Wind Phone

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With respect to Itaru Sasaki.

I dedicate this Wind Phone to Grandmother.

Feel free to leave your posts to your departed loved ones.

Please be respectful, please be kind. We are all suffering. Perhaps, together, we can find some solace.

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Found a perfect rock in the parking lot the other day. Wish I could give it to you.

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When you were in the hospital, on your last days, I went into the bathroom and put a towel over my mouth and screamed. I screamed and cried and screamed and screamed until no more sound would come out.

I feel like part of my heart is still there. Screaming and screaming at the loss as you faded out of the world.

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Just getting hit by the biggest wave of grief this morning and it's so fucking unfair.

I miss you. I'm lonely. I want to hug you. I want you to be alive and in the world and still loving me.

It feels so lonely here without you.

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Spring is here. The flowers are blooming, and the trees are green, and you're not here to see it.

I just kind of hate that the world kept moving on without you.

[free-my-mindd]

[starwarsgrl77]

A part of me is missing

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it's mother's day. i wish i could forget about it

i still get so angry sometimes. that you made yourself so small, never took the space you were given. that you never said anything was wrong until you couldn't bear it and had to leave altogether.

but i can't blame you. i'm doing the same. i'm trying to learn from your pain, but i'm not doing very well.

i'm trying.

i cut off people that didn't let me take up any space - that got angry when i tried. i have that going for me, at least.

have you gotten the internet in the afterlife set up yet? i'd like to text you in my dreams again soon. it's been so long. there's so much to catch you up on.

i love you

Dearest anon,

I hope today is treating you well. At the very least, know that I am here, reading your words and honoring your grief.

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I wish you were here

I wish you could see this

I wish I could hug you

I wish

I wish

I wish

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Miss you.

This is the sunset picture I would have sent today.

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I'm sitting in the park, listening to the birds and feeling the breeze, doing a little crochet.

Today would be a perfect day to call you and catch up on all the family gossip.

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Mothers' Day is coming up.

It's rough every year, but I think moreso this year.

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Missing you.

I'm up early, seeing the sunrise and hearing the birds.

And missing you.

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It's been 20 years since you've been gone. I wish so much that you'd been able to see the kids grow up. I wish you'd been able to meet Ben's wife.

So many things I wish I could share with you.

I guess, in a way, I still am.

But, damn, I miss you.

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Just missing you a lot today.

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Today is my first funeral for someone I remember being born.

I suppose that makes me lucky, in a silver lining kind of way.

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I keep having dreams where I'm in your house, looking for you, but can't find you.

I wish you'd come visit me. I miss you so much.