can't seem to get levi out of my head, so here are some musings before i sleep.
⭐︎ generally i feel like he stays away from the idea of sex/masturbation because of his past, and i can't imagine he could see it in a positive light if it was just up to him. he'd probably see it as a practical thing at first, like just a method to make kids, nothing more. but then he meets you.
⭐︎ it's unnatural for levi to feel desire, to crave another. he flinches at your touch in the beginning, because it's foreign to him. he's ashamed of his body's reactions to you, the way his breath hitches when you make eye contact, or the tent that forms in his pants when you're in his arms.
⭐︎ of course, the captain takes extraordinary care of himself, he's perfectly groomed and tidy, but he doesn't know much about looking after his needs.
⭐︎ all his life, levi has seen his body as a weapon and nothing more, but you treat it like a temple. your sweet caresses, your gentle kisses, it's more than he thinks he deserves. major impostor syndrome in your relationship, he feels out of place.
⭐︎ levi keeps his lewd thoughts to himself, maybe even believing that fantasizing about his lover is a bad thing, so he'd be hesitant to share his thoughts. he's very respectful towards women so the last thing he'd ever want to do is objectify you.
⭐︎ he is also very conscious of the way some women get mistreated in relationships, so he'd happily comply with all your requests, but restrain himself from asking you for much, especially in the context of sex. he'd do anything you asked him to, but it would be incredibly difficult for him to initiate it.
⭐︎ sweet thing doesn't know how to hold himself back, probably cums way too quick. but hey, you're fucking humanity's strongest soldier; the man can go more than one round. and he's trying so desperately not to get addicted to you, but he swears he's never felt this good in his life.
⭐︎ he's not big on pet names but likes when you say his name, it kinda breaks down that impostor syndrome and keeps him grounded in the moment.
⭐︎ and so, when you finally do have sex, he's not nonchalant about it. he holds your hand if you ride, lets you kiss him, talks you through things even if he doesn't know what he's doing. i love levi ackerman thank you goodnight
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