I came here right now in the hopes I'd get my best friend back after I lost them, I couldn't and I regret everything
Today I've lost my girlfriend and my only reason for wanting to be around in the future
In the past months I've lost most of my friends that cared about me...
Right now I want it to end...this year has been the worst I've experienced...I've lost everyone I cared about and everything I care about now hurts me...there isn't a point in hanging onto anything and everything hurts...
I want to end it
Nobody will miss me
Nobody will remember me
I've done nothing good
I deserve this and no amount of lying to me or feigning support will change that...nothing matters...I've hurt people...I've done nothing good...nobody will care...there isn't a beauty in this world...there isn't a reason to exist be it God or otherwise...and it'll only ever get worse...
I think I can finally get over my fear of death soon and end it...end the suffering...I won't have to be this voodoo doll anymore and I can just stop existing...nobody who I know will care...or even know...I can stop enduring all this...
