i’m a dragonkin, specifically a female wind dragon living in germany. i’m an adult (hatched in 2000), and i speak both german and russian.
i’m a kind-hearted dragoness who loves taking care of others. i work as a nurse, and at home i live with my two spoiled cats, millie and freya <3
spirit & identity
i’ve known something dragon-like was in me since my teens, but i fully awakened in 2021. phantom wings, tail, horns... the whole deal. through meditation, dreams, and astral experiences, i’ve gotten to know my true self more and more. i don’t have past-life memories, but i see my dragon form clearly in the otherworld, and that’s enough for me.
i follow a spiritual path that’s separate from human religions; i work with dragon spirits, which is really important to me.
things i enjoy
video games, drawing, being in nature, hanging out with my loved ones and divination/spiritual work (air-aligned dragon perks!)
want to find me elsewhere?
you can check out my personal website
and you might spot me in some dragonkin or otherkin discord servers (my DMs are closed though).
the tags
#drekiblog: mostly nonhuman-related, longer posts made by me
#tlos: "the legend of spyro"; posts and reblogs about the videogames that are similar to my homeworld
#drekiart: digital artwork pieces made by me are marked with this tag
#dreki de: german posts made by me
#reblog: i will use this tag for reblogs of posts by others/not made by me
I must say, being a wind dragon really helps my mental health! Knowing that wind or air is seen as something gentle, something wise really helps me build up my mindset into a more positive way. Air is often aligned with thinking and communication, at least in the spiritual sense. So I often sit back and think about how to approach things, trying to be as soft as the wind itself instead of falling into negative spirals (hehe, cyclones)
I have noticed that the alterhumans on this platform are much more kind towards each other. I feel like this is not the case on Discord, especially on smaller servers.
Or on German servers. German alterhumans are the least friendly towards their kind, I have seen.
I want to apply that kindness from here to myself as well
Yesterday when I was in the shower, I let my back soak in hot water where my wingarms(?) are supposed to be, and today I awoke with a strong phantom sensation at this exact spot, as if my wings were trying to thank me
Tried to hold a door open with my tail and was shocked that this didn't work. I literally needed to process that my tail doesn't work in this realm, heh
When I'm in the astral, I always have the same body: the one of a white dragoness. In this form, I'm my younger dragon self, not fully grown yet, but adult. The way a cat is considered an adult as soon as it can reproduce, even though it can still grow larger. This was the case for.. as long as I have been able to see anything during meditations and astral projection. Always the same form, the same dragon. Even f I wanted to be something else there, it never worked. I also tried to be my full grown self, the body I saw myself in when I recall the few past life snippets that I remember. But even that never worked. I accepted that this younger body must be my astral body, my spirit self when I'm in the otherworld. The one who I am and who I indentify as.
But that changed on Monday evening. On some Mondays, Dragonkin.EU will have an event called Meditation Monday. That idea stemmed from my own ritual that I have (almost) every Monday, which I called Meditation Monday. This Monday, my mother Akir'Ischa presented her own dragonkin meditation to us. It was already lat ein the evening, and I had to go to work on the following day. Nonetheless, I tuned in. What I saw this time was me standing in a field, surrounded by the spirits of deceased dragons. Nothing new for me, I'm always with the ancestors in the otherworld. But I noticed my human body getting tired, and so did my astral body. I laid down in the grass and fell asleep, together with the spirits. When I woke up in the morning, I felt.. different. As if I have lost my connection to my draconity. I didn't feel like a dragon at all, which happened only once before since my awakening. But I drowned my concerns with the work I had to do at my job.
When I came home later, I still felt weird and.. if I'm not really part of this realm anymore. I figured that I was bilocating since I woke up that morning. I'm used to the feeling of bilocation, because I do this practice frequently. This this bilocation was strong, and I couldn't snap out of it myself. But when I looked deeper, through the eyes of my dragon self while being awake in this realm, I noticed that I was standing way more off the ground than usual. I looked around for some still water to look at my refelction, and noticed that my dragon body looked different. I was in the body of my past life self, my fully grown form. I wasn't too concerned, no. I was actually happy to confirm this body in the spiritual. So my assumption how I looked like in the end of my dragon life is true! But.. why this odd feeling? As if I'm not just feeling my human body and my dragon body while bilocating, but also something else?
I took to the skies to test my new, huge wings. I had a lot of fun and got used to this new body very quickly. When I got tired from the flight, my human body got exhausted as well, so I landed on a cliff located at a beach. I walked for a bit and layed down on the sand at the water. A few moments later I felt a presence next to me. Thinking it was a dragon spirit, I looked to my side to see.. myself? My younger self that I always was during meditations, bilocations and astral projections? How is this possible? What is happening?
This odd feeling of another was.. me the whole time. In my (our?) panic an ancestor appeared, and we three(?) talked about what was happening. The spirit assured me that my two selves will fuse again eventually. After this event, the connection weakened and I could finally break free from the bilocation to give my human body some rest.
Since then I'm constantly "switching" bewtween my younger and older self when I get pulled into bilocations again. Same with my dreams: During some nights, I am my astral body self. In others, I am my past life one. But the biggest matter is the fact that I feel this human body and both dragon ones at the same time, all the time. I look through six eyes, feel the wind on my scales/skin on three bodies simultaneously. It's really tiring for all bodies, and I'm constantly exhaused. Here, and there. I don't know when this will stop, but I hope very soon. It's not a great feeling when I don't know who I am out of those three options.
I would like to stay here in this realm, be physically human while being a dragon spiritually, with phantom limbs and all. I want the bilocation to stop for a good for a while, until I have the energy for it and as long as I can stop it willingly. I want to know in what body I will end up in when this split finally ends, when I'm one again. When I can look though only one set of eyes. I don't know when this odd experience will end, but I have faith that it will.
I will update this post regularily to let you know what else happens during this until the day of fusion comes.
It has been a bit over 24 hours since I posted this. Nothing new has really happened , aside from the fact that I have been mostly my younger/astral self today. Depending on what happens in this realm, my POV changed between one form or the other. Even if I was just thinking in a specific way, I would focus on fully grown me or astral me. I still see through all six eyes, but the intensity changes. In this realm, I'm still an observer mostly, not really part of it anymore
I was still bilocating the whole day today, but only through the eyes of my physical body and the one from my astral one. Idk where the past life body has been today, I couldn't reach it. Not sure if my younger and older dragon bodies have fused already, but if they did, I must say I don't feel anything different. I'm still in this odd state of not really being here, and not fully being there.
I have to say though that I could focus much more on this realm than during the last few days. I wonder what tomorrow will bring, as it will be one week of this disconnection then
When I awoke this morning, I noticed that the bilocating had stopped. I wasn't looking through three or two sets of eyes, but only through the one of this physical body. I don't know what happened during the night when this body was asleep. If some sort of fusion already happened or not. If so, I don't feel anything different from before this situation. Everything seems to be back to normal. I will confirm today with a meditation.
Because it's Meditation Monday
I must say, the phantom sensations I get fit the younger, astral dragon body of mine. I don't know what happened to the older, past life body. Maybe I can find out more this evening
When I'm in the astral, I always have the same body: the one of a white dragoness. In this form, I'm my younger dragon self, not fully grown yet, but adult. The way a cat is considered an adult as soon as it can reproduce, even though it can still grow larger. This was the case for.. as long as I have been able to see anything during meditations and astral projection. Always the same form, the same dragon. Even f I wanted to be something else there, it never worked. I also tried to be my full grown self, the body I saw myself in when I recall the few past life snippets that I remember. But even that never worked. I accepted that this younger body must be my astral body, my spirit self when I'm in the otherworld. The one who I am and who I indentify as.
But that changed on Monday evening. On some Mondays, Dragonkin.EU will have an event called Meditation Monday. That idea stemmed from my own ritual that I have (almost) every Monday, which I called Meditation Monday. This Monday, my mother Akir'Ischa presented her own dragonkin meditation to us. It was already lat ein the evening, and I had to go to work on the following day. Nonetheless, I tuned in. What I saw this time was me standing in a field, surrounded by the spirits of deceased dragons. Nothing new for me, I'm always with the ancestors in the otherworld. But I noticed my human body getting tired, and so did my astral body. I laid down in the grass and fell asleep, together with the spirits. When I woke up in the morning, I felt.. different. As if I have lost my connection to my draconity. I didn't feel like a dragon at all, which happened only once before since my awakening. But I drowned my concerns with the work I had to do at my job.
When I came home later, I still felt weird and.. if I'm not really part of this realm anymore. I figured that I was bilocating since I woke up that morning. I'm used to the feeling of bilocation, because I do this practice frequently. This this bilocation was strong, and I couldn't snap out of it myself. But when I looked deeper, through the eyes of my dragon self while being awake in this realm, I noticed that I was standing way more off the ground than usual. I looked around for some still water to look at my refelction, and noticed that my dragon body looked different. I was in the body of my past life self, my fully grown form. I wasn't too concerned, no. I was actually happy to confirm this body in the spiritual. So my assumption how I looked like in the end of my dragon life is true! But.. why this odd feeling? As if I'm not just feeling my human body and my dragon body while bilocating, but also something else?
I took to the skies to test my new, huge wings. I had a lot of fun and got used to this new body very quickly. When I got tired from the flight, my human body got exhausted as well, so I landed on a cliff located at a beach. I walked for a bit and layed down on the sand at the water. A few moments later I felt a presence next to me. Thinking it was a dragon spirit, I looked to my side to see.. myself? My younger self that I always was during meditations, bilocations and astral projections? How is this possible? What is happening?
This odd feeling of another was.. me the whole time. In my (our?) panic an ancestor appeared, and we three(?) talked about what was happening. The spirit assured me that my two selves will fuse again eventually. After this event, the connection weakened and I could finally break free from the bilocation to give my human body some rest.
Since then I'm constantly "switching" bewtween my younger and older self when I get pulled into bilocations again. Same with my dreams: During some nights, I am my astral body self. In others, I am my past life one. But the biggest matter is the fact that I feel this human body and both dragon ones at the same time, all the time. I look through six eyes, feel the wind on my scales/skin on three bodies simultaneously. It's really tiring for all bodies, and I'm constantly exhaused. Here, and there. I don't know when this will stop, but I hope very soon. It's not a great feeling when I don't know who I am out of those three options.
I would like to stay here in this realm, be physically human while being a dragon spiritually, with phantom limbs and all. I want the bilocation to stop for a good for a while, until I have the energy for it and as long as I can stop it willingly. I want to know in what body I will end up in when this split finally ends, when I'm one again. When I can look though only one set of eyes. I don't know when this odd experience will end, but I have faith that it will.
I will update this post regularily to let you know what else happens during this until the day of fusion comes.
It has been a bit over 24 hours since I posted this. Nothing new has really happened , aside from the fact that I have been mostly my younger/astral self today. Depending on what happens in this realm, my POV changed between one form or the other. Even if I was just thinking in a specific way, I would focus on fully grown me or astral me. I still see through all six eyes, but the intensity changes. In this realm, I'm still an observer mostly, not really part of it anymore
I was still bilocating the whole day today, but only through the eyes of my physical body and the one from my astral one. Idk where the past life body has been today, I couldn't reach it. Not sure if my younger and older dragon bodies have fused already, but if they did, I must say I don't feel anything different. I'm still in this odd state of not really being here, and not fully being there.
I have to say though that I could focus much more on this realm than during the last few days. I wonder what tomorrow will bring, as it will be one week of this disconnection then
When I'm in the astral, I always have the same body: the one of a white dragoness. In this form, I'm my younger dragon self, not fully grown yet, but adult. The way a cat is considered an adult as soon as it can reproduce, even though it can still grow larger. This was the case for.. as long as I have been able to see anything during meditations and astral projection. Always the same form, the same dragon. Even f I wanted to be something else there, it never worked. I also tried to be my full grown self, the body I saw myself in when I recall the few past life snippets that I remember. But even that never worked. I accepted that this younger body must be my astral body, my spirit self when I'm in the otherworld. The one who I am and who I indentify as.
But that changed on Monday evening. On some Mondays, Dragonkin.EU will have an event called Meditation Monday. That idea stemmed from my own ritual that I have (almost) every Monday, which I called Meditation Monday. This Monday, my mother Akir'Ischa presented her own dragonkin meditation to us. It was already lat ein the evening, and I had to go to work on the following day. Nonetheless, I tuned in. What I saw this time was me standing in a field, surrounded by the spirits of deceased dragons. Nothing new for me, I'm always with the ancestors in the otherworld. But I noticed my human body getting tired, and so did my astral body. I laid down in the grass and fell asleep, together with the spirits. When I woke up in the morning, I felt.. different. As if I have lost my connection to my draconity. I didn't feel like a dragon at all, which happened only once before since my awakening. But I drowned my concerns with the work I had to do at my job.
When I came home later, I still felt weird and.. if I'm not really part of this realm anymore. I figured that I was bilocating since I woke up that morning. I'm used to the feeling of bilocation, because I do this practice frequently. This this bilocation was strong, and I couldn't snap out of it myself. But when I looked deeper, through the eyes of my dragon self while being awake in this realm, I noticed that I was standing way more off the ground than usual. I looked around for some still water to look at my refelction, and noticed that my dragon body looked different. I was in the body of my past life self, my fully grown form. I wasn't too concerned, no. I was actually happy to confirm this body in the spiritual. So my assumption how I looked like in the end of my dragon life is true! But.. why this odd feeling? As if I'm not just feeling my human body and my dragon body while bilocating, but also something else?
I took to the skies to test my new, huge wings. I had a lot of fun and got used to this new body very quickly. When I got tired from the flight, my human body got exhausted as well, so I landed on a cliff located at a beach. I walked for a bit and layed down on the sand at the water. A few moments later I felt a presence next to me. Thinking it was a dragon spirit, I looked to my side to see.. myself? My younger self that I always was during meditations, bilocations and astral projections? How is this possible? What is happening?
This odd feeling of another was.. me the whole time. In my (our?) panic an ancestor appeared, and we three(?) talked about what was happening. The spirit assured me that my two selves will fuse again eventually. After this event, the connection weakened and I could finally break free from the bilocation to give my human body some rest.
Since then I'm constantly "switching" bewtween my younger and older self when I get pulled into bilocations again. Same with my dreams: During some nights, I am my astral body self. In others, I am my past life one. But the biggest matter is the fact that I feel this human body and both dragon ones at the same time, all the time. I look through six eyes, feel the wind on my scales/skin on three bodies simultaneously. It's really tiring for all bodies, and I'm constantly exhaused. Here, and there. I don't know when this will stop, but I hope very soon. It's not a great feeling when I don't know who I am out of those three options.
I would like to stay here in this realm, be physically human while being a dragon spiritually, with phantom limbs and all. I want the bilocation to stop for a good for a while, until I have the energy for it and as long as I can stop it willingly. I want to know in what body I will end up in when this split finally ends, when I'm one again. When I can look though only one set of eyes. I don't know when this odd experience will end, but I have faith that it will.
I will update this post regularily to let you know what else happens during this until the day of fusion comes.
It has been a bit over 24 hours since I posted this. Nothing new has really happened , aside from the fact that I have been mostly my younger/astral self today. Depending on what happens in this realm, my POV changed between one form or the other. Even if I was just thinking in a specific way, I would focus on fully grown me or astral me. I still see through all six eyes, but the intensity changes. In this realm, I'm still an observer mostly, not really part of it anymore
Now more about so rarely used in games Wind Dragons. Do not stay too long in the clouds.
Next element will be even less lucky in Spyro games. Maybe.
Reminder: it is just a humor, no need to take all things too seriously.
Dragon on picture is just random Wind dragon made from random ideas and inspired by Cynder.
When I'm in the astral, I always have the same body: the one of a white dragoness. In this form, I'm my younger dragon self, not fully grown yet, but adult. The way a cat is considered an adult as soon as it can reproduce, even though it can still grow larger. This was the case for.. as long as I have been able to see anything during meditations and astral projection. Always the same form, the same dragon. Even f I wanted to be something else there, it never worked. I also tried to be my full grown self, the body I saw myself in when I recall the few past life snippets that I remember. But even that never worked. I accepted that this younger body must be my astral body, my spirit self when I'm in the otherworld. The one who I am and who I indentify as.
But that changed on Monday evening. On some Mondays, Dragonkin.EU will have an event called Meditation Monday. That idea stemmed from my own ritual that I have (almost) every Monday, which I called Meditation Monday. This Monday, my mother Akir'Ischa presented her own dragonkin meditation to us. It was already lat ein the evening, and I had to go to work on the following day. Nonetheless, I tuned in. What I saw this time was me standing in a field, surrounded by the spirits of deceased dragons. Nothing new for me, I'm always with the ancestors in the otherworld. But I noticed my human body getting tired, and so did my astral body. I laid down in the grass and fell asleep, together with the spirits. When I woke up in the morning, I felt.. different. As if I have lost my connection to my draconity. I didn't feel like a dragon at all, which happened only once before since my awakening. But I drowned my concerns with the work I had to do at my job.
When I came home later, I still felt weird and.. if I'm not really part of this realm anymore. I figured that I was bilocating since I woke up that morning. I'm used to the feeling of bilocation, because I do this practice frequently. This this bilocation was strong, and I couldn't snap out of it myself. But when I looked deeper, through the eyes of my dragon self while being awake in this realm, I noticed that I was standing way more off the ground than usual. I looked around for some still water to look at my refelction, and noticed that my dragon body looked different. I was in the body of my past life self, my fully grown form. I wasn't too concerned, no. I was actually happy to confirm this body in the spiritual. So my assumption how I looked like in the end of my dragon life is true! But.. why this odd feeling? As if I'm not just feeling my human body and my dragon body while bilocating, but also something else?
I took to the skies to test my new, huge wings. I had a lot of fun and got used to this new body very quickly. When I got tired from the flight, my human body got exhausted as well, so I landed on a cliff located at a beach. I walked for a bit and layed down on the sand at the water. A few moments later I felt a presence next to me. Thinking it was a dragon spirit, I looked to my side to see.. myself? My younger self that I always was during meditations, bilocations and astral projections? How is this possible? What is happening?
This odd feeling of another was.. me the whole time. In my (our?) panic an ancestor appeared, and we three(?) talked about what was happening. The spirit assured me that my two selves will fuse again eventually. After this event, the connection weakened and I could finally break free from the bilocation to give my human body some rest.
Since then I'm constantly "switching" bewtween my younger and older self when I get pulled into bilocations again. Same with my dreams: During some nights, I am my astral body self. In others, I am my past life one. But the biggest matter is the fact that I feel this human body and both dragon ones at the same time, all the time. I look through six eyes, feel the wind on my scales/skin on three bodies simultaneously. It's really tiring for all bodies, and I'm constantly exhaused. Here, and there. I don't know when this will stop, but I hope very soon. It's not a great feeling when I don't know who I am out of those three options.
I would like to stay here in this realm, be physically human while being a dragon spiritually, with phantom limbs and all. I want the bilocation to stop for a good for a while, until I have the energy for it and as long as I can stop it willingly. I want to know in what body I will end up in when this split finally ends, when I'm one again. When I can look though only one set of eyes. I don't know when this odd experience will end, but I have faith that it will.
I will update this post regularily to let you know what else happens during this until the day of fusion comes.
I need to regularly declaw myself. Well, not exactly declawing but I need to keep my claws so short that they don't have any purpose really. I wish I could have my claws long, but my profession for the humans demand it
