Anxiety

Did that make sense?

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“My life is on a hit of an uphill. It’s kinda hard but it’s going places”.

-J🎷

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“We all live in a house on fire. No fire department to call, no way out”.

Tennessee Williams

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It gets better ❤️🏳️‍🌈

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Today was super frustrating. The day was super nice but it got really difficult tonight. Hopefully can go better. Fall Break is two days away so as long as I can make it til then I’ll be good. I’m learning I really like to look at pictures of flowers I take on campus when Anxiety is acting up. Here’s some of my favorites.

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The week was for the most part a success. We worked well together and only had one major hiccup.

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This week is going to be long but I hope you’re quiet enough to just let me do what I need to. It’s hard without my support system but we’ve coexisted before, haven’t we anxiety? Let’s do that now and thrive this week.

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Been working on my poems again. Kind of rocky but hopefully it gets easier and I get back into it. I’ve missed writing them.

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I’m losing control again and I can’t find the number for my college free psychiatric stuff now. I’m going to keep working on that because my desire to be in control is stronger than my anxiety’s desire to be out of control right now. Was a bad few days though by far some of the worst. Doing my best to get better. Hope y’all are too.

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After a really really bad two days this is just the kind of psychotic break that evidently needed to happen.

Sister: *blows party horn thing with straw*

“I’m depressed”

Me rapid blowing party horn thing with straw and then starting to snort from congested sinuses feeling vaguely lightheaded:

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Oh Darling, did you think I’d left?

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Look, I don’t even know how to properly quit a job or cook a real meal BUT I can tell you how to swim fast 🙃 college is hard and life is harder but at least I’m alive and the pool is open.

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Anxiety has been quiet for awhile and a bit more in control. Last night I had a dream that a best friend of mine that moved awhile ago died suddenly. Today at the library I found a book about that...a fictional story that aligns with my dream. How crazy is that?

Truth is my anxiety has gotten a lot better since I started this blog and reading some of this makes me sad. If someone does stumble upon this blog. I’m okay. I’m getting better. I hope you are too. Please reach out for help if you need it. No one should be alone when they feel like I did. I met new people at college that lifted me up and a wonderful senior who took me under her wing and helped me find my footing. It gets better and it can get better.