alejandro

he/they, 20, trying to cope

[writteninmacabre]

hello stranger.

[

alejandro

20

he/they

mentally ill slightly sui irlyan

]

a bit new to yanblr. i only lurked. revamped this from a dusty horror reblog blog.

[writteninmacabre]

Tumblr just won’t let me copy them how I want sometimes … I hate it sm

you're good. doing this works just fine.

꒰ (Ｏﾟ皿ﾟＯ)  𓈒 Ghost face 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Do you like horror ? If so what's your favorite niche ? If not what's your most hated niche and why ? "

i enjoy horror a lot. i don't have any i hate as a lot i'm neutral. i have a few favorites though. southern gothic, apocalyptic, psychological, cosmic, virus, gothic, folk horror, and coming-of-age. none are niche but i don't care about that.

꒰ (;´∀｀)  𓈒 missing posters 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " If your darling would to run away would you track them down ? If so would you immedaitly let them know you're following them or would you stall until the perfect moment ? "

i would but i wouldn't let them know. as tempting as it would be because i'd be pissed. once i were to get them back in my grasp they'd be playing by my rules and earning new reminders that they won't be leaving me.

꒰ ((ﾟ□ﾟ;))  𓈒 unkown number 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " How far would you go if your darling leaves ? Would you make a new number, move, even kill ? Or would you just silently stalk them and leave little signs that you're still there ? "

i'd mostly just leave little signs. i'll make alts and different numbers to see what they're doing.

i've done it before and i'll do it again should i need to.

if i find a partner again i will be making sure they don't want to and can't leave me.

[bitterlyenamoured]

If love doesn't destroy you, then what's the point? Let's tear each other to pieces and fuse them together. I don't ever want to be something outside of what I am with you.

[4everh4vnted]

Rynx ' s gift ask game .

unique 20 questions + 15 statements

this is for my 100 follower specail

Questions . . .

꒰ (Ｏﾟ皿ﾟＯ)  𓈒 Ghost face 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Do you like horror ? If so what's your favorite niche ? If not what's your most hated niche and why ? "

꒰ ( 〃▽〃)  𓈒 lines of admiration 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Do you have a favorite trait that can lead to a fixation on a person or does your favorite trait depend on the person ? "

꒰ (;´∀｀)  𓈒 missing posters 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " If your darling would to run away would you track them down ? If so would you immedaitly let them know you're following them or would you stall until the perfect moment ? "

꒰ ( ´-ω-)  𓈒 the serpants 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " What would you do if your darling turned out to be in organized crime or obtained money in a not-so-legal manner ? "

꒰ ((ﾟ□ﾟ;))  𓈒 unkown number 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " How far would you go if your darling leaves ? Would you make a new number, move, even kill ? Or would you just silently stalk them and leave little signs that you're still there ? "

꒰ (*ゝω･*)  𓈒 crumpled notes 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " How do you like people to perceive you ? Is it different from how you view yourself ? If you could make everyone percieve you in the same way how would you want to be viewed ? "

꒰ (´ω｀)  𓈒 unanswered voicemails 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " If you were able to would you go to another universe ? Would you want this universe's time to stop or for it to look like you ran away ? Would you still want to communicate with others will in this other universe ? "

꒰ (・・;)  𓈒 foggy mornings 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Do you prefer to be outside in the mornings, the afternoons, or during noon ? What tempature do you prefer ? "

꒰ (;´Д⊂)  𓈒 unspoken warnings 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Have you ever had a voilent reputation ? Did people ever assume you were voilent ? If you were to be voilent what type would you choose ? Are you more quiet and deadly or loud and angry when voilent ? "

꒰ ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁  𓈒 empty bottles 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Would you care if your darling used substances ? Would you prefer them sober or for them to get worse ? If your darling was on medical drugs for their psych would you make them stop taking their medication ? "

꒰ (￣へ￣井)  𓈒 unwritten rules 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Are you the person to have your loved ones follow rules you have in your head or the type to disregard rules entirely ? If you have mental rules are they strict or loose ? If you disregard rules completely what are some rules that you completely ignore ? "

꒰ (´ρ`)  𓈒 smoky skies 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Is your opinion on yourself always clear or does it depend on another factor ? Are you a different person online versus irl ? If so which one would you consider the more ' real ' you ? Or are you always putting on a show ? "

꒰ (・_・;?  𓈒 smudged lines 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " At what point to you give up on a person ? What point does your opinion on someone flip or change permanently ? Or is there someone you simply can't let go of ? "

꒰ (*/□＼*)  𓈒 hallway crush 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Are you the type of person to develop a fixation quickly or do you have to fall in love with the person first to become obsessed ? Do you attached quickly ? If so do you only get platonically attached quickly or only romantically ? If it takes time at what point does it take for the attachment to form ? "

꒰ (*つ▽`)っ 𓈒 percieved admiration 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Do you prefer to have more of a parasocail relationship with your darling or do you want your darling to see all of you ? Do you want to see all of your darling or only your favorite parts ? "

꒰ (￣ｑ￣)  𓈒 cold case 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " How do you act once the intial rush of having a new obsession ? Do your obsessions last long or do they tend to die out without interaction ? Do you enjoy the thrill of a new fixation or the long term stability an old obsession ? "

꒰ ((￣_｜  𓈒 bolt lock 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Does your obsession tend to be agressive or suffocating ? Do you consider yourself more ' hardcore ' or ' soft ' ? Are you looking for a distraction or a lifetime parnter ? "

꒰ (｡-人-｡)  𓈒 gold standard 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Do you have high expectations ? Do you have a high standard for other people or yourself ? Do you consider an idol the standard or yourself ? "

꒰ (￢_￢)  𓈒 stop sign 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " What is something that can completely stop your obsession or fixation over a person ? Does this only have to happen once or mutiple times ? If you don't have anything what is something that will make you wary of your obsession or fixation ? "

꒰ (´；ω；`)  𓈒 clinical trail 𓈒 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻ ꒱ - " Do you hide behind a facade infront of people ? If you do is there anyone you'd reveal yourself to ? If not do you hide parts of yourself from others ? "

Statements . . .

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 harmony 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " I want to be the person to balance you out so we can either escend or fall into the abiss "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 swirls 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " I'd love to cover every part that you hate about yourself with drawings. That way you'd be admiring yourself instead of hating what you see. "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 stormy nights 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " I hate you. I hate the way you make me feel. I hate the way I crave you. I hate the way I need you. I hate you but I'd rather die than let anyone else get close. "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 distant crushing 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " I want to see the real you. I want to see the person behind the screen, behind those eyes, so I can be the only one who trult understands you. "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 questioning 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " You make me wonder rather or not I'm going too far or not far enough. Either way I can't stand not being close enough. "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 one sided 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " Even though we've never talked I can't get you out of my head. You don't have to know I exist because either way I'm yours and that's enough. "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 bruised knuckles 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " If you ever try to get away I'll just follow you. You'll never be alone and you'll never be free. "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 golden cage 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " Your freedom is just an illusion. An illusion that I will break if needed. "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 flame 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " I'll burn you if you hold on to me for too long but I'd be damned if you let yourself get burned only to leave when things start cooling off. "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 playdate 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " Putting on labels don't matter. Platonic or not you only need me. "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 hide n seek 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " Playing games is always fun but when are you gonna stop only paying attention to other players ? "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 idolization 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " You're my standard for everyone else. No one else has ever compared to you "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 blood soaked 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " I want to be apart of you so that I'll never have to leave "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 devotion 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " I'll learn how to be gentle for you. I'll learn how to bandage your wounds so you can heal, just for you. "

꒰ 𑄹   𓈒 monsters 𓈒 𑄹  ꒱ - " I'm scared of my own thoughts. I'm scared of the feelings you make me feel. But I'll never leave you even if I can't recognize myself in the mirror. You're all that matters. "

[writteninmacabre]

'until death do us part'? fuck that.

i won't be letting you go even after we die.

we'll be buried together.

[writteninmacabre]

❛❛I’m your biggest fan❞ -> how do I get you to notice me?!

⌞Paparazzi⌝ -> How long can you stalk someone before you get bored? Or do you randomly lose interest in watching them?

Personal one- would you do yan4darling if the other person was obsessed with you but doesn’t know how to stalk? 

❛❛I’m your biggest fan❞ -> how do I get you to notice me?!

well you need to be someone worth noticing then. what do you plan to do to make yourself stand out?

⌞Paparazzi⌝ -> How long can you stalk someone before you get bored? Or do you randomly lose interest in watching them?

since i don't become attached easily i also don't easily lose my interest. if at all once someone catches my eye.

Personal one- would you do yan4darling if the other person was obsessed with you but doesn’t know how to stalk? 

the odds are very slim to none. i really can only see yan4yan working out. i just don't see a darling understanding me as well as another yan would.

[writteninmacabre]

What kind of vial would you get?

not sure. i haven't looked into them much.

[cr1ms0n-r3d-f3v3r]

Being trans is not suiting female or male beauty standards and just feeling like a hideous freak of nature

[miserym4w]

Sorry for being rough with you, but it is your fault. That wouldn’t need to happen if you just listened to me. I know what’s best for you :)

[yancorpse]

"Yearning" is too delicate. What I feel is much more disgusting.

[writteninmacabre]

An Unhealthy Obsession " → How easily do you get obsessed with someone? Do you find yourself quickly attaching onto others or does it take time?

The Red Means I Love You" → would you keep your beloved's blood in a vile if it meant keeping them with you?

Bernadette ' → Do you perfect yan4yan, darling4yan, or something else?

⌞An Unhealthy Obsession⌝ -> How easily do you get obsessed with someone? Do you find yourself quickly attaching onto others or does it take time?

i don't attach all too quickly. i'm detached from a lot so it takes me longer to attach to anyone.

⌞The Red Means I Love You⌝ -> would you keep your beloved’s blood in a vile if it meant keeping them with you?

i would. and if they wanted my own in return i'd give it to them.

Bernadette ' → Do you perfect yan4yan, darling4yan, or something else?

yan4yan. no other dynamic would be right for me.

[himinya]

Lyric ノ music themed ask game!!

⌞Paparazzi⌝ -> How long can you stalk someone before you get bored? Or do you randomly lose interest in watching them?

⌞An Unhealthy Obsession⌝ -> How easily do you get obsessed with someone? Do you find yourself quickly attaching onto others or does it take time?

⌞The Red Means I Love You⌝ -> would you keep your beloved’s blood in a vile if it meant keeping them with you?

⌞Bernadette⌝ -> Do you perfect yan4yan, darling4yan, or something else?

⌞Cupid⌝ -> Do you believe in love at first sight or do you believe love takes time to form? Why or why not?

⌞Suki Suki Daisuki⌝ -> What would you do if your darling ever developed a crush on someone else who wasn’t you?

⌞Baby Hotline⌝ -> Your first reaction if your dearest ever blocked you without an explanation?

Statements,

❛❛I’m your biggest fan❞ -> how do I get you to notice me?!

❛❛Some call it stalkin'❞ -> I watch you from afar.

❛❛My insides are red and yours are too❞ -> We’re made for each other. Inside and out.

❛❛You and me in our playhouse❞ -> I wish I could kidnap you.

❛❛Bernadette, you are my liberty❞ -> I’m so obsessed with you. I can’t help but feel like we were made to meet each other.

❛❛Love, brain, heart control, caffeinate❞ -> My heart beats uncontrollably for you.

❛❛Please hold me close to you❞ -> I want to be in your arms. No one else will matter if I’m with you.

❛❛Say you love me or I’ll kill you❞ -> No one else deserves you. If you even look at anyone else I’ll end your life.

[dispenser-of-provisions]

I will do the most immortal things just so I can feel your touch.

[writteninmacabre]

۫ ⟡˖ 𝖘ome call it— how important is stalking as a part of your love language, or fixation on your obsession/darling? do you do it unknowingly, or wait for permission?

͙͡ ⟡٠࣪ 𝖇lade ﹕ when it comes to your emotions, are you good at bottling them up, or do you lash out at others? are they a tool, a motivator when it comes to your obsession/darling, or something to be hidden away?

۫ ⟡˖ 𝖜edding day ﹕ is marriage something important to you, whether it comes to 'soldifying' your relationship or as a life goal you wish to have for yourselves? does it matter if it's legal/official, if so?

hello again. thanks for the ask.

۫ ⟡˖ 𝖘ome call it— how important is stalking as a part of your love language, or fixation on your obsession/darling? do you do it unknowingly, or wait for permission?

important enough that if i have a fixation on someone it'll be a natural routine for me to be looking in to all of their spaces as much as i can. subtly though. at least for a while.

͙͡ ⟡٠࣪ 𝖇lade ﹕ when it comes to your emotions, are you good at bottling them up, or do you lash out at others? are they a tool, a motivator when it comes to your obsession/darling, or something to be hidden away?

too good i'd say. i've been bottling up shit for years. there are times i do lash out. bottling it up only works for so long at a time. if it benefits me i will use them as a tool. otherwise it all stays suppressed.

۫ ⟡˖ 𝖜edding day ﹕ is marriage something important to you, whether it comes to 'soldifying' your relationship or as a life goal you wish to have for yourselves? does it matter if it's legal/official, if so?

i wouldn't mind getting married or not. i love the idea of my future partner being binded to me legally. and seeing a ring on their finger would be satiating. but there are other ways i like better to solidify a relationship.

[writteninmacabre]

no wonder i feel like shit.

just fucking realized i didn't take any of my morning meds.

i am so fucked.

guess having a day off from work threw me off.

[unpunishableapologist]

Dressing you up and doing your hair pretty for the day while your missing person report plays on the TV.

[writteninmacabre]

your vice-like grip is intoxicating.

i can't escape it.

i don't want to.