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C. 19. B, G.

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I remember we came in May And we changed our names to Lana and Ray We’d be up ‘til the sun rosé I’m in gold lame Your pink floral hay Driving in your mercury down to Waimea Driving in your mercury

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1. april

Yes, hi. Here I am again. Random life update. I got a MacBook and I’m in love. Four exams and one presentation to go until I’m free. I hate my skin too much to like the way I look. I still have no idea what to do after graduation, there are too many possibilities. It also pisses me off that open days at university are only in May / June. I want to find out what you can offer me!!! Now! Might apply for an internship somewhere for summer. Also gonna do my driver’s license and help at refugee hostels. Going on a North Cape cruise for ten days in July! Bye boys and gals.

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16. november

die zeit vergeht so schnell, das fällt mir besonders momentan auf. ich hab angst vor den abiturprüfungen, aber ich hab noch viel mehr angst vor dem, was danach kommt, wenn ich fertig bin. nie mehr schule. ich weiß nicht mal genau, was ich machen will und ich soll mich schon entscheiden? 

diese woche schreibe ich erdkunde und geschichte. nächste latein und englisch. dann physik. dann musikklausurersatzleistung. weihnachtskonzerte mit meiner schule, dann weihnachten, lernen, lernen, lernen, die letzte klausurphase, dann prüfungen, abiball, abifahrt, abischlussausende.

und dann ist da noch die welt. außerhalb meines abiturzustandes. zur zeit passieren so viele dinge in der welt und es verwirrt mich. ich hab angst. mein herz tut weh für die menschen in paris, für all die menschen, die unter den folgen von naturkatastrophen leiden müssen, für die muslime, die voll hass verachtet werden von einigen menschen, die nicht verstehen, dass das, was in paris passiert ist, genau das ist, wovor die flüchtlinge geflüchtet sind. mein herz tut weh, weil europa für mich seit beginn der flüchtingskrise nicht mehr existiert. das europa, von dem auf papier die rede ist, ist nicht das europa, das jetzt menschen abschiebt, die unsere hilfe brauchen. ich hab angst, was bald passiert. ich will keinen krieg miterleben. frau m hat heute mit uns dona nobis pacem gesungen.

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25. august #2

i don’t know what to do with my life and it’s freaking me out. i want to be an interior designer, or a translator, a cook, a cinematographer, i want to write film scripts that then will be made into great inspiring films (actually i want to write the script AND make the film), i want to be a graphic designer and create beautiful things. i want to work in a library but i don’t think that this job has any future, i mean just look at all these ebooks, it makes me so fucking sad. 

nine more months. and i am dying because my dreams will never come true.

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Massimo Bartolini

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25. august

changed my url to timrothsgirl bec i love tim roth and i want to make out with him tbh

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22. august

i have only one week left of my summer holidays and all i can think about is school since two weeks. i’m so afraid. i don’t want to do this anymore.

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7. juni

why can’t i be happy why can’t i be done with school already why is he always busy why is he in a different time zone why aren’t all tv shows and movies on netflix why do i always cry why am i such a bitch

i do realize when i’m being a bitch. don’t ever think i don’t notice. i know. every single time. and i don’t do it on purpose, it just happens cos that’s me. and i am sorry. but i am unhappy and you can’t change it and that makes me very sad / mad / frustrated / helpless. 

please come and save me from the mess that is myself

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Is it summer yet?

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A couple of illustrations about anxiety. Because anxiety is shit and this is how it feels. 

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Frida Kahlo

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Hey babes, I’m doing well. This is me being weird on May 2nd, 2015. School sucks. I want to go shopping. 

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My profile of Zoë Kravitz for Vs. Magazine

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Christopher Carlsen, Kontrique - No. 28.