💌 Jillian 💌

a lot of coffee and words ☕️💭🧸 she/her | 23 | queer ☞ i follow from @jilliancatherine

[writingbyjillian]

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[lvmimis]

tbh i love hear me outs but i also love the opposite of hear me outs where it’s like nearly everyone thinks they’re fuckable except you

[vintxgemiseries]

count me outs

[write-on-world]

[big-blog-of-cheese-day]

[ccorinthian]

Sometimes you gotta get down to brass tacks

[vrtualdreamgirl]

we can’t talk here contact me in my dream tonight

[local-lesbian-tree-demon]

they should invent a body that feels normal to be inside of

[carnivalls]

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title: twin primes

genre: dark academia high fantasy

setting: unsure how to describe. think industrialised lotr

features: fantasy higher academia, the intersection of magic & mental illness, academic rivalry built around a morally dubious authority figure, sibling hauntings, time loops if you squint, unpalatable victims, m/f central pairing but in a problematic and codependent way (that is the dog she kicks), a magic system best described as if dnd warlocks met annihilation, nd & lgbt characters, tw sa

influences: this is functionally my attempt at rewriting katabasis (rf kuang). other inspirations include annihilation (jeff vandermeer), harrow the ninth (tamsyn muir), howl's moving castle (diana wynne jones), and a combination of dnd 5e/call of cthulhu

draft: fighting through the 1st

summary:

Naira of Rosemont's life is finally in her own hands, and she hasn't hesitated in making something of it.

In a world where magic comes from outside it, requiring you to bend your mind in its shape in order to be accessed, Naira is the first of her family to step into its legacy– and from there, all should be smooth sailing. She's graduated with flying colours from her studies at an arcane academy, and is currently in the final stretch of her apprenticeship with prolific, similarly first generation archmage Art Rosemont. She should have a long and brilliant career spanning ahead of her as an archmage herself.

However, just as much as Naira pours herself into her future, so too is she struggling to hide the true state of her present– in attempting to bend her mind into managing magic, how can she face up to having accidentally broken it instead?

Having found something to care about for possibly the first time ever, Naira is loathe to let it go– and the stakes are higher than ever now that Art has taken on a second, naturally magically attuned apprentice under his wing, one waiting on her every stumble; let alone partnered him with her to investigate an advent of inexplicable magical phenomena.

Naira is willing to do more than anything to keep this life. Still, the more she pulls from magic the more it slowly but surely pulls back in turn, blurring her days, haunting her nights, and lending the terrifying question: by the end of her apprenticeship, how much of her will still even be her to appreciate it?

excerpt:

[willow-does-stuff]

romantic relationships blah blah blah okay but what about risking everything for your sibling. what about the unwavering love and care that can only come from a parent to a child. what about someone who just wants their best friend back. ever thought of that.

[isabellebissonrouthier]

I DONT CARE IF YOU WRITE IT BADLY JUST GO AND WRITE IT DOWN

[ruhaniya]

[solarsthoughts]

gentle reminder that you’re still a writer even if you haven’t written in days. or weeks. or months. or if you take a long break and don’t write in years.

[kitkatpancakestack]

WE HAVE GOT TO START LOVING THE PROCESS MORE THAN THE PRODUCT AGAIN

[going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi]

yall gotta learn the difference between "this character is an asshole" and "this character was supposed to be super cool but the author is an asshole" and "this character is a teenage girl who was mean once"

[albatris]

time for the rentalcar cover reveal!

artwork is by the extremely talented @antiquedeuce who did a phenomenal job, I couldn't be happier with the results :3

I'm very excited to share this silly little ginormous book with you all soon! in the meantime there's my website and mailing list so you can stay up to date with what's happening re: renting cars <3

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[carnivalls]

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title: good intentions

genre: speculative horror fantasy

settting: fantasy greece x industrial revolution

features: split past/present narrative, state-funded codependency, fantasy 1880s version of a road trip, that toxic formative homoerotic girlfriendship that leaves you worse off for life, low empathy love interest, anger as a form of healing/catharsis, body & identity horror, complicated grief, emotional (+ some physical) incest, nd & lgbt characters

draft: fighting through the 1st

summary:

As a Core, Espera 'Hess' Kalinou has made a home in being hated. She's learned her lines by heart: she's unpredictable, dangerous, with too much power coursing through her veins and no control over when or how it rises to the surface. Raised in the Aggelenes, a new country currently unique in its possession of magic, she has firsthand born the brunt of how that 'uniqueness' is received, and has spent sixteen years fashioning the world's fear of her as a guide on who to be. So when the world suddenly decides it has plans for her and all other Cores, aiming to use their magic as potential sources of energy (as well as as investment opportunities for neighbouring wealthier countries)– well, Hess knows she needs to do something, and quick. Before her hard-earned identity gets erased, and she's turned into some rich brat's power supply for good. As a Conduit, Juve Mizra would love to see what ‘something’ looks like. Finding herself enrolled at the first-of-its-kind Synergetic Institute, with the aim of harnessing Cores’ raw power as an artificially created class of magic-user entitled a 'Conduit', Juve should be delighted– both at ushering in the first era of magical relations, and at living her dream of leaving her stifling hometown in the Centerlands to go abroad. But this dream isn't technically hers to live, and Juve finds her own interests a lot more caught on the angry Core girl she's been partnered with: the one who refuses to hand over her magic, and will do anything to bolt for the door.

Attuned, it's push and pull– can pride be put aside long enough to accept help? Can it be called 'help', if it hides another face? And how do you know you've gone too far, when you want someone to hate you?

excerpt:

[alicentsgf]

no you do not need to hold fictional characters "accountable". they are not real.

[alicentsgf]

[wrigglewormz]

I feel like having wings violently burst out of your back would just feel really good. Like itd feel awful but also itd feel really satisfying.

[punksalmons]

the thing about writing is that it's very hard unless you have to leave the house in 15 minutes or perhaps go to bed