I woke up in the news that Chester passed away. I was shock and in complete disbelief. Hearing the news was a punch in my chest. My head flooded with thoughts of you and I wept. I know that this looks and sounds like I am over reacting or being dramatic but he is one of my heroes. I didn't know him personally. He’s totally unaware of my existence. We haven't met or gone into their concert (and I wish I have). I don't own any of their CDs. But I feel like I loss a friend and a brother. A part of me inside also died.
Linkin Park was one of the bands I remember in my early memory as a child. I grew up listening to their music. I remember my older cousins used to play their song on the stereo. Me, rocking out to the loud music, unknowing with its lyrics. But I as I grow older, I appreciated it more and understand its message.
Your music helped me through my darkest times. As you and Mike tell your battles with your own demons in every songs, I am in my own battle too and I know that I'm not alone. You helped me overcome my own demons. I find comfort in your music when things get rough and confusing. I felt understood when no one else can. You taught me that my feelings are valid, that it is meant to be felt. That’s it’s okay not to be okay but we could be. You inspired us. I know for sure that you and the band (you might not even know it) but you have touched millions of lives around the world and did the same for them. You are truly a voice of our generation. Screaming darkness and angst with a shed of hope, and resilience. You spitted the word when we don't have them. You lend us your voice when we wanted to scream what’s inside of us. You embodied our wretched and misunderstood generation. We are forever indebted. Thank you very much.
But how come we didn't save you when you saved us. I really wish that you hold on for a bit.
But we will never really know. None of us knows what saving you needed. None of us knows his reasons, his mind. We were lucky to know his words and his voice, but that’s it. The helplessness hurts. .
The man who told you to embrace your darkness and fight your demons has been consumed by his own. The person who urge you to hold on for a bit loss his own grip.
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I quote this line from a beautiful article from Bustle by Kadeen Griffiths:
So in the wake of Bennington's death, the best way I can think of to honor his legacy is to keep fighting. To lift others up, to make them feel less alone. We can all honor his legacy by breaking the habit and finding somewhere we belong.
I pray for your family and friends who are grieving with your passing. I hope they’ll find peace and acceptance in this difficult time.
I know that you've been through a lot and fought for long and you we're brave. Now that it is over, I hope you are finally in peace.
Thank you very much for everything. Your voice will echo for eternity. We love you and you will be missed forever. Rest in peace man. You can now join the rest of the stars in the universe.