looked away, grabbing a cup from the keg to steady myself.
Nancy pulled me into the group, introducing me around. Stories flewâwho was at what college, who flunked out, who got engaged. I laughed at the gossip, sipped my beer, feeling the warmth spread. A guy from my old English class flirted awkwardly, but I brushed him off politely, my mind elsewhere.
As the party ramped up, hormones kicked in. Couples paired off in corners, kisses stolen under dim lights. The pool outside lit up with splashes and shrieks. I refilled my cup, the buzz turning to a pleasant haze.
Nancy dragged me onto the makeshift dance floor, and we moved to Madonnaâs âLike a Virgin,â giggling like old times. Sweat beaded on my skin, the energy infectious. My hips swayed, the music pulsing through me, loosening everything.
Then, midway through a spin, I bumped into someone solid. âSorryââ I started, turning.
Steve. Up close, he was intoxicating. His cologneâsomething woodsy and masculineâmixed with the faint scent of beer, and he towered over me just enough to make me feel small, protected. Those brown eyes sparkled with mischief, and that smile⊠it hit like a punch, making my knees buckle slightly. I steadied myself against his armâfirm, warm muscle under my fingersâand heat shot through me.
âWhoa, easy there,â he said, his voice low and smooth, laced with that trademark charm. His hand caught my elbow gently, thumb brushing my skin in a way that sent sparks straight to my core. âYou okay? Didnât mean to get in your way.â
I swallowed, my mouth dry despite the beer. âYeah, fine. Just⊠dancing.â
He chuckled, the sound rumbling close. âI can see that. Youâre good at it.â His eyes flicked down my body for a split secondâappreciative, not sleazyâthen back to mine. âWe went to high school together, right? You look⊠different. In a good way.â
My heart hammered. âYeah, we did. College changes things.â
âTell me about it.â He leaned in a fraction, his breath warm against my ear to be heard over the music. âIâm Steve, by the way. But you probably knew that.â
I nodded, fighting the urge to press closer. âI did. Iâmââ
Nancy interrupted, grabbing my arm. âShots! Come on!â
Steveâs hand lingered on my elbow a moment longer, his fingers squeezing lightly before releasing. âCatch you later?â he said, that smile turning wicked, like he knew exactly the effect he had.
âYeah,â I breathed, as Nancy pulled me away.
We did tequila shots in the kitchen, the salt and lime burning bright. Nancy cheered, and we toasted again. But I could feel his eyes on me from across the room, that aura pulling like gravity. The party blurred into a whirlwindâmore dancing, more drinks, conversations blending.
By 11 PM, Iâd lost count of my beers. Liquid courage coursed through me, loosening inhibitions. I found myself glancing at Steve, watching him navigate the crowd with that effortless hotness: slapping backs with friends, but always with a glance my way, a smirk that made my thighs ache.
Nancy caught me staring. âOld habits die hard, huh? Heâs been eyeing you too.â
I laughed it off, but inside, the tension builtânot just in the air, thick with unspoken desires, but between us. That hidden spark for Steve ignited, fueled by alcohol and his undeniable pull.
It was pushing 2 AM, the clock on the wall ticking softly amid the dying echoes. Stragglers had finally peeled awayâsome staggering to cars with slurred goodbyes, others vanishing into the night with hookups in tow. The house, once throbbing with bodies and bass, now felt echoey and intimate. Red Solo cups dotted every surface like confetti aftermath, the pool outside glassy under the moon, no more splashes or shrieks. Only a core group lingered in the living room: Nancy dozing against a pillow, Tommy and Carol tangled on the couch, a few college pals Steve knew, and a couple of high school holdouts nursing final beers. The stereo murmured low, REO Speedwagonâs âCanât Fight This Feelingâ crooning through the speakers, fitting the hormone-laced stupor.
Iâd sunk into the shag rug, legs crossed, the room spinning gently from too many drinks. My head buzzed with that perfect drunkâloose limbs, bold thoughts. Steve lounged across from me, his presence still commanding the space. Even rumpled from the night, he looked unfairly hot: polo shirt unbuttoned at the collar, revealing a sliver of chest hair, jeans slung low on his hips, that signature hair tousled like fingers had run through it. His aura hadnât dimmedâ that knee-weakening confidence, the way he leaned back on his elbows, eyes scanning the circle with easy authority. Every time our gazes brushed, heat coiled in my belly. God, why does he have to look like that? Like he could wreck me with a smile.
Tommy, ever the instigator, grabbed an empty vodka bottle from the table, its label peeled halfway off. âAlright, losers,â he slurred, grinning wide. âTime for spin the bottle. Drunken editionâwhoever it lands on, you kiss. No wimping out, or chug the rest of this beer.â
Carol giggled, clapping her hands. âYes! Make it spicy.â
The group perked up, murmurs of agreement rippling through. Nancy stirred, rubbing her eyes. âIâm in. Why not?â She shot me a wink, knowing my history with Steve. My stomach somersaulted. Spin the bottle? At our age? It felt juvenile, but the alcohol made it thrilling. Internal whirlwind hit: What if it lands on him? Kissing Steve Harringtonâthe fantasy Iâd nursed through high school, doodling his name in margins, blushing at his hallway laughs. Back then, he was untouchable, orbiting popular girls while I faded into lockers. Now, after collegeâs glow-up, with my fitted top clinging just right and confidence buzzing, the idea ignited me. But nerves twisted too: What if Iâm awkward? What if he tastes like regret? Still, the crushâs embers flared. I want this. Badly.
We formed a ragged circle on the rug, the bottle gleaming in the center under the lampâs glow. First spins were light: Nancy landed on Mike, a quick peck drawing laughs. Tommy spun to Carol, turning it into a theatrical slobber that had us groaning. Steveâs turn came early. He leaned forward, his knee brushing mine accidentally, sending a jolt up my thigh. His fingers wrapped around the bottleâstrong, veined hands Iâd imagined on me a thousand times. He spun with that cocky grin, the glass whirring before pointing at the blonde from his college group. They kissedâhis hand on her neck, guiding, lips moving with practiced ease. It was brief, but watching his jaw work, the way he pulled back with hooded eyes, jealousy stabbed hot. Thatâs how heâd kiss me? No, stop. Itâs a game. But my core ached, traitorous.
More turns: awkward laughs, a guy-on-guy peck for comedy. Then mine. The circle chanted, âSpin! Spin!â Nancy nudged my shoulder. âYour shot, girl.â
I knelt, heart hammering like a drum solo. The bottle felt cool in my palm, heavy with possibility. Internal dialogue raced: Land on him. Please. Imagine his lipsâsoft? Firm? The taste of him after all these years. But what if it doesnât? Or worse, what if the kiss flops, and he pulls away bored? High school me would hide; college me craved the risk. Liquid courage surgedâI spun hard.
The bottle twirled, blurring, then slowed⊠ticked past Nancy, past Tommy⊠and halted squarely on Steve.
Hoots erupted. âOh shit, King Steve!â Tommy bellowed. Carol whistled. Nancyâs eyes widened with glee, mouthing, âYes!â
Steveâs gaze locked on mine, dark and intense, that smile curling slowâlike heâd willed it. âWell, well,â he drawled, voice gravelly from the night, sending shivers across my skin. âCome here, then.â
I crawled forward on hands and knees, the rug soft under me, every inch closing the gap heightening the tension. Up close, he was overwhelming: the scent of his cologne mixed with beer and sweat, those brown eyes smoldering, full lips parted in anticipation. His aura hit full forceâmagnetic, making my knees wobble even on all fours. God, heâs so hot it hurts. Broad shoulders, the vein pulsing in his neck. I want to trace it with my tongue. Restraint? Screw that.
He met me in the middle, rising to his knees, his hand finding my waist immediately, pulling me close. The touch burned through my top, fingers splaying possessively. Our lips crashedânot tentative, but hungry. He tasted like vodka and desire, tongue sweeping in bold, exploring. I melted, hands fisting his shirt, feeling the hard planes of his chest. A rumble vibrated from his throat, low and needy, as he angled deeper, his free hand cupping my jaw, thumb pressing my chin open wider.
It intoxicated himâI felt it. His body tensed, hips shifting closer, the kiss turning fervent. He nipped my bottom lip, soothing with his tongue, and I whimpered softly. More. He wants more. His grip tightened, like he was fighting to hold back, breath hitching. But then, restraint kicked inâhe slowed, pulling away inch by inch, eyes glazed, chest heaving. The circle faded; it was just us, locked in that afterglow.
âDamn,â he breathed, just loud enough for me, voice rough. His hand lingered on my waist, thumb stroking circles that sent sparks southward. Curiosity burned in his stareâwho was this girl? In high school, Iâd been invisible, a shadow in the halls while he ruled. Now, in his eyes, I was the hottest at the party, transformed, enigmatic. He licked his lips, tasting me still, restraint evident in his clenched jaw. He wanted to dive back in, unravel me right there, but held off, intrigued.
I sat back, legs jelly, pulse thundering. That kiss⊠electric, better than fantasies. My lips tingled, body humming. He noticed me nowâreally noticed. Internal high: Holy shit, that happened. He kissed like fire, and he wants more. I feel alive, desired.
The game stumbled on, but the vibe shifted. Steveâs eyes kept flicking to me, dark promises unspoken. When he spun again, landing on Carol, the kiss was perfunctoryâquick, detached. His gaze found mine mid-peck, almost apologetic. Jealousy flipped to smugness inside me: Heâs thinking of our kiss. Good.
Another turn for me: landed on Brad, some random. His kiss was sloppy, forgettableânothing like Steveâs heat. I felt Steve watching, tension radiating. When I pulled away, his expression was tight, possessive glint.
As spins dwindled, yawns spread. The vodka bottle clinked empty. âGame over,â Tommy mumbled, hauling Carol up. âWeâre crashing in the guest room.â
Nancy stretched. âCouch for me. Night, all.â
People dispersedâsome to cars, others to makeshift beds. The living room emptied, leaving Steve and me amid the mess. He stood, offering a hand. âHelp me clean up? Kitchenâs a warzone.â
I took it, his palm warm, callusedâsparks again. âSure.â
We gathered cups, moving to the kitchen. The fluorescent light hummed, casting shadows. Steve dumped armfuls into the sink, muscles flexing under his shirt. I rinsed bottles, our elbows brushing, each touch deliberate? The silence crackled, heavy with unsaid words.
âGood game,â he said finally, leaning against the counter, arms crossed to highlight those biceps. His eyes traced meâcurious, heated.
âYeah,â I replied, voice breathy. Internal: Heâs so close. That kiss lingers; I can still taste him. Say something bold?
He stepped nearer, voice dropping. âThat kiss⊠youâre full of surprises. Didnât peg you for that in school.â
âYou didnât peg me at all back then.â Tease edged my words, alcohol lingering.
His laugh was low, intoxicating. âTrue. My bad. But now?â He reached past me for a cup, body brushing mine, heat palpable. âCanât stop thinking about it. Who are you, really?â
Curiosity laced his toneâhe was hooked, restrained but cracking. His hand grazed my arm, lingering. Tension built, air thick. I turned, faces inches apart. âStick around. Find out.â
He swallowed, eyes darkening, but held backâcleaning resumed, touches teasing. The night hung poised.
The kitchen light buzzed faintly overhead, casting harsh shadows across the cluttered counters. Empty bottles clinked as I stacked them by the sink, my hands trembling slightly from the adrenaline still pulsing through me. That kiss during spin the bottle replayed in my mindâhis lips claiming mine, the low growl in his throat, the way his fingers dug into my waist like he couldnât get close enough. Now, alone with him in this mess of a kitchen, the air thickened, charged with the remnants of the partyâs chaos and something far more primal.
Steve moved beside me, his arm brushing mine as he reached for a stray cup. The contact was electric, his skin warm against my cooled flesh, sending a shiver racing up my spine. I glanced sideways, catching him watching meâthose brown eyes dark, hooded, tracing the curve of my neck down to where my red top clung to my breasts, damp from the nightâs sweat. He didnât pull away; instead, his fingers lingered, grazing my elbow deliberately this time. Heat bloomed low in my belly, a insistent ache building.
âMissed a spot,â he murmured, voice rough like gravel, nodding at a puddle of spilled beer on the counter. But his eyes stayed on me, not the mess. He stepped closer, his body heat enveloping me, that woodsy cologne mixing with the sharp tang of alcohol. My breath hitched as his hip pressed against mine, pinning me lightly against the edge of the sink.
I turned to face him, our chests inches apart. âThen clean it,â I challenged, my voice breathy, laced with the dare. Inside, my thoughts raced: Touch me. Donât stop. That old crush had exploded into raw needâI wanted his hands everywhere, erasing every forgettable frat boy encounter.
He didnât grab a rag. Instead, his hand slid to my hip, fingers splaying wide, pulling me flush against him. I felt himâhard, straining through his jeans against my thigh. A gasp escaped me, but I didnât pull back. His other hand cupped my jaw, thumb rough against my cheek, tilting my face up. Our eyes locked, his pupils blown wide with want, mirroring the fire in my core.
âYou drive me crazy,â he growled, low and urgent, before his mouth crashed onto mine.
The kiss was ferocious, nothing held back. His lips devoured, tongue thrusting in to tangle with mine, tasting of vodka and desperation. I fisted his polo, yanking him closer, my nails scraping his chest through the fabric. He groaned into my mouth, the sound vibrating through me, making my nipples harden against him. His hand on my hip slid lower, gripping my ass, squeezing hard enough to lift me onto my toes. I arched, pressing my breasts against his solid chest, friction sparking pleasure that shot straight between my legs.
We stumbled back, my back hitting the counter, bottles rattling. His mouth left mine to trail hot, open-mouthed kisses down my neck, teeth grazing my pulse point. I moaned, loud and unashamed, my head falling back. âSteveâŠâ The name slipped out, needy. His response was a biteâsharp, possessiveâfollowed by his tongue soothing the sting. My hands roamed, slipping under his shirt, fingers tracing the ridges of his abs, feeling them contract under my touch. He was rock-hard everywhere, muscles honed from basketball, skin feverish.
He lifted me effortlessly onto the counter, my legs wrapping around his waist instinctively. The cool Formica contrasted the heat building inside me as he ground against my core, the friction of denim on denim torturous. I rocked back, seeking more, my breath coming in pants. His hands pushed up my top, palms rough on my bare stomach, thumbs brushing the undersides of my breasts. âFuck,â he muttered against my collarbone, voice strained. âBeen wanting this since that spin.â
I didnât care if anyone wandered inâNancy on the couch, Tommy upstairs. Let them see. The thought only fueled me, making me bolder. I tugged at his shirt, pulling it over his head in one swift motion. His chest heaved, tanned and sculpted, a light dusting of hair trailing down to disappear into his jeans. I leaned in, biting his shoulder, tasting salt and him. He hissed, fingers tangling in my hair, yanking my head back to claim my mouth again. The kiss turned sloppy, wetâtongues battling, lips swollen.
His hand dipped lower, cupping me through my jeans, rubbing firmly. Pleasure jolted through me, my hips bucking into his palm. âYes,â I whimpered, breaking the kiss to gasp. He watched me, eyes feral, as he pressed harder, circling. My body responded, wetness soaking through, the ache turning to a throb. I clawed at his back, nails leaving red trails, urging him on.
But it wasnât enough. âUpstairs,â he rasped, voice wrecked, lifting me off the counter. My legs stayed wrapped around him, his erection pressing insistently as he carried me toward the door. We didnât make it far before he pinned me against the wall in the hallway, mouth on mine again, hips grinding in a rhythm that had me seeing stars. His free hand shoved under my bra, pinching my nipple, rolling it until I cried out, the sound echoing.
Footsteps creaked from the living roomâsomeone stirring? I didnât stop, didnât care. I ground against him harder, chasing the friction, my hands fumbling with his belt. He broke the kiss, breathing ragged against my ear. âGod, youâre killing me.â But he didnât pull away; instead, he hoisted me higher, mouth latching onto my breast through my top, sucking hard. The fabric went transparent under his tongue, sensation shooting fire to my core.
We staggered up the stairs, a tangle of limbs and heat. Halfway up, he pressed me against the banister, hand slipping into my jeans, fingers finding my slick folds. I bucked, moaning his name, as he circled my clit, slow then fast. âSo wet for me,â he growled, biting my earlobe. My vision blurred, pleasure coiling tight. I reached down, palming him through his jeans, stroking the hard length. He thrust into my hand, a guttural sound escaping.
At the top, he kicked open the nearest doorâhis parentsâ bedroom, lavish with a king-sized bed and silk sheets. He didnât hesitate, carrying me in and slamming the door shut with his foot. The room smelled of lavender and privilege, forbidden territory adding to the rush.
He lowered me to the bed, hovering over me, eyes scanning my body like prey. âNot like those frat boys,â he said, voice low, deliberate. His hands worked my top off, bra following, exposing me to the cool air. Nipples peaked under his gaze. He took his time, kissing down my sternum, tongue flicking each peak slowly, savoring. I arched, fingers in his hair, pulling him closer. âThey rush. I donât.â
His mouth continued its descent, unbuttoning my jeans, peeling them down with my panties in one go. Exposed, I spread my legs, bold under his stare. He settled between them, breath hot on my inner thigh. âGonna show you,â he murmured, before his tongue delved in, lapping at my folds.
Pleasure explodedâslow licks, then sucking my clit gently, building me up. My hips rose, grinding against his face, hands fisting the sheets. He held my thighs open, fingers digging in, as he worked me methodically. No rush, just relentless build. âSteve⊠pleaseâŠâ I begged, the coil tightening.
He rose, shedding his jeans and boxers, his cock springing freeâthick, veined, tip glistening. I reached for him, stroking, feeling him twitch in my hand. He groaned, eyes closing briefly, before positioning at my entrance. âYou ready?â
âYes.â I pulled him down, kissing him fiercely, tasting myself on his lips.
He pushed in slow, inch by inch, stretching me deliciously. Fullness overwhelmed, my walls clenching around him. He paused, buried deep, forehead against mine, breaths mingling. âFeel that? Thatâs me taking my time.â
Then he movedâdeep thrusts, rolling hips hitting that spot perfectly. I met him, legs locked around his waist, nails raking his back. Sweat slicked our bodies, the bed creaking under us. He whispered praisesââSo tight, so perfectââhis hand between us, rubbing my clit in time.
The build was exquisite torture, pressure mounting until I shattered, crying out as waves crashed over me. He followed, thrusting erratic, spilling inside with a guttural moan.
We collapsed, tangled, breaths heavy. He kissed my temple, soft now. âTold you. Not like them.â
The party raged faintly below, but here, in this stolen space, it was just usâneed sated, but the spark lingering.
The kitchen light buzzed faintly overhead, casting harsh shadows across the cluttered counters. Empty bottles clinked as I stacked them by the sink, my hands trembling slightly from the adrenaline still pulsing through me. That kiss during spin the bottle replayed in my mindâhis lips claiming mine, the low growl in his throat, the way his fingers dug into my waist like he couldnât get close enough. Now, alone with him in this mess of a kitchen, the air thickened, charged with the remnants of the partyâs chaos and something far more primal. But beneath the heat, memories flooded: high school hallways where Iâd steal glances at him, heart racing, scribbling his name in secret. He never saw me then, just another invisible girl pining from afar. Now, here, that crush reignited, fierce and demanding.
Steve moved beside me, his arm brushing mine as he reached for a stray cup. The contact was electric, his skin warm against my cooled flesh, sending a shiver racing up my spine. I glanced sideways, catching him watching meâthose brown eyes dark, hooded, tracing the curve of my neck down to where my red top clung to my breasts, damp from the nightâs sweat. He didnât pull away; instead, his fingers lingered, grazing my elbow deliberately this time. Heat bloomed low in my belly, a insistent ache building. Our eyes met for a heartbeat, then darted awayâstolen glances that said everything unspoken.
âMissed a spot,â he murmured, voice rough like gravel, nodding at a puddle of spilled beer on the counter. But his eyes stayed on me, not the mess. He stepped closer, his body heat enveloping me, that woodsy cologne mixing with the sharp tang of alcohol. My breath hitched as his hip pressed against mine, pinning me lightly against the edge of the sink.
I turned to face him, our chests inches apart. âThen clean it,â I challenged, my voice breathy, laced with the dare. Inside, my thoughts raced: Touch me. Donât stop. That old crush had exploded into raw needâI wanted his hands everywhere, erasing every forgettable frat boy encounter. Another glanceâhis eyes flicked to my lips, then back up, a slow smile curling.
He didnât grab a rag. Instead, his hand slid to my hip, fingers splaying wide, pulling me flush against him. I felt himâhard, straining through his jeans against my thigh. A gasp escaped me, but I didnât pull back. His other hand cupped my jaw, thumb rough against my cheek, tilting my face up. Our eyes locked, his pupils blown wide with want, mirroring the fire in my core. âYou know, I keep thinking about that kiss,â he said, voice low, intimate. âHow you tasted. How you felt against me.â
Heat flushed my cheeks, but I held his gaze. âYeah? What about it?â My hands rested on his chest, feeling the rapid thump of his heart. Stolen glance downâhis erection pressing insistently, making my core throb.
âMade me realize what I missed in high school.â His thumb traced my bottom lip, parting it slightly. âYou were there, right under my nose. Quiet, but⊠damn, look at you now.â He leaned in, breath hot on my skin, but didnât kissâjust hovered, building the tension. âTell me, did you think about me back then?â
I swallowed, boldness surging. âAll the time. Watched you in the halls, dreamed about this.â My fingers trailed down his chest, over the ridges of his abs through his shirt. He inhaled sharply, eyes darkening further.
âShouldâve noticed.â His hand on my hip squeezed, pulling me tighter. âWouldâve saved us both some time.â We stood like that, bodies pressed, talking in hushed tones, every word laced with need. His free hand wandered up my side, thumb brushing the underside of my breast. I arched slightly, encouraging, our breaths mingling.
âWhat would you have done?â I whispered, stealing a glance at his mouth, so close. My hand slipped lower, palm flat against his stomach, feeling it contract.
He chuckled low, the sound vibrating through me. âKissed you senseless. Like this.â Finally, his lips brushed mineâsoft at first, teasing. But it ignited. I opened for him, tongue meeting his in a slow dance. Hands roamed; mine under his shirt, nails grazing skin. He groaned softly, breaking to nip my jaw. âGod, youâre driving me crazy. Been stealing looks at you all night.â
âMe too,â I admitted, voice husky. âCouldnât stop.â Our foreheads touched, eyes locking in another stolen glanceâraw desire reflected.
He lifted me onto the counter suddenly, my legs parting around his hips. The cool surface contrasted my heated skin as he stepped between my thighs, hands on my knees, sliding up slowly. âTell me more,â he urged, fingers tracing patterns on my inner thighs, inching higher. âWhat did you fantasize about?â
I bit my lip, heat pooling. âYour hands on me. Like this.â I guided one of his hands higher, to the hem of my jeans. He obliged, fingers brushing the seam, pressing lightly. A whimper escaped; I rocked into his touch. âKissing me everywhere.â
âEverywhere?â His voice dropped, eyes gleaming as he leaned in, mouth hovering over my neck. Hot breath fanned my skin before lips grazed, sucking gently. âLike here?â Teeth nipped, tongue soothing. My head fell back, hands fisting his shirt.
âYes⊠and more.â We talked between kissesâhis mouth trailing to my collarbone, my confessions spilling. âWanted you to notice me, touch me.â His hand cupped my breast through my top, thumb circling the nipple, hardening it instantly.
âFuck, I notice now.â He pinched lightly, drawing a gasp. On the counter, our bodies aligned perfectly; I felt every inch of him grinding slow, deliberate. Stolen glances downâwatching his hand work, then up to his face, flushed with lust. âYouâre so responsive. Those frat boys didnât know what to do with you, did they?â
I shook my head, hips rolling against him. âNo. Rushed. Selfish.â My hands explored his back, pulling him closer. âNot like you.â
âDamn right.â He kissed me deep now, tongue thrusting, mimicking what we both craved. Hands roamed freerâhis under my top, skin on skin, palming my breasts. I moaned into his mouth, nipples peaking under his thumbs. We broke for air, foreheads together. âGonna take my time with you. Make up for lost years.â
âPromise?â I teased, but my voice trembled with need. Another stolen glanceâhis eyes burned, promising everything.
âPromise.â He slid me forward on the counter, grinding harder, friction building through clothes. His mouth found my ear, whispering, âFeel that? Thatâs what you do to me.â I nodded, breathless, hand slipping between us to palm him through jeans. He thrust into my touch, groaning. âTell me what you want.â
âYou. Touching me. Everywhere.â Bold, I unbuttoned my jeans, guiding his hand inside. Fingers met damp panties, pressing. âHere.â
He cursed softly, eyes locking on mine as he rubbed slow circles over fabric. âSo wet already.â Tension coiled; I bucked, chasing. We talked through itâhis questions pulling confessions. âDid you touch yourself thinking of me?â
âYes,â I admitted, cheeks burning. âImagined your hands, your mouth.â
âShow me.â But instead, he took over, fingers slipping under panties, gliding through slickness. I cried out softly, head back. On the counter, exposed, but uncaringâlet anyone hear.
We shiftedâhe pinned me against the kitchen wall nearby, my back to cool tile, legs around his waist. Hands everywhere: his on my ass, lifting; mine in his hair, tugging. Kisses turned frantic, but words flowed. âYouâre incredible,â he panted, grinding deep. âHow did I not see?â
âYou see now.â I nipped his lip, hand stroking him through unzipped jeans. He was hot, hard in my palm, twitching. âWant to feel you.â
âSoon.â His fingers delved deeper, two curling inside me, thumb on my clit. Pleasure spiked; I rode his hand, moans echoing. Stolen glancesâwatching his face, intent, then down to where we connected. âGonna make you come first.â
âNot yet,â I gasped, pulling his hand away, though need screamed. âUpstairs. Bed.â
He nodded, breath ragged, but didnât stop kissingâmouth on my neck as he carried me toward the door. Tension peaked, bodies aching, but we held off, foreplay stretching the delicious torment
We barely made it out of the kitchen before the need overtook us again. Steveâs hands were everywhereâgripping my waist, sliding up my backâas he backed me toward the hallway. Our lips crashed together mid-step, tongues tangling in a messy, urgent kiss that left us both gasping. I tasted the salt of his skin, the lingering vodka from earlier, and it only fueled the fire. My fingers fumbled with his open polo, pushing it off his shoulders completely, exposing that broad, toned chest Iâd fantasized about for years. God, heâs even better up closeâmuscles flexing under my touch, skin hot and slightly damp from the partyâs heat.
He groaned into my mouth, breaking only to mutter, âCanât wait anymore.â His voice was wrecked, low and gravelly, sending shivers straight to my core. We stumbled into the hallway, my back hitting the wall with a thud. His body pressed flush against mine, hips grinding slow and deliberate, letting me feel every inch of his hardness through our clothes. I arched into him, my hands roaming down to his ass, squeezing the firm muscle, pulling him closer. Internal thoughts raced: Finally, after all those high school nights alone, imagining this exact moment. Heâs real, hard, wanting me.
âUpstairs,â I panted, nipping at his jaw. But we didnât move fastâcouldnât. Every step was interrupted by kisses, touches. He lifted me slightly, my legs wrapping around his waist as he carried me toward the stairs. Our mouths fused again, his tongue exploring deep, mimicking what I craved lower. One hand supported my thigh, fingers digging in possessively, while the other cupped my breast through my unclasped bra, thumb flicking the nipple. Pleasure sparked, making me moan loud enough to echo. Who cares if someone hears? The house was quiet now, but the thrill of risk only heightened it.
We hit the first step awkwardly, stumbling as his foot caught the edge. I laughed breathlessly against his lips, but he silenced me with another kiss, deeper, hungrier. âCareful,â he teased, voice husky, but his hands were anything butâsliding under my top, pushing it up to expose my skin. Cool air hit my bare breasts as the fabric bunched, his mouth descending to latch onto one nipple. He sucked hard, tongue swirling, teeth grazing just enough to sting deliciously. My head fell back against the banister, fingers threading through his perfect hair, tugging. Oh God, yesâbetter than any dream. Heâs taking his time, but I need him now.
I bucked against him, feeling his cock twitch in response. âSteve⊠stairs.â The word came out needy, pleading. He straightened, eyes dark with lust, stealing a glance at my swollen lips before hoisting me higher. We climbed like thatâme wrapped around him, kissing his neck, biting his earlobe. His breaths came ragged, steps faltering when my hand slipped between us, stroking him through his open jeans. Velvet heat in my palm, thick and pulsing. He growled, pinning me against the stair wall midway up, grinding into my touch. âFuck, keep doing that,â he rasped, hand diving back into my jeans, fingers finding my slick folds again.
Two digits plunged in, curling to hit that spot, thumb circling my clit. I cried out, hips rocking, the banister digging into my back but blending with the ecstasy. Our eyes lockedâstolen intimacy amid the frenzy. âYou feel so good,â he murmured, voice breaking. âWet for me. All mine.â Internal: Yes, yours. After waiting so long, finally claimed by King Steve.
We pushed on, stumbling over the top step, nearly falling as our kisses turned sloppy. Laughter bubbled between us, but it dissolved into moans when his fingers pumped faster. âDoor,â I gasped, pointing vaguely. He kicked open the nearest oneâhis parentsâ room. The forbidden space loomed: king bed with pristine white sheets, elegant nightstands, a faint scent of lavender from some forgotten air freshener. Thrill shot through meâwrong, but so right. He didnât hesitate, carrying me in and slamming the door shut with his foot.
He lowered me to the bed, the mattress dipping under our weight. Hovering over me, eyes raking my body, he peeled off my top and bra fully, tossing them aside. âBeautiful,â he whispered, voice reverent, hands tracing my curves. I reached for him, pulling at his jeans, shoving them down with his boxers. His cock sprang freeâthick, veined, curving slightly, the tip glistening with pre-cum. A neat trim of dark pubic hair framed the base, coarse under my fingers as I stroked him. God, even thatâs perfectâmasculine, inviting touch.
He groaned, eyes fluttering shut briefly. âYour hand⊠fuck.â But he pulled away gently, kicking off his pants, then turning to me. Hands hooked my jeans, dragging them down slowly, inch by inch, kissing the exposed skinâmy hip, thigh, knee. Panties followed, his breath hot on my core as he spread my legs wide. I lay exposed, unashamed, fingers twisting in the sheets. Look at him, on his knees for me. The boy who ignored me now worshipping.
He settled between my thighs, hands pinning them open. âGonna taste you first.â His tongue flicked out, lapping slow along my folds. I bucked, moaning. He held firm, delving deeperâcircling my clit, sucking gently, then harder. Fingers joined, one then two thrusting in time, curling to stroke that inner wall. Sensation built layer by layer: wet heat of his mouth, pressure of his fingers, the hum of his approval vibrating through me. âSo sweet,â he murmured against me, eyes lifting to watch my reactions. âCome for me like this.â
The coil tightened, breaths shallow. My hands found his hair, guiding, hips grinding against his face. âSteve⊠close.â He doubled down, tongue flicking faster, fingers pumping relentless. Release hitâwaves crashing, body arching, cries echoing off the walls. He lapped through it, prolonging every tremor until I collapsed, trembling.
But he wasnât done. Rising, he kissed up my bodyâstomach, breasts, neckâtongue tracing paths that left me shivering. âNot like those guys,â he said, voice low, positioning between my legs. His cock nudged my entrance, slick and teasing. I bucked up, desperate, but he held back, rubbing the head along my folds, coating himself. Each pass over my clit jolted, hips straining. Tease⊠but God, the build is torture. Need him inside, filling me.
âFeel how bad I want you?â he rasped, eyes locked on mine. Thrust shallowâjust the tipâstretching barely, then out. I whimpered, thighs quivering, nails digging into his arms. âPlease,â I begged, core aching empty. He smirked, wicked, repeating the teaseâ in, out, slow. âSteve⊠fuck me.â Lust consumed; years of fantasy demanding satisfaction.
His control fractured. With a guttural groan, he surged forward, burying deep in one relentless push. Fullness overwhelmedâstretching wide, walls clenching around his thickness. He paused hilt-deep, pubic hair brushing my skin, pulsing inside. Forehead against mine, breaths ragged. âSo tight⊠perfect.â The words fueled me; I rocked up, squeezing deliberately. Heâs in meâfinally, completely. Feels so right, like we were made for this.
He withdrew almost fully, then slammed backâhard, deep. I cried out, pleasure-pain mixing, legs locking tighter. Thrusts built rhythmâslow at first, savoring each drag against my walls, the coarse friction of his pubic hair against my sensitive skin. Then faster, hips snapping, skin slapping wetly. His hand gripped my thigh, hitching it higher, angling deeper to hit that spot relentlessly. âTake it,â he growled, mouth claiming mine in a bruising kiss, teeth clashing.
Lust drove usâmy hands roamed his back, nails raking red trails, urging harder. He pounded in, grinding against my clit with each thrust, pubic hair adding rough texture that heightened every sensation. âYouâre mine now,â he panted, free hand pinching my nipple, twisting. Overload: core throbbing, body slick with sweat. I met every drive, hips rising, chasing. âHarder,â I demanded, voice hoarse, lost in need.
Pace turned franticâbed creaking, headboard thumping. He hooked my leg over his shoulder, plunging deeper, pubic hair pressing firm. Pressure mounted, vision blurring. âCome for me,â he commanded, thumb on my clit, rubbing furious. Release shatteredâintense, clenching him vise-like, waves pulsing. But he didnât stopâthrust through it, prolonging my high, his own building.
He flipped us suddenly, me on top, straddling. âRide me.â Hands on my hips, guiding as I sank down, taking him fully. Internal: Control nowâmy turn to make him lose it. I rolled my hips, grinding slow, feeling every inch, his pubic hair tickling my clit. He groaned, eyes hooded, watching where we joined. âFuck, yes.â I picked up speed, bouncing, breasts heaving. His hands cupped them, thumbs teasing nipples.
Tension rebuiltâmine and his. I leaned forward, kissing him deep, tongues battling as I rode harder. His hips bucked up, meeting me, pubic hair adding friction that drove me wild. âClose,â he grunted, hand slipping between us, fingers on my clit again. The dual sensationâhim inside, rubbing outsideâpushed me over once more. I came hard, walls fluttering, milking him.
He followed, thrusting erratic, spilling hot inside with a primal roar, hips stuttering, filling me completely. We rode the aftershocks, bodies trembling, until I collapsed on his chest, breaths syncing.
But the night wasnât over. He rolled us, still inside, softening but stirring again. âNot done,â he murmured, kissing my neck. Slow nowâgentle thrusts, building anew. Hands explored: his tracing my spine, mine in his hair. Internal: Again? God, yesâinsatiable, like the crush that never died.
He pulled out briefly, mouth descending to my core again, licking our mixed essences. I moaned, sensitive but craving. Tongue worked magic, fingers joining until I arched, coming soft this time. Then back insideâmissionary, deep and intimate. Eyes locked. âYou feel amazing,â he whispered. Thrusts long, deliberate, drawing it out.
We switchedâhim behind, hands on my hips, entering slow. The angle hit new depths; I pushed back, meeting him. His chest to my back, mouth on my shoulder, biting. Pace builtâharder, faster. Deeper, yesâowning me completely. One hand reached around, rubbing my clit. Release built gradual, exploding mutualâhe spilling again, me clenching around him.
Exhausted, we tangled in sheets, bodies spent. He kissed my temple. âWorth the wait.â