f everything

TRIGGER WARNING I use this account to vent and it can be very triggering but it is my safe space. If my post hurts you please do not follow me. Also, I'm 22. She/her

[dollkisses05]

What I need rn

[jamesblr]

what I need 24/7 tbh (only him)

[princ3alstroemeria]

Being clean is so hard, Sh is all I think about

[enbypandwhich]

I wish i had more scars and deeper cuts while hate having scars and wishing i never picked up a blade

[iwannabeatreeeee]

i hate that instead of feeling sympathy when seeing someone elses scars

im just jealous, like i dont cut good enoughh

n theirs look perfect but mine dont

[m1ndf4ckkk]

I need to get better

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[xxdumbi]

I wanted to feel pain, a much worse one that I'm feeling right now. Not ought of gaining pity from others but in way that only a much worse pain could make me forget all of this.

I wanted to suffer so much and only then I could forget all of my existence

I wanted to bleed until there's nothing left in me.

[xxdumbi]

it doesn't matter how much i try i always go back to cutting and honestly it's been the only reliable thing in my life all those years

[xxdumbi]

fuck recovery, it's not giving me shit

[xxdumbi]

I'm decaying and there's no sweet way to say it. I'm decaying and it is my fault.

Something burns in my stomach and in my head, it is kinda of a tingly and weird feeling that I can not describe as sadness or anxiety and even less anger, nothing feels like the appropriate word. Is it me? Is it gonna end? Am I alone feeling this emptiness of a bunch of feelings mixed it together?

So yes... I'm in the process of decaying, in my mind and body and I don't know what is the cause.

I'm getting closer and closer to my grave. Will I be missed?

[whykeeptryingduh]

When someone tells me its easy to stay clean you can just put a rubber band around your wrist or rub some ice i want to tell them how they don't get they just don't get it

[the-tree-line]

bummed that i am a bit of a freak. also glad i am a bit of a freak. does this make sense

[dogmotif-deactivated20240505]

yeah they dropped a new love language. yeah a sixth one. its biting

[virtualtoybox]

jesus christ. fine. ill say it. im sleepy. im sleepy, okay? do you know what being sleepy does to a person? to their spirit? i should be pitied.

[xxdumbi]

he's so nice and shi

[toopsy]

uh oh! you misunderstood a social cue and said something mildly awkward. you will think about this and cringe everyday for the next 20 years

[anexperimentallife]

I appreciate it when someone ELSE says they're so sorry or something similar; when *I* say it, though, it sounds like a placeholder.

[xxdumbi]

im so lost and i feel so hopeless