Wolf.AAC

I’m a red wolf therian and an angel otherkin I’m an aac user I have psychotic symptoms and am a system of ??? known members so far

[wolf-aac]

🐺🐾Intro post:

I am bodily 20 years old

endogenic system.

I use both singular and plural pronouns, it depends on the day, who’s fronting, and my language abilities, sometimes I use no pronouns.

I am physically disabled, I use crutches, a rollator or a cane.

I am a red wolf therian

I’m also an angel alterhuman

⚠️I am psychotic and autistic, my brain does not work like yours.⚠️

This blog will mostly be to talk about my alterhuman identities and my life as newer system. But to be honest, it’s for whatever, one of my headmates started this blog so I’m letting it do whatever it wants with the blog.

I’m no longer comfortable sharing how my system started on the internet. It’s not any stranger’s online business.

Sometimes my speech and thoughts, and consequently my writing, will get very simple and or scrambled because of my psychotic symptoms, just know I am trying my best to make my posts as easy to understand as possible with my mushy brain.

Meet the alters below the cut!

(endogenic system, still learning + figuring things out)

Azzy he/they

⟡ 20

⟡ old host

⟡ discovered the system and kinda freaked out and left front for too long and now isn’t really comfortable being around anyone anymore unless we’re trying to mask very heavily

Icarus (he/him)

⟡15-17

⟡ anger holder + euphoria holder

⟡ music / art / poetry

⟡ found during a BPD split, name + pronouns came through during a song that pulled him close to front

Simon (they/them)

⟡ age 6

⟡ uses AAC full-time

⟡ TADC, Animal Crossing, Minecraft, DinoTrucks

⟡ showed up during a small breakdown + came closer through a series we watched

Red Wolf (it/its)

⟡ anger holder + fear holder

⟡ red wolf and angel hybrid

⟡ don’t remember how we realized it existed (brain fog from physical illness very bad) first thought this was therian stuff

Sal (it/its) (possibly new host)

⟡ 18

⟡ uses AAC full-time

⟡ holds BPD-related symptoms

⟡ Sally Face / AAC / poetry

[rryvvx]

They should invent forearm crutches that make doing things and existing not horribly annoying I wanna wear tote bags and open doors and use my phone when I’m walking

[grub-muncher]

[wolf-aac]

I miss the choir.

[wolf-aac]

If I am not bothered by my delusions and hallucinations in the sense that they comfort me, does this mean it’s not psychosis or is that another symptom™️

[wolf-aac]

The heavens have been kept from me for too long, I want to come home. Why do the other angels want to see me suffer? Why won’t they let me come home? Why can’t I just have the wings I was supposed to be born with? Why can I feel them bursting out of my shoulders but can’t see them? Where are my wings?

[psychedelicvv]

Shout out special ed kids / people who were special ed who always favored and identified with the smart autistic coded characters from media, but unable to relate to certain aspects like having "high intellect".

Shout out sped kids who don't relate or feel out of touch in fandom spaces due to feeling inferior or less intelligent.

Shoutout sped kids who are commonly not included in disability posts for people with ADHD and autism because you were not a gifted kid.

Shout out sped kids who were gifted kids until they couldn't keep up with the pace.

Shout out sped kids with intellectual disabilities.

Shout out sped kids with physical disabilities.

Shout out sped kids with mental disabilities.

Shout out sped kids who were abused by their sped teachers.

This post is about special ed kids, do NOT derail

[thepluralbarista]

Shoutout to the syskids who do grown up things sometimes!

The syskids who like having mature conversations

The syskids who do drugs

The syskids who swear

The syskids who look at adult content

The syskids who like horror

The syskids who get ignored in conversations about plurality

The syskids who just don't always act their age, or maybe never act their age at all

The syskids who are like me!

Edit: this post was made by an endogenic system. Die mad.

[wolf-aac]

Hey what if we as a collective stopped staring at people “acting weird” in public! Thanks in advance !

In all seriousness thought it’s exhausting every day having to cope with the constant attention I get from how I act. From my tics to my stims, my compulsions, the way my voice sounds slightly too feminine for my looks, but the way my looks are just slightly too feminine to be a boy, the way my hands wring at my sides when I’m given instructions because I have to try my best to not mess up, the way my body moves when it’s tired or in pain, all kinds of choppy or “off putting”, to the way my hands reach for my device to respond.

I’ve been accused of being drunk, of being an addict, of being “unsuitable to go in public” of being better off locked up or shut away forever.

I don’t know where I am going with this I am just frustrated because I feel as though I can’t go out in public without being completely prepared to defend my very existence.

[wolf-aac]

Ideas for more canine inspired clothing?? I need them now!!!

[wolf-aac]

Grrr hate being with family. Don’t even know who’s fronting. Want go home. Want have AAC to not speak with voice that not mine.

Want go home put on clothes remind me who I am and what am. Am not even human or girl like they think. Am Angel wolf boy. Nobody here knows me.

[bebsi-cola]

actually shout out to every developmentally disabled person who, in a moment of meltdown, ended up damaging their mobility aids or using those aids to harm themselves. that intersection between physical and non physical disability doesn't make your mobility aids less important to you or any way less necessary

[wolf-aac]

Making new custom page set for AAC take many brain power and now I’m sleeping more again 😣

[wolf-aac]

it’s gonna be mostly folders with phrases and stuff inside so brain doesn’t get overwhelmed by looking through so many words all at once !

Am excited to work on this weekend as we rest from getting my teeth extracted. (We’re gonna ask to keep them we find bones and teeth very interesting)

[wolf-aac]

Making new custom page set for AAC take many brain power and now I’m sleeping more again 😣

[neverlove-anchor]

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he simply talking about the gynecological care he still needs?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he just refusing to pretend that his past of living as a woman/girl in a patriarchal society didn't exist?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he just refusing to be treated like garbage by ppl who claim that their trauma justifies them in treating ppl horribly?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he just talking about how ppl still treat/see him as a woman even after coming out/transition?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he just unwilling to pretend that he has all the same privileges as a cis man of the same ethnicity and class?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he just talking ab the life he is actually living?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or he just wants biological children?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he just enjoying vaginal sex?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or he just doesn't want to model his presentation after the post basic of cishet men?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he just alternative in one way or another?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he just also non-binary?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he just feminine or flamboyant?

is that trans guy really "not wanting to be a man" ? or is he just acting like the man he is instead of the man u think he should be?

[desinteresse]

Talking to friends with inept parents is crazy. No wonder they’re like this if their parents kept fumbling

[desinteresse]

“I’m having trouble adapting to my adult responsibilities” well no wonder, nobody raised you 😭😭😭

[desinteresse]

Hot tip for future parents: you actually have to guide your kid to adulthood. Feeding them and waiting for them to grow up is not enough since they are not house plants. A little more thought and care is required.

[mosssreblogs]

for those lacking certain "adulting" skills, especially things around the house, check out:

mom, how do i...?

and dad, how do i...?

^ there are tons of other resources but these two will teach you some personal hygiene, home or apartment repairs, easy recipes and basic cleaning techniques, even how to schedule doctor's appointments

if youre a renter i cannot recommend the trans handyma'am enough, mercury is a lifesaver, and her channel and accounts are always accepting new questions

there are so many resources, a lot that you dont have to even ask for, just know how to look 🩷 much love

[cytochrome-sea]

almost every conversation i have in person makes me feel like im sticking my dick in a live paper shredder. which probably means nothing,