Ghost of a Rose

☁Name: Florance Anne McKinny Age: 23 Health Status: Fighting Cancer Patient "Promise me when you see a white rose you'll think of me. I love you so, never let go, I will be your ghost of a rose." ((this is a TFIOS OC character. No gifs or pictures that I use are mine, however, I do own the character! OC friendly multiverse, multiship M!A: none, but accepting))

[xwelcometomysillylifearchive-de]

Open to F/M: boyfriend, best friend, brother/sister like role.

“I was worried sick about you. Why didn’t you tell me you were in the hospital? I could have came sooner.” Michelle questioned with crossed arms, looking at the other in concern. 

When she heard they were in the hospital, she came right away. Her fear of hospitals didn’t stop her from visiting them. She needed to see if they were okay. They may not have realized, but to her they meant the world to her. She just hoped it wasn’t as serious as people said it was.

[xholdontightx]

Florence offered a small, tired smile, “I’m okay. Really. I just was running a fever and they wanted to keep me for observation and make sure my levels were still okay.” she assured her friend gently. Flo couldn’t blame the other for being worried. Sure, perhaps she should’ve texted Michelle to let her know what was happening, but she just didn’t want to scare her.

Though, it would be a lie if Flo said she wasn’t worried herself, and anxious about the results of her tests. Best case scenario was that everything was still okay. Worst case was that her cancer was relapsing... which after almost two years of finally feeling okay, relapse was not a road she wanted to go down again.

[crovnprince]

open to m/f/nb based on this with jordan !!

jordan hasn’t always been keen on making connections with anyone but somethings just happened and she flowed with it. maybe that’s why she’s here now sitting beside them in their usual spot at the peak of a hill they always hike looking at the usual sight in silence, wondering when was it right for her to break the topic over to her ‘lover’ – if that even was what they were. as much as she hated leaving, she needed to; the city had started to feel suffocating and so did their relationship. there wasn’t anything to stay for, or so she thought, but then again, if there wasn’t anything to stay for why was she hesitating to tell the other she was leaving? “you know i have to go someday right?”

[xholdontightx]

Florence sat quietly on their spot, overlooking the lights of the city that seemed ever changing to her. Things were always changing, always shifting, to Flo... it was never the same sight twice to her. That seemed to have been a mute thought between the pair. Just like the sights of the city was shifting, she could feel a shift in the air between herself and the other as Jordan finally broke the silence, “You have to go, or you want to go?” the blonde spoke softly. It was blunt, but it wasn’t the first time the other had alluded to pulling a disappearing act. 

The woman chewed a bit on her lip, eyes fixed hard on the horizon. Frankly, she didn’t want the other to leave, not ever... at least, not without Florence by her side. 

[wickedlymeme]

“I wish it could always be like this.”

“You’re always there for me.”

“The stars are the only thing that makes sense.”

“There’s more out there, you just have to be patient.”

“It doesn’t all have to be existential dread.” 

“You’re so much different when we’re alone.”

“I like it when the worlds quiet.” 

“There’s a place for us somewhere.”

“They’ll name constellations after you one day.”

“Your hearts beating so fast.”

“They don’t know what they want.”

“You don’t know what you want.”

“That’s what they’re supposed to say.”

“We really don’t know what we’re doing.”

“I miss the old you.”

“Nostalgias a trap.”

“Aliens are out there.”

“Did you hear that?”

“I really want pizza right now, think it’s open?” 

“What time is it?”

“But why would they abduct cows?”

“We’ll all be dead soon enough anyways.” 

“I wish we didn’t have to sleep.”

“What do you believe in?”

“What happens after we die?”

“Seems like a silly thing to say, don’t you think?” 

“And what’s your excuse?”

“You’ll get it together soon.”

“Sometimes I feel like I’ll never have it together.”

“It’d be better if people weren’t so afraid of their feelings.”

“You keep quiet and we both lose.”

“I wish I could save this forever.”

“When did you realize you were in love with me?”

“The rooms spinning.”

“I loved you long before you knew.”

“I’m not afraid of death, I think it’ll be peaceful.”

“The Universe is too big for that.”

“Do you think we’ve met in other lives?” 

“I’d come back to haunt you.” 

“Would you come back to haunt me?”

“What’s alternate universe you doing right now?”

“Tell me a secret.”

“Why haven’t you told anyone?” 

“I wish we knew each other sooner.”

“You’re a game changer.” 

“I’m a game changer.”

“Don’t ignore fate.” 

“Ignorance isn’t bliss.”

“What, is that a conspiracy theory?”

“It’s probably the Illuminati anyways.” 

[wearebrighterthanthesun]

| The Reveal | Open rp |

[xholdontightx]

wearebrighterthanthesun‌:

Gwen had instinctively raised her hands to reach out to her friend but as soon as she stepped away from her she recoiled. She wasn’t surprised that Flo was upset, she would be too if she’d been lied to for such a long period of time but Gwen truly believed it was for the best.

“I wanted to protect you…” She admitted, blinking tears out of her eyes and feeling them slowly trail down her cheeks. “I know that doesn’t justify lying to you but if anyone found out you knew who Spider-woman was then your life would automatically be in danger.”

Florence pressed her lips in a tight line. She was torn between running away as fast as she could, or staying where she was and trying to understand. The feeling of weakness, of helplessness, that radiated through core pained her. 

She was use to such a pain in one way or another, but the last person she expected to make her feel like that was Gwen. And of course logically she knew that the girl was right... but that didn’t make it feel any better as she wrapped her arms around herself, eyes falling to the mask that lay between them as she quietly bent to pick it up, fingering the fabric in her hands. 

“I just... you should have told me anyway... you’re suppose to be my best friend. You’re suppose to trust me...” she spoke softly. 

[antiiclimactic]

open to: m/f/nb give me a blind date ! 

WHEN DREW FIRST ANNOUNCED that she’d arranged a date for turbo it made her stomach drop. it wasn’t as if she’d never been on a date before, she’d just been on a bit of a…hiatus. her love life wasn’t awful but it certainly had never been a walk in the park. after her accident everyone thought she’d never walk again. the stress of it all put too much pressure on her already crumbling relationship and her boyfriend dumped her, it left her feeling jaded to say the least so she’d spent the last two years by herself. no matter how many times she’d tried to explain to drew that she was happy that way the younger shredder never relented so if only to appease her little sister, she agreed. as she sat anxiously picking at the napkin in her lap a small part of her was wishing that she’d never come at all, afterall who goes on a blind date in 2019?

[xholdontightx]

Florence couldn’t remember the last time she’d been this anxious as she made her way to the restaurant. Truthfully, she hadn’t dated much, though mostly from lack of trying. Florence never saw herself as much of someone another person would want to date. With that thought in mind, she stuck to what she knew and that was studying and her art; and while she was more then happy that way, her friends sorely seemed to disagree, arranging her on a blind date and giving her nothing but a time and place and the assurance that she wouldn’t be disappointed. 

The blonde tried to gulp down her nerves before entering the restaurant, speaking to the hostess for a moment before she was led to a table where another young woman was already seated. Flo felt her cheek heat up a bit as she slipped off her jacket, “Hi um... I’m Florence McKinny. Are uh.. are you my date?” she asked, feeling more then a little awkward. 

[xholdontightx]

thereceptionistshley‌:

“Yeah, my boss is a tool. I’ll be back as soon as I can. Promise.” She hated leaving Florence hanging. Ashley would have a few choice words with her boss after this night shift was over. “There’s some macaroni in the fridge if you get hungry. Mom brought it over yesterday, so it’s fresh.” She blew a kiss at her.

Flo offered a small smile, “You better not be too late, love.” she warned playfully. Florence hated when the other was called away until all hours of the night, mainly because she hated going to bed alone. But especially when it felt like so minute. The blonde echoed the gesture, blowing a kiss back to her, “Call me if you need anything.” Flo doubted she would, but there was never the harm in leaving the offer out.

[thereceptionistshley]

“Our date is cancelled tonight babe. I’m working over time. I’m sorry. Lemme make it up to you tomorrow night?” Ashley sighed. “Someone has to take this load of shit for the company.”

[xholdontightx]

Florence puffed out a soft sigh, knowing better at this point then to argue it as she shook a hand through her hair, “Alright...” she spoke, shifting a bit, “Are um... are you gonna be out late?” 

[wearebrighterthanthesun]

| The Reveal | Open rp |

[xholdontightx]

wearebrighterthanthesun‌:

Gwen had always planned to tell them she was Spider-woman. She had planned to invite them over one day and talk it all through properly and to answer all and every question they had. This was not her plan. Standing in front of them in a dark alley, her mask lying on the ground a few meters away and the hurt expression on their face. “I was going to tell you,” She said quietly, taking a small step forward to close the gap between them. The look on their face only made the tears hiding behind her eyes sting a little more but she ignored them. “Let me explain…”

Florence had known in her gut for a while that Gwen was hiding something from her. The other would leave so suddenly with no explanation, then reappear later with some lame excuse. Flo could never seem to get a straight answer out of her concerning anything related her to odd disappearing acts, worrying cuts or bruises... now it all made sense as the girl stood there before her, full getup save for the mask that lay between them.

The woman was speechless, hurt, and confused. Gwen moved to step closer, and instinctively Flo matched with a step backwards, “I knew you were hiding something...” her voice was so soft she wasn’t even sure if the other had heard her.

[xholdontightx]

ripetogether·:

OPEN STARTER. inspired by: the beacon by a fine frenzy. wanted: m/f/nb, s/o (depression, planned suicide tw) 

      richard had never planned for them to see it. or, maybe he had, once upon a time, but he’d been working on himself. quietly and surely, he’d been putting himself back together after spiralling so hard on his own. he’d been in a dark place, he’d been contemplating things he didn’t intend to. maybe he should have burned the note, but maybe he’d been keeping it too. just in case he got to that place again. it wasn’t fair to them, to hide all of it the way he had been, but he’d just been so alone for so long, sometimes it was hard to process that he wasn’t anymore. sometimes it wasn’t enough to make up for the hole of his family’s presence and his creativity going to waste. he stood by the counter, bringing a glass of whiskey to his lips as he stared down at the floor. he was embarrassed, or maybe just sad. he wasn’t sure. “i didn’t tell you because i thought i could just deal with it on my own. and i am. i’m dealing with it.” he said softly, placing the glass down, too scared to confront the emotions swirling in his chest so he ignored them in favour of trying to be numb. 

Florence ran a hand through her hair, the note she had found placed out on the counter between them. She hadn’t thought that he had been in quite this dark of a place, and she wasn’t sure who she was more angry at; him for hiding all of this for who knew how long and not asking her for help, or at herself for not realizing he was struggling and in pain. Flo knew what it was like to be in such a dark place, of course the thought had crossed her mind when things were particularly low in her life, but she’d never gone so far as to plan it out or write her goodbye letter. Something about knowing Richard had been there, it made her feel so helpless and blind. ,/small>

“When you get to feeling this... low, Richard, it isn’t a matter of just ‘dealing with it’ alone.” she tried to keep her voice calm, keep her emotions in check, “I knew you were having a hard time, but I didn’t realize how low you had gotten.” she couldn’t tear her eyes away from the note, having already read it so many times over, just trying to understand and grasp it all, “You aren’t alone anymore, you know you can come to me and lean on me and depend on me when you need it.”

[invcniamviam]

[  ℍ  ]     ―     While    other    people’s    December    was    fulfilled    with    Christmas    preparations    &    a    lot    of    joy,     Harrison    himself    tried    to    live    a    life    away       from    his    abusive    alcoholic    father.    He    didn’t    have    anyone    else,    and    it    sucked    to    be    stuck    with    someone    who    liked    to    punch    you    after    just    a    few    beers.    It’s    not    like    he    screamed    for    help,    but    he    also    wasn’t    really    hiding    his    bad    situation.    People    around    simply    didn’t    care    &    preferred    to    ignore    the    situation     this    kid    was    in.     He    was    an outsider,   he    was    keeping himself    a    way    from    other    teens    at    school.   It    was    pretty    annoying    to    be    around    them;    their    problems    were    so    different,    and    he    couldn’t    stand    someone    complain    about    things    he    was    dying    to    deal     with.    Ashamed    of    his    life    he    wasn’t    letting    alone close,   besides    HER.   There    was   something    about    her.    Her     light,     her     warmth.    She    felt    like    home.      ＇   do    you    even    realize    how    lucky    you    are?   ＇  harrison    asked  after    she    stopped    complaining    about her    little    fight    with    parents.     ＇   your    parents    love    you.    they    just    want    to    keep    you    safe.    i’m    not    really    a    catch,   so   don’t    be    mad    at    them   for   not     letting   you   date    me.   to    be    honest    i    kind    of    agree    with    them.    you    are    way    out    of    my    league.   you    deserve    someone    much better.    ＇

[xholdontightx]

Florence stopped for a moment as he spoke. Sometimes, she had to admit, she forgot how radically different their home lives were. Whether that was a good or a bad thing was up for debate. 

The girl brushed from hair out of her eyes, speaking softly, “Lisa and Austin aren’t actually my parents, you know.” she admitted. Most people just assumed, which was fine with her. Most people at school never took the effort to pry into her life, which she was happy enough about, and kept herself mostly under the radar. It made things easier in the long run. But when it came to Harrison, she didn’t want to keep hiding bits and pieces of her life from him. He actually had let her into his world, and yet, she kept the door to her own locked tight.

“I know they care about me, and they take care of me, but they’re not the most open minded people, and I think the way they judge people isn’t always fair. They don’t know you like I do. Personally, I think you’re the one out of my league.” a small chuckle escaped her as she reached to take his arm, “You’re sweet, and actually cared enough to try to get to know me. Literally, your the first and only friend I’ve made in this place, and I like the idea of being your girl.... I know things suck at home for you, and its shitty of me to complain about what I have, and I’m sorry. But I’m not sorry for defending you to them. I think you’re 100% worth fighting for.”

[xholdontightx]

heartofbumble‌:

Margaret had known Florence since they were teenagers, having roomed with her during some cancer treatments while she underwent treatment for a bad case of pneumonia- she often got pneumonia so she was in and out even now. It was nice having someone who understood on a better level what this meant and how it felt to get news like this. Florence had been in remission twice before and had relapsed once before so she knew the stress and aggravation that mounted with sadness and disappointment. Margaret had really thought she was doing better.

She smiled weakly when Florence told her she was going to worry anyway and gave an imperceptible nod before sighing heavily with a shrug. “We adjust the medication, I’m also supposed to go to like this physical therapy to learn how to deep breathe and try and remind my lungs they’re lungs but- the doctor wants me taking it easy for awhile. Until I get my strength back, not that I lost strength although I have noticed I’m tired a lot- like a lot a lot,” she admitted. It was easier admitting things like this to Florence, she got it and never pitied Margaret. They were mutual in their understanding of one another. Margaret looked at Florence, “I just- want something to work right.”

Florence listened quietly. Sometimes the best thing was to just listen and let the other person get out what’s weighing on them. That was probably the best part of their relationship. It felt like forever since they’d first met when they were younger, just before Flo had entered remission. Margaret was always there for her, and visa versa. Even when Flo was getting better and getting healthier, she still stuck close to her friend, through both medical and personal hardships. 

When Florence relapsed again, just like always, Margaret was there for her, “Physical therapy sucks, but you do what you have to do.” she shrugged. She understood what the other was going on about when she spoke about getting up her strength and being tired. When she was on a treatment, Flo was usually down for the count for at least a couple days after each session. That was always an annoyance given how much she liked to keep herself occupied and distracted, “You just have to cut your body some slack. Its doing its best.” the blonde offered a little smile, “And hey, if you have to take it easy, that just means we get to have way more movie nights.” her smile grew into a little grin, “It’ll be okay, hun. Just take it a day at a time, yeah?”

[poetictmarchive-deactivated2018]

Margaret was quiet for a long while, figuring out what to say and how to say it. “I got some bad news from the doctor,” she said slowly avoiding the other’s eye. “My lung capacity diminished- like a lot,” she said just as slowly. “And I’m not saying so for your pity or because I want you to feel bad for me or worry or anything I just want you to, y’know, be aware of the situation,” she said with a soft clearing of her throat and stiff smile.

[xholdontightx]

Flo shifted a bit uncomfortably. Her friend had been quiet for so long and there was something in the air that told her that whatever Margaret was being quiet about, she wasn’t going to like it. When the silence was finally broken, the blonde listened quietly, nodding and processing everything once her friend had finished. 

Florence wasn’t a stranger to scary medical situations, but it was always different when it was a friend’s condition and not your own, “You know I’d never pity you. But, no-duh, I’m gonna worry about you. I care too much not to worry.” Flo offered her own little smile, resting her hand on the other girl’s knee, “So... what does all that mean? What comes next?”

[justforyouxxandme]

Testing

[xholdontightx]

justforyouxxandme‌:

With their partner back in their arms, Travis pressed a slowly lingering kiss to the other’s lips, feeling so happy in that moment. It had been so difficult to be away from home, even if it was necessary for the next steps in their career. Now at home, Flo was the only thing they needed for the next week. “They made me exercise,” Travis said teasingly, even though they’d always stayed in decent shape, they were far more muscular now than ever before. “And,” they said softly, kissing Flo once again, “I have a new uniform.” There was all the luggage to get from the trunk of the car, along with tasks to become reacquainted with the home once again, but Travis would consider none of that as long as Flo wanted them in her arms. 

It was like the air was sucked from her lungs as Travis kissed her. She was wrong, Travis coming home wasn’t the best moment, it was this kiss that was the best part of this whole thing. Of course, Flo had understood that Travis leaving was a necessary evil. Flo pulled a hand away for a moment as the kiss ended to wisp away a tear and a small chuckle escaped her, “I can tell. You’re like a rock now, or something.” she giggled, giving their arms a gentle squeeze before another soft kiss touched her lips, “I’ll bet it looks fantastic on you, honey.” she grinned, resting her cheek against Travis’s chest once more, “C’mon, I got everything to make your favorite dinner. Lets get your bags and get you inside.” the blonde stole one more kiss.

[justforyouxxandme]

Testing

[xholdontightx]

justforyouxxandme‌:

Travis couldn’t keep their eyes off of Flo and how beautiful the woman looked in her dress. Once she was close enough to hug, Travis did just that, wrapping their arms tightly around her. “And I’m back, just like I promised,” the reply was muffled against Flo’s shoulder, but Travis didn’t care. They were home now. A sigh escaped their lips as they slowly pulled back to get a better look at their partner. “You look beautiful,” they said with a grin forming and kept an arm around the other woman’s waist, as though afraid to let go. 

Being back in Travis’s arms, it all felt like some sort of dream. Naturally, Flo had thought of this moment nonstop for the last six months, and now that it was here, it felt so surreal. A couple tears escaped her eyes as she buried her face in Travis’s chest before looking up, examining her love’s face as they examined her’s, “You look amazing, yourself, babe.” the stupid grin on her face had no hope of leaving as she buried her face back into Travis’s shoulder once more, never wanting to let go. She and Travis had been through so much together, and she was sure this had been one of the hardest tests of their relationship; but this moment had made it all worth it, “Welcome home.”

[justforyouxxandme]

Testing

M / F / NB / Trans

“So…” Travis trailed off, unsure of their thoughts of the other’s presence, “You’re here.” They’d been in a relationship with the other for a number of years, but they’d spent the last six months apart, due to training at the FBI Academy. Slowly, sense came to Travis and they began to walk towards the other, arms open for a hug, “Thank god.” 

[xholdontightx]

It had felt like Travis had been gone for ages, and while Flo had tried to keep herself distracted with art school, it hadn’t filled the loneliness of not having her other half to come home to. But today, she got to have her Travis back. Florence had spent all morning finding the perfect sundress and making herself up to look her best to see the other. Nervously, she waited to spot her love... then there they were. Flo’s eyes misted a bit as Travis noticed her and Flo approached, “I’m here. Just like I promised.” she smiled before retreating into Travis’s arms, hugging them tightly, “I missed you so much.”

[justforyouxxandme]

“Look, it’s not that tricky,” Zac chuckled from where the book was laying out on the library table. He wasn’t even sure how he’d gotten into the situation of explaining the math equation at all, considering they weren’t even in school, but he did love teaching. “How about… we give this up and go for some ice cream?” he asked with a raise of his brow, hopeful they’d agree.

[xholdontightx]

Flo glanced up at him as he tried to explain the equation. Math was not her strong suit. She was art smart, not book smart; however it was a required course, so she might as well get it out of the way as quickly as she could. Though at the offer to call it a day and get a little study snack of ice cream, how could she refuse. Offering a shy smile, Florence gave a little nod, closing the textbook, “I’d like that. Maybe it’ll cool my brain off before it fries.” she chuckled.

[jusstabite]

open to m/f/nb  based off this post x

 if you would have told opal when she came home for break that she be slow dancing in the middle of her living room drunk off a five dollar bottle of wine and nostalgia with her ex she would have called you crazy. opal thought she had gotten over them when she had left the sleepy town, chalking their connection up to high school first love but standing here with them her heart yearned for what could have been. what if they tried to do long distance? what if she had chosen an art school that was closer by? all these questions swirled through her mind but one thing she was sure of was that she was still madly in love with them. she paused looking up at them for a moment her hues soft, “I missed this, I miss you.” 

[xholdontightx]

Florence wouldn’t have thought she would have missed Opal so much while she was gone. The blonde had told herself that this was what was for the best, that a long distance relationship just wasn’t doable... but in this moment, she was second guessing herself. Of course Flo had wanted to follow the love of her life to art school and pursue her own artistic dreams, but it hadn’t been in the cards for her and she chose to stay behind and go to a local community college. That was fine she supposed. However, this was a Christmas wish come true, slow dancing in Opal’s arms again, being the happiest she’d been since the other had left, “I’ve missed you too...” she replied back softly, resting her forehead to Opal’s.