Keep your eyes on your own plate
I know know KNOW this is what I am supposed to do. But, I don’t. Of course I don’t. I am a muppet. Last night I watched a girl order three courses of an expensive dinner and eat only about a quarter of each one. This morning at breakfast I watched a different girl (beautifully fragile and ethereal looking, I want to be her). She picked at a bowl of fruit, then ordered porridge made with milk and ate it very slowly and deliberately, leaving half. I tried hard not to let it affect what I myself ate in either case, but I have *feels* about it
I guess the important thing to do is remember that you're not aware of what they're eating the rest of the time? I always used to be self conscious eating in front of my now best-friend because she always seemed to skip lunch. Now I know her well, I know that although she doesn't eat a 'lunch ' at lunch time, she easily goes through a box of cereal bars at 11am instead, or a baguette at 3pm! People have different eating habits then people without EDs because they can afford to be more 'free' in their choices- they don't have to have as much as of a structure as we do. So just because those people weren't eating a lot in that present moment, doesn't mean that they didn't go home and eat more! So long as you leave a meal out like that feeling pleasantly full and having had a good time that's all that matters- you'll be having a far better and more enriching time than someone forcing themselves to only eat half their food! I hope you had a good time xxx
