Wishing I Could Fly

One Direction and Harry/Louis Fan account. Adult Larrie and loving the love story. She/Her Link to my analysis posts and rambling rants -  https://wishingicouldfly.tumblr.com/post/657334993604984832/links-to-my-analysis-posts-random-rants

[wishingicouldfly]

Links to my analysis posts & rambling rants

Before the fall of 2020, I was absolutely in the dark about One Direction and the Larry love story. If not for Covid-19, I probably wouldn’t have come to this fandom at all. Or maybe I would have eventually--I can't believe I didn't know about it before. My teenage daughter introduced me to the love story in August 2020--of course I knew about One Direction and the surface stuff that the general public knows. She made me sit down and listen to HS1, Walls, and Fine Line back to back. And watch the Adore You video--it was Louis the Fish that clinched it for me.

As a young adult and middle grade novelist, the love story was the thing that hooked me. And boy, it hooked me hard. I went down the rabbit hole. Deep down the rabbit hole, I need to add. Fan made videos, master lists, Fan Fiction. The Rainbow Bears. Anything I could find about the music industry and stunting and tabloids. Some of it broke my heart, but most of it gave me such joy.

Because I'm starting to have a few of these rambles...I thought I'd try to get organized and put the links in one spot. I should have done this a long time ago--these are in no particular order, and I'll add to it as I add them.

Rosann's Reading Recommendations - No Stunts Magazine links

Archive of Author Interviews - Rosann's Writing Room

Too Much Sauce - some thoughts (1/17/24)

Why I Believe Larry is (still) Real

Favorite Fics from 2023

My first full length fanfic: Homecoming

Harry's breakfast thigh tattoo (8/23/23)

Harry Quoting Song Lyrics on Twitter through the Years (3/28/23)

Harry Styles is a Mermaid (3/7/23)

My Policeman - My Review (10/22/22)

Harry Styles sighting in the background of a Louis Tomlinson Interview in 2019

View From the Ground - AFHF 2025, Cooperstown, NY

View From The Ground - FIFT World Tour, Nashville, TN - 7/18/23

View From the Ground - FITF World Tour, Uncasville, CT - 5/26/23

View From the Ground - MSG Night 2, HSLOT - 8/21/22

View From the Ground: LTWT Boston - 2-17-22

View From the Ground: LTWT Washington - 2-10-22

FanFic Favorites for 2022

Dallas, but not THAT Dallas - or Harry and Liam being interviewed and Harry getting annoyed at being called a lonely old man.

Repository for Pilatrry Memes and Link to "Pilates Memes and Sunscreen" on AO3

Debunk: Louis came out to his Rover teammates in August 2013 - January 11, 2023

Debunking the "Harry crying after Larry Denial" moment

Debunking picture of Harry in Nail Polish in 2011 - Aug. 17, 2022

Debunking the "Niall hugged Harry after a Larry denial" comment

Times Harry has "Come Out" over the years - 9-19-22

Louis Tomlinson - LGBTQ Icon - 1-16-23

The Connection between BTM and Holiday - Louis - 9-2-22

Harry's Media Training shows in the Rolling Stone article

F*cking Running From the Bullets--On the 8/22/22 Rolling Stone Article featuring Harry Styles

They Made It - my perspective - June 2022

Don't Let me Go - Harry Styles

Larry Never Broke Up - 2016 edition - May 30, 2022

Better Homes and Garden - Harry edition - April 26, 2022

My thoughts on the Harry's House and HS1/1D era leaked music - April 26, 2022

Analyzing Harry's new song Boyfriends, as revealed at Coachella on April 15, 2022

Harry Styles on Howard Stern - talking about Susan Boyle in 2020 - April 9, 2022

Larry are Not Straight

My Thoughts on As It Was - April 1, 2022

Harry's House paying tribute to Andrew Gold? - March 24, 2022

Why Did the Mushroom Go to the Party - Louis' Favorite Joke - 3-23-22

H&L Songs that reference HOME

Meanwhile Somewhere in Venice in 2021

Day ONE as One D - Larry fonding

Fanfic Faves - 2021

My view of the Larry moment in DC - 2.10.22. LOUIS POINTS TO "Sing Walls if Larry is Real" SIGN

My $.02 about [redacted] and H's 28th birthday - February 2, 2022

Harry Styles and the word "P*ssy" - October 9, 2021

Harry Styles: The Making of a Modern Man (my thoughts on a HS biography) - September 1, 2021

My thoughts on Harry's love language - response to an anon - July 2021

My perspective on a 1D reunion on the even of the 11th anniversary - July 2021

My rambling thoughts about Harry sleeping around and groupies

Please don't let Antis bring you down

Harry being uncomfortable with his sexualized image - from Zane Lowe interview December 2019

Harry walking around London in the We Made It sunnies - June 1, 2021, first day of Pride Month

Everthing is fine - June 2021

Peabody Essex Museum/The Swimmer/and Clothes as Armor

My thoughts on The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse by Charlie Mackesy and family support around H&L

Harry Styles and being Unlabeled

Profiteroles for Dessert (wink wink)

The Fishing Trucker Hat - July 2021

Harry is uncomfortable and cringy around women

Harry making the thumbs up sign to Louis in 2015 during MITAM promo

Sign Language - Harry touching his heart during awards in 2021

The Peace Ring - June 2021

One D Day - Hour Five Observation (or Harry's Rings)

Louis and Harry hands as art - The Creation of Adam (Sistine Chapel)

Larry are Not Straight

Blue Bandana Sighting

A ramble about staying positive in light of Holivia and stunting - July 2021

Long Term Relationships and Shared Grief

Analysis of the German TV Show - Steal My Girl "banter"

Another version of my thoughts on the German Steal My Girl banter video (apparently I like this one since I've talked about it multiple times)

2013 Video of X-Factor Performance - Midnight Memories with an interesting Larry interaction

Harry always turns to face Louis/the other boys

Holivia is not real (or Olivia and Camille sharing clothing)

My thoughts on Yacht-Gate 2021

Random thoughts about My Policeman

Harry sings Kiwi on X-Factor in 2017

Processing the end of filming DWD and the Holivia PR Stunt

My thoughts on Haroline

I hate Haylor but it gave us Nuts 4 Nuts

Fanfiction recommendations

[twopoppies]

how do you feel about larries who don’t believe in bg? from what i gathered they think L cheated on H and that’s what caused a rough patch in 2015/16, but they made up since then. i personally think it’s possible but also kind of meh on that. i just don’t like the idea of L being a cheater.

1. What rough patch in 2015? MITAM promo in November 2015 was literally the larriest month we’d had since 2011. Please do some research into what was going on with Larry/the band 2014-2015.

2. 2016 was a fucked up year for ten thousand reasons—Jay having cancer and dying, Louis having to shlep around with a doll pretending it was his baby, Louis having to pretend he was a father, Harry being gone half the year filming Dunkirk then writing and recording his first album, Louis having to stay signed to Syco, etc.

3. Louis is gay. Somehow this idea has become controversial in this fandom, but anyone who thinks that man actually slept with Briana is woefully misinformed (that’s me being polite).

4. Please review The Rainbow Bears.

5. Please understand that this is Louis right before the announcement of his impending fatherhood. (Since the original video seems to be gone from YouTube, here’s the Daily Mail article about it)

6. BRIANA WAS NEVER PREGNANT. So what kind of supposed cheating took place?

7. IMO Harry and Louis had some struggles in their relationship somewhere in the 2016-2019 period. But absolutely nothing I’ve ever heard links that period to Louis having cheated on Harry. And absolutely nothing I’ve ever heard has ever made me think Louis slept with Briana (or had his “sperm stolen” as my earlier anon mentioned 🤦🏻‍♀️).

My GOD, I cannot BELIEVE i am still talking about this absolute shit show. I’m begging you guys, read a fucking masterpost. Go through my babygate tag FROM THE BEGINNING. It is so ridiculously obvious how contrived this nonsense is.

[twopoppies]

Hi! I been following for a while, I’m a baby larrie and I see lots of people freaking out with harry singing sweet creature do you have the lore and meaning behind it? Thank you:)

Hi love. Here’s my SWEET CREATURE tag for lots of background lore.

When HS1 came out, Harry made a point of talking about how important the sequencing of songs is to him (ie: the order in which songs appear on an album). Two Ghosts was track 4, Sweet Creature was track 5.

It seemed very clear SC was a follow up to TG. Thus, two songs about a romantic relationship—the first focusing on a time of struggle, the other a reminder that no matter what happens, as long as they’re together, everything will be alright.

He wrote TG four years before starting work on HS1. He knew he was putting it on the album. And the first thing he did when he got to Jamaica was write them follow up, Sweet Creature.

James Corden’s face when Harry sings “we don’t know where we’re going/But we know where we belong.”

Beyond that, the phrase “Sweet Creature” is taken from a scene in Shakespeare’s Othello and has homoerotic undertones.

In the second of half of his tour for HS1, Harry added a “B stage” where he sang his heart out making it very clear that Sweet Creature is a love song and that If I Could Fly is a song written for that same person.

Honestly, scroll through that first link I gave you. There’s so much in there, it’s really hard to sum up in a single post.

[voxina]

“Music has brought me so many friends and I’ve always felt so encouraged and incredibly grateful. My grandfather bought me a karaoke machine when I was 9 and encouraged me to sing. My mother signed me up to the X Factor without my knowledge. I wouldn’t be here without four friends of mine, this journey. I wanna thank Niall, Zayn, Louis, and my good friend Liam. Nights like these couldn’t happen without every friendship, I wouldn’t be up here without my friends and family, some of who are here tonight.”

[obviouslymeandyou]

Harry with Babydaddy of Scissor Sisters - April 6th, 2012

Come with me, my friends, on a journey I think you’ll find very interesting. First, bear with me but let’s run down who this is (sourced from wiki, edited by me):

Scissor Sisters, originally named Dead Lesbian and then the Fibrillating Scissor Sisters was founded in 2000 and forged in the “scuzzy, gay nightlife scene of New York” after friends Jake Shears and Scott “Babydaddy” Hoffman both moved to New York City to enjoy its open and gay-friendly ethos. On a trip to Disneyland, the pair met Ana “Ana Matronic” Lynch. During a subsequent teacup ride, they discovered that they had a lot in common. Shears later remarked, “I really thought she was a freak but when I started singing “Another Part of Me” she showed me the best moonwalk I’ve ever seen.“ Ana Matronic ran a weekly cabaret event known as Knock Off at a club called the Slipper Room in New York, where she liked to hire eccentric and alternative acts; one reporter described it as a place that "served up a racy, multigender revue of kitsch,” and that a performer dressed as a giant vulva “enfolded me with her labia while singing "Lick Me in My Wet Spot” to the tune of “Hit Me With Your Best Shot”.“

They primarily played electroclash, which was popular at the time in the underground club scene of New York with bands like Peaches [OP Note: ahem, anyone else just travel back to the halcyon days of RBB?] and Chicks on Speed. In 2003, they decided they would tour Europe where they believed audiences would be more receptive of them and their music than their native US. The band came to prominence following the release of their Grammy-nominated and chart-topping disco version of Pink Floyd’s ”Comfortably Numb“ and subsequent debut album Scissor Sisters (2004). The album was a success, particularly in the UK where it reached number one and accrued them three BRIT Awards in 2005. Scissor Sisters are known for their extravagant live performances. In some of their early shows, Shears was known to remove all of his clothes onstage, harking back to his former profession as a go-go stripper; while in others he threw inflated condoms into the audience.

Many of Scissor Sisters’ songs deal with themes in the LGBT+ community, relating to the fact that three of the band members, including the two founders, are gay. See examples: “Filthy/Gorgeous”, “Take Your Mama” and “Return to OZ”. Despite this, Shears stated, “I don’t believe sexuality really matters when it comes to music. The fact that some of us are gay affects our music the same amount as it does that some of the members of Blondie are straight.”

So, can we safely say that Harry and Louis are fans of electroclash? Wow, did this ever jump out at me as a close connection to the Bears. We all know they’re fans of Peaches and extravagantly gay stage performances of all kinds. 

To put this into some greater context, this photo was taken during their four days in NYC to do SNL from April 4th-7th. This trip was during a notable period of their choices being winnowed down and their closet closing around them. It was really only the third week of the major onslaught of Eleanor for their break into the US market (starting March 17th). 

Even more poignantly, as this photo was tweeted at 11am on the 6th, it was likely taken on April 5th. April 5th was the infamous Blind Gossip blind “Boy Banders Are Hiding a Secret” which sent their PR team into a tizzy with @louis’ “Newspaper bravery” tweet and then Lily Halpern and Eleanor compensation. This day featured a concerted het push, with Eleanor active on twitter this whole trip (tweeting about just getting home from traveling with Louis) and with the similarly infamous Taylor Swift foreshadowing during the MTV interview.

You know what else happened on April 5th?

Yup, one of Harry’s two tweets about “Sweet Disposition” which will be the source for his second tattoo ever on June 15th. Where he altered the lyrics to “won’t stop ‘til we surrender” to make it about the fight of more than one person against something.

On May 30th, 2012, Babydaddy talked about meeting him either on that day or a time previous (he’s speaking about a music video released April 19th): 

We saw Harry Styles visited you while you were shooting the music video… Babydaddy: “He’s a friend of a friend who brought him along to the shoot. We’ve hung out a couple of times. He’s a lovely guy but honestly, I couldn’t sing a word of a One Direction song.” Del: “I didn’t even know who he was!” Babydaddy: “He’s just a friend! It’s British pop and they’ve kind of exploded everywhere. It wasn’t made for us. A lot of girls were telling us to get our gay paws off him. There were some gay rumours around which was funny. I mean, in a boyband, the odds are pretty strong…”

Notably, this is the second known intersection of Harry and the gay scene of New York City in the span of two months time. On March 22nd, he was seen at Le Bain nightclub on an LGBT+ night :

The Babydaddy Instagram post also featured a comment by NYC based artist John Paul Thurlow: “That boy can sing”. Some notable examples of his art may indicate another possible connection to the scene.

In addition, it should be noted that Harry has kept up an ongoing connection to Scissor Sisters (click for previous post about them by @verily-i-say), although I don’t know the extent of it. He liked an instagram photo by Jake Shears of the band on August 16th, 2014, which as we all know, was part of That Week in August. The picture? A picture of Babydaddy himself:

(Many thanks to @bulletproofhalo for the previous research used here!)

[bulletprooflarry]

Sometimes, when I look at a lot of stuff over a broad number of years, I’m just struck by how nobody on the planet Earth could ever, ever convince me that Harry & Louis were not together and in love. Still, of course, but especially 2010-2012. They said it all the ways they knew how to say it and could say it. Repeatedly, consistently, using many, many different methods. They were begging people to see it. 

[jalboyhenthusiast]

i’ve been out of the loop for several years but what’s the story behind harry and “cherry”? like is it really about camille and they actually dated or??

they didn’t actually date, no. the format lasted longer than his usual Winter Girlfriend but it was still a stunt. some ppl theorise that harry wrote cherry and then adapted it to suit her, i personally believe its just a stunt song through and through. the lyrics are clunkier than his usual style and i cant see anything in them that would relate to his actual situation. but again, people have different opinions on it. what we do know though, is that it is supposed to be about her and he name drops a bunch of obvious references in it and then ofc theres the outro...

[wishingicouldfly]

Archive of Fic Author Interviews

From 2022 - 2024, I had the great pleasure to interview a few of our amazing Larry Fic Authors. It's lovely to get a glimpse into their processes, and as an author myself, really inspiring to hear their origin stories in the One Direction and Larry fandom. The NoStunts Magazine is now offline, so all of these redirector to a google drive. Let me know if you can't access something.

You can check them out here:

Author Interview BananaHeathen – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview Itsmotivatingcara – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview – CuckooTrooke – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview – _Lilyblue28 – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview – Green_Feelings – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview – BoosBabyCakes – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview – KingsofEverything – No Stunts Magazine

Podfic Interview – Wood_sparks – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview – Jacaranda_Bloom – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview Sunflouwerhabit – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview – Outropeace – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview – Lovelarry10 – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview – Superglass – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview – wildestdreams – No Stunts Magazine

Rosann’s Writing Room with Athena (@Sunflower728369) July 2024 – No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview - 50shadesofMags - No Stunts Magazine

Author Interview - ShimmeringEvil - October 2024

[twopoppies]

G, berlin tea anon here.

now that he left i can finally tell everything she told me.

ps: she is NOT a stalker, this literally happened right in front of her house!!!

in april, july and september she always saw harry going into that building, that’s why she thinks he lives there. ANOTHER ps: she’s not a larrie and when she saw zoe there she told me too, so i’m sure this is 100% real. it’s a very quiet street, just a few buildings and houses, so it’s super silent. on the night from the 31st to the 1st, around 1am, she heard a car stopping, and when she looked out the window she recognized louis and two other guys she didn’t know (i asked if it could be oli and she said yes). she also said that early in the morning they left and stopped at a coffee shop at the end of the street and then left again (probably to the venue).

she didn’t go to the show, but said that around 6/7pm someone came back and left again with suitcases and again, no louis or harry.

I asked how their friend knew what Louis was saying and also to clarify what they meant about Zoe.

Thank you so much for coming back and filling in the blanks.

As always, we’ve got to take it with a grain of salt. But, again, the original message from this anon came long before the rumor of H being in Berlin last night.

In reference to this

[louus-blog1]

“if u ask me for a fuckin nacho imma fuckin stab u wit the fuckin nacho”

[louus]

oh maybe u can have a nacho, u cute

[fukboimichael]

here cutie have nacho

[skepticalarrie]

I’m gonna reblog the nacho trilogy every time I see it sorry

[twopoppies]

Been chatting with someone who is in and around the music industry. This came up in conversation today:

“He’s the least single here.”

Too good not to share. 🥹

[twopoppies]

When shippers gets their dreams crushed 🤣

https://x.com/biggestlouieeve/status/2022726963824099543?s=46&t=KM1Y22XQBNGo6oNfvMQrQQ

Wow. There's some actual whiplash going on over there. 💀

x

[indiaalphawhiskey]

Hi, I hope you don’t take this question the wrong way.do you think Harry cares about his fans at all? Because when you compare him to how other artists engage with and show up for their fans, it kind of feels like he doesn’t care. Louis writes a lot of songs about his love for and support of his fans, there’s almost a kind of codependency there. Other artists share much more of themselves on social media (Niall, Olivia Rodrigo), dedicate whole posts to their fans, sell merch, make content, etc. He doesn’t really do any of that. He doesn’t share anything personal, doesn’t make content of any kind, even as part of his album promo, and doesn’t dedicate songs to his fans. It all feels very impersonal, almost like he’s not grateful and wants to be this unreachable superstar like Beyonce

I’m not entirely sure how I’m meant to take this question the right way (if there even is a right way), given it’s clearly a fully formed judgement disguised as a question. But fine, I’ll play your game and I’ll even play it fairly. Much fairer than you have, anyway.

My answer is simple: there’s an artist for every type of fan, and just because you’re not the type of fan Harry’s methods cater to, doesn’t mean you’re the arbiter of who cares about their fans and how they should.

Personally, I see everything Harry does to maintain the quality of his music and his performances as something he does directly for his fans — directly for me. Those things can co-exist, and in my opinion, do co-exist, in Harry.

Where you see someone who ‘deliberately’ prices his tickets at an unaffordable rate, I see someone who likely allowed for that to happen in order to preserve his artistic integrity. In an industry that is so obsessed with profit margins over genuine craft, to the point that they’d literally rather replace real artists with AI ‘artists’ (whatever the fuck that’s supposed to mean), I see that compromise on profit margins as something that’s specifically for me — Harry’s fan — who wants music Harry has made himself, that he’s taken enough time to conceptualize and create to the best of his skill, that he believes in, and that he can back with his whole heart.

Where you see someone who ‘refuses’ to share real pieces of himself on social media, I see someone who realized long ago that his mental health directly affects the longevity of his career, and his sincere motivation to continue making music. That is, again, directly for me. He compartmentalizes his life and shares himself with reservation so he can give me access to a better version of him for longer. So he can continue giving me joy far past the usual pop act’s sell by date.

And who says his songs aren’t for his fans just because they aren’t about his fans? As far as I’m concerned, literally every song is for us. That’s the entire point. Because whatever the song is actually about, it was given to us freely. Shared with us. To bring us joy, or comfort. To tell a story. To do with it what we want. When I write fanfiction, it doesn’t have to be about my audience to be for my audience. I have your joy as top of mind, whatever the actual subject matter or method or writing voice is that I choose.

TL; DR: I get that the first thing you require of your favorite artist is that they are entirely relatable and that you are entitled access to every part of their lives at all times because that is how you connect to them. That is your choice and you’re more than welcome to it.

The first thing I require of my favorite artist is that I genuinely like their art and that it inspires me, comforts me, connects me to them. The art is the product I’m welcome to consume, and as it improves and as they improve as artists, I reap the direct benefits. The art holds every piece of the artist that I need and am actually entitled to, and whatever fan service on top of that is a very, very big bonus. That is my choice and I’m more than welcome to it. And no, that’s actually not open to debate.

[wishingicouldfly]

Amazing answer to an ill-informed opinion about artists and our entitlement to know/have more of them than we do.

[twopoppies]

positive I just saw Louis from 1D at a little pub in the middle of nowhere Wisconsin drinking a Bloody Mary with the other dude Harry from 1D who is sporting a packers jersey. It’s packer Sunday here so everyone is out somewhere , but was just floored to see them. Bunch of others with them , didn’t recognize anyone else.

I’m active on tumblr but not in 1D blogs so when I searched on tumblr yours was one I found. Hope you’re still into this stuff and enjoy the sighting

Um... this came in 5 hours ago (around 10:30am PST), but I was out all morning. Did it come before the other one where Louis was seen in the Wisconsin gas station? Or afterwards and someone is just trolling me?

Take it with a massive grain of salt because "the other dude Harry from 1D" sounds a bit sus. But 🤷🏻‍♀️

[wishingicouldfly]

Back in 2021

[twopoppies]

Gina, I don't know exactly what question you got about the NDAs, the rumours about H or L, etc., but I was about to write something kind of long about it until I realised that this topic has been discussed many, many times because it is brought up every once in a while, especially when they are stunting. So there are many posts and really good takes in your blog and others, that actually come from critical thinking. People can look, read them and make their own conclusions. It's insane that in 2025 after 15 years of the same patterns regarding their public images, especially Harry's, there are people who still believe nonsense without proof or evidence. It seems that no one wants to think critically and everyone has their own agenda and state what they believe as facts or the truth.

I find it all so tiring. I frankly just don’t care anymore if people don’t think Larry is real. But I do find it fascinating that people can claim they did a deep dive and still come away fully convinced those two men are straight.

[crinkle-eyed-boo]

I gotta say I’m feeling real emo about at that “Kings, Queens, and Borderlines” lyric that he sings with his whole chest, like I never want to hear that Louis doesn’t support and love the Queer community again.

[twopoppies]

Hollywood homophobia, alive and well in 2025.

x

[wishingicouldfly]

Important to remember.