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6 Years (2015)
I’m just here existing
Space is for me to grow as a person and out of my role as nothing more than a girlfriend. I have been using space to wait around for the next time I see you. You want to see if things work out and think space and time is what’s needed because you need time to build yourself, then come together because we are better together, I need to be doing the same, during time away I should be worried about myself. Friday is for me to go and record new music, I hope I see you cause I miss you but the day is for me. I want to tell you I wanna hang out again. I wanna see you once a week. I love you, I wanna be with you, all those anxieties really were about me. I shouldn’t have told you everything that was going on in my head. I don’t wanna end anything, I’m worried they will Friday but now I’m more so worried that you’ll just not show up or say you need more space and that you don’t miss me and don’t wanna see me even once a week. Ideally I’d love to see you Friday night and fall asleep in your arms and talk about how much we missed each other
My friend sent me a Snapchat memory of me but I rember how I felt clearly that day . We were broken up and I was breaking inside. I went to see you (basically forced you to see me) and we went thrifting.
Your best friend reposted his music video with your iconic cameo, it’s iconic because I saw it an rember the pain I felt watching you live life and me at home feeling like I was dying
Were taking a week apart and the week isn’t the issue. The issue is everything feels like it did two years ago when we were on the verge of ending things. You asked for space and only space back then am I could never respect it. Now I am respecting it and learning a lot about boundaries in the process, I crossed a lot of boundaries in this. A person doesn’t need to know everything and every thought you have. I need to control my internal messes before I expect you to. I put a lot of pressure on you . You’re not my therapist you’re my lover.
I’ve been playing Friday over and over. I just want to tell you face to face that I miss you. And I didn’t miss you or feel sad because I need you or because I’m anxious, I missed you because I love you and I can’t see you or talk to you right now. It’s sad but it’s a good thing that I felt something out of genuine feelings and not out of need or anxiety.
I hope you show up Friday. I don’t want to remind you
I miss you . I love you. I hope we don’t end. We can do once a week chilling until we learn how to respect boundaries and what boundaries we have .
We are taking space because we had no boundaries in our relationship , I didn’t ask for things I just took. You didn’t communicate your internalized feelings of feeling trapped, and it pushed you to point of debating on wether you should stay in our relationship. We have both been in private mental cells for a while. I know I want to be with you, space is the only thing that will allow us to clear our minds and shift the focus from us to ourselves. A relationship should be two individuals coming together. We became one. I did not show you respect for your boundaries. I personally love being around you, but that doesn’t mean that in doing what makes me happy (seeing you ) , I get to trespass all over your personal space. We’re going one week without speaking and I self reflect more and more each day. I learned that I want to be with you , and sometimes I get anxious and life gets hard and the want to see you becomes a need to see you because you’ve always been my saftey and security. That part of me is toxic. I need to be my own saftey and security. In the moments I am not anxious and I’m stable I want to be with you. I love you. My mind is still doubtful as to wether I should be in a relationship because it is hard for me to separate want and need. But I know I want you, and I want to need myself. I hope that we can talk this Friday when I see you, I hope you still wanna be with me, I hope you wanna start seeing me once a week, even if we don’t talk much in the week. I want my baby on the weekends, I miss you , space is good for us but I can’t help but think worst case scenario while trying to hope for the best
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