U’ll have to excuse me for the sappy post but like…
Last time I was sitting here, I was moments from a full on breakdown. My partner had just broken up with me, and I just needed some space. I didn’t know where I was headed, but I just went for a walk and found this little area, right by the water. It’s literally on the side of a road; there’s far better places to sit around this lake, but I chose here
I sat out there, scrolling tumblr for essentially the first time, listening to songs, doing anything to distract myself from my reality. I took care of myself. And you know what? It paid off.
(First photo is last year, second is this year)
In many ways, I’m a completely different person than I was back then. I’d get reprimanded for the time I spent out there, told off for scrolling the tumblr of my ex’s friend. My then partner would become my now ex. And nowadays I’m a certified tumblrina (at least I think so LMAO).
But I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for her. For the girl who decided to hold herself together and go out to the lake. For the girl who always tried her hardest to look for the magic, no matter how difficult it was. And I will never not be proud of her. She will never not be a part of me, and I will never not try to honor her in everything I do.
(First two are last year, second two are this year)
The point is: you are a team effort. You are every version of yourself, and every version of you works together to keep you afloat. So, be nice to your team. Be a team player. Love yourself. You’ve got this.
None of the love you place in yourself is ever, ever wasted. Invest in yourself, invest in your team. Hold on. Just for a while. Scream and cry and laugh hysterically at our absurd existence and our absurd circumstances, but don’t forget to let yourself see what comes of it. It will be okay <3
