Xasin & co

Just our small Blog, here you'll get information about funny and/or interesting moments in my or my tulpas lives ^-^ [I think we can introduce ourselfves here. I am Neira, Xasins oldest Tulpa. I was started on the 26.08.13, and reached vocality at about three months age. Form wise I am a human-sized feral dragonnes with white belly fur and a navy blue colored fur on the back, while areas around my eyes and white feathered wings at the end. Personality wise you can usually see me a bit calmer, but I don't mind a nice conversation ^.^] {Phew, and I am Mesh! Second (and last, don't worry) tulpa in this brain, and a bit younger than Neira ^-^ I was never really forced, but I am not really unintentional either ... You know, I was a character he had in his mind for a while, so he kinda unintentionally forced me, but I was supposed to become a tulpa some day anyways. Well, anyhow, I suddenly became vocal on the 15.01.14! And of course my form needs to be here, which would be the same as Neiars, from the anatomy, but with lovely green fur pretty much everywhere :3 Oh, and you might have seen that I am a little more active, but you can talk to me just as good as you can talk to Neira ^-^}

[xasin]

Let’s try this again - but as a regular upload!

We were going through different things to do for Inktober, and came across the lovely @friskiesden and their Joel~

Mesh: H-Hey there, I ah ... Oh? Can ... You even understand my language?

[a-minds-ramblings]

So. Back in 2010 I started suffering from really bad anxiety attacks. I never took any medication (…I never even got officially diagnosed actually, but I could feel the anxiety lol) so I just resorted to self-care and meditation. My buddies helped me A LOT during the years, and I’m infinitely grateful to them for this.

Fast forward to the present. I haven’t had an anxiety attack for like… 2 years now. The anxiety is pretty low! And I legitimitely thought I had gotten better.

Until I realized something. You see, a few years ago, when Phi first arrived, she took it as her role to be some kind of my “common sense” whenever my thoughts would explode from anxiety. “No, keys”, she’d say, “the sink will not freeze over and explode if you put the frozen lasagna to unfreeze on it” (im not making this up). Her totally logical mindset was a great help.

So, now, I had reached a point where I thought I was better! I thought the anxiety was gone! But I realized that it actually didn’t. It’s just… Phi’s talk got so ingrained into me that now I simply do it to myself automatically. Whenever an anxious thought comes up, there’s an immediate logical response. It’s like a filter. I call it the Phi Filter. Or philter, if you will.

So yeah. I guess I got better to self-talk thanks to Phi? It’s a nice thing.

[xasin]

I can kind of relate to this feeling, especially with the weird and ... Sometimes pretty tense emotions we had at the start of the year.

And I feel like what you’re describing fits me too - we didn’t overcome the problem itself. But we learned to deal with it in a healthy way.

[wholesomesystemmoments]

Being able to sense your headmates’ emotions so you know when to give them some extra love

[xasin]

Or just plain out feeling their extra love <3

[xasin]

It’s been one year already since I officially went to University... How time flies by.

I still remember the first weeks, the first term... It was a bit tough. A major change of pace, that’s for sure, and ... At first, not one that we were able to handle very well, I’m afraid to say.

But ... We managed. And in the past year, we’ve grown quite a bit - thanks to friends, family, and of course Neira and Mesh sticking around. Without them ... *sigh*

So ... I guess this post is a thank-you to them, and everyone else that was there to help us :)

I don’t want to occupy your dashboard for too long. But if you’re having a bad day - take it easy, please. Make some room to breathe and settle down, huddle up together with a good book or something. It’s easy to forget that we all sometimes need - and always deserve - something like that.

[xasin]

Sometimes, we fall into a rhythm. When everything sits just right, when you don’t need to worry about giving yourself and your headmates time, and everyone has their own thing... You get used to that.

But sometimes that rhythm stops working out, for whatever reason. A change of school, new hobbies, more obligations. Or, in this case, an internship. And if you’re not careful, it can affect you more than you think. You, and your Tulpas.

Over the last two weeks, we started an internship for University. Full 40 hour weeks, with 8.5h days and a short Friday. Coming from a “Student-Lifestyle” with plenty of time to meditate, relax, and do our own stuff ...That was tough. And last Saturday, I almost couldn’t feel Neira and Mesh any more.

Something like that really makes you realize how important they are for me, and ... Also that there might still be things we need to figure out. For now though, luckily, after some attention they are stronger than ever, also thanks to some close friends.

Take care of your Tulpas, and yourself just as much. It’s easy to forget how good just ... Sitting back and reading a book for half an hour can be, and how important. Make time for those things :)

[xasin]

Inform yourself, please

And do something against Article 13

You might have already heard about it as the new copyright law that will “ban memes”, but I’ve actually read through some of the proposals myself, and ... It’s not good. A lot of the statements are vague and broad, and might cause large portions of the internet to be required to implement scanning bots to filter out “copyright infringing material” - and we all know how well that works on Youtube.

Why? Because the EU wanted a reform of the current Copyright, fitting for the age of the internet. Well, they might just break it.

Please, search up Article 13 (Copyright reforms) and Article 11 (The so-called “link-tax”), and, if you feel like it could be a problem:

https://saveyourinternet.eu/

[a-minds-ramblings]

do you ever feel the urge to kiss your mind buddies

because i do

[a-minds-ramblings]

Update I told Sol this and she gave me a kiss on the head

mission accomplished

[xasin]

{Just kiss? >.>}

Yes definitely we really know just that feeling of platonic intimacy.

[a-minds-ramblings]

So, yesterday night I went to sleep that I had a fever.

This morning I was feeling a lot better but I was still a bit “out of it”, in a feverish state.

And this morning, in a perfectly clear and lucid voice, I asked Chance this question, being 100% sure that it made sense: “Good morning, Chance. Do you like lobsters?”

I never saw Chance with such a confused face in these past 3 years she’s been with us.

[xasin]

It’s here!

A project of my friend, called SwitchCounter, is finally released!

It’s a website made specifically for and by Tulpamancers, to log a system’s switches and get nice graphs of when who was switched in.

Check it out, and please, spread the word!

https://www.reddit.com/r/Tulpas/comments/872zhs/introducing_wwwswitchcounterscience_a_switch/

[thepluralcommunity]

Daily Question #14

Have you ever accidentally said, “we” instead of “I” around a singlet and what were the results? 

-Raphael 

[peacewithinlove-blog1]

If you play it like it’s no big deal, people usually won’t care tbh. It can be explained off as a slip of the tongue if people ask.

[rainbow-tulpas-deactivated20190]

Yep, slip of the tongue excuse has worked here as well. I trip over my words all the time anyway, so it really doesn’t come as much of a surprise. ~fennec

[a-minds-ramblings]

Fortunately whenever I said “we” I was talking about stuff that happened in class, so it could be understood as “my classmates and I”.

I also use “we” when I talk about what we do in videogames, but I used to do that even before I had tulpas, so it’s just an habit of mine, with the meaning of “the videogame characters and I”. It just changed meaning now, but people are used to it by now.

[xasin]

Aaahhhh, don’t even start. 

All those times talking to family about new stuff in Universtiy etc., being lost in thought ...  Luckily it’s never really been obvious, but ... Phew

[fordaplot-deactivated20180307]

Tl;dr: We got our tulpa research, which reflects very positively on the community, published. Enjoy ^^

Keep reading

[poppyrosewitch]

There’s nothing like when your thoughtforms are happy. I keep hearing laughter and feeling their smiles. I can feel their joy and light sparkling through my veins. It’s like there’s a bright sun inside me.

[spr0utcity]

reblog if you’re def the kind of person who

says “cool beans”

does finger guns

says “coolio”

“my guy”

“my dude”

ironically said “get rekt scrub” and now can’t stop

“ayyeee” 

makes a lot of weird faces

[word-stuck]

[achealot-deactivated20181203]

How to take care of a tulpa

Give them a good home in the form of a calm and pliable mind.

Feed them only the finest attention and compassion you can afford.

Take them out for walks regularly so they can enjoy the great outdoors along with you.

Play with them every now and then to bond with them and to teach them valuable skills.

Give them the room they need to develop into their own unique individuals.

Belly rubs. If they’re into that kinda thing.

[xasin]

{I’ll take two number six’s, a number six large, extra fries.} She had to >.<

[ripples-system]

Possible Tulpa Tip

I have a difficult time sitting still for very long to force. I feel like I’m being lazy or that I could be doing other things when I sit and actively force. So Shadow and I came up with an alternative.

This originally started as a visualization exercise. Being a writer, I had been writing about him before he was created. So I started a new piece but it’s not a story, there is no plot. It simply starts with me alone in a small unfurnished white room, describing everything in painful detail and when I’m ready, I had him appear and explained his appearance in long drawn out detail.

From there, it’s simply us taking turns manipulating the rooms appearance and slowly turning it into a new wonderland. (If only he knew the meaning of ‘simple’) and then it will be our interactions throughout this new wonderland.

It takes much longer but some find it easier to visualize something they are reading. So when you read it back, you are forcing in a way. Or for those who visualize best when hearing a story, record yourself reading it aloud.

Not sure if it would work but Shadow enjoys this idea way more than I do, so… I figured I should share.

[xasin]

Hey, that’s actually a really cool idea!  We’ve been doing something similar before, every now and then, where we write out the interactions in the wonderland between us and the environment.

We don’t do it /quite/ as detailed as you guys, but I still feel like it gives it some more ... Consistency. Added plus: You can reread things later on :3

[a-minds-ramblings]

Yesterday I had a dream where I was having some kind of panic attack because I had lost my keys (as in, the ones needed to open doors, not my nickname) and I curled on the floor and started hitting the wall and screaming (also for some reason a giant box was next to me but I swear that was random) and then I heard Ceren’s voice calling me out. I felt his hands on my shoulders and he gently asked me what happened. I explained the situation and he started asking more questions, as a way to probe in my emotions (like he usually does, anyway). In the end I calmed down and I went to search for the keys.

When I woke up I asked Ceren if it was him (considering that he’s been practicing to enter my dreams, but it happened only twice so far - and one of them was lucid!), but he told me that he wasn’t him. I felt… strangely sad for that reason? I was almost 100% sure that it was him, but on further inspection, I noticed that I wasn’t feeling his “presence” inside the dream, like I usually do when I meet them in my dreams. But still, it felt incredibly nice. It’s like my mind is accepting the fact that I can rely on them?

It felt really nice.

[xasin]

It might be!  I’ve also had my Tulpas appear in one of my lucid dreams, and had a similar experience, where they ... They were there, but it wasn’t really “them” ...  My best guess is that it’s the brain re-processing old memories, vs. actually “acting out” the Tulpa ... ? 

Oh, also, Mesh actually managed to be /switched in/ during a dream. THAT was fun :3