I check up on my ex from time to time. No, I'm not some crazy stalker ex-girlfriend who wants her douchebag of an ex back even though he fucked her over in every possible way in the book. I can say I'm happily in a relationship with my current boyfriend and we're about to make 9 months. Anyway, I check up on him to see how he's doing. He had a huge impact on my life, being my first love and all even though he put me through hell, depression, and back again. I think I blogged about him before, but it was so angry. I no longer feel any anger towards him, I'm actually quite indifferent about him now. I used to believe that anger and hate was the opposite to love, but now I realize it's actually indifference. It shows that that person no longer affects you in any way, shape, or form. I have to thank him actually. For helping me grow up and take responsibility, to learn to step away from things that hurt me, and to understand that I deserve better, the best, someone who's not him. At the time I was so shocked that he would do something like that to me. I contemplated suicide, but he was not enough to make me do it. My best friend was with me throughout the whole thing and I honestly can't thank her enough either. Well, I found an amazing guy and it seems that my ex is also in a relationship and I'm happy for him. I just hope he treats the girl the complete opposite of how he treated me and that when he begged me to go back to him, promising me that he changed, that he really meant it. I didn't lose anything by saying no, but I just hope that he really meant it and can put that promise into his current girlfriend. Everyone makes mistakes; I made a ton during that unhealthy relationship. But I was able to learn, grow, and move on. I've learned to let go through him and I'm finally content with my life. Except college can be such a drag sometimes lol. Besides, he TOTALLY downgraded from his other ex and me HAHA. Sorry, I just HAD to throw that in there. I haven't fully matured, yet (; Leave me be, I'm still a teen haha. Anyway, I really should be writing my 8 page paper, but I'll do that later. It was nice reminiscing for a while.
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