Break Your Back For Me

[byebyethinspo]

some nights are R E A L L Y hard so if you just gotta breathe and wrap yourself in a thousand blankets to stay safe, please please do that. keep breathing through this, you’ll be ok.

[papayajuan2019]

these scars? i made them from scratch

[xbreakyourbackformex]

[ericsdeadghost]

I was so ignorant to think "oh yeah, I'll only be able to listen to the Clancy album for like 2 days before I get tired of it and need to listen to something else," oh boy, did I almost forget the power of autism. the hyperfixation with this band has never been stronger and I have listened to the entire album 3-5 times a day so far. and have already memorized the lyrics to each song and the track list order. I haven't had this strong of a special interest since when Bendy and the Ink Machine first came out and it was still in beta development

[xbreakyourbackformex]

Fucking same

[clancysjumpsuit]

literally for the rest of the year all i’m going to be talking about is clancy and twenty one pilots. and i’m not even sorry about it

[c0ffinbunnii]

[deathcooler]

You're in her DMs

I have her blocked

You will understand in time

[astrovampz]

[p0is0nprincess]

Me when???

[livesuffer]

[hollenengell]

[candelawarren]

[hmlye]

[sovnloshed]

[killadelphia]

[vibreate]

[xbreakyourbackformex]

No but you know what sucks?? I am in recovery and I can't find a single other sect of the internet that is as obsessive as ED Tumblr. I don't want to calorie count anymore but I still want the "new month new me" "here's a list of 50 goals I want to achieve by the end of this month" "every day I am striving towards perfection" bullshit. I don't want to see thinspo anymore but I want to read the eating disorder fueled "imagine" paragraphs that were written like the beginning of a Wattpad story that plagued 2010's Tumblr. I don't want to be sick anymore but I am still obsessive. I want to still be perfect and have hyper control of my life, I'm just okay with being thick while I do it. I'm not fat anymore but I can't let go of the romanization of being and striving towards perfection.