☾✩ – A hand automatically reaches for his head the second he’s conscious enough to move his limbs, a groan falling from slightly chapped lips. The hangover isn’t a rarity – in fact, he’s quite used to them and his free hand blindly reaches for his nightstand and rummages through the contents of the top drawer until his long fingers close around a pill bottle. He pops two into his mouth and swallows them dry without even bothering to open his eyes. Then he pushes himself to sit up, pills still in his hand whilst he stretches his sore limbs and slowly climbs out of bed.
A big, worn t-shirt is thrown over his head before he shuffles towards the kitchen for a glass of water. He doesn’t want to face the mirror just yet; he’ll save that for after his shower. The memories of the night before are very hazy, but the familiar discomfort of his body speaks volumes. Strangely enough, he doesn’t recall getting home and crawling into his bed, however.
Yoosung sighs, takes a few sips of water, then swallows another two or three pills. He doesn’t care, just wants the headache to pass. Was it too early to mix aspirins with Valium?
It certainly wasn’t too early for the throbbing headache to mix with the anxiety that was building up inside of him. The more he woke up, the more he became aware of the stickiness between this thighs, though it does seem like he somehow managed to put on a clean pair of pink panties.
Sometimes he wishes he could remember things, but he knows he really doesn’t want to. The blue pills and the drinks help to keep him numb, help him stop caring, help him FORGET.
He stands there for another moment, before his brain screams at him for a shower. He may not remember, but he can feel the hands on him, can feel the filth, the disappointment. So he turns around and shuffles back to the bedroom for clothes and towels.
It’s only then that he notices the man in his bed.
“E-Excuse me?” He stammers, afraid to raise his voice. This isn’t right – he doesn’t take men to his apartment. It’s one of the rules he’s made for himself, because his bedroom is his SAFE place. He can’t afford to have it tainted by others; by the reality of his life. But clearly he was too intoxicated to remember that simple rule. Had he really been that desperate?
“Why– Why are you here?” Dark brows furrow behind messy blond bangs. He’s aware of how little he’s wearing, but Yoosung has learned to stop caring about people seeing his body, years ago. He swallows thickly – he isn’t used to not being alone in the morning. “Look, I can give you a glass of juice, maybe some eggs, but–” He doesn’t even know the guy’s name, everything is a blur and if only that meant that this was a dream so he could wake up.
The ‘you’re not supposed to be here’ remains on the tip of his tongue; gets swallowed back. Then he unceremoniously throws the pill bottle onto the bed. “You can take some if you need to. I know my head is killing me right now.”
It wasn’t intentional, the night was mostly a blur, watered down by soju, not enough to become wasted but...he had pushed it. Having a night’s hiatus from work was doing well for him, not only because of his partner, but because his career was the last of things he wanted to spend his time on.
He doesn’t even really remember how he got here...Wherever here is.
Every inch of him feels foggy and stiff when he feels the body leave. He knows he feels it, it jars him from his sleep, knocks him into that half-way place where he’s neither awake nor asleep. Am arm scooping out and slipping beneath the pillow where someone had laid just a few moments ago to seek the warmth.
It’s not until he hears the voice that his eyes pop open, a squint and a soft grunt as the morning affronts his senses. It takes a minute to sink in. Blearily gazing before him, eyes scanning a face that’s familiar yet not at all.
And it sinks in, his head plopping back into the pillow and eyes screwing closed. “I don’t even know where here is,” he tries to speak and his voice is a scratch like sandpaper. He clears it and then a thought occurs.
He runs his hand down his chest, bare, a further, doesn’t dare to move but he doesn’t need to investigate far before he finds the information he had sought. Oh damn it... Wow, he really did that, huh...
“You,” his voice is a scratch too hard to hear and he has to clear his throat a second time and start again, peers at blond hair and dark, deep eyes. “don’t really have to worry about it, I know this is awkward enough without having to take care of some strange guy in your house.” He sighs, feeling a bit sea sick now that he’s waking up more. “I will take the meds,” he mutters after they crash into the blankets, startling him slightly. “How do you feel, you know,” he motions with his hand vaguely, “otherwise.”
The way he means that is too embarrassing to say out loud so he’ll settle for this.