Why us?…
I know I shouldn’t judge people and I know that everyone deserves the right to have a healthy and happy child but this pregnancy has been nothing but exhausting and I question why us? We tried for so long and every appointment seems to take us down the rabbit hole of problems.
We made it to 36 weeks and we had our scares but was told our little girl was happy and healthy until yesterday…we went for a scan and they told us she had stopped growing our little miracle is now in the danger zone. I hope and I pray that she gains weight or she will need to be induced and then every minute counts.
I spent 4 hours yet again on my own because of covid worrying waiting to see a doctor for them to tell us to come back in a week. All whilst seeing woman after woman going in and out not a care in the world clearly carrying healthy babies.
Including the women who were arguing because they had to wear masks because “they don’t think covid is real” the woman who was insistent she had to go out for a smoke amongst other things and I know I shouldn’t judge these women because everyone goes through their own personal struggles but it makes me so angry at the world that they get to carry the healthiest of babies all whilst I have finally had the chance at one baby and at every turn we have been challenged with health concerns and pain even though I’m doing everything in my power to be the healthiest person for my little miracle.
Please send prayers our way as we are incredibly worried at this time and please don’t judge me on the fact that my jealousy causes me to judge others unfairly.










