evanâs brain rattled around in his head with every stumble and pivot, unkempt and riddled with tragedy. his mouth was a pluming fountain of hot white breath, spread across the winter air like the ghost of his coherent thoughts. his nose burned a blue sort of cold, spreading to the hollows of his cheeks and the crooked knuckles of his fingers wrapped around the whiskey bottle. there was a certain familiarity in the chill;; the sharp phantom scent of vanilla and sea salt pressing itself into his skin. it reminded him of his mother and he suddenly felt an intense pit forming in the bottom of his stomach. he could see her in images of belleâs face ( HADNâT SHE JUST BEEN HERE A SECOND AGO? ) where her eyebrows met the bridge of her nose, or those eyes that haunted him;; both sets BRIMMED with transparent tears. he shook his head with a quivering breath, trying to rid himself of the memories. his mother was a crumbling EMPIRE. he could see it in every lie she forced through her teeth, in every smile she coaxed onto her lips. he could feel it in the too thin fingers that touched his face, in the broken voice that told him MY HOW YOUâVE GROWN. and she was once so magnificent.
his body twisted before he could think about it, hands clinging to the neck of the bottle as he brought it against a tree trunk with a SMASH. the glass shattered around him, and he saw himself remaindered in their ranks as he backed away from it slowly, pieces crunching beneath his feet. his eyes moved quicker than he felt they usually did, darting about the scene in front of him, searching for some semblance of reality within it. the world bent and twisted around him, though the distinct burn of alcohol or fuzzy clouds of a potion were absent from his head. THERE. he thought. IT MUST ALL BE MY MIND. but the realization did nothing to soothe him;; in fact, it seemed to do just the opposite. he knew he was breathing but he wasnât sure how. if this was all in his head then there was no way to FIX it. rosemary couldnât use some type of healing spell on this;; it was his responsibility. and he was terrified.
evanâs lips twisted into a broken smile, his teeth woven with thickets and brambles. his tongue felt heavy and like it was made of silver. heâd never gone to CHURCH, but an air of judgement buzzed around him. he knew, in his heart of hearts, especially when he looked into rosemaryâs eyes, he was going to burn. his scar tissue was built on sin, every HEARTBEAT, every breath contradictory of virtue. but it confused him, see, because JUST as he thought heâd seen god in that little mouse of a girl, with that accent that sounded like a HAIL MARY every time she spoke and those eyes like an olive branch, he saw the same in the girl walking down the path.Â
he could tell just by the way she held herself;; the weight of the world resting between her shoulder blades, perched on a rigid spine. evan watched GOD walk down towards him, wrapped in a thick winter jacket. he stuttered through the eerie grin he couldnât seem to wipe off his face, puffs of white breath that scattered themselves through the air.
          âRITA SKEETER!â he said as if he were aÂ
          cartoon, loud and through a grin that wasÂ
          only halfway rooted in reality. âlovely day,Â
          isnât it?â evan laughed, but it was just aÂ
          note off from usual, as he gestured to theÂ
          dark, cold night around them.
Not everyone realized that to be a journalist you also had to be an actress. Rita pretended to be a lot of people that she wasnât - kind, generous, warm - none of which were adjectives that the blonde would ordinarily use to describe herself. But she was kind when a potential subject couldnât find a partner in class to pair up with. She was generous when a subject was a few sickles short to purchase that second butterbeer down in Hogsmeade. And she was warm when someone she needed something from was hurting or lonely and needed that shoulder to cry on. Rita possessed these character traits when she was after something, masterfully skilled in the art of deception and manipulation. She stopped at few lengths to discover the truth. But it wasnât fake warmth that she pushed onto Belle when she came frantically scrambling into the Slytherin common room, first a somber face playing at her face as she found Rita curled up, enjoying the near silence of the room and reading by the fire.
The younger Rosier looked as if she were on the verge of tears, or as if she had just been expelling said tears, face pale in all areas aside from her cheeks and bright red nose and sheâd just come in from outside in the cool winter night. The kindness she bestowed on her was far from fake as she tried to coax complete sentences from her, hearing bits and pieces about Evan and down by the lake and drunk or mad. It was enough for Rita to understand without hearing more than those few words what was happening, and something similar to a fire had sparked in her stomach. âShh,â she cooed genuinely at Belle as she stood up, trying to place the younger girl down in the spot sheâd just been. âItâs okay, itâll be fine. Iâll talk to him, donât worry.â
Rita was angry; half-blood blood boiling within as she quickly fetched a thicker jacket and her wand, muttering in annoyance to herself as it was the black of the freezing cold January night and the last place she wanted to be was heading down towards the black lake where the air was surely to be full of chilly winds from the eerily dazzling water. She wondered if Belleâs first thoughts had been to come and find her. Had she just been the first one she came upon due to the lack of anyone else in the common area? Had it been anyone but Belle perhaps she would have shrugged off her concerns, telling them that Evan was more than capable of taking care of himself. But it was Belle and she could see that she was scared and Rita had a soft spot for her. She didnât want to have to go berate Evan yet again this week; they had yet to speak since that afternoon in the hallway and Rita had no interest in speaking to him again either. Not yet, at least.
She followed the dark trail down to the lake, the only lighting coming from the lights of the castle from above and the moon and stars in the sky. It was freezing out and there was certainly no way that they were actually allowed to be here this late. Rita could spot Evan wandering in circles around himself, stumbling and hearing his voice as if he were laughing to himself and she found herself growing even angrier. âChrist, Rosier, you just canât say no, can you?â She yelled from the edge of the path rather than following into the dirt âbeachâ between the path, lake, and forest, wanting to keep her distance. âHow dramatic are you going to get? We get it, your life is so tough and you donât know know what to do with all of daddyâs money. Must be tough! Now can we go inside? Itâs fucking freezing and your sisterâs worried youâre going to drink yourself to death and Iâve got half the mind to tell her sheâs probably right.â