𝓓𝓲𝓭𝓲

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[shakespearesdaughters]

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Walking down the old brick road i see many unfamiliar faces, it all seems a dream. Places I've known, here is where i grew up.

However after coming back home i learned it's not the same place I knew.

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What better gift can i receive?

In another life, we'd be spending Christmas with my family and New Year with yours. We're waking up together instead of being alone

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You're running from thoughts, I'm running from memories

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and suddenly chaos wasn't comforting, because it no longer reminded me of you. Chaos was all around me, and you were gone.

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Feeling lost,

all my efforts gone

no one can give me directions,

no one can guide me home.

A path forms behind me,

as I walk blindly ahead

no one is guiding me,

because no one else is here.

Being lonely,

yet not alone

don't mistake my solitude

if you failed to walk along.

A rocky road formed,

the twisted it gets

the more i walk away,

but looking back i noticed,

you were always there.

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And once again I dreamed that you held me in my sleep, of your arms around my waist and my face resting on your chest.

And once again I woke up alone in my bed.

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being wrong, feeling rejected,

alienated and out of place,

are these my dreams I'm chasing?

strange, misunderstood

feeling like i don't belong,

are these my own goals?

Making mistakes, falling and starting over,

one day you're good, next day is living hell.

Judgement and furrowed brows,

they never understood anyhow.

Tume is running,

days are passing,

where am I going after?

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For most, it's all gone

but the memories haunt me.

Chasing the sun.

Looking for a new tomorrow,

when remembering won't hurt.

Under the moonlight

our shadows still intertwined,

but our bodies far apart.

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Screaming inside, suffering in silence. Wondering at what point your family became unknown and your friends became foes.

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And for years i tried to make myself softer, gentler, smaller. Unbothered of my own happiness, giving priority to everything over me, hoping for them to like me. But now i see, nobody has to like me but me. I'm the one i should like, I'm the attention i should seek, I'm the happiness i should care, cause at the end all i have is me.

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Feeling like I've failed, nothing i do seems to work well. I'm tired of hitting a wall, I'm tired of feeling stuck. I keep trying, i keep dying. Everyday stuck in here, my soul dies a little, say goodbye to those dreams.

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𝘓𝘦𝘵'𝘴 𝘨𝘰 𝘥𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵. 𝘓𝘦𝘵'𝘴 𝘨𝘰 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳, 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘵𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘥. 𝘑𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘸𝘰 𝘰𝘧 𝘶𝘴, 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴