tezoth

; im not sure what to say. {{ F:TUT ROLEPLAY BLOG!! please dont be weird i'm a minor }} {{ main is @ddeathboy }}

[wouldibeforgiven]

{{ ooc introductory post!! }}

{{ hello!! my name is vinnie, and this is a FAITH: THE UNHOLY TRINITY roleplay blog for an oc i have made ^_^

a BIT of info:

my oc's name is Tezoth - he's a semi high-ranking cultist of the Eternal Order of The Second Death (GARY'S CULT IIRC) he is trying to escape, and this blog will be his last resort - he's tried to escape before, and that had resulted in his mouth being sewn shut, as he'd tried to spread the truth about the cult he's in.

he has little to no social skills;

some of his blogs will be vague, or even seemingly 'misposted' due to his lack of knowledge with technology.

tezoth has a yearning to be 'forgiven' by god;

he no longer believes in the UNSPEAKABLE that the Eternal Order worships, and hopes that he will one day be forgiven.

that is all i think, feel free to send asks if you'd like to, i may start posting in character soon ^_^ }}

[wouldibeforgiven]

{{ happy first birthday tezoth ❤️

[wouldibeforgiven]

something like a shadow appears in the corner of your vision

it stares at you,unmoving,silent

but its stare is not one of malice,it is of sorrow

it does not speak,yet its stare says the words for it

"go where I have failed,save youself for me.find the priest and he will bring you to salvation,my friend"

-⚫️

Tezoth flinches at the irregularity in his peripheral— He’s quite accustomed to hallucinations, but this seems.. Different.

He quickly tries to cover himself up, a distressed noise coming from him; he cannot reply verbally, but nodded as the shadow seemed to speak to him.

[wouldibeforgiven]

{{ cannot believe this. @johntomward

[wouldibeforgiven]

How long. has it been?

I'm cold. and my head is pounding. it feels like I am freezing to death.

I don't know where i am. I am bare. my Robes are no more.

I still cannot speak. whoever or whatever placed me here did not help. I need help.

Please, help.

[wouldibeforgiven]

Do you think there’s anyone who could help you? I think I could, but I have an awfully complicated history with your leader…

I have spoken to two people that've offered to help me in some way—though, they seem to be dealing with their own issues. And, a lot of people have issues with my leader. It's not a rare occurrence, at this point. I appreciate your offer, and if you decide to act on it, please be safe.

[wouldibeforgiven]

((Following this blog as someone who RPs Gary is really funny to me esp after that last post. like yyupp

{{ AAAHH hello i'm glad i'm somewhat accurate :-3

[wouldibeforgiven]

Do you know if you can escape? Or, well, do you know where you are for starters?

..I know roughly where I am. Rough enough that if I'm allowed out, I know my way back. I have tried to escape before; it's not exactly easy when your supreme leader is popularly known for 'always watching.'

[wouldibeforgiven]

I think you’re worthy of saving, I truly do believe that.

..thank you. whoever you are.

[wouldibeforgiven]

do you think you’re unworthy of being saved?

I want to believe that I'm worthy, I truly do.

Though I'm not sure what others would think, knowing who I am, and what I'm apart of.

[wouldibeforgiven]

How do priests make you feel?

Any priest I have seen, or met, seems to have some sort of heavy weight bared upon their shoulders; though they never speak of it.

Other than that, priests make me feel.. safe. In a way.

Like i may have something good left in me.

[johnlovesyou]

If you’re hearing voices, your not going crazy.

Those are just the spirits I sent to protect you. You’re welcome.

[ezrielspeaks]

!!:… you’re*

😋

[wouldibeforgiven]

{{ yuo’er….

😮

[wouldibeforgiven]

{{ oocposting haaiii

here are some rough sketches of tezoth ^_^ }}

[wouldibeforgiven]

i feel like i'm rotting. day by day. I am worsening. i'm afraid that if i get any worse, nothing will be able to salvage what is left of me. it hurts. it hurts, but nobody can see it. i can only pray that one of these days, when i am out, that someone will find me. that someone will recognize me. that i will be saved.

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

i. don’t understand why you’re so frightened by Gary watching you.

he watches everyone. is that not normal?

I don’t think you understand- living every day under constant surveillance? It’s terrifying. I don’t even feel safe in my own home anymore. I have people I care about living with me, and the thought of a cult leader watching over us...it makes my skin crawl…

No matter...how attractive...the cult leader...is...that was a joke. ha…haha.

[wouldibeforgiven]

i mean. i do understand. i live under constant surveillance. it is how i’ve lived since life was given to me.

..though i understand why you don’t feel safe. Gary is far from a safe man.

the knowledge that you live with people you care for is a bit frightening. are you aware of what he is capable of?

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

A-ah…apologies- who…who are you?

[wouldibeforgiven]

i work under the authority of the man that is watching you.

..do i want to work under the authority of him? no. no, i don’t.

i’m trapped.

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

I-I understand. Wait- hold on. You work for him? Right…and how am I supposed to know I can trust you? How do I know this isn’t just another trick?

[ezrielspeaks]

… This one… seems different… they don’t feel like a malicious soul, but rather… a trapped one…

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

Wait- how do you know that? You were just saying how awful Gary and his cult were…so why are you defending this person we don’t know?

[ezrielspeaks]

I’m an angel, John. I’m able to see into a person’s soul with ease. You should know this by now.

[wouldibeforgiven]

do you think i could ever be redeemed?

can you save me,

angel?

please. i want to get out. please please please please please plea

[ezrielspeaks]

… Yes… I believe so. It… it would take a while, though… especially to fully rid of that demon’s grasp on you.

As long as you work towards it and have faith.

!!: hehe Faith

[wouldibeforgiven]

how. how can i have faith when i am stuck here.

i have been silenced. i cannot speak, for ive spoken too much of the truth. i cannot pray.

the creature inside of me has taken root. it is KEEPING me here. i cannot escape. i am stuck.

[ezrielspeaks]

That… sounds like possession…

Possession isn’t permanent, though. You can still be saved from it. John knows how to preform exorcisms… maybe he can help.

[wouldibeforgiven]

even if exorcisms can be preformed, i am still being watched. monitored.

i cannot simply just leave. Gary is watching.

even if i manage to escape, if i manage to be rid of the creature that lives within me,

he will still be watching.

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

i. don’t understand why you’re so frightened by Gary watching you.

he watches everyone. is that not normal?

I don’t think you understand- living every day under constant surveillance? It’s terrifying. I don’t even feel safe in my own home anymore. I have people I care about living with me, and the thought of a cult leader watching over us...it makes my skin crawl…

No matter...how attractive...the cult leader...is...that was a joke. ha…haha.

[wouldibeforgiven]

i mean. i do understand. i live under constant surveillance. it is how i’ve lived since life was given to me.

..though i understand why you don’t feel safe. Gary is far from a safe man.

the knowledge that you live with people you care for is a bit frightening. are you aware of what he is capable of?

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

A-ah…apologies- who…who are you?

[wouldibeforgiven]

i work under the authority of the man that is watching you.

..do i want to work under the authority of him? no. no, i don’t.

i’m trapped.

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

I-I understand. Wait- hold on. You work for him? Right…and how am I supposed to know I can trust you? How do I know this isn’t just another trick?

[ezrielspeaks]

… This one… seems different… they don’t feel like a malicious soul, but rather… a trapped one…

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

Wait- how do you know that? You were just saying how awful Gary and his cult were…so why are you defending this person we don’t know?

[ezrielspeaks]

I’m an angel, John. I’m able to see into a person’s soul with ease. You should know this by now.

[wouldibeforgiven]

do you think i could ever be redeemed?

can you save me,

angel?

please. i want to get out. please please please please please plea

[ezrielspeaks]

… Yes… I believe so. It… it would take a while, though… especially to fully rid of that demon’s grasp on you.

As long as you work towards it and have faith.

!!: hehe Faith

[wouldibeforgiven]

how. how can i have faith when i am stuck here.

i have been silenced. i cannot speak, for ive spoken too much of the truth. i cannot pray.

the creature inside of me has taken root. it is KEEPING me here. i cannot escape. i am stuck.

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

i. don’t understand why you’re so frightened by Gary watching you.

he watches everyone. is that not normal?

I don’t think you understand- living every day under constant surveillance? It’s terrifying. I don’t even feel safe in my own home anymore. I have people I care about living with me, and the thought of a cult leader watching over us...it makes my skin crawl…

No matter...how attractive...the cult leader...is...that was a joke. ha…haha.

[wouldibeforgiven]

i mean. i do understand. i live under constant surveillance. it is how i’ve lived since life was given to me.

..though i understand why you don’t feel safe. Gary is far from a safe man.

the knowledge that you live with people you care for is a bit frightening. are you aware of what he is capable of?

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

A-ah…apologies- who…who are you?

[wouldibeforgiven]

i work under the authority of the man that is watching you.

..do i want to work under the authority of him? no. no, i don’t.

i’m trapped.

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

I-I understand. Wait- hold on. You work for him? Right…and how am I supposed to know I can trust you? How do I know this isn’t just another trick?

[ezrielspeaks]

… This one… seems different… they don’t feel like a malicious soul, but rather… a trapped one…

[wardofthecross-deactivated20250]

Wait- how do you know that? You were just saying how awful Gary and his cult were…so why are you defending this person we don’t know?

[ezrielspeaks]

I’m an angel, John. I’m able to see into a person’s soul with ease. You should know this by now.

[wouldibeforgiven]

do you think i could ever be redeemed?

can you save me,

angel?

please. i want to get out. please please please please please plea